Chapter 3- Forced To Turn
Tonks started and sat bolt upright in bed, her heart thumping in her chest and her body drenched in sweat. She was shaking badly and her head was pounding.Groaning she slumped back on the pillows and covered her face in her hands, letting the steady flow of tears that she had been holding back for so long, roll uncontrollably down her love heart shaped face as she recounted the events of her dream. It had been about Remus rejecting her, yet again. A feeling of loneliness and sadness threatened to overwhelm her as she lay there.
"I have nothing to do with him anymore, all he's doing is making me more depressed at the moment, I willnot let him affect me" though Tonks. Deciding she needed a walk to clear her head she swiftly got up and pulled her jeans and black top on over her pajamas. Throwing a dark black cloak over herself on her way through the small foyer of her house, she slammed the door to her simple house shut, and started walking to where her feet carried her. Inhaling the sweet air helped her lungs a great deal as she tried not to trip over a bunch of fallen branches from a tree. Making her way into a large park she looked around, upon finding nobody she started walking on her way again, passing a huge pond that's surface rippled in the cool breeze.
Marching up a small hill she begun to become entangled in her thoughts again. Remus wasn't acting like he normally was around her since they had that fight. That was obviously due to the fact that they had become distant over time and had only acknowledged each others presence with a small nod whenever in the same room. It had saddened her deeply to find that Remus had never shared the same feelings as she did about him, but somewhere deep down inside she forgave him, she always kinda knew he would never love her, never even liked her, nobody did these days. All except Sirius, but even he was to messed up with Harry and James he never truly noticed his own family well enough.
So entangled she was in those thoughts that she didn't notice the dark outline of a certain masked somebody behind her, and the smooth slender piece of wood they had raised to head level. With a muttered curse and a blinding flash of red light, Nymphadora fell to the floor silently, her world becoming fuzzy and unfocused all around her. Looking at the sky a dark shadow loomed above her, it was a Death Eater, the Death mask made it to obvious. She tried to grab her wand, but her hand was too heavy and as her world blanked out, she could hear the shrill laughter of her crazy Aunt, taunting her as though she were a defenseless child.
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3 Days Later
"Sirius I wanted to talk to you 3 days ago, but I never came to it" Remus said looking toward his friend.
"Shoot" said Sirius through a mouth full of hard bread.
"Sirius I think I'm going to go and talk to her about it" Remus stated over his breakfast of bacon and eggs cooked so wonderfully by Mrs. Weasley who had left 5 minutes ago heading for the Ministry of magic.
"I'm telling ya mate, it's not worth the trouble" Sirius slumped down onto the small couch by the fire and slowly turned to his best friend.
"Why not?" Remus inclined his head looking utterly confused.
"Because, she probably likes somebody else now, you know her, and she would still be mad at you" Sirius looked over at the fire purposely avoiding his Lupin's eyes. In truth he knew his cousin still had feelings for the old werewolf, but he couldn't stand to see him put her down again.
"I haven't spoken to her in ages; every time we see each other we only acknowledge one another's presence, even though I haven't seen her for the past 3 days."
"Funny that, think someone should check on her?" Sirius's faced was crinkled with concern.
"Nah, Kingsley went to do that this afternoon, just after the third meeting she missed in a row." Sirius only nodded his brow still frowned lost deep in his thoughts.
"Anyway,, I know she's angry at me but I still want to talk to her and be good friends, I still miss that, and to tell you the truth, the things I said to her that night about not having the same feelings" Sirius looked back to Lupin's face with full attention "were not true, I do have the same feelings; to be honest" Sirius's eyes grew wide at this comment and he sat bolt upright.
"So you do love her!"
Lupin raised his eyebrows, looking at Sirius as though he was a four year old boy "Didn't you hear anything I said!"
"Yeah I did, you said that you only said those things, and that you really do have feelings for my klutz of a cousin" Sirius grinned mischievously "And wait until she finds out!"
"NO!!!" Lupin darted up standing over a stunned Sirius.
"Why not!!"
"Because…"
"Because what!""
"There are certain things getting in the way of our relationship!"
"What things?"
"Things that don't concern you!"
"What doesn't concern me?"
"A lot of things that you've stuck your paw into!"
"What have I stuck my paw in now?"
"My Business"
"Yeah, and that business your dealing with, concerns my cousin!!!!"
Lupin sat back down on the wooden chair he had jumped out of, a defeated look hanging on his face. How could he have thought to avoid this whole conversation with Sirius, he had had this talk with a great many people before, it was foolish to think it could go un-discussed this time.
"Ok, let me get this straight for you" Remus took a deep breath as if hoping this was the last time he had to say this, "I cant be with Tonks, because for one thing I'm to poor and would never be able to support any family start-"
"Yeah, but she has a job, she's an Auror, she would be getting plenty of money and it would be enough to support the Weasley family, and that's saying something" Sirius said wagging his finger in Lupin's direction.
"It would feel funny being supported by a woman like her" Remus hung his head.
"What kind of woman is that!?" asked Sirius sharply.
