Notes: look, I'm posting this spur of the moment, I posted chap 1 like a minute ago, this was all one chpater but I thought it might be too long. Anyway its basically unedited, if there's some huge mistake please tell me.
"I want a girl with lips like morphine, knock me out every time they touch me. I wanna feel a kiss just crush me, and break me down." sang a very hyper Jaden to Erin, everyone laughing at her mock serious expression and 'interesting' dance moves as Ashley sang the chorus, Jaden half grinning and winking at Erin, leaning down to hear her talk.
"I thought you said you weren't good?" Asked Erin, shocked, grinning. Jaden just laughed back.
"I want a girl with lips like morphine, blow a kiss that leaves me gasping. And I wanna feel that lightning strike me, and burn me down." She sang, then again Ashley sang the chorus, and then they both sang the rest of the song together, trying not to laugh and succeeding til the very end, when they all settled down onto the couch, laughing. It was almost seven thirty, and they'd been singing the whole time, well, Ashley and jade were. Spencer and Erin were too shy.
"C'mon, next song is all yours." Jaden urged Erin, grabbing the mic and laying her legs across Erin to stop her escape, and they all looked. "you know this song, not exactly happy or anything but still." She observed.
"Sing with me, please?" Begged Erin, giving Jaden that perfected pout.
"yeah, okay." Jaden immediately agreed. "That's cheating by they way, you can't whip out the pout all the time." She hit play and glanced at Erin. "You sing first verse, then I'll join in."
"Well, I know that it's early and it's too hard to think. And the broken empty bottles are reminder in the sink. But I thought that I should tell you, if it's not to late to say. I can put back all the pieces, they just might not fit the same." Erin sang hesitantly, Jaden smiling at her, then joining in.
"Cause nothing's worth losing, especially the chance to make it right.
"And I know that we're gonna be fine. And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time. As long as we live, time passes by. And we won't get it back when we die." The both sang together, Erin gaining more confidence as they went, but still not quite as loud as Jaden.
"Well I know it's been years now, and I don't look the same. And the hopes and dreams you had for me you thought went down the drain. And the room feels so empty, where my pictures used to be. And I can't say that I blame you but you can't blame me.
"Cause nothing's worth losing, especially the chance to make it right.
"And I know that we're gonna be fine. And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time. As long as we live, time passes by. And we won't get it back when we die.
"Come over, come over. Cause I gotta know, If I'm doing this all on my own. Come over, come over. How can I show you if you're not here?
"And I know that we're gonna be fine. And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time. As long as we live, time passes by. And we won't get it back when we die. And I know that we're gonna be fine. And I know that we're gonna be fine, and the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time. As long as we live, time passes by. And we won't get it back when we die." The both just kinda let the last verse go, not really interested in repeating themselves even more. Erin turned pink as Ashley and Spencer clapped, while Jaden grinned and clapped Erin on the shoulder, giving it an encouraging squeeze.
"And you started off shy." Joked Spencer. "you sing pretty well."
"Not nearly as well as these two." Said Erin, still pink while Jaden just let music play in the background.
"We sang almost constantly, we've had a lot of practice." Ashley assured her. "You're pretty talented." She smiled, then started trying to get Spencer to sing. "Please, Spence, just one song…."
"You did great." Jaden promised Erin. "You thirsty?" She asked, noticing all the sodas were empty. Ashley was still trying to get Spencer to sing while Jaden stood and pulled Erin up. "I'm gonna get soda." Erin told her when Ashley glanced up curiously. "Whatdoya want?"
"Rockstar." Ashley requested. "You're my buddy." She grinned, happy she didn't have to get up. "Spence, Pepsi?" She guessed, getting a nod.
"We'll be right back." Jaden said, grabbing Erin's hand and leading her to the kitchen. "Ashley was about to make out with Spencer to get her to sing." She commented off handedly to Erin, explaining their sudden exit. "It gets awkward." She added, opening the fridge and grabbing the drinks, then turning to face Erin. "You having fun or feeling awkward?" She asked, cocking her head to the side as she hopped up and sat on the counter, giving Erin an earnest look.
"A bit awkward." Erin admitted, chewing her lip, thinking about it. "More fun than anything, but there's just this…." She blew out, not sure how to describe it. She felt this pressure, because her and Jaden were dating, just like Spencer and Ashley, but not, because Ashley and Spencer were kissing, holding hands, and they weren't. She felt kinda guilty, like she should be kissing Jaden, but at the same time she refused to kiss Jaden simply because she felt awkward.
