A/N: I'm unsurprisingly getting mental blocks but here's my update! I shouldn't be writing right now because I have exams coming up. Therefore I might not be as religious on updating, as you can see.
Guest: Yes, I deliberately made it so because Rachel is soo cute with her short hair. Thank you for your review!
Rosie: Thank you for your review! You make writing this worthwhile. To be honest, S5 is just a waste of time. I almost abandoned this story because of what happened at 5x08 last sunday. I'm glad to have shown you a new perspective to Valkubus. Sorry for the late update! I hope you enjoy this. Also, travelling huh?:D Must be nice having a change of scenery every once and a while.
I don't own Lost Girl because I'm an inexperienced writer who doesn't live in Canada.
P.S: I'm finally using punctuation a.k.a adding "-" to the dialogue as opposed to just italicizing them. XD Sorry, I get lazy ahah
P.S.S: Bo has discovered a new power. You know the way she usually has to make people horny before she can suck the shit out of them? ahah Well now she can separate sexual chi & this pure form of energy apart from each other. The color of the flow would be gold. Her eyes would glow gold instead of blue. She can extract it from the air, or by touching someone (like charming.)
Side effects to the receiving end: Nothing! Unless she takes excessive amounts, it'll cause fatigue and deep sleep.
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"Kenzi.." Bo lightly shook the smaller woman, taking the arm that was firmly tucked over her waist and tries to extract it away from her gently.
In all honesty, she could easily get out of the embrace to sit up, but she decides not to as the russian looked very peaceful in her sleeping position.
She missed this type of close contact, without worrying for anything to get sexual.
Speaking of sexual.
Bo hasn't fed for over three weeks now. With Kenzi present, she relies and thrives on her constant moments of enthusiasm to replenish her, even if it's just a little bit.
It's not like she didn't need the chi, she did.
But after feeding throughout the year, she found out that she's ill-fatedly attached to a bad conscience. Therefore, in the last three months or so, she's been only been fed twice.
One from Lauren and one from that woman she can hardly recall the face of.
She could be on tie between life and death and all she has to do is go to a pub or a stadium with enough excitement and she would be good as new. Although, she admits to being constantly fatigued due to her rarely going out.
Fuck being a succubus.
She slowly reached for her phone on the nightstand with her other hand to check the time and it read 8:48am.
She decides to wake Kenzi up at nine, thinking about her plans for the day while taking a lock of Kenzi's hair and twirling it around her fingers.
Time to be pro-active. No time moping around Bo.
She's gone, remember that. She reminded firmly to herself.
X AT NINE A.M X
"Kenzi.." She tried again, this time softly pinching Kenzi's nose together.
She left it there for about twelve seconds until..
"Mmmrgghh..!" Kenzi immediately sat up.
"What the fae..?" She quickly scans her surroundings and lands her suddenly-alive eyes on Bo. "Bo?!"
"Sorry I had to.." Bo chuckled.
"You were asleep as a baby, and I have been trying to wake you up. If I didn't do anything we would've wasted another day doing nothing." She explained.
"But we always waste our days away." Kenzi huffed, sounding like an irritated child.
And like a ton of bricks, it hit her.
Wait.. what? Shit! Kenzi says to herself, feeling more alert now that she'd recall being assigned to a specific duty on this day in particular.
She was afraid Bo might remember what day it was today.
"H-hold on.." Kenzi quickly continues. "Did you just try to kill me in my SLEEP?! Wow. I was at a disadvantage.. and..y-you and I.. just.. okay." She stands up, crossing her arms and looking intensely at the other brunette.
"Sooner or later you will regret this." She makes a V with her forefinger and middle finger, brings it to her face, then turns it around and jabs it at Bo's direction as if to say "I got my eyes on you."
Bo smiles a little smile, and she furrows her brow like she was trying hard to think of something important.
"Hmmmm.. I have to go somewhere today." She finally said.
Now Kenzi was really on edge. She felt as though her stomach were doing somersaults and backflips, like she was about to vomit from the nervousness and Bo wasn't even aware of it.
