Hi mates! sorry for the wait. I hope you didn't get too bored. work is going fine, just today I was shown a shorter route to work. no more need to ride my bike for 7 kilometers to get there. relief. here is the longest chapter so far, thanks fro the review ChouRan, it's so good to hear what you think about the story and chaps. thanks :) now, let's get on with the story
Chapter 11
The next morning he was woken up by noises coming from the downstairs. He figured that must be Fai's father. He leisurely stretched and sat up. He didn't feel bad. Good. He got out of the bed and changed into a fresh set of clothing before sneaking out of the room. He wanted to see how Fai was doing. In case the blond would have a huge headache or something he would be the winner. If not, he wouldn't say anything about their bet, hoping that it would be forgotten. He didn't care to redo last night. He halted when his face tried to heat up. He hoped the blond would not mention what he had done last night. He was so embarrassed about it now. He had drank too much.
His pressed index finger on his lips. His lips tingled at the memory. It hadn't felt bad, kissing the blond. He quietly moaned to himself and clenched his head. What was he thinking again. No way it would happen again.
He straightened his back fully and continued his way. There weren't too many doors, and Ashura had never climbed the stairs, so he probably didn't sleep here, which meant he didn't have to worry about running into his bedroom.
He found a pale blue door. Pale enough that it could be mistaken for white. Somehow it seemed to fit perfectly for Fai. Seemingly one thing but when looked at a bit closer, he was something else.
He opened the door a crack and peeked inside. And there was a plus size bed with a Fai in it. He was still asleep, sleeping on his stomach, face hidden under locks of fluffy hair. He softly entered the room and closed the door behind him. He walked towards the bed, waiting for the blond to suddenly jump up and screaming 'surprise'. That was completely possible when it came to Fai. He was close to the bed, when he did hear steps on the stairs. He swallowed and glanced around. If the man would come to check up on Fai, he would be here soon. And he had no real reason to be in Fai's room, especially with the blond asleep. Running out of time and options, he dived under the bed, praying that there would be no movie scene with someone dropping an item and it rolling under the bed. Or that Fai's father would be a suspicious one and look under the bed anyway. He swallowed again, his throat was dry. It would look very very bad if he was found out. He closed his eyes and calmed his breathing. He should be calm. It would make him look a bit better anyway.
The dreaded sound came and he saw how the door opened a bit
"Yuui?" a soft man voice said. He heard rustling above him.
"Hnnh?" was Fai's mostly asleep reply. He grinned, first time he witnessed the blond being so out of it. The door opened wider and he watched how foot came into the room and the door closed after them. They were thin legs too, clothed in dark jeans and white socks. The legs came closer and the man said amused
"Morning Yuui. I just wanted to check up on you, no need to get up yet. I'll go to bed too soon. But how was last night, did you have fun?"
"Yeah, it was nice." Fai answered and yawned. He was frowning. Why was the man calling Fai Yuui? And why was Fai behaving like it was normal? Was it normal? It definitely wasn't normal to be called something else than what was ones birth name. Nicknames was freaky too, even though many kids used them. But a parent to do so...? he knew it wasn't Fai's second name either, so it made no sense. He made a mental note to ask it from Fai when he would get the chance.
"Did your friend come over?"
"U-huh." man, Fai sounded like a little kid when sleepy. "He's in the guest room"
a little laughter from the man
"I thought you would have gotten a mattress for him here. And then you could have talked til the late hours"
"Dad, that's what little kids do"
the man laughed again
"Right, I keep forgetting that you are a big boy already"
he didn't wonder why. Sometimes he thought that the blond was five years old. But Fai huffed angrily
"Not funny". He had to try his hardest not to chuckle. That whiny tone Fai used didn't support the fact that Fai had grown older.
"of course not. Sorry" the man sad not quite honestly. He figured Fai rolled his eyes at the man. "Now, feel free to go get breakfast when you feel like it, but try to keep it down, okay?"
"Sure" Fai answered and the man walked out of the room. He sighed deep. Danger over.
"You would be screwed if he went to check the guest room." the blond stated. Crap, he was busted. The blond head appeared upside down "By the way, what are you doing there?" Fai asked curious, blue eyes shining and the tiredness having disappeared. He just grunted and crawled out from under the bed, passing Fai's head. "Ashura would have been rather mad had he found you" the blond continued. He send a glare at him.
"No shit Sherlock."
Fai rolled his eyes
"I do understand that after last night you couldn't keep your hands off of me, but you should try to hold off as long as you are in my home. Ashura is rather protective."
he blushed
"I am not wanting to do anything with you" he snapped at the blond, who just lifted an eyebrow
"Oh, really? Then why did you kiss me all of a sudden, without bothering to find out if I want to be kissed? Especially by another guy?"
he gritted his teeth. Fai was right about that. He rubbed his head and looked down. This was not an easy one
"Sorry..." he mumbled. Fai clapped his hands together and squealed
"Wow, Kuro-min is so sweet!" he glared the blond who just smiled brightly at him. It made him a bit less awkward that Fai was acting normal, like nothing had happened. Except that he knew he would hear about it whenever Fai would run out of any new things to tease him about. Then he noticed that despite the fact that Fai was being all cheery and witty, he wasn't exactly meeting his gaze. It wasn't far from it, but not straight in the eyes. His eyes narrowed, the blond was trying to hide something. He quickly rewind back and his eyes widened
"Why does he call you Yuui?"
