... I blame you Guest8 for this. I don't think this is that good, but I can't really come up with anything better when it comes to the name thing. if this ruins the neat end I did on the last chap, I'll be sad. for once I was actually happy with the end. I suck at ending stuff anyway. but you had to say please. I'm sucker for pleases. so, this one is dedicated to you Guest8.
and to everyone else, thanks for the great reviews, I'm so happy that you liked the end and the whole thing. took ages to write it :) but here it is, a bonus end.
Finishing touches
It had been already months. Of the day when they had fought together for real. He was grateful to Fai for staying at his side. His guilt had been washed off too with time, especially after the blue eye had turned to normal and the vision on it was okay.
But he couldn't shake off the feeling that he should help Fai too. Of course he had helped Fai to get out of his shell. It had caused some issues with Fai's friends, but they had gotten used to it. Tomoyo had been of help, since she greeted the more free Fai with enthusiasm and reprimanded those who complained and tried to force Fai back into the mold. He would have used different methods to silence them than lectures, but his arm was in cast. And maybe it was for the best. Fighting would have caused just more issues.
But then he realized that he could and should help Fai. He was there again for the weekend and they were in the living room, playing some stupid board game that Fai liked when Ashura walked in
"Hi there" Ashura said and smiled. Then the man looked at Fai. "Yuui, did you finish your piano homework?"
yeah, Fai played piano. Rather well in his opinion, though he was not an expert. His eyes narrowed but he remained silent, staring Fai, trying to force him to correct the man. But Fai just smiled at the man
"Yes, dad, I did. Kuro-chen listened, he can prove I did" the blue eyes turned to him, begging. Ashura looked at him too and he gave the man a dark look.
"Yeah, Fai did his recital"
he heard a strangled gasp from the blond, and Ashura's jaw dropped. He kept staring at the man "You do remember that he is not Yuui. He is Fai"
Fai jumped up from the sofa
"Shut up you idiot!"
there was so much pain, hurt and anguish in the voice that he feared his heart would crack hearing it. And knowing he was causing this to Fai. But he had to change things. He had to free Fai too. Ashura looked between them, opening and closing his mouth, at a complete loss
"But..." the man stuttered "Yuui...?"
he felt sorry for the man. But it couldn't be helped.
"Yuui is dead." he said sternly. He watched how the man's eyes traveled between him and Fai. He stood up too just in time to grab a hold on Fai's arm and keep him from running to the man. He knew Fai was grateful to Ashura, that the blond hated to see the man hurt, but he hated to see Fai hurt. He only hoped that Ashura was worth Fai's attachment and would accept the blond as Fai, not as his son.
Fai struggled in his hold, hitting him and squirming to get free. But he just tightened his grip. The man looked at Fai, blinking.
"I'm...sorry" then the man rushed out of the room, and by the sound of it, out of the house. When the door was banged shut, all spirit drained out of the blond. If he hadn't been holding onto Fai, he would have fallen to the floor.
"Oi" he called alarmed "What's wrong?"
Fai yanked his arm, and he did let go. Fai pressed his face in his hands, fisting his front bangs in iron hard grip.
"What's wrong?!" Fai screeched, voice cracking. "How can you ask that? You just ruined everything!"
"I didn't... " he tried to comfort Fai and place a hand on his shoulder, but Fai swatted it away.
"You did! Why did you have to do it?!" now the blue eyes looked at him, accusing and cold, tears falling down on them. Last time he had seen Fai cry was at his bedside at the hospital. He recalled how foolishly he had thought that all hardships would be bygone then. He sighed and scratched his head.
"Because. It's not right that he doesn't know you"
Fai's lip quivered, but the eyes were flashing lighting and daggers.
"It's not right for you to tear everything down for a whim"
he crossed his arms
"It was not a whim. I want to help you like you helped me"
Fai snorted
"Except that you needed help, I don't!"
he crouched down, being level with Fai
"Yes you do. You have been amazing, facing all your friends without the pretense. You have to do it once more, then you are done. And I want to help you with that"
they stared each others down. And he won, but he couldn't feel completely happy about it. Fai looked down, biting his lip hard.
"What if he throws me out?"
he ruffled the soft blond hairs
"then you can stay at my place until he realizes how much he is missing and comes begging you back"
there came a wet and choking laugh from Fai
"That won't happen"
he moved his hand to Fai's chin and lifted Fai's head up, making Fai look into his eyes again
"He loves you"
Fai shook his head, escaping his hold
"How could you know?" the blue eyes were hesitant, but he saw hope there. It brought grin to his lips
"Because I can see it. I know the feeling myself"
Fai stared him wordlessly. He watched how the words sunk in. his grin widened when it hit the mark and Fai's eyes widened and the pale cheeks got a pink tinge to them.
