A.N - I know my chapters are short at the moment, but I promised myself I would update this story daily. Not a lot happens in this chapter. I just wanted to show what child loss (or the feelings of) does to people, even the strongest ones.
Elliot couldn't move. He felt all the energy slowly run out of his body. Someone was calling his name, but it sounded so far away, so he ignored the sounds around him and focused on his hands instead, unable to see them clearly through the tears collecting in his eyes.
As soon as Olivia saw Elliot collapsed, she called out his name and ran over to him. It took every ounce of her to stop herself from collapsing on the floor next to him. She had to be strong for her partner. She couldn't break down just yet.
When she saw that Elliot was not responding to her, she looked over to her captain. "Does the ME have him already?" she asked through choked tears.
Cragen just nodded, afraid to know what his voice sounded like.
Olivia looked back to her partner, and gathered his head into her chest. She was surprised he offered no resistance. She started to stroke his head whispering," It's okay, it's gonna be okay…"
Elliot turned into her and they sat there for a few minutes. Olivia pulled him away when she didn't feel his body shake anymore, so she can look him in the eyes. They were bloodshot.
"El, we have to go now," she whispered softly. "If you want, I can ID-"
"No," Elliot said rather loudly, which made her jump. "I'm sorry. I have to do it. I need to know."
Olivia nodded and got off the floor, offering her hand to help her partner up. He reluctantly took it, and stood up slowly. "I have to call Kathy," he stated, not showing any emotion besides his red eyes.
Olivia headed towards the lady's restroom. As she reached the door, Olivia looked back at her partner. He was sitting in his chair, staring at the phone that rested in front of him. She couldn't imagine getting a call that Kathy was about to get. Just the thought of it made tears fall down her cheek. She let them, as she was alone and needed to break down a little to remain strong for her partner. Olivia looked in the mirror at the black stream flowing from her eyes. She hastily grabbed a towel and wiped them.
Elliot met her outside the lady's restroom, looking sorrowful. "I called Kathy to give her an update on the situation, but I told her to stay with the kids."
Olivia nodded, making a note of how composed he sounded. He's so strong, she thought, as she grabbed his shoulder and started rubbing. Elliot moved away from her and went to grab their jackets, and she followed.
When they got to the ME's office, Elliot didn't know if he wanted to run towards the doors as fast as he could, or run back to his car. It's probably Dickie, he thought. I mean, what are the chances they found another kid in the same neighborhood?
Olivia glanced at Elliot and could see the conversation going through his head. He was afraid to face what lied ahead. She knew, because she was thinking the same way. Afraid he was going to run back outside, she quickly grabbed his arm and led him through the double doors.
Melinda sighed as they walked through the doors. Olivia looked as though she was supporting Elliot, and Elliot just seemed like he wasn't there. Melinda didn't want to do this anymore than they did.
"Elliot, are you ready?" she asked. What a stupid question Mel, she thought to herself. How can any parent be ready for this?
Olivia looked at Elliot, and when she saw that he wasn't going to respond in any way, she looked at Melinda and nodded.
Melinda grabbed the blanket that was on top of the small frame. She hesitated for just a second before pulling it down.
Both Elliot and Olivia gasped. She quickly grabbed onto Elliot's elbow, but it was too late. He was already down on the floor. She went down with him, and they held each other and cried.