"What..? No, Bobo.. let's stay here!" She suggested, trying to hide her unease.
"I think uh.. season four of Orange Is The New Black finally aired on Netflix after like-" She did a quick calculation in her head. "-seven months. Isn't that weird? I checked. I promise." She stated frantically as she fumbled to punch a sequence of buttons on the remote control.
"Are you on premium?! Probably explains why you didn't have it until.. today!" She squeals in over-enthusiasm as she turns Bo's attention to the T.V screen. Much to Bo's lack of interest, Kenzi was telling the truth.
"Kenzi… are you okay?" Bo looks to her direction, slightly feeling the tension radiating off of her best friend.
Think Kenz! Last resort!
She quickly racks her brain on other ideas to divert Bo's attention.
Gotcha!
"I-I..I'm not okay." Kenzi willed herself to cry.
God I can't believe I'm doing this.
Think about puppies, cute puppies.. bad fae slaughtering cute puppies?
She manages to bring about a drop of tear from each eye, but after thinking about the puppies seconds later, she was full-on crying.
Bo stands up to approach her and asks her what's wrong.
"It's .. it's Hale." Fuck! God damn it! I'm not even supposed to be fake crying and now I'm using my fiancé as an excuse. Sorry babe! She apologized to Hale, wherever he was.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't know." Bo said, feeling guilty.
"It's.. it's okay." She sniffled, "I guess I'm just overreacting.. but I.. I miss him so much and being with you all the time helps me forget." She continued, going over to the corner with her back to Bo and helped herself to a box of tissues.
Just this day human, you can't fuck this up. Act cute.
"Oh Kenz, it's okay. I'll always be here for you."
"I just wanted to go to the grocery. I remembered we didn't have much food left so I figured I should wake you up early so we could get some shopping done."
Kenzi was in the middle of fake-blowing her nose "Oh. T-the grocery store..?" She murmurs into the tissue.
"Yeah.. wanna come with?" Bo extends her arm to Kenzi's direction. "I'll buy you tubs of ice cream to make you feel better." She makes an open and close action with her hand, raising her eyebrows up and down suggestively as she did so.
X AT THE GROCERY STORE X
"You know, I hear they have a new line of Cheetos. But it's supposed to taste disgusting." Kenzi said, scrunching her nose as she tried to remember what Cheeto flavor it was they released a few weeks ago.
"Yeah, I think it was wasabi flavor or something.." Bo said with equal distaste.
"I like mini-grocerying with you again, BoBo. It was so boring getting food for myself in Spain. All I had was ice-cream and wine and cereals and wine.." She listed off using her fingers. "I'm surprised I'm not fat yet." Kenzi continued, now trying to grab hold of the hardly-present flabs on her stomach.
"Kenzi, your tiny body is smart enough to proportion all the nasty junk you eat into all the right places." Bo said.
"So what? Are you a doctor now?" Kenzi teased, bring her face close to Bo's and rubbing her nose on the other woman's cheek.
Bo was about to respond when she felt a light tap on her shoulder.
She turned around slowly and was met by a (cute) guy with dimples in a leather jacket and blue jeans.
"Hi, my name is Jay." He smiled a kind smile, all the while offering his hand to shake Bo's.
"Bo. Do I know you?" Bo asked, returning the gesture.
"No, you don't. But I saw you at the Dal two weeks ago and thought you were beautiful." Jay stated bluntly.
The petite human went on her tippy-toes to whisper sternly into Bo's ear. "Wow, creepy stalker fae much?!"
"Hey, I heard that." Jay said with a chuckle.
"Hm." Bo eyed him up and down. "What do you need?" Bo asked with suspicion.
"I was wondering if I could buy you both a drink. The night is on me, it's the first day of Yule after all."
Bo's eyes were glazed and her mouth forms into a small "O" upon realization. She knew something was amiss. She couldn't believe she forgot that today was the first day of Yule. In remembering, it was like a piece of a puzzle fit perfect into a certain place in her heart. Flashes of images flood into her brain and her chest suddenly felt heavy. Very heavy.
