"I'm bleeding out
So if the last thing that I do
Is bring you down
I'll bleed out for you
So I bare my skin
And I count my sins
And I close my eyes
And I take it in
I'm bleeding out
I'm bleeding out for you, for you."
I was singing to myself while playing the guitar. I grabbed my pencil and wrote the words I just sang down. I finished all my homework assignments and was now working on my music. Ok. So the next part is-
"Ms. Yami?" I jumped. I looked over my shoulder and saw it was Ms. White, our maid. She was short and round but very kind. She was the only one I really talked to. Everyone was nice and all but I was just not a very social person. Soon they just gave up trying but Ms. White never did.
"Oh Ms. White you startled me."
"Sorry dear." She walked over to me and put down a food tray.
"When was the last time you ate?" She asked me.
"Breakfast." I quickly said.
"There is no food in your fridge."
"I ran out today."
"All the dishes are clean-"
"I washed them this morning before school."
"What if I told you that I came in here 3 days ago and saw you had no food?"
"Um..."
"Why aren't you eating again Yami?"
"It's a habit."
"You could have used that excuse 6 years ago now it's just getting old."
"But-"
"No buts Yami eat." She instructed. I signed. I put my pencil down and picked up my plate of chicken and rice. It smelled delicious. I devoured the food in less than 10 minutes.
"See you have been starving yourself."
"I wasn't that hungry." I said wiping my mouth with the sleeves of my shirt.
"And what is up with the long sleeve Yami? It's extremely hot outside!"
"I'm cold."
"Yami it is not that cold in here." I shrugged. Ms. White sighed.
"What am I going to do with you child?" She grabbed the tray with and empty plate and left. I looked down at my wrists. I pulled back the sleeve and rubbed my thumb over my bare wrist.
The skin was a little ruff and bumpy from my old and new scars. A tear rolled of my cheek. I wiped it away and went back to my music. It was the only thing that kept me from grabbing my small pocket knife and dragging it across my wrist again. I strummed the guitar and started to play.
"I'm bleeding out
So if the last thing that I do
Is bring you down
I'll bleed out for you
So I bare my skin
And I count my sins
And I close my eyes
And I take it in
I'm bleeding out
I'm bleeding out for you, for you.
When the day has come
That I've lost my way around
And the seasons stop and hide beneath the ground
When the sky turns gray
And everything is screaming
I will reach inside
Just to find my heart is beating"
Tears were rapidly falling now. I put down my guitar and walked out of my music room. I went to my room and opened my sock drawer. I dug around it and grabbed ahold of my pocket knife. Bad memories flooded my mind. 'You are a worthless piece of shit!' 'It should have been you! She would still be alive if it wasn't for you!' 'Get out of my sight you little hoe!' I was about to press the blade down when suddenly my phone started to ring. 'Fuck. Who the hell will call me?' I thought. I grabbed my phone and answered.
"Hello?"
"Hey Yami!"
"Kaoru?"
"Yup!"
"How the hell did you fuckers get my number?"
"Woah the language Yami!" I heard Hikaru yell.
"Kyoya told us." Kaoru said.
"How the hell-"
"Yami are you ok? Your voice sounds cracked." I didn't respond right away.
"Yami?"
"...I'm fine..."
"Oh are you-"
"Call me later when I'm not busy." I quickly hung up. 'Shit' I slammed my back against the wall and slid down. "They can't find out..." I said to myself. I sobbed in my arms. Why is life so cruel? Why does my mind keep bringing up unwanted memories? Why?
The next morning I got up, put on the bandages around my chest. Put my hair in a high pony, and got into my uniform. When I arrived at my class I notice I was the first one like always. So to keep me busy I started to wring more lyrics to my song.
Oh, you tell me to hold on
Oh, you tell me to hold on
But innocence is gone
And what was right is wrong
'Cause I'm bleeding out
So if the last thing that I do
Is to bring you down
I'll bleed out for you
So I bare my skin
And I count my sins
And I close my eyes
And I take it in
And I'm bleeding out
I'm bleeding out for you (for you)
When the hour is nigh
And hopelessness is sinking in
And the wolves all cry
To fill the night with hollering
When your eyes are red
And emptiness is all you know
With the darkness fed
I will be your scarecrow
Two hand suddenly slammed on my desk. I looked up from my writing and saw 2 identical faces. I blinked.
"What was with the phone call?" Asked Hikaru.
"I told you I was busy."
"Not that. You sounded like you were crying." Kaoru said.
"I-I w-wasn't."
"You just stuttered." Kaoru pointed out.
"Imfine." I said quickly. I looked down and started writing again.
"Come on you can tell us we are friends right?" I stopped writing. Why did he have to saw the f word?
"I don't have friends. And I said I was fine. Now leave me alone can't you see I'm busy?"
"Ouch that hurt." They both said. Kaoru took the paper with my lyrics on it away from me.
"Hey!" I yelled.
"Is this a song?" He asked. Hikaru raised an eyebrow in question. Kaoru handed him the paper.
"Oh..." He said.
"And if it is a song?" I asked jumping trying to get my lyrics back. I really hated being 5'3ft.
"Then you're going to have to play it for us." Kaoru replied.
"No."
"Why not?" They asked.
"Because I said no. Now give me my lyrics." I said still jumping.
"Hey Kaoru. Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" Hikaru said looking over to his brother. Kaoru smiled and nodded.
"Alright!" They both exclaimed. "Let's play which one is Hikaru game."
"Let's play what?"
"It's really simple." One started.
"You just have to guess which one is Hikaru, if you get it wrong you have to play the song for us." The other finished. Before I could say anything the twins put on some caps and moved around.
"Ok which one is Hikaru?" They said at the same time.
"This is stupid."
"Come on." I sighed.
"Fine. Hikaru right. Kaoru left. Now hand over the paper."
"Wrong!" They said.
"What? No I'm right." They shook their heads.
"Nope!"
"I know you guys are lying!vi know you are! How are you going to tell me I'm wrong?" They said nothing they just handed me my song.
"See I knew it." I was going to grab it but they pulled away.
"Why?"
"Huh?"
"Why did you say that?"
"Oh well it's easy. Kaoru has a higher pitch voice and Hikaru is slightly taller." The teacher came in and everyone had to take there seats. In the middle of the lesson Kaoru passed me my song. At the bottom of the paper it said 'you are the only other person besides Haruhi to get it right.'
those lyrics aren't mine they are by Imagine Dragons. The song is called Bleeding Out.