"I know what you mean but just remember, they've been dating for a long time." Jaden said, gently taking Erin's hand and rubbing it with her thumb, talking softly. "And you need to do what you feel comfortable with, it doesn't matter what everyone else is doing." she smiled slightly.
"And if I want to kiss you, not because of them?" Erin asked, looking Jaden in the eye.
"Do what you want." Smiled Jaden as Erin leaned in and gently kissed Jaden lips. Both of them expected it to be quick, simple, but she didn't pull back, instead moving closer and licking Jaden' lip, asking for entrance. Jaden acquiesced, of course, and snaked her arm around Erin's waist, her other hand in Erin's hair while Erin held Jade's face, the kiss getting more aggressive. They were extremely close at this point, but Erin didn't feel nervous like she did with Heather. This was different, because it was her choice, she wasn't being pushed into it. After nearly ten minutes they stopped for breath, resting their foreheads together, holding hands.
"This…this is different. Better." Smiled Erin. She looked Jade in the eye, smiling softly. "A lot better."
"Its because I'm so sexy, isn't it?" Smiled Jaden, winking and making Erin laugh. Jaden leaned forward and pecked her gently. "Lets go back, they'll think we died."
"Spence, c'mon." Urged Ashley, pulling her girlfriend behind her. Her lips were pursed, and she glared at the guys that were making the comments, Spencer had already had to hold her back as she tried to attack them, luckily she'd realized quickly how stupid it would be to attack a group of big guys. She wrapped her arm around Spencer's shoulder, kissing her cheek and holding her hand tightly, knowing how much comments like that bothered Spencer. In truth, it killed her, too, she just hid it better than Spence. She was the strong one, she was strong for Spence. Because Spence needed her, deserved her. And she knew what it would do to Spence if she knew it bothered her.
But what Ashley didn't know was Spence already knew. She knew Ashley just hid it, fought instead of cried, but it was still doing the same damage. And for a long time she had wished Ashley would just talk to her about it, admit how much it bothered her, but then she realized that Ash was doing it for her. She wasn't doing it for herself, or her image, she was protecting Spence, being strong for Spence, and while she felt guilty that Ashley felt she needed to, at the same time it just reminded her why she loved Ashley.
"Ahh, you walked by them, too?" Asked Jaden, seeing Ashley's face. Ashley nodded stiffly, and Spencer noticed that Jaden looked pretty tense, too. "At least I was alone, they must have been worse for you. I have a few lead pipes in my trunk." She told Ashley, eyes on the guys, giving them a look that made Spencer flinch, and she saw the guys look kinda nervous. "We could kill their car, or at least toss the pipes around a bit and glare at their car." She offered, and Spencer saw her hands tight.
"Where's Erin?" She asked, hoping Erin hadn't heard the guys say anything.
"She's already inside, been there for awhile." Jaden answered, giving the guys one last look before looking calmly at Spencer, forcing herself to relax. "She had to work on her art project with Davy today so she's been here for awhile. And she wants me to tell you guys last night was fun." She said as they walked into the school. "And that we should do it again sometime." She glanced at her watch and yawned. "Just seeing three numbers on the clock makes me tired." She pouted.
"What're you doing tonight?" Ashley asked, glaring at a girl who happened to glance at Spencer, making the girl flinch and look away in fear, unnoticed by Spencer. Jaden saw and looked amused, she was use to Ashley's behavior but it somehow never stopped being funny.
"Party, Davis's place. From there I'm hooking up with the Skinnies for an impromptu show at a warehouse party. They're having people record it and they need someone to start moshes so it looks cool for their video." She patted her pocket and came out with a pack of cigarettes and a book of matches, lighting up as they walking down the hall.
"You're gonna get cancer and die." Spencer said to her with a frown.
"Or a hole in your throat and you'll talk through a little voice box." Scowled Ashley, glaring half-heartedly at her best friend. "I really wish you'd quit."
"I have quit. Hundreds of times." Jaden shrugged, smiling slightly, not taking them seriously. She took a long drag just to annoy them, then rolled her eyes. "Sure, there's a chance. There's also a chance I could get caught in a drive by shooting walking down the road. I could die in a car accident. I could be shot by cops in a high-speed tractor chase due to mistaken identity. I could slip in this puddle, fell and break my neck." She said as they walked through spilled soda. "I'm young and stupid, dying happens to other people."
"High speed tractor chase?" Asked Spencer with a raised eyebrow.