After losing her trail of thought for a minute, Bo shook her head and politely refused.
The evident disappointment was present from the male. Nonetheless, Jay asks for Bo to call him incase she changes her mind and hands her his business card. Bo accepts with fake sincerity and the guy starts to strut elsewhere, his self-esteem radiating from a mile away.
As soon as the weird Fae was out of range, Bo haphazardy tossed the card into an aisle of vegetables and walked to the opposite direction, taking Kenzi with her.
After minutes of walking, Bo turns to Kenzi, totally realizing why she was freaking out so much earlier in the morning.
Bo continues to stare until the petite woman caved in and looked up at her just above the eyelashes. The guilt obvious behind her icy-blue eyes.
"Are you hiding something from me?" Bo asked with squinted eyes, a list of possible scenarios playing in her head but she waits for Kenzi's response anyway.
Kenzi quickly shook her head "No." before the question was even finished. She realized what an epic fail that must have looked like in trying to deliver the lie.
"I-Is.." Bo hesitates, not believing the words that are coming out of her mouth. "Is Tamsin here?"
Kenzi stood with her mouth agape, but she doesn't dare to reveal anything.
Bo asked again, this time her voice booming into the corridor full of dairy products.
"Oh my god, Bo!" Kenzi harshly whispered, incredulous that Bo would make such a scene in a public place.
The russian drags Bo into a corner and grumbled a "Yes." in utter defeat.
That was all that Bo needed to hear. She drops her basketful of food and looked around like she wanted to run as fast as she could to the nearest exit. As she rose her leg up to sprint, Kenzi tries to block her.
"Please, I tried so hard to keep this away from you. I figured it was for the best." Kenzi continued, speaking as fast as she could to try and change Bo's mind.
"Are you kidding me?! Were you actually serious about keeping me away from The Dal for the whole two weeks?!" Bo said, equally as rapid.
Kenzi suddenly gets very sad, realizing now that she wouldn't be able to due to Bo's stubborn nature, she was bound to leave the house somehow.
"I guess me trying to keep you at your own apartment was just wishful thinking huh." Kenzi said, suddenly feeling very dumb. She leans back into one of the concrete walls, seeming to contemplate whether it was wise for her to just let Bo go and chase the love of her life.
If I was placed in the same position, I would do so much more.
I miss you so much, Hale.
"Kenzi, I can't let her get away this time." Bo pleaded as she replayed that dreaded scenario she had been dreaming for the past two years over and over again in her mind.
Without being aware of her body's response, she looked as if she was having a nervous breakdown. She had been taking fast and shallow breaths. Her heart was palpitating and her hands were clammy. It was as if her body knew that letting go of Tamsin this time would probably be the end of her. She was literally sweating in all the wrong places.
"It's still early, she might still be there." Bo begged even further, desperation clear in her eyes.
She is there. Kenzi said to herself. It was probably one of the truest things she has ever said all morning.
Kenzi stands up straight and sighs. Bo took this as a sign and ran as fast as she could to her car, with Kenzi right behind her.
x
"God, this is so cliché." Kenzi rolled her eyes playfully as soon as they got inside the vehicle.
As they drove 80km/hr on the freeway, Kenzi mentions something that nearly wanted Bo to veer off the road and smash into a tree.
"Remember when we were skyping the first few months I moved into the vacation house?" She waits for Bo's response, but when she received none she continued. "Well, imagine my surprise when I wake up one morning from our session to find my beloved Valkyrie lying on the grass in front of my backgarden." She heard Bo gasp softly and then huff out a shaky breath.
"She looked really exhausted Bo. Her wings were splayed out. It was dirty and rugged.. like she just went through a really bad storm." Kenzi said as she tried to remember the mixed feelings and confusion she had felt when that particular scenario unfolded in front of her.
Bo imagined the situation Kenzi was describing to her. She bites her lip and winces as she felt sharp pangs of pain coming from her heart. She focuses her attention on the road, wanting nothing but to get out and breathe fresh air as she promptly felt claustrophobic.
