Me and Stefan may have broken up but that didn't mean I was going to go run into his brother's arms. Even if I did want to. The truth behind Stefan and I's break up was that I loved Damon, but it would be horrible if I just started dating Damon right after me and Stefan broke up.

"I vote for Elena to sleep in the middle" Caroline said snapping me out of my thoughts.

"I second that" Damon agreed

"I'm claustrophobic" I smiled as they realized they would have to sleep next to each other.

"I am not sleeping in the middle" Caroline said.

"Fine you can sleep on the floor"

"No, obviously you take up more space than us, you should sleep on the floor"

"Well, I'm carolinephobic so you can't be within 10 feet from me"

"Fine by me"

"Okay, stop! How about you play rock paper scissors whoever loses gets to sleep in the middle" I suggested. They both started moving their hands, while trying to figure out what the other would do. Damon lost. Just as we prepared for bed the lights went off, I jumped by instinct into Damon's arms. I could imagine his smirk even in the pitch black room, but I didn't care, I was extremely scared of the dark.

"Someone is scared" he said in a sing song voice. I just hugged him harder, the dark brought many bad memories, my parents dying, Jenna, Alaric, everyone I lost. I could feel myself drown all over again as I had the night my parents drove off the bridge, I felt hot tears roll down my cheeks, as the memories hit me. Damon's smile faded and he stroked my hair. "It's okay, I'm right here"

"It was my fault" I said crying harder.

"What was your fault?" he asked.

"My parents, I killed them. If I had never gone to that party then... then they would still be alive" I cried harder.

"No that wasn't your fault" he sat on the desk chair, with me on his lap. "Look when I was 7, my mother died, but I never told you why. She died in childbirth, so when Stefan was born I kind of blamed him. As a human it wasn't a topic I liked to discuss, but eventually I got over it. But as a vampire it was probably the main reason I hated Stefan. Not because of Katherine, or because he told our father, or because he killed him, that bastard deserved to die. It was because he ripped my mother away from me" he said, I could see the pain in his icy cold blue eyes. I didn't even wanted to breath, Damon never opened up about anything that happened in his childhood. "And to this very day some small part of me probably still thinks so. I know it wasn't Stefan's fault but I just needed someone to blame. After all I did as a vampire I hated myself so much that I focused my hate on Stefan so I didn't think about it. And that's what you are doing, but you are facing it unlike me" he said, by this time I was calmed laying on his bare chest feeling safe. Something I always hated was that vampires were always cold to the touch, but with Damon that never mattered.

"You really loved your mother didn't you?"

"I loved her very much. She was the only one who loved me for what I was, she never tried to change me, and she never judged me. She stood up for me against our dad, even if that meant he would probably beat her" he spat.

"Your dad hit her?" I said shocked.

"Not only her, me too. Even Stefan. I don't know why Stefan would be so shocked that he shot us. I never understood that you know. My mother was good, she was the best person you could imagine, yet life had treated her like shit. She didn't deserve to die" he said, his blue eyes clouded with pain.

"When I was little my mom used to tell me that when people died, it was because somewhere in the universe they needed someone like them. Because no one was truly yours, they just let you borrow them for a while, and if someone needed them more than you, then they could take them back"

"But I needed her" Damon had never shared anything about his mom, ever. "Sorry I'm probably not helping" he said trying to stand up.

"Actually you helped a lot" he smiled at me sweetly.

"I love you" he said as I leaned against his chest.

"Damon….."

"I know, even after you 2 broke up its always gonna be Stefan. But just because you don't love me that doesn't mean I can't love you" He said trying to sound calm, but I could hear the heartbreak in his voice. I yawned and he smiled. "Maybe we should sleep now" I nodded. He stood up, and motioned for me to come. I shook my head and lifted my arms up signaling for him to carry me. He smiled and lifted me up. He layed me down on the edge of the bed, and then jumped into the middle. The bed was way too small for the 3 of us, I was practically on top of Damon and one of ass cheek was still hanging in the air. Caroline who was asleep was balancing herself in the edge of the bed. "Well I guess the middle does have its bright side" he said trying to lighten the mood.

"Oh, shut up" I said. I started to doze off when there was a loud thud. Damon started laughing like crazy, I raised my head and noticed Caroline had fallen off. I couldn't help but laugh.

"You fat pig!" Damon laughed even harder. She got up and noticed the bed was too small. At first Caroline tried not to touch a single body part of Damon, but the room had no heater and it was freezing cold. She started shivering.

"You cold blondie?" he said.

"I'm fine thank you very much" suddenly there was a huge noise outside. Both me and Caroline shrieked and got as close as we could to Damon.

"This would be really pleasant if I was able to breathe!" he said. I notice then that we weren't close to him; we were shamelessly on top of him. Caroline returned to her corner blushing like crazy, and so did I. I finally managed to sleep when Damon wrapped his arm around me, and pulled me in closer, there was just something about him that made me feel safe