AN: So with everything going on right now with our boys, I decided to write my own version of what I hope is going to go down. Yes this is going to be a multi-chapter story and as of right now I have 14 chapters of ideas, but that might change so who knows.
Now however what I'm going to do differently though is every chapter is going to be linked with a song in hopes that the lyrics helps what I am trying to express in the chapter.
Also when reviewing, please don't be mean about it. If you don't like it give me ways to change the writing.
So enough about me, enjoy.
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Watching the fireworks from the window, Sonny felt like throwing up. His entire world was going up in flames around him and he had no clue on how to stop it. The second club was turning into a huge bust and with so much money invested into it. Their entire savings gone down the drain. Sonny's gut feeling was telling him Chad was behind this, but unfortunately without proof, there was nothing he could do about it. He just hoped and prayed he wasn't going to end up loosing Club TBD as well.
Sighing, Sonny walked over to the couch and stared at the ornament of him and his smiling husband, that was hanging on the tree. Feeling his chin tremble, the young man turned his attention to the empty champaign glasses, but naturally that didn't help his mood at all….because his husband wasn't there to help him celebrate. Closing his eyes, he thought back to last New Years Eve when Will flew into his arms and kissed him with everything that he had in him and of course Sonny responded with exact same way.
Blinking back tears, Sonny picked up his phone to see if he should at least wait up for Will, but naturally he got the voicemail, which shockingly didn't surprise him at all.
" Obviously you are too busy working to spend time with your husband on New Years Eve, so whenever you do decide to come home, I'll be in bed."
Every time I try to fly I fall
Without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, its haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Hanging up the phone, Sonny knew he was being a little harsh, but the way Will has been acting, he really didn't care. Ever since Will came home from California all they have been doing is fighting and in all honesty Sonny didn't know how much more he could take. Yes the first year in any marriage is the hardest, but this was way too damn hard for him. It was bad enough when he found out Will lied to him about the real reason he came home early, but it seemed like every time he tried sitting down with Will to talk, his husband always either ran out the door, hang up on him, or they would end up arguing. They never fought this much before so why in gods name are they fighting now. Sitting down on the couch and looking around the empty apartment, Sonny finally let the tears fall.
I make believe that you are hear
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
Glancing down at his wedding band, Sonny wanted to take the damn thing off and throw it across the room. It was just a couple days ago when he spoke so strongly about his marriage to Paul and now the poor man wasn't sure if he even had a marriage to defend….and just the very thought broke his heart into a million more pieces then it already was.
" Oh god Will….what's going on with us? Where's the Will Horton who was willing to go to prison for me when Nick Fallon was killed? Where's the Will Horton who fought tooth and nail against my mother just to prove to her you were the man for me? Everything is falling apart and I don't know what to do…..what do I do Will…..what am I supposed to do?"
Knowing he wasn't getting a response just upset him even more, which of course caused him to grab the nearest object and fling it across the room. Realizing it was a picture of him and Will, taken during their first dance as husbands, Sonny gave a weak watery sob like laugh while he grabbed a broom and dustpan so he could clean up the broken pieces of his marriage
Every time I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, its haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Once the mess with the broken glass was all cleaned up, Sonny thought about just going to bed, but instead his thoughts went to the one person he didn't expect….Paul. Ever since he showed up in Salem, he was the one person, Sonny found himself talking to about his problems with the second club. When Paul offered to help him, Sonny almost met up with him, at his hotel room, but then Will and Arianna came home that night, so he didn't bother….but the more fights he was getting into with Will and the more stress he was feeling with everything, he felt himself getting pulled back into Paul.
When his ex told him he was still in love with him and was willing to come out just for him, a part of Sonny loved it. I mean after feeling so unloved by his husband, it was wonderful to hear about someone else caring for him, but the other side of Sonny…..the side who takes his vows seriously swallowed down the affection and showed the other man he was never going to leave his husband….until now.
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
Looking down at the broken frame, in his hands, Sonny took the picture out and after glancing at it once more, he gently placed it on the coffee table. Taking a deep breath to calm his nerves and his stomach, Sonny looked around the apartment before putting his coat on and grabbing his keys. Yes he knew going to see Paul was a bad idea, but the way he was feeling unfortunately he didn't care and as he closed the door and walked towards the car, the thought of him actually not caring….that's what scared him the most.
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
Every time I try to fly I fall
Without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, its haunting me
I guess I need you baby
AN: If anyone doesn't know this song, its called Everytime and its by Britney Spears.
Another thing, I do not own Wilson, because if I did Paul and Derrick wouldn't be there