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Here is chapter 8 and I promise to do better with updating.
Two weeks after engagement
Abby came running through Liv's office yelling, "hey, I am do in court in like 30 minutes, do you have a tampon, I don't have time to run to the drug store before court?"
Olivia reached in her drawer of her desk to pull out her purse and grab one for Abby. "Here you go, wait, was is today Abs?"
"It is the 13th Liv. Why?"
Olivia looked at her calendar but didn't say a word.
"Shit, Olivia, are you late? Damn, I don't have time to talk to you about this. I will be done by five, do not leave this building."
Olivia just kept sitting there, she didn't hear a word Abby said until she placed her hand on hers and told her not to leave the building. As she kept looking at the calendar she counted back. She was only about a week late but it could be stress or anything. She has been feeling fine so there is no need to start to panic about it.
Fitz walked down the hall towards Olivia's office but before he went in he looked through the door to make sure no one was in there and saw her pacing. He knew something was up.
"Hey baby, you are pacing, what's wrong?" Fitz said as he kissed the side of her head.
"Hi, I am processing, just thinking about the case and if we should put Michael on the stand." she was half telling the truth so she didn't feel bad. She didn't want to tell him about her being late if there is nothing to worry about that should not be a discussion to have.
"Okay, well remember after our meeting today with Cy I have that charity thing at the hospital. You want me to pick up dinner on my way home?"
Olivia looked at Fitz, "I thought you were going to stay at your place tonight and get some stuff packed up? I made plans with Abby." again a half truth.
"So, you don't want me to come over and see you? Wow, engaged two weeks and you are already tired of me." Fitz laughed at his onw joke but didn't get a laugh from Olivia. "Liv, are you sure you are okay?"
"Yes, I am fine. I will see you in the meeting later." She started to move behind her desk.
"Olivia Pope, you are dismissing me. What is wrong? Has someone said something to you about us or the case? This is not like you to act like this." Fitz said as he placed his hands on her desk and looked at her.
Olivia looked at him for a minute and then placed her hand over her mouth. "I'm late Fitz."
"I don't care, you are not getting rid of me until you tell me what is wrong with you."
"No, I. am. Late. As in, I have not had my monthly visitor yet." Olivia looked at him trying to gage his reaction.
Fitz sat down in the chair in front of her desk. "Oh. Um, how late and what do we need to do?"
"Just over a week and there is nothing to do. I will take a test, it is probably just stress and all the changes that have been happening. It has just caught me off guard this morning." Olivia still looking at him searching for how he was feeling.
"Okay, well, I have to get to a meeting and then we have Cy's. Shit...i don't know what to do or what to say right now." Fitz ran his hands through his hair
"There is nothing to say. We don't know anything and I am not feeling different, I just realised I was late so like I said, it is probably nothing." Olivia waved her hand in the air trying to convince herself that it was nothing.
"So, when are you going to do the test? Will you wait until I am done with the charity thing and I come over?"
"I can if you want me to? I was just going to run by after work and take it really quickly just to ease my mind."
"So, you aren't going to wait on me to take it? To see if we could possibly be having a baby. You are going to go ahead and ease your mind and not wait on me, is that what you are saying?" Fitz stood up from the chair mad that she wouldn't wait on him.
"Fitz...I, I...I don't know what to say right now either. On one end I am freaking out at the thought and then on the flip side I am like its nothing. What do you want me to say?"
"I wanted you to say, we would take the test together seeing that it could be my child in there also. And I am freaking out too. So, when you are done and your mind is at ease or whatever could you please call me and let me know if I am going to be a father." Fitz turned from her and walked out the door hearing her call out to him. He was to mad to go back in there. He couldn't believe she even thought about taking a test without him.
Olivia wiped a tear that ran down her face and sat down. Putting her head down on her desk she grabbed her phone to text him.
OP: I handled that all wrong. I am sorry. New territory for me and just not certain of what to say or do.
Fitz felt his phone buzz but knew it was her and didn't want to look at it. Instead he just pulled it out and held down the button to have it turn off.
Olivia sat there waiting for him to resond but didn't get anything. She knew he would probably not answer but she was hoping.
After another hour she got up and made her way to the conference room for the meeting with Cy. Everyone was there but Abby and Olivia walked in and sat down next to Fitz but he didn't look up at her. She moved her hand under the table to squeezed his leg and looked at him. Fitz moved his hand on top of hers and squeezed it but removed it and slid down from her. He didn't want to hurt her but he didn't want her touching him either like everything was okay.
After the meeting they were leaving and she stood in front of him.
"You can't ignore me. We need to talk about this."
