His Secret Wisdom

by tainted-angel21

His doom was inevitable, his choices ensured it. His story tragic. But what if he made different choices? What if instead of being doomed, he prevailed? His new found Wisdom would ensure that he did prevail. She knew of things no one did and her sole purpose was to make sure he triumphed. In this whole mess, somehow she became his and his alone. Rhaegar Targaryen X OC

4. Dear Readers

Dear Readers,

I know I am not being a very good writer at this point and my updates have been very few. I apologize for that. I have always put an author's note at the beginning of each of my updates and in them recently, I have explained the reasons behind my lack of updates.

But I will explain once more. My mother is very sick and she needs me. She is in the advanced stages of Parkinson's disease; sometimes she gets violent, other times she gets convulsions and because she is bedridden she needs me now more than ever. I am an only child, all my parents have is me.

I also have a job so that also needs my attention than any of the writings I put up here. Because all of the things I am going through right now, it is very difficult for me to find time to write and worse than that, I don't feel all that inspired to write right now.

Writing stories for me is a form of escaping my reality and I enjoy the worlds and characters I build up in my stories. Right now, I cannot make myself see Fallon or Estella or Arya or any of my characters let alone know how their stories will progress further.

Sometimes I do get into writing mode and when I do, I write. So I am not saying that my lack of inspiration is a permanent thing, it's a situational thing. I am asking you all to be patient with me because I really am trying my best with everything that is going on in my life.

I am only apologizing for the fact that you all are so eager to read for more of my stories and I cannot provide you with them. I am very flattered. But I cannot and will not apologize for what life has been throwing at me right now. Not for my mother's illness, not for my work load and not for my lack of inspiration.

Some people are pressurizing me to update and make some comments about how certain things appear faster than my updates. I cannot and will not put up with such words and attitudes. I know they are frustrated but please try to understand if not empathize with my feelings and my situation.

I am unhappy and pressurized enough as it is and I do not need to be picked at more. So please, I ask you kindly to have some patience with me. I need all your blessings for my mother and I promise like I have before to try to write. That's all I can do right now, try.

So thank you for everything. And please forgive me for this rant, but I needed to make my feelings known at this point.

Zahra.