Okay i'm sorry for not updating as regularly as i promised.. i kind of just been heart broken over the fact that the douche i dated for sometime just dumped me.. so ice cream and water has been my friends for the past month.. anyway! just looked at my mail and saw a lot of requests for an update and also some hate .. but hey its fine!
But just to clear up somethings! I have read the Manga of death note some moths ago and i do actually know that L goes by Ryuzaki etc in public and so on but some of you don't get that this is my story! my version and mine alone! I like the requests and response but weather or not i choose to let Harry have his name or L to be know publicly is still apart of the story that i and i alone has chosen to write so just be open minded for the changes and i will try to clear it all up!
Chapter 5 - You make me feel human
The reminder of the journey Harold stayed snuggled to Ls side while thinking over how it all led to comfortable silence they were currently working with. Harold had never really been a affectionate person, always shying away; choosing to not interact with people 'cause of his trust issues and now L is occupying his thoughts day and night and he feels comfortable and safe with his company.
As he snuggled closer to the detective he couldn't help but breathe in the sent of him. The smell of cake and black tea and a leather. It was a pleasant smell, not bothering at all, just like being near the other man itself. And L himself was thinking along the same lines. As the younger boy cuddled closer to his side with closed eyes and a relaxed smile on his face, he couldn't help himself to breathe in the others smell either. Mint and vanilla was his first thoughts, thinking it must be from baking all they, maybe mint scented shampoo too? He didn't know but he knew that he enjoyed it and that it fitted the boy.
''As much as i like for you to be comfortable, i am afraid i can't let you fall asleep as we are soon arriving to our destination.'' L said as he chuckled at the boy who whined and sat himself up beside L pouting once again.
''Your fault for being comfortable...'' He said while rubbing the sleepiness from his eyes. L didn't answer the remark, only smiling and chuckling quietly beside him. Harold looked outside from the car window and noticed that they indeed soon would be arriving at a large white building.
''You know... when you said headquarter i imagined some sort of police station.. not a manor.'' Harold said in slight discomfort. He remembered all to clear the torture in the Malfoy manor and wasn't to eager to set his foot in another. L noticed how the curiosity before had now turned into discomfort and also that there were a lot more hidden behind that innocent face.
Nothing more was said during the reminder of the car ride, which were around 5 minutes or so, and not long after Harry was led to the sitting room for tea and his own baked cake. Harold was a bit tense but reminded himself that he was in a rich mans muggle manor and not at the Malfoy manor awaiting another torture session.
''Relax Black-kun.. there is nothing to be afraid of here.'' L said a little worried at the younger boys stiff pose.
''I'm sorry L-kun i- i'm just a bit nervous..'' He lied poorly, but thankfully enough L didn't comment on it.
''Please, just L is enough.'' He said, trying to calm Harold down while easing himself further into the boys life by dropping the formalities.
''Then i must insist you call me Har-..'' He stopped as a frown occurred on his face. He didn't want to be reminded by the past by using his original name but.. the name Harold was starting to bug him more and more by the usage from Yagami-kun.
''You may call me Harry.'' He finally said with a shy smile directed toward the detective before him. Who now looked a bit confused yet felt flattered. He had noticed the conflict going through the younger boys face and that he hesitatingly confounded L to call him 'Harry' and that it somehow had some sort of importance.
L nodded and smiled reassuringly. ''Of course, Harry.'' He said and saw how he relaxed a bit as he smiled back.
''Now i have meant to ask you for sometime now, how come you moved from England to a whole other country?'' He saw once again how he stiffened a bit in his seat. Harry himself wondered how he was going to answer it. He knew he couldn't lie to the detective without having him know and he also knew he couldn't tell the whole truth.. at least not yet.
''..Family problem i guess you could say.. among other things of course though i rather not talk about it.'' He answered. It was part of the truth, though not really specific on who and what he considered family and problems.
''Something you can elaborate further? I mean on the family problem issue of course. I noticed you had no registered guardians of any sort.'' L asked as he watched closely as Harry once again thought before answering.
''I didn't have the best upgrowth, dead parents, bad relatives; no one that really took the time to care.'' He said with a sheepish sigh. He knew if anyone could figure it out it would be L, of course he wasn't left disappointed in his theory.
''Abuse..'' L said chocked after a few minutes of silence and calculating. Harry smiled though it didn't reach his eyes.
''Congratulations, you figured it out in what? 5 minutes? Were have you been all my life?'' Harry sighed as he softly chuckled. L had hoped Harry would at least have denied it, seeing as he didn't for once want to be right.
''So you moved to Japan after your relatives got arrested?'' He asked as he tried to move forward with the conversation even though it wasn't the most pleasant one. L could understand the neglected feelings as he himself felt them as a child.
''Arrested? no, no i sort of ran away while they were sleeping..'' Harry said as he rubbed his right arm in discomfort.
''They haven't been punished for abuse?!'' L said while for what seemed to be the first time standing straight as he raised his voice.
''Who do you think would believe me? I tried to get people close to me to notice since i was 11! I sent letters to my headmaster asking to be aloud to stay at the school during the summer but i was apparently ''begging for attention.'', My suppose-to-be-friends knew about the bars on my window seeing as they bailed me out in my second year! The neighbours didn't even care themselves even though i was skinny as a twig, yelled at even outdoors and working my butt of 3 moths a year when i wasn't shoved inside the fucking cupboard trying to stay alive! I tried but what good does it voice it out when no one cares to listen?'' Harry ranted and asked with hopelessness showing trough his eyes and voice at the end of the speech.