"A beautiful and strong woman that deserves more than an old man like myself, which brings the next problem, Sirius I'm 8 years her senior, she's barley a woman and I'm nearly an old man that had shabby robes and graying hair, any child of mine would only see me as a no good old man that lets himself down all the time" Remus sighed his spirits low and his heart dampened.
"You would be a great father!" Sirius caught the surprised look Lupin gave him and hastily added "You would!!! And anyway, just because you're older than her doesn't mean you can't have a relationship. I mean look at me for example I've had the privilege of dating plenty of younger women and they liked it, they didn't mind."
"Yeah, but Sirius no offence mate, any girl would want you and they were just dates this is something much larger, and the third reason is that I'm just to dangerous the way I am."
"Just because you're a dam werewolf!!! A werewolf! Just take precautions before the full moon every month, it's just one day in every month that that happens and you're responsible enough to manage that" Sirius burst out.
"But what if one day I-"
"So what! She's a fully trained Auror for God's sake don't you think she'd be able to handle herself well" Remus shook his head, Sirius rolled his eyes "Well look enough excuses, the real question you should be asking yourself is….do you love her, truly love her?"
Remus sighed for what seemed the millionth time that day "I do-"
BANG!!!
The door to the kitchen flew open and in hurried Kingsley Shaklebolt, Mad-Eye Moody and Arthur Weasley their faces masks of terror and as white as a ghost.
"What Happened!!!?" asked Sirius jumping up and scurrying over to them, Remus at his heels.
All the men were out of breath, their chests were heaving and they were slumped over chairs or a kitchen bench. Remus hurried to get them water but was stopped by Kingsley.
"No time for that, we gotta get moving" he said as best he could his accent could still be heard over his puffing.
"What happened!?" repeated Sirius calmly his temper swinging.
"It's Tonks!" Mad Eye burst out wheezing.
All the colour that was left in Lupin's face vanished instantly as the words left his mouth. His world seemed to sink and crash around him. If anything had happened to her he knew truly it was his fault and he wouldn't be able to live like that with himself.
"What about her?" he asked almost at a whisper, his voice seemed to be failing him, it seemed broken.
"She's been kidnapped, by the Death Eaters no doubt, we just found out after we went to check on her we found this on her doorstep" Arthur held up a sliver, daunting Death Eaters mask that sent a shiver down all their spines "……Lupin- "Arthur had found his breath and was now looking at Remus sympathetically.
"It doesn't look good" said Moody truthfully glancing from Remus to Sirius's nauseous faces, "We asked around the office and she hasn't been to work in 3 days, nobody's heard from her or seen her or anything, she hasn't been to any of the meetings and you would have thought someone would notice but nobody did, so she could be anywhere by now, its as if she's just vanished off the face of the Earth!"
"But she must be alive somewhere!!" Remus was now frantic with worry and panic was threatening to overwhelm him.
"We have all of the Order looking for her, all over London, they're in Hogwarts and everywhere she normally visits, but I still reckon the Death Eaters have got her." Moody stumped over and out the door, everybody else in the room at his heels.
"Then what's the point in searching for her in those places if Voldermort's got her" Sirius burst out once they were in the hall way, waking Mrs. Black up.
"Filth and scum, lost their Half Blood mutant, that no good bi-"she begun to shriek.
"SHUT UP" roared Sirius drawing his wand and sending a violet colored curse shrieking in the direction of her portrait. It hit her painted face with a hard jolt; she suddenly stopped, her face frozen in shock and pain. The ends of the red curtains slowly closed as she shrunk back in fear, the portrait becoming completely consumed by the curtains.
"That was harsh" Arthur stated.
"She deserved it, now any way lets all go join-"Sirius started stepping towards the door.
"No Black!" growled Moody.
"What do you mean NO!!!?" Sirius shouted, this time Mrs. Black stayed silent.
"You're a wanted man, your not getting into trouble and making more trouble for us" Moody tried to conclude, but Sirius would go down without a fight.
"FOR MERLIN'S SAKE SHE'S MY COUSIN" he bellowed at the top of his lungs, but continued in a broken voice, "If anything happens to her I couldn't live with myself."
"Sirius you're not the only one that cares for her, for heavens sake look around you at the meeting's for once" Remus grabbed Sirius by the shoulders and shook him roughly "I care about her, it would be me if anyone to blame, I told her all those things and left her vulnerable, like a innocent bird in a nest of vultures, It's my fault she with Bellatrix and Voldermort and not here with us where she belongs, I telling you, its all my fault!!!!!!!" Sirius stepped back from Remus as though he had been slapped in the face, but his features was quickly masked with annoyance.
"YOU" he jabbed a finger at Remus "just find her in my place!" With that he stormed off toward Buckbeaks room to mourn by himself.
Remus started after him, but was held up by Kingsley's hand, "Not now man, lets go find her."
Remus turned toward them, the three men Moody, Arthur and Kingsley walked out the black door and down the stone steps, into the dark sky that was now illuminated with rumbling thunder. Remus followed them looking out at the sky and accepting the hard, wet, rain that was pelting from the dark, cloud, clogged sky like bullets. A flash of purple thunder echoed around the little street, lighting up the deep scars on his face and the dangerous hint Remus had in his eyes that meant business.
He walked after the other men, and turning on the spot vanished into the night.
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