Fai looked awkward
"That's my name"
he shook his head and crossed his arms
"It's not"
"Second name" the blond said, sounding a bit desperate. The blond was trying his hardest not withhold the information. Again. He growled
"Don't try that on me. I can see when you are lying. And I know that your second name starts with
D"
"My third.." he stepped closer and leaned closer to the blond
"Don't even try" he said, putting pressure in each word. He would not let the blond get away with lies this time. "You made me tell you everything" he added. Fai smiled sheepishly
"I told too, you remember?"
he snorted
"It was not all. Clearly not at all. Has this something to do with the fact that you think no one likes you for you?" it made sense. If at home Fai had to be someone else, no wonder if it made him feel like he was an outcast as himself. The blue eyes went as wide as eyes possibly can without falling out.
"I..that's..." this time it was not funny to hear Fai out of words and stuttering. The blue eyes looked sad and lost. He reached out a hand and twirled a blond lock around his finger. Fai let him do it, just staring him. He softly pulled from the lock
"You are an idiot. I don't know what's the deal here, but I can tell you that you should not try to hide. I like you better when you are just you. Completely and truthfully you. I hate it when you act and fake happiness."
Fai opened and closed his mouth and the blue eyes misted.
"But I... I have never been enough" Fai bit his lip and looked down "I wasn't good enough for my mother to stay sane. I wasn't enough important to dad that he would have stayed or taken me with him."
he tugged again
"Idiot. We have already talked about it. And I think both of your parents were idiots. Explains where you have gotten your generous amount of it" he said and luckily Fai giggled wetly. It made him feel good to know that he could cheer the blond up. The blue eyes turned to look at him again, still not crying but not far from it.
"Thanks" the blond said with a halfhearted smile
he swatted his hand
"My pleasure. It's always nice to tell you when you are being stupid" Fai's smile turned more happy
"Well then, I must keep on fooling around, so you won't miss your fun"
he smacked his free hand to his forehead
"That's not what I meant"
Fai just winked at him. He dropped his hand down from his face and looked at the blond serious.
"So. Why?"
Fai sighed in defeated and pulled away from his touch. The soft lock gently unwrapped itself from his finger. he hadn't minded touching the blond. And that made him worry that Fai meant a bit too much for him. And he didn't want to scare Fai away because of it. Fai got out of the bed and walked to a drawer. Rummaging it Fai brought out a photo album.
"This is an album that belonged to Yuui. It should explain something." Fai said and held the album out for him. He looked at it doubtfully but took it anyway and opened it. He frowned
"What is this?" he asked in confusion. In the pictures there was a young boy, looking exactly like Fai. Fai sat back to his bed and patted the place next to him.
"If you want, you can sit down too. I don't mind." Fai said nonchalantly. He wasn't sure if it was really okay, but sat anyway. In case the blond would try to avoid telling him all by saying it so quietly, he wanted to be as close as possible. And he was confused. Placing the book on his lap he flipped through the pages. All had a boy just like Fai. With friends, relatives. A smiling boy. He snapped the album shut and looked at Fai who sighed.
"That's Yuui. He was Ashura's real son. He died in an accident. I don't know more about it, it was instant death anyway, nothing could have been done. Ashura really loved him though. And I guess he was lonely in this big house." Fai took the book from him and looked at the pictures with a warm smile "I guess Yuui had a great life. He does seem happy, right?" the blue eyes turned at him, and he could only nod. The smile on the pictures looked real. He could nearly hear him laughing in the pictures where he was playing with waterguns or something. Fai seemed satisfied with his smile, and looked at the pictures again. "So few years after his son's death, Ashura came to the orphanage. And once he saw me, he instantly wanted to adopt me"
he frowned
"And no one thought it was odd?"
Fai shrugged
"I guess it didn't matter. I mean, there is always need for more space in orphanage, and there was nothing alarming in Ashura's background. And it's not like he had provided me a bad life."
He shook his head
"Taking you for someone else is not right. No one should be forced to be a replicate for someone else. You should be allowed to be what you want"
Fai run a hand through his hair, hitting a knot and starting to open it. Focusing on his job Fai just stated
"But it could have been worse. I have been satisfied with what I have been given"
he lifted an eyebrow
"Have been?"
Fai was silent a long while, preoccupied with the knot. He sighed frustrated and swatting the pale hands away took over the job. He had no idea when or how Fai had managed to mess up the silky hairs, but he would fix it. And the blond would keep on talking. Now when he wasn't staring Fai's face the blond relaxed a bit and let out a deep breath
"Since you showed up things have changed. You noticed me. You saw right through me. It was like you could read my mind and know what I really felt or thought"
he snorted
"That's not really the case. You are really hard to read."