Fitz looked at her. "Apparenlty we don't. You weren't going to say anything to me until there was something to tell. I just happen to drag it out of you. I will be packing up my things tonight after the charity meeting. You let me know if I need to stop doing that, because to me it seems that you are going to do all things your way and not talk to the person you are suppose to love about it, so you let me know if I need to move or just stay there." He moved to the side to leave.
"Fitzgerald, you stop right now." There was a crack in her voice that both noticed and then the tears came down. "You look at me right now. I am sorry, I F'd up earlier but I am scared and not thinking straight and I need you to stop giving me the cold shoulder. I need my best friend to talk to me about this and let me know either way, we will be okay." Olivia was exhausted, she sat down and looked for him to respond.
Fitz sat down in front of her and placed his hands on her legs. "we are going to be okay either way. I love you Olivia, but you have to stop doing this when things get a little crazy. We are a couple who are getting married, maybe sooner than later but you have to trust in us. I am mad because I know that if there is nothing to tell, you would not have even mentioned it to me. That should never be the case with us. I should have been the first thing that crossed your mind at that you needed to tell me. I wasn't and you need to let me be mad right now because later on I can't be mad as you take a test to see if we are going to be parents." Fitz got up and kissed the top of her head and walked out.
Olivia looked outside and just thought to herself that he was right and he has every right to be mad at her. Olivia stood up and ran her hand over her stomach not even meaning to and the tears came again so she sat back down. She kept thinking about what if she was and how great it would be but then how her life would change and she didn't know if she was ready for that.
Abby walked into Olivia's office just as she got back and just the look on Olivia's face she knew that she was on the edge of a breakdown.
"What do you need me to do? Do I need to get a test? Call Fitz? What?" Abby said grabbing her in a hug.
Olivia laughed out. "I need you to remind me tomorrow that if I am pregnant to not drink coffee and if I am not pregnant, remind me that I have a pill to take everyday and that I shouldn't miss one ever!"
Fitz walked in as Abby was letting go of Olivia. "I am off to the charity meeting but it shouldn't take long. I will be at your place right after. Do I need to make a stop?"
Olivia walked over to him. "No, I will stop. I will see you when you get home." Olivia placed her hands on the side of his face. "I love you."
Fitz gave her a quick peck on the cheek and told her her loved her too before he said goodbye to her and Abby.
"That is a good man Liv."
"I know, he is a very good man and I am very lucky." Olivia said grabbing her purse. "I have to go to the drug store and go sit and wait until Fitz is done so I can find out if I am going to be a mommy or not. Abby, is this all moving to fast? I mean, it hasn't even been a year and I am engaged and possibly pregant. I am freaking out right now."
"Just breathe Liv, everything is going to be fine and it is moving fast but there is nothing wrong with that. I see the way that man looks at you and the way you look at him. It is with such love and admiration that we all are jealous that we don't have it but happy we get to witness it." Abby gave her another hug and then told her to call her later tonight or first thing in the morning.
Olivia was walking around in the drug store and sent Fitz a quick message.
OP: Buying about five test, not sure what is the best so now I am standing in the aisle thinking what the hell am I going to do if all five come up positive.
Fitz pulled his phone out and excused himself for a minute to respond to Olivia.
Fitz: We will cross that bridge when we know. Only but three, five is a little excessive. :) I love you.
OP: I love you too, hurry up. I have to pee and need to do it on these sticks and I don't know if I can hold it.
Fitz: You hold it or you go and then you will drink a gallon of water to go again but you do not take a test without me. Be there in about an hour.
OP: An hour...Fitz. Lord this is going to be the longest hour of my life.
Fitz: You just better wait Miss.
OP: I will, I love you.
Fitz: Back at ya Mama.
OP: Very funny Fitzgerald.
Olivia sat on the couch reading and re-reading the instructions and waited for Fitz to get home. When she heard his keys in the door she jumped up opened it and pulled him to the bathroom.
After successfully taking all three test they sat on the bathroom floor against the cabinets while the test sat on the sink above their heads and they waited holding hands and not saying anything to eachother.
Fitz looked at his watch, "its been about four minutes. I think we can look."
They both stood up and turned to look at the test.
"Well, if all three say the same thing I would think it is 100% accurate. What do you think?" Fitz said turning to look at her.
"Yep, I would say that would be correct. Well, I guess we are moving up the wedding date Daddy." Olivia smiled and gave him a hug and then a kiss. "Oh my God, we are going to be parents. You know until I saw the positive, I was freaking out and wondering what the hell we were going to do. But a calmness just came over me suddenly when I saw the plus mark, the two lines and the pregnant written out. Fitz, are you alright?"