"I... you..." Fai fell silent. Then a deep sigh emitted from the slender body and Fai leaned forward, leaning the blond head against his shoulder, breath tickling his neck "I hope you are right." the blond said quietly. He had hoped that his indirect confession would have cheered Fai up a bit, but apparently the blond was really worried. He wasn't that much. Fai was Fai. How could Ashura had lived with him for years and not grow fond of Fai as Fai. He put his hand on top of Fai's head.
"Sorry" he mumbled. Fai let out another sigh
"I forgive. But I'm scared"
he petted the soft locks but didn't know what to say. He didn't want to make any promises to Fai, in case Ashura would be a nutcase and not see Fai's value.
They stayed there a good while. Then Fai pulled away, not meeting his eyes.
"Maybe you should go home now"
he shook his head
"Not gonna. I started this, I am going to see this true." he took a hold of Fai's hand, giving it a squeeze "I won't let you back out on this in case it would be possible"
Fai sighed but didn't pull his hand away.
"How long have you been able to read my mind?" the blond asked quietly. He snorted
"it's not that hard. You generally have only one thought at a time in your little head"
Fai smacked his head lightly and he smirked. Fai had stood up and smiled down on him. Not happy, but not angry either.
"So." Fai said "What do you want to do now?"
he nodded towards the game
"We could finish that"
Fai didn't look eager, but nodded anyway.
Hours passed and it was as clear as day that Fai was not concentrating. He couldn't blame the blond though. So he just let it be. Then the front door creaked open and Fai jumped to his feet, rushing to the door. He followed slower and stood at the hallway's entry, watching the two. Fai was staring the man, looking for a sign on what the man was feeling. Ashura looked beaten. The smile he offered Fai was weak.
"Hi. Have you eaten?"
Fai nodded swallowing. Eager Fai asked
"Do you want some? I don't think it has cooled off too much"
his heart clenched for Fai. The blond was so willing to make sure that Ashura was okay. So worried that their relationship was gone. Ashura shook his head.
"No. thanks"
the man took away his shoes and stepped pass Fai and towards him. Seeing him in the doorway the man stopped, looking him. Then to his surprise the man's eyes teared up. Ashura clamped a hand over his mouth to silence a sob. Then Ashura spun around and took Fai into a tight hug
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Fai"
Fai looked at him questioningly over the man's shoulder. He shrugged and shook his head. He had no idea what was going on. But when the man shook with the ragged breath Fai smiled and hugged the man back
"It's okay dad" this time Fai's voice had different warmth in it when saying dad. Earlier it had been a bit strained and sad. Just like the man had noticed the difference too, he pulled away, keeping Fai at arm's length
"You forgive me?"
Fai smiled and nodded
"You are still my father"
the man smiled back at the blond and he grinned at his spot. It seemed he had done the right thing. And it looked like now Fai would finally have the real family he would have deserved all those years ago. He turned and went to Fai's room to give the two some privacy. He shouldn't put his nose on everything.
Later the door opened and Fai stepped in. a bit wobbly but beaming. He looked at the blond
"you okay?"
Fai nodded
"Yes. He was sorry that he has forced me to take Yuui's place. He said that there have been times when he sees that what he does is wrong, but that he just couldn't have faced the reality. Until you forced him to it. When he left, he had roamed around a park he used to go with Yuui. Where he has never been with me. Sitting on a bench there he finally said goodbye to Yuui and let him rest in peace. And then he called to a shrink. With money, you can buy time. So he did. He will be seeing shrink more."
he nodded.
"Makes sense" he stared the blond hard "Are you okay with things?"
the blond frowned and for a moment his heart stopped. So the blond was anyway mad at him, and he had gone too far. But then Fai beamed at him
"Yeah. I think things are going to get better. It would be great if I could hear my name more often for him. And if I don't have to do things just because Yuui did."
he stepped closer and sensing his thought, the blond jumped at him and hugged him tight. He wrapped his arms around the slender form and hugged back
"I'm happy for you" he said honestly. Fai giggled
"I'm happy for me too" Fai pulled away a bit. He loved the smile on the blond's face. It made the blue eyes so clear and bright, sparks dancing in them and the sweet pink lips curled so nicely. He gave Fai a little kiss on the lips. Fai wrapped hands around his neck and pulled him closer. He felt a tongue licking his lips and he gently bit it. Fai gasped and pulled away.
They stared each others in the eyes again. Then Fai shook his head, the blond locks tingling his nose.
"I never want to loose you" the blond said seriously. So this was his indirect answer to his indirect confession. He didn't mind it being so slyly done. It was Fai anyway. Things would never be too easy with him. Never boring. He smirked
"You won't"
so all you guys, which end do you like better? was this any good? thank you for bothering to still review :)
and thanks for signing to be my stalker, my stories welcome you. I'm already planning more kurofai, so I'm not done yet. even though I really should finish the beyblade ones I have... OTL