None of them knew how long they had been sitting like that, holding each other, crying with each other, it could have been one hour or five but none of them cared. It was the first time they allowed themselves to feel comfortable enough with each other and trusted each other enough to truly let out all the pent up emotions that they had all been carrying as individuals. Now they were carrying each other. The Jungle Book had long since been over and Erin reached over and pushed the button to restart it simply so she did not have to listen to the same song on repeat another time. She took the time to look around at her team, her family and felt more relaxed than she ever remembered feeling. She saw Nadia yawn and felt Adam's weight on her for the first time, the emotional splurge had left him, and everyone else completely exhausted. Antonio was still crying softly and Jay was still holding him tight, the sparkle was back in his eyes though when his met hers. She nodded to Nadia to get up and gently leaned Adam into the couch before untangling her arm from Jay's and standing up.

The girls went into the bedroom and came out a couple minutes later wearing sweats, dragging a mattress and carrying an enormous pile of blankets. Erin silently made up the bed for Adam and got him tucked in without even really waking him up. "I don't think he has slept in days..." Nadia whispered as she turned out the majority of the lights in the apartment.

"I don't think any of us have really slept." Jay said looking at Erin. "You two go in and sleep in the bed..oh but Er can you switch the movie first?"

She smiled at him and pulled out Friends and started the first disc of season one. Nadia said goodnight and went into Erin's bedroom. Erin pushed Antonio and Jay over so that Jay was able to lean into the corner of the couch, "Have you gone to visit her?" Erin asked Antonio. He looked up at her, lifting his head for the first time and sitting up away from Jay, he loosened his hold but kept his arm around his shoulder, with guilty eyes Antonio nodded but did not speak. "Me too. I miss her like crazy."

"Nothing has been the same since she was killed...not at work...not at home. I am so totally lost I don't know what to do and for years I had always gone to her when I needed someone to talk to...I still...when I...it is automatic...but she never answers her phone...it is a nightmare every time." He said as a fresh round of tears begins to fall.

"Antonio why haven't you said anything...to any of us?" Erin asked him, but he didn't hear. He was lost again. Jay pulled him into his chest once again and held his friend in his arms. Erin slowly stood up and laid a blanket over top of Antonio and another one on Jay's lap. She bent over the side of the couch and kissed Jay softly on the temple, "if you need me..."

"We will be good. You will be giving me a back massage tomorrow though...and we totally need to buy you a new couch. Try and sleep Lindsay." She tousled his hair before walking down the hall and going into her bedroom.

"How often does Jay stay here?" Erin heard Nadia ask with a chuckle.

"Why?"

"Your bed smells like him."

"Oh...hmm...I hadn't noticed." Erin said trying to brush it off.

"Liar." Nadia said as Erin climbed into the bed.

"After the hit...I dunno he stays here some nights I stay there others...it isn't like that though so don't get any ideas." Erin said switching off her bedside lamp.

"Is everyone going to be okay?" Nadia asked after a few seconds of silence.

"We always make it through...we have all been through a lot."

"Adam hasn't...and Antonio...Laura wants a divorce...I heard them on the phone the other day..."

"We have each others back Nadia...we will make it through. Things may not always be the same or even how we want them but we will make it through."

"I just wish I could do more."

"You have been amazing. We saw you holding Antonio up...making sure he got upstairs...you are our eyes...we are not always in the office together so we may miss things...you see everything though...if you ever are concerned about anyone or anything just text one of us...things are going to change...after tonight I don't think anything can go back to how it was."

"I think Adam and Kim are done...she didn't hug him or even say anything after Ross was killed...she was there when Adam...Kevin told me...I guess she is so worried about whether or not she will make it into the unit that she cared more about that than Adam."

"She is a good cop...but Voight saw it a long time ago...those of us in the unit...we didn't WANT to be in it...that is why we are in it...when Adam got all cocky about it Voight put him in his place by making him spend a shift with Kim...we do things different...you either get it or you don't."

"We should get up early and make breakfast before the guys get up...and see if Kevin can come over and join...I kinda feel bad that he wasn't here tonight."

"He has his sister. Kim told me about her...he was with her...the rest of us...we don't really have a family to go home to...but yes...text him now. Tell him to be here at nine with a shit ton of coffee."

Nadia giggled and rolled over to grab her phone. She got a response right away and satisfied she put her phone down and they fell asleep.

Jay held Antonio into him as he cried himself to sleep. Jay was scared to death for Antonio, he had always looked up to him, he always seemed to put together and sure of himself and now he knows it was all an act. When Antonio's head slid forward on his shoulder and Jay knew he was asleep he himself closed his eyes and drifted off to an uneasy sleep.