L stood stunned by the brutality they boy gone through and the honesty during the speech. He couldn't understand how Harry had stayed such a nice, polite and innocent boy during a upgrowth like this. Then questions started to bubble to the surfus of his brain.
''.. I'm sorry Harry, i will see it trough that they will serve justice for what they have done.'' He vowed as he sat himself next to the boy he had started falling more and more for.
''It doesn't really matter now does it? I'm out of there and living my life as i see fit. And if i hadn't gone through what i did, i wouldn't have met you would I?'' Harry asked as he tried to bring them out of the depressive topic of conversation.
''It does matter! Even though you currently are happy, you shouldn't have had to go through such pain even if it meant to meet me.'' L felt flattered by the comment even though he knew Harrys reason for it.
''Now you told me you begged the headmaster to stay during the summer? where you going to a boarding school? and which if so, they also need to be dealt with seeing as they ignored a student in need without at least seeing in to their home life.'' L asked as he felt more and more pissed.
''L, there are things in my life i am not aloud to talk about and you wouldn't even understand it if i didn't explain it from the begging anyway..'' He said as he tried to brush it of.
''Then tell me.. please.'' L asked and saw how Harry looked at him searching for something which he turned out to find seeing as he sighed out and smiled a sad smile at the detective.
And there were where they found themselves for the next 3 hours, Harry telling L about his life at the Durlseys, his yearly battles of survival since age 11, his losses and the manipulation, magic and lies for the past 9 years. Demonstrations of magic were made by making the teapot break in two and then pieced together by wandless magic, L blowing up in rage after hearing about the murder attempts and the lack of action from the teachers and adults in his environment, leaving it up to a kid to save them all and doing nothing themselves.
''So that's why you, as a muggle, can't really sue Dumbledore seeing as you aren't suppose to know about magic in general and that the schools hidden by a fidelus charm; hiding it from muggles.'' Harry explained, sitting in Ls lap while being hugged close by a mad detectives face snuggled in his neck. Harry seemed to bring forward emotions L had closed of years ago; making him act over protective and more caring then usual.
''Still.. theres got to be some loophole of some sort.. at least let me get those damn relatives of yours..'' He whined making Harry giggle at the strange attics of his friend.
''Now i won't promise but i don't think that will stop you at all, will it?'' He asked amused. Making L chuckle while shaking his head.
''Not at all.'' He smiled, for what seemed to only be possible in Harrys presence.
''Now shall we talk about the actual reason for me visiting your manor?'' Harry asked, not at all bothered by being here anymore after he had spilled the secret for L, who was Harrys last hope to ever trust anybody every again; unknown to the detective of course.
''I suppose that can be arraigned.'' Still not letting go of the smaller man who seemed to have been created to fit in his lap.
For the next hour and a half L told Harry about the Kira case and how the resent progress of exposing the killer had been interrupted by stupid father of Yagami Light.
''But how does this have anything to do with the git though? He isn't Kira is he..?'' Harry asked, already knowing the answer.
''Well that is my theory, I'm currently 99.3% sure that Yagami Light is our killer.''
''But how? i don't understand.. How can he kill someone by not being near them? And how come your not dead seeing as you obviously are the pest of his life?'' Harry asked.
''I don't know that yet, though i suppose it have something involving .. some sort of deadly magic now that i know of it's existence, is it possible for Light-kun to share your gift? And for me not being dead is a mystery for me. You see i have always gone outside with a fake identity publicly.. but seeing as i wanted Light-kun to expose himself i wanted him to kill me while i had people in his presence, so i publicly revealed my name so he would without a doubt would have a hold on my name, the plan failed of course seeing as i'm not dead.''
''Ahaa..I haven't heard of a spell that you would need the name of the victim and later on make them die by natural deaths miles away from the actual victim..'' Harry said as he thought about it but being the master of death had it's theories also seeing as that was a whole other magic, that he himself hadn't even tried. And how do you even call after death himself to explain it?
''Well i guess it still is unsolved until further notice. Now would you care to join me for dinner?'' L asked as the clock had turned to dinner time.
''I would love too, though i wonder; my customers told me about this sugary diet of yours, how come they know so much about you when you only gave out your name?'' Harry asked amused and curious. L chuckled while helping Harry stand from his lap.
''That is all Wataris fault, seeing as everyone knew about my.. fondness of sweets already they finally had a face to connect the cake too, not that it matters; being ''famous'' has gotten me more jobs then before.'' He said as they started making their way back to the car.
''Well i would at least hope i get fed some real food.'' Harry joked and L chuckled along.
''Of course, how about we eat and have some sweets for desserts seeing as i wouldn't mind something of the fondness of others dinner expectations for once.'' L shocked himself seeing as he felt more and more ... intrigued to 'act' more human with the wonderful company of young Harry Black.
After the pleasant dinner and dessert, Harry was escorted home with a promise for meeting again for afternoon tea tomorrow.
''I had a wonderful day, even though the conversation at times were both infuriating and curriculum filled.'' Harry laughed at the use of words coming from the man.
''I agree, see you tomorrow L'' Harry said and kissed him goodnight on the cheek before disappearing behind the door.
They both had a feeling this was the start of something more then friendship.
Done with this chapter! I already have plans for the next chapter but i would like to know what you guys think! Is there something you would like to happen or do you trust me to write something interesting? haha! i hope at least you enjoyed it even though i think Harry trusted L a bit to fast seeing as i just wanted the whole i've-had-the-most-suckiest-childhood-ever and the magic to come in to the story again.
Well thanks for this chapter i guess! leave a review and stay beautiful love!
- L.B