Long time no see ..

Okay so.. i've been gone for awhile .. not really doing anything important .. but i'm sorry? (A)

I don't really what to do unnecessary ''defending-why-i've-been-gone-so-you-guys-don't-kill-me''. My own observation is that i usually appreciate something i've missed for a long time more than something that i can have frequently; and a good idea doesn't come to regally so we should all be grateful that my brain whats to cooperate sometimes. ~

Well anyway enjoy the update and i shall try my best to keep it up!

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Chapter 8 - The return of family

The previous chapter:

''I Love you, Harry.'' L ended with and watched as the tears finally fell down the cheeks and the same beautiful smile even brighter.

''I love you too.'' Harry choked out as he started chuckling in relief. The both stood their for a few more minutes, caressing each others cheeks, whispering words of endearment, sheering a few small kisses; until their moment was broken by a ringing of the shops door bell.

''...Remus?''

Harry just stood there for a moment there were nothing but silence. Harry was still embraced by L, both of them looking at the brown haired man; standing nervously at the door.

''Hi cub..'' He said while looking ashamed.

Remus had franticly searched for months after Harrys disappearance. He had started questioning Dumbledores methods, concerning his cub, long before the man himself died and had been to selfishly focused on himself to see how his cub was hurting, even more than he had originally thought.

As he had visited Privet drive he had noticed the bars on the windows to a room with far to many locks and a cat-flap. He had known Harry to not be fond over his living situation but the boy had always kept quiet about it.

Remus blamed himself, he should have known, and more over feared what he didn't already know.

As they stood there in silence Remus noticed a much taller black haired man holding his cub defensively and glared at him. He didn't know weather he should be annoyed or concerned but decided to remain indifferent until Harry would utter a word.

As soon as he had found Harrys location due to the slimmest of chances he had port keyed himself before he could even process what to say.

''..How did you found me?'' Harry asked in such a small hopeless tone that Remus cringed.

''Before Sirius ..died he put me in to your guardian contract as your replacement provider if anything should happen to him or keep him away from you..'' Remus cringed as even more remorse and guilt crawled up his chest seeing Harrys distraught expression.

''You... I could have.. been with you all this time?'' Harry looked at him in the eyes for the first time since he entered the cafe with tearful eyes. He was at loss of words, knowing that he couldn't defend his own selfish reasons for leavening his child in an abusive home for 4 years even though he would have been the one to take him in.

''Harry I- i don't know what to say, had i known yo-''

''Had you known what?'' Harry questioned hotly in the middle of Remus explanation.

''I've gone through abuse since the time i could function a stove, i've been wanted by a maniac since 11 years old, i've lost my godfather a year after finally knowing that i could have a chance at a real family, i've been controlled to play a part in a war that never was my own and now you have the nerve to tell me that you find me, after i finally found some happiness in my life, that i at least could have avoided part of it for 4 years if you had cared a bit more about me than your own bloody arse!.. i loved you like a second father Remus and i though that maybe you would have loved me back..''

By the end of the speech he'd started crying and L was doing his best to comfort him while glaring at the pathetic man before him. Said man was wallowing in guilt knowing that all Harry had said to be true and some that he needed to know more about.

''Cub, love, i know i've acted selfishly, that my own melodramatic self pitying has hurt you more than it done me any good. Ever since Sirius left us i've felt useless, he was the last of my best friends to keep me from my own cowardly tendencies, even as a teacher i was to insecure to show affection to the little boy i held in my hands at one years old more than to keep him safe. The same boy that i've let down, time after time but who still has shown me nothing more than compassion and love..'' Remus knelt down before his godson, his cub, with tears in his eyes.

''I have never loved you any less than the day you were born, over the years you've shown me your strength and your big heart and made me prouder than i could ever have imaged. And I'm begging you to find it in your heart to forgive me once more.''

Harry felt his knees give in and wrapped his arms around Remus, nodding his head agains said mans chest and cried his heart out as he felt his father figure shake around him, crying in relief.

L himself took in the scene and decided that, even though Remus was easily forgiven by his Harry, he'd had to prove himself to be fitted in to Harrys life once more.

I know it's short... But i didn't want to over do it or force a bad plotline so i thought i would give you guys a chance to progress the story, maybe i can get something done for once...

So.. What should happen next!?

And until next time, Leo Berch