"She crashed like a plane, as in she left those feet skid marks. It was a depressing sight."
"After staying at mine for 2 weeks, she finally confessed to me about what happened to you guys."
"She basically gave you her girl virginity."
She could hear Bo trying to suppress her sounds of pain. She knew all too well that Bo was an impassioned creature and she certainly wasn't one who tried to be strong, emotional-wise. Kenzi looked over to Bo's direction and she could see the tears brimming on her best friend's eyes, threatening to fall if she much as little blinks.
A long silence ensued, and Kenzi was about to give up on hearing her response when Bo suddenly cleared her throat.
"Kenzi, I really don't know what to say. I just want to be there right now. I don't care if she doesn't acknowledge me, I just want to see her in one piece." Bo solemnly replied after composing herself.
X AFTER A WHILE X
"So when we were skyping.." Bo mumbled. "You mean to say when we were skyping and I was crying over Tamsin on video.. she was there all along?!" She asked Kenzi in embarrassment.
"What type of person would do that?!"
"I asked you if she was there with you and you said no. On a scale of one to hella guilty, how mean was it for you to keep her away from me?" Bo was now rapidly asking questions, feeling the heat creep up to the sides of her ears.
"One, it wasn't stupid because you hurted her." Kenzi said in a matter-of-fact tone. "You can't do that to people Bo."
"Yes, I know." Bo agreed as she calmed herself down. "That's why I'll try and make it up to her." She said in a slightly more determined tone.
Kenzi noticed this and turns to look at her. Then she lowered her gaze into one of the leather boxes beside the gear shift stick, slowly tracing her fingers on the soft interior as she contemplated what to say.
"I'm going to have to tell you to slow down, Bo." She started. "She left three months after literally crashing into my place, telling me thanks and that she was going to find herself for a while. I have never seen her since." Kenzi said in a careful voice.
"All she said was that she was probably going to meet me at Yule this year. So I told Trick beforehand." She tightly shut her eyes as she expects the lecture Bo was about to give her.
"Oh my god!" Bo exclaimed credulously. "I can't believe you all managed to keep this from me while I was literally on the verge of killing myself!" Bo said as her anger managed to creep it's way back to her head again. She slaps her hand hard against the steering wheel to distract herself and then clutched onto it like she was about to take it out of it's position. The truck jerked roughly to the left by the action.
Kenzi looks at her, feeling shocked all the while keeping an eye on the road. "Don't say that Bo!" She knows now that an emotional succubus is a dangerous succubus.
She felt like the shittiest best friend in the world.
"It has done you some good, trust me." She looks at her favorite person in the world in the eyes, trying to comfort her without physical contact.
"I know it did." Bo said through gritted teeth willing, for the second time, to calm herself down before she does something stupid.
"Forgive me." Kenzi said in a sad voice. She didn't want to hurt her best friend, but she knew it was a wise choice giving both Tamsin and Bo their well deserved space.
One to clear her head, and the other to realize her mistake.
"I would have done the same if Hale was still alive & hurt you the way I hurt Tamsin." Bo uttered lowly, trying to find a rational side to this.
"I forgive you." Bo said with finality as she slammed hard on the accelerator, even more determined to fulfill her purpose in hopes of mending the broken wall the Valkyrie had tried to build around her heart for years.
Bo knew that she was the only one who could break it, but she also knew that she was the only one who could fix it.
X FORTY FIVE MINUTES LATER X
Bo hastily gets out of the car, not even bothering to wait for Kenzi anymore. She took long strides to The Dal all the while cursing about the rush hour that took her more minutes than necessary to get to her destination.
She slams the door open and quickly scans the bar for the familiar figure of the Valkyrie.
Tamsin.. where are you?
Bo starts to lose hope as she walked around everywhere and not finding an inch of evidence that the blonde was present here. She turns to check around the pub once again but stops as she caught a glimpse of a woman with short blonde hair rapidly descending into Trick's study.
…Tamsin?
A/N: Moment of truth. CLIFFHANGER! And what a long ass car ride hehe