Four hours later the sun rising above the clouds woke him up. He gently laid Antonio down on the couch and he grabbed one of Erin's blankets and went out and sat on the balcony to watch the sun come up. Less than two minutes later Jay felt a hand on his shoulder and he pulled his partner around and she curled herself onto his lap with her head on his shoulder and he wrapped the blanket around her. "Chicago is beautiful." He whispered.

"Even when it isn't." She whispered back.

Jay leaned his head onto hers and sighed. "Have I ever told you how much I love you?" He asked, barely above a whisper.

"Not when you were sober." She told him while wrapping her arms around him. "I love you too Halstead."

"Are we going to be okay?"

"Eventually."

"Partners."

"Don't ever leave me." Erin whispered sleepily.

"Never." Jay whispered as he closed his eyes.

Nadia woke up a little after eight and noticed the bed was empty. She slowly got up and grabbed a sweatshirt and walked out into the living room. Adam was on the mattress snoring softly and Antonio was asleep on the couch. Nadia smiled to herself when she looked out onto the balcony and found Jay and Erin holding each other in the freezing cold asleep. She tapped on the window and winked when Erin lifted her head up. She watched as Erin kissed him on the cheek to wake him up before she walked over to tv and flipped it on. She turned on Big Bang Theory and lifted Adam's head onto her lap as she sat on the mattress with her back leaning on the couch. She turned a little and ran her fingers along Antonio's cheek tracing the tear stains that remained gently waking him up. "Kev's gonna be here in a half hour...didn't know if you wanted to freshen up before he got here."

"I look that bad huh?" He asked with a sad smile. "Thanks Kid." He said getting up slowly and walking into the bathroom.

She turned her attention back to Adam, he was new, pulled from Academy...she was actually a couple months older than he was but their lives were drastically different. "Wakey wakey." She whispered to him as she pulled his long hair.

"MMmmm too sleepy still." He mumbled as he rolled into her wrapping his arm around her waist and snuggling into her.

"Kevin's gonna be here soon." Nadia told him and he slowly opened his bloodshot eyes. She wondered what she looked like, because judging by the two of them they all looked like hell.

"Too comfortable." He said closing his eyes again and hugging her a little bit tighter. Nadia rolled her eyes and ran her fingers through his hair. Touch...touch is what Adam needed. She could do that. He knew it and knew it wouldn't be awkward later. He kept his eyes closed as he thought about everything that had happened with this case, losing Ross, losing his innocence and unwavering cockiness. He no longer saw himself as unbreakable.

Nadia saw a tear slide from his closed eye and caught it with her thumb, "Adam?" She whispered.

"Please don't stop..." he whispered with a shakey voice, "need a minute."

She felt Erin walk over to her to see if they were okay. Nadia nodded and Erin went into the kitchen with Jay and started getting stuff out to make pancakes. Jay opened the door after the first knock when Kevin got there, right as Antonio was walking out of the bathroom, even after washing his face his eyes were still puffy and bloodshot. "Damn man what did I miss last night? Coffee here." He said lifting up the box and setting it on the counter.

"Family meeting." Jay smirked.

"And slumber party." Erin said as she flipped a pancake.

"Y'all good?" Kevin asked patting Antonio on the back and pulling him into a quick hug.

"No...but we will be." Antonio answered honestly.

"Things will be changing in the unit...we are going to start switching up partners and actually talking to each other from now on." Jay told him.

"Where Adam and Nadia at?"

Erin pointed to the couch and he looked over and saw the top of Nadia's head. They continued talking in the kitchen but Nadia's focus went back to Adam. "Look at me." She told him, he opened his eyes slowly and looked up into hers with more tears sliding down. Nadia wiped them with her thumb and traced his eye brows with her finger and slid her hand down his cheek. "Promise me you wont wait so long next time if you need this."

"Thank you." He said as he wiped his own face and rolled so he was on his back looking up at her instead of curled around her. "I haven't had this before...everything's always been sex or nothin...didn't know what I had been missin out on."

"Hey Adam...I am serious...you know where to find me..." She said pulling his hair one more time before pushing him off of her as she stood up. She went into the kitchen and joined in on the conversation to give him the time he needed.

No one commented on him being the last one to the party or about the tear stains on his face, Antonio with his matching tear stains put his hand on his back when he walked up and handed him a coffee and they all chatted through breakfast, the late morning and halfway through the afternoon. At three they all heard their phones going off at the same time. Nadia was the only one with hers in her pocket and looked at the text. "We've got a case. Meet at the office at five."