Fitz looked at Olivia and had tears in his eyes. "Olivia, I love you with all my heart and soul and right now in this moment, I am more than alright. You are making me a father and I get to see your belly grow and your mood swings and run out for ice cream at three in the morning if you need it. Trust me, I am more than alright." He kissed her and then picked her up and spun her around.
"Well, I need to call Abby, she will be worried. Other that her, I don't want to tell anyone else until I am further along and have been to the doctor. Okay?"
"Whatever you say Mama." Fitz said kissing her again.
Fitz made dinner while Olivia talked to Abby. She told her not to tell anyone until they were ready to tell people. Olivia walked into the kitchen as Fitz was cooking.
"What are you cooking?"
"I am cooking spaghetti and making a salad. What did Abby say?"
"She said she is happy and that it is like me to over do it and meet the man of my dreams, be engaged and pregnant all within six months. People are going to think we are getting married because I am pregnant, I am going to be that girl. The girl who trapped the boss' son and got knocked up."
Fitz laughed "knocked up Liv, really? Who cares what people think? We love each other, hell, I bought you a house without you even knowing it." Fitz kissed her lips softly.
"I thought that was our house?" she laughed out. "I love you. Okay, I have to call the doctor tomorrow and set up an appointment. By my calculations I am about four or five weeks." Olivia smiled to herself as she said the words and she didn't know Fitz was looking at her.
"What?" she said when she saw him looking at her with a smile on his face.
"Olivia, you are glowing talking about this. You just smiled when you said you think you are about four or five weeks and didn't even realize it. You are going to be a mommy." Fitz grabbed her hand and kissed it.
Olivia gave him a smile and reached up to kiss him again. "I know, I am telling you, seeing that positive test or those positive tests has just changed everything. I am going to be someone's mom and you are going to be someone's dad Fitz."
"We are baby. We are going to be parents. Do you have a preference as to what you would like to have? Boy or a girl?"
"I don't care, really I just want to have an easy pregnancy, a healthy baby and have you rub my feet at night. Is that too much for a girl to dream about?"
Fitz looked at her and raised an eyebrow, "Rub your feet huh? If you would keep those heels off your feet and stop walking like you are going to another shoe sale I might not have to rub them. However, I will if that is what I need to do to keep my girls happy."
"Fitz, you just said girls, you want a girl?"
"I want a happy, healthy baby but I just have a feeling it is a girl."
Olivia and Fitz ate dinner and talked about moving the wedding up and having a small ceremony with close friends and family after Michaels trial was over.
As they crawled into bed that night both had smiles on their faces as they kissed and looked at each other. Fitz moved down to her stomach and moved her shirt up to kiss her belly.
"You be good in there for Mom or she will make Dad's life hell, do we have a deal?"
Fitz moved back up to Olivia to kiss her goodnight again when he saw she was crying. "What's wrong baby, you okay?"
Olivia looked at him and kissed him. "I am perfect, life is perfect. We are going to be so happy aren't we?"
"I am going to try my hardest to make sure we are. I love you Olivia Pope." He moved to pull her against him and moved his hand to her stomach. They laced their fingers together and fell asleep.
It was about four in the morning when Olivia's phone went off. Fitz grabbed it not wanting it to wake her up. The text was from Jake and it was thanking her for having lunch with him and that they would have to do it again. Fitz immediately got out of bed and went downstairs. He was wondering when they had lunch and why didn't she tell him about it. But the most pressing question was why was he texting her in the middle of the night.
Olivia woke up when she got a cold chill and realized Fitz was out of bed. She called out to him and when he didn't answer she made her way downstairs.
"Babe, what are you doing down here in the dark?" Olivia asked as she sat down beside him on the couch.
Fitz just looked at her "Lunch with Jake. When were you going to tell me? Or were you going to tell me?"
Olivia looked at him and could see the hurt in his eyes.
"Fitz, I am sorry."
"Olivia, I know you are not cheating on me, I am not that stupid to jump to that conclucion, but yet again, you are withholding things from me. We can't build a life like this. We are getting married and having a baby and this is a partnership. I can't keep finding these things out, you should be coming to me. Did you think I would be mad if you had lunch with him? I would but I am more mad now that he text you in the middle of the night thanking you for it. I am going to run to my place and get ready this morning. I need you to give me time to process this and you need to do the same. I can't yell at you, my God, I just found out you were having my baby. So I am going to my place and I will see you later. I love you and will talk to you at the office."
Olivia didn't say anything, she watched him walk out the door and she just cried. She knew she had to quit doing this or she would run him away for good.