Fai tried to bow his head in gratitude. But he was holding onto his hair, so the movement was stopped.
"Thank you. It's nice to know I'm not boring"
he snorted again
"anything but"
Fai chuckled a bit. Then he was serious again
"And you were so indifferent. You didn't care what other people did, if you wanted to do something, you did it without a thought about what others would think of you. And yet I couldn't help but like being around you. Even though you were rude and withdrawn." the blond poked him at his side and grinned. He huffed and swatted the hand away.
"I'm nearly done. Stay still" he ordered. Fai laughed.
"that's what I mean. You are not polite if you don't feel like it. I was actually jealous your way of living"
he lifted an eyebrow and smoothed the blond hair. Knot all gone. He lowered his hands and looked at Fai again.
"Not anymore?"
Fai snorted and gave him a look
"No. you have more serious issues than I thought. Or I could deal with. I would be scared of everyone if I had been through what you went through"
he shrugged nonchalantly
"I don't really care. I can take pain. And give pain" he waved a fist and smirked. Fai nodded
"I believe that" a silence when the blond was thinking something "How did you get so strong?"
he shook his head
"I'm not strong. I just have different weaknesses than you"
Fai looked curious and sifted so he was facing him.
"Really? What do you mean?"
he stayed silent. Fai frowned
"C'mon, I told you about my life and issues too. You can't clam up now!"
he lifted an eyebrow
"I can't?"
Fai waved a finger at him
"Don't even try. I know all the tricks on avoiding answering a question"
"I know that. I have heard all of them"
the blond rolled his eyes
"Seriously."
he sighed
"I'm... not good with people. I don't like people that much. Care about them"
both of Fai's eyebrows skyrocketed
"but you said you care about me? Was that a lie?"
he send a glare to the blond
"Of course not. I don't lie"
the blond tilted his head and waited for him to say something more. He looked away and crossed his arms again.
"You are different. You... I don't know when I started trusting you, but I believe you would fight right by my side."
from the corner of his eyes he saw Fai beam
"you are right. I would do my best to help you"
"Because you are an idiot. And have no respect towards yourself"
Fai's face fell and then the blond pouted
"Cruel. I'm not that hopeless case"
"Really now?"
the blond smacked him on the back of his head
"Meanie" the blond grumbled and he chuckled
"Fool". He craned his head so he could look at Fai again and then they both laughed freely. He felt better now. He had told Fai all about him, and the blond seemed to accept it just fine, and still he didn't see pity in the blue eyes. Just understanding. He would have hated it if the blond would have pitied him. And now he understood better how Fai worked and why in the world the blond was so strange. He had always tried to be what others wanted him to be, to fill their expectations and forgetting his own needs and wants.
"You should start liking yourself more" he said.
"And you should start hating others so much"
"Touche".
They stayed in comfortable silence until Fai's stomach growled. The blond pressed hands against his stomach
"Sorry" the blond mumbled. He rolled his eyes
"Why would you need to apologize if you are hungry?"
"Because stomach's growling is impolite?" the blond said unsure. He tilted his head and looked at the blond
"And why should you care about something so unimportant when you are with me?"
first Fai's face was blank. Then he practically glowed in joy and without a warning, Fai wrapped hands around him and hugged him tight
"You are really something else" the blond whispered. He didn't say anything back, just hugged the blond back. Even when Fai smelled of old alcohol, he could detect the sweet scent of Fai. He squeezed the slim body a bit harder and Fai responded the same.
He was happy. And Fai felt happy too. He had never thought he would hug someone like this, he thought it was lame and not nice. How foolish he could be at times too.
Too soon the blond pulled away with a smile. He couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed when the warmth of the blond was gone. The blond patted him on the head
"I liked that too Kuro-puu. But I am also hungry. Don't you want breakfast too?"
it had been ages since he had eaten something solid. He nodded. He got up and waited for Fai to do the same but the blond remained seated. He looked the blond questioningly
"I want to get dressed first." Fai explained with a grin "you mind waiting outside?"
he nodded and hurried out before the blond would say something about how much he would enjoy watching the blond. He knew he would have heard it if he had hesitated even a bit. Sometimes it was easy to know what went through the blond head. He closed the door behind him and leaned on it. He wondered what would happen with Fai. He cursed his stupid hormones for making him think Fai in other ways than just friend. And it was Fai's fault too. The blond shouldn't look so good. He sighed. What had he gotten himself into again. He was practically admitting to himself that he liked Fai too much. He let his head hit on the door with a quiet thud. Maybe he was just suffering from a brain damage. He should just be happy and satisfied with the fact that he got along with Fai so well after the troubles of the start. And that he had a good friend again. He should, but he wasn't.
took me two days to write this after work and before I had to start cooking. stay tuned for the next chapter, and for the warning, unless I come up with a new plotline, next chapter will be the last. reviews and opinions are welcomed. if you have new idea for a story, you can also tell that. I'll see if I can come up with a fic. thanks for reading again. bye!