Note :I am sorry for being late, I was stuck with too much things and I finally finished. I hope this story gets better. I love to see that some read it because at the beginning I thought it was boring :\ . Thanks again for everyone reading : )) you honestly encourage me.
Well, you know how Levi speaks, so I am sorry if you happen to see the F word 0 _0 ( I have never used it and I really never wanted to), but I had to make the speech more realistic to some characters..
I hope this chapter isn't silly, I would want some half drama half-humor
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Enough time had passed already, 6 hours of sleeping then Petra woke up.
''Glad to see you wake up darling '' Petra saw her father place a chair to set next to where she was laying. He placed a filled cup on the nightstand. '' you forgot about the herbs, so I made them into a warm drink for you.''
''Thanks papa'' she suddenly found him giving her a hearty pat on her head '' pay more attention to yourself dear Petra''.
Not that it was a strange thing for a father to care for his daughter , but he still coddled her the same way he used to do when she was a child. That didn't annoy her, it made her all the more happy for having such a fond father . Apparently, the innocent smile she had as a child was still shown on her face, not abandoning it.
He spoke to her, more discreet '' once again my dear daughter, you never failed to prove to me that the decision of joining the survey corps wasn't a bad idea, it was a blessing in disguise, you earned another family.'' At first, he was disappointed and thought it was ghastly to join the army, but then, he held faith and trust in his daughter's choices in life. '' I knew all along that you would carry the meaning of your name, it means rock, you have always been as strong as a rock. A strong soldier helping humanity too.'' His orbs looked so quiet, yet Petra still could see how lovingly proud of her he was.
He still had things to say. Not wanting to appear more worried than he was, he shifted his eyes from Petra to the curtains billowing slightly by a cool breeze. As he calmly and pensively mused at them ,he briefly stopped for himself to breath out his words.
''Petra dear, I don't want to be pushy but I want to know why does Levi keep speaking so formal to me, we are all one family. Am I a problem or something?'' Mr. Ral was strangely dispirited, he couldn't help but wonder why was it that Levi was still too formal, weren't they all a family already ? confusion couldn't stay hidden beneath his silenced face as he was gazing at the window, and surely Petra would understand his words without being all said.
''no father, not at all. In fact, you are one of the few people that he feels ease being around them, it's just that...it's about his past..'' she trailed quietly for minutes, Petra was on the borderline between ever telling her father about Levi's past or just folding words deeply within her mind, concealing them. .Never had the silence been heavier before..
He looked again at his daughter, sending his words to unravel such unusually prolonged silence between them '' I don't want you to reveal what he wants to be a secret about his past. I don't want to be pushy.'' Her reverent father only wanted to seek understanding and so patiently he did.
Petra knew that Levi would eventually let him know. Soon afterwards, she decided to tell him.
''no, father, Levi would want you to know sooner or later.'' Little by little she was drinking the herbs before they get cold..and maybe for the sake of lessening the taste of bitter words still lingering in her throat as she reluctantly breathed them out.. heavily weighed on the heart… the luminous bright smile was washed away, turning into dark prominent features in a brief time.
And so Petra started to tell her father why Levi was less talkative and so formal because he had never been exposed to much social life and family intimacy. Being sometimes stolid was because he didn't communicate much or frequently meet new people. It helped nothing but make family affection strange and foreign to him. It all started at the underground where he once lived- if that would even be called a life- that reeked with danger within every edge of a darkened corner..' to kill or be killed ' was the stigma somehow imposed on Levi in that life; he grew so cold and at a certain point really stoic . Petra knew better, she didn't blame him, not that he was insensible but his heart was hurt enough until it reached a state of numbness that he didn't care to feel pain anymore. The absence of safety that time, losing his close friends, and seeing that the mostly worst people only remained was something too painfully tragic making him want to stay emotionally passive, scarcely get used to trusting certain people and sometimes getting unsettled around too much of them.
He was still trapped in his own past by that time, he choked on the ' farewell' he had to unfortunately give to Farlan and Isabel in such twisting heartache ! If people would forgetfully throw their misery easily, he probably would not. Yes, long time had passed since those misfortunate things happened, but all still affected levi's interactions with others for what would seem deep, if not permanent. All these memories being locked away were too much, he was emptied from everything except emptiness.
Her heart was swept with hurt and she felt fuzzy pain when she had to newly tell this to her father. If only memories were less distressing. Thuggery….murders…blood everywhere …then came along his friends…then titans…..and then…blood again...then…utmost ache burning his heart…smoldering it into ashes… he was too desolate.. A fiery agony behind that cool façade left him in a rigorously aloof disposition when encountering others ..
