Chapter 4: The Confrontation
I get a call from L about a week later. I'm with Light, so I have to keep it a secret.
"I have to take this, sorry."
"Okay." He replies, not looking at me. Slightly hurt, I answer the phone.
"Hello, Miss Honda, I have a request for you."
"I'm listening."
"I have placed hidden cameras and microphones all around the Yagami house. I want you to keep an eye on Light Yagami."
"So you can see and hear me?"
"Yes."
"That's… unsettling, but I will do what you ask."
"Thank you, Miss Honda."
"You've gained the right to call me Iliana, Ryuzaki."
"You do have a pretty name," he mumbles.
"Thank you."
"Oh, you heard me." He sounds embarrassed and hangs up. I look at my cell phone in bewilderment. I turn around and Ryuk is standing right behind me. I flinch, but don't speak because I don't want Light getting into trouble. I know L will see me flinch at seemingly nothing. Taking a deep breath I go back into the living room. Light doesn't notice me return.
"Light, is something wrong?" I ask, sitting down. He says nothing at first, and then he turns to me. Without another word, he kisses me rather aggressively. I widen my eyes, surprised and a bit terrified. He's rough with me, just like in my dream.
"Lana, I want you tonight," he whispers in my ear, as he pulls me up. I hear the front door open.
"Light, we're back!" Mrs. Yagami calls out. He puts his hand over my mouth.
"All right." He calls back. I hear his mother go into the kitchen in the next room. He brings me upstairs to his room, and pins me against the door. He proceeds to kiss me in an almost hungry manner, and he tears my shirt open. I hear buttons bouncing across the floor, and I feel his rough grip as his hands run over my body. I'm absolutely terrified, but I know there isn't anything I can do to stop him. Ryuk seems to be getting angry about the way Light is treating me. He forces Light away from me.
"Enough, Light! She's terrified, can't you see that?" Ryuk angrily shouts at him. Light pants, my lipstick smeared on his mouth. I stand against the door, tears running down my face. Without another word, I open the door and run downstairs. Light follows me.
"Lana, wait!" He reaches out to me, but I back away from him. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean for that to happen. Our first time should be kinder than that, at least on my end." His sweet words surprise me. I let him fix my shirt, and he gently takes me in his arms. I wrap my arms around him, holding him close. Stay this way forever, Light, I want to say, but my voice is lost in my tears. However, this time, they are tears of happiness. "I promise I will never hurt you again," he whispers to me, kissing my head. I force a smile in response. I only do this because L told me to, but I no longer feel the same way about Light due to his unkindness to me. Light takes me home. My shirt is missing buttons, and my hair is messed up, but otherwise I look all right considering what I went through. Not saying a word to him, I go inside and watch him drive away. My cell phone rings, startling me.
"Hello?" I say, answering it.
"Miss Honda, are you all right?"
"L! Yes, I-I'm fine." I bite my lip.
"You know, I can tell when someone is lying to me. Come to my office."
"Which is where?" I look at my phone in surprise as he hangs up quickly. "Damn that man!" I blow a strand of my hair out of my face. My cell rings again. "Hello?"
"Sorry, I wasn't expecting you to say something. I'm sending you my address now. Please meet me there as soon as you can tonight."
"I understand… L?"
"Yes?"
"Have you ever fallen in love with someone and then found out something you didn't want to just to realize that that's the exact reason why you can't be with them?" I say quickly. L is silent for a while.
"I have never been in love."
"Sorry, it was an inappropriate question."
"I didn't mind."
"Forget I said anything." I hang up without knowing why. My cell rings for the third time. This time, it's Light.
"Lana? A-are you all right?"
"Light! I'm… a little shaken to be honest."
"I'm really sorry, believe me, I never meant to get out of control like that. I just… Have you ever wanted something so badly that you didn't know how to handle it?"
"Yes, I have." I bite my lip, remembering when I found out Light's secret. I remember wanting him to tell me the truth, but now I know he won't ever do so.
"Really? I didn't think you would." Light sounds surprised.
"What's your point?" I say, trying not to be snappy.
"Right, um, well… I felt like I was gonna lose you. I guess I went crazy possessive on you. I'm so sorry, Lana, I will never hurt you again."
"Light, if that's how you feel, you don't need to worry. I'm not going to be stolen from you. You're the one good thing I have in my life, and I don't want to let you go." I hate lying, but I have to for my job's sake.
"The same goes for you."
"It's late, I'd better get to bed. I love you."
"I love you too, Light. Sweet dreams."
"You too, Lana."
I hang up, my hands shaking. I take a deep, calming breath as I look at the address L sends me. I change my shirt and look into my mirror. I look suitable, but scared. Sighing, I go outside and get into my car. Resting my head on the wheel, I regain my strength before I start the engine. I drive to the hotel where L is staying. Entering his room cautiously, I squint in the bright light.
"Good evening, Miss Honda." L walks over and stands in front of me. I notice that he slouches while he's standing.
"Good evening, L."