Mr. Ral released a sad sigh with sympathy written all over his face among knowing all that. Petra returned her eyes looking back at him to see the very much sorrow falling so sadly shattered, akin to bewildered depression as he spoke ''he is such a good fellow that did the right thing to abandon that life and give an honorary help protecting mankind from titans. I don't think he deserved a past like that.''
'' now I truly understand, Petra, that's why I wish Levi and us would become closer, so that we could at least make up for some of those losses by becoming a closer family by now.'' He looked at the wall as if hope was buried in corners for them to grasp it. Petra was listening carefully to what her father said and then pondered in realms of thought. He was still greeted with silence framing through her face. More than ever, She had a growing intention to endow them every care . All she could think of was hope for a better future ,she smiled with a little bit of dreaminess in her voice '' we will try to erase sadness in his heart and we'll be a good family to him. I do hope he will feel better'' them becoming a family was already an enough token of sincere love held between their precious lives. she wanted more of that beautiful family reunion they shared though they hadn't fully yet seen.
Mr. Ral returned his smile with a voice speaking volumes of hope likewise hers'' so do I''.
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Having their third month examination recently finished. They all gathered at a convenient area of the school yard. Finally having enough time to breathe fresh air and escape nightmarish times when they had to stay up late to study for exams.
''ugh... three months already and I am feeling crappy from head to toe.'' Said Jean, he leant his crossed hands at the back of his head and propped them on the wall.
As for Bertolt, setting in front of Annie and Reiner, he spoke in his usual way of life, saying candidly, ''for me, here is quite ok.''
Armin was the only one pleasantly ok with having exams, there was a beam colored with satisfaction on his face.
Sasha, said something out of the blue, her (light-hearted mode) always turned (on), ''mmmmm…this potato sandwich is totally delicious I could never stop my stomach from craving for more!''
No wonder she is called potato girl , thought Reiner
''those stupid exams deprived me of sleep, big time…that I ended up dreaming of creepy denture-recycling factories !'' said Connie, slapping his knees clumsily and causing his shoulders to shake up and down by a hysterical cackle. Sasha had the urge to hit him on his back, but to no use she resigned to her fail of hitting him and she raved
'' shtop it mmmnom nom Connie I am eating my shandwich mmmnom nom now !'' nagging out while chewing.
Jean raised an eyebrow at him'' seriously Connie what the fu** ?''
Ymir narrowed her eyes at Connie '' Yuck !That is not even funny at the slightest, this is disgusting..!'' and then huffed.
Eren just shrugged, getting used to his friends' weird behavior.
Connie protested '' am I the only one who doesn't want to be a killjoy here.? jeez…chill out..'' showing irritation from his classmates who shot annoyed gestures at him unanimously, except for Krista, she felt a sudden need to cool things down a bit'' relax guys'' then softened her voice deeply as if pleading '' everyone are friends after all.'' Mina winked at Krista while sweetly pinching her cheek '' well..aren't you an angel.'' because she was kindhearted not wanting any disagreement to ruin friendship.
Although Annie sat in the outermost, her dormant eyes were staring at Connie Quietly, but mentally, she pictured herself giving him her hefty kick that she was well known for. She forgets about it, there would be more trouble to come, better not do something that would mess things up. Connie seemed stationary for moments because he knew her voiceless stare could still scream '' you are a goner !'' at him. He exclaimed ingenuously '' what ? was it something I said? .b- but I was not joking, that's what I really saw in my dream!'' Frankly, Connie was inwardly puzzled at the moment as Ymir whispered to him ''judging from the look of Annie, here is a friendly reminder… shut it or you're done for.. '' Annie's threatening glare was an embodiment of something deadly and Connie was deterred at that sight.
Reiner crossed his arms over his chest, half amused of the ludicrous things Connie said. ''Relax..maybe that was what he did see in his dream, or he was just trying to be funny.''
Annie glumly grumbled ''It won't be funny when I kick him the old-fashioned way as he kicked out my appetite, I was going to have lunch minutes ago but thanks to him now it's out of question.''
Then, Bertolt spoke to him '' we really do believe you Connie, but you didn't have to tell us, at least not now.'' Trying sedately to justify without being harsh to his friend being quirky.
The activeness in their conversation didn't completely end or fuss, it luckily returned to normal. Even if what Connie said was a little repulsive , his goodness alleviated his acts. That was the typical happy-go-lucky Connie.
And then there was Mikasa, not much of a talkative girl, she sat with a little sullen pout, '' I know they are my friends and all, but they are day by day growing younger and childish…. I mean literally..''
Eren stood with a stare corresponding to hers , he had something on his mind..
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