"Like a high speed car chase, just no car." Ashley told her, sighing at Jaden. "You make me sad." She told her with a mock scowl. "I bet Erin loves kissing an ashtray." She scowled, then realized what she said. "She still too scared to kiss you?" She asked, not understanding how Jaden could be so patient about it. Sure she would wait for Spencer, but her and Spence were completely different than everyone else.
Jaden just looked at her and laughed. "Why do you always fish for information when you know I never tell?" She asked, laughing, as they reached Spencer's locker and they all stopped so she could get in.
"So there's something to not tell?" Ashley asked, giving Jaden a cocky little look, with a hint of curiosity. "You guys kissed last night?" She pressed, hopeful. Her and Jaden were completely different. While neither of them were involved in a lot of serious relationships, Jaden generally didn't date girls for a week than break up, she usually kept them around for a while before they left, so Ashley figured if something happened Erin would stick around for a while and Spencer liked Erin. So by default Ashley liked her around.
"I never said nor implied that, but neither did I say nothing happened. I just said that anything that did or did not happen last will not be divulged by me." She said as they started walking again, glancing at Spencer. "You and Ash hanging out again tonight?"
"Yeah, Kyle rented a Zombie movie that's apparently good, so Ashley decided to make it a night of horror and romance and rented more scary movies for us to watch after dinner." Spencer said, making Jaden chuckle and glance at Ashley, not surprised at the combination of screams and candles. "We're lucky, we have the whole night, my mom won't be pestering us or worrying about where I am. She thinks I'm hanging out with Chelsea at her place, she needs a model." she rolled her eyes self-deprecatingly. "Me, modeling."
"Don't laugh, that's sounds hot." Ashley said, turning Spencer to face her and pulling her in for an abrupt kiss, hands on Spencer's waist. Jaden averted her eyes and waited patiently, smoking quickly and talking to people as they walked by, the people glancing at the pair making out behind her before ignoring them, some amused, some disturbed.
Jaden glanced back and they hadn't ended, so she poked Ashley. "I gotta go, I'll talk to you lin math, 'kay?" She asked, not waiting for a response before leaving so they could have some privacy. Well, as much privacy as two hot girls making out in the middle of a hallway could ever get. Jaden flicked the butt of her cigarette in some random girl's hair, avoiding notice but amusing herself as she started chewing fruity gum to cover the smell of tobacco that hung around her.
Back in the hallway, Ashley and Spencer were just coming up for air, Ashley smirking and kissing Spence again before grabbing her hand and dragging her towards Ashley's locker. "Why are we going to your locker, you have your Math book already." Pointed out Spencer.
"I need my homework." Ashley answered, standing at her locker and looking around. Before Spencer could ask what she was doing, a nerdy kid wearing glasses walked up. "Here's your money, the homework?" She asked, holding some cash in her hand. The kid handed her three pages of work written neatly, looking eagerly at the money. Ashley eyed the work and handed him the money. "Scram, next time write it messier." She said dismissively, putting her work in her book and turning to face the disapproving face of her girlfriend. "C'mon, Spence, you want me to fail? At least my work is done, I could've just failed." Ashley pointed out.
"Or you could have done your work." Spencer pointed out, pouting, crossing her arms and leaning against the lockers.
"If it'll make you happy, tonight I'll do some homework before you come over. Myself." Ashley offered, sticking her lip out. "Forgive me?"
Spencer pretended to sigh thoughtfully, tapping her chin. "Will you do a whole assignment?" She asked, earning a wince and nod in response. "How could I say no?" She asked dramatically, pecking Ashley's cheek. "Go to class, I'll see you next period." She laughed, leaving Ashley still looking pleased. Spencer figured it was just Ashley being her normal, easy to amuse self, but Ashley was actually smiling at being the one to put that smile on Spencer's face. If she could make Spencer smile even once a day, it made her feel like less of a waste. She was obviously in a good mood as she walked towards math, whistling, when she ran into Mr. Slater, a chemistry teacher.
"You smell like cigarettes." He scowled at her, sniffing loudly as though it would prove she'd been smoking.
"Yes I do." She confirmed, stepping around him, but he stepped back in her way. "Is there something you need, Mr. Slater?" She asked with forced politeness. Wouldn't do any good to get suspended for something to petty.
"You've been smoking on school property." He told her, some students in the vicinity turning to watch. "You could get in serious trouble for that."
"Which is something I'm aware of. But you see, you have no evidence to indicate I've been smoking on campus, or even smoking at all. I could've walked next to a smoker on the way to school, or picked up a hitchhiker who tried to kill me and happened to be smoking." She pointed out, not bothering to deny since she knew he wouldn't believe her, and it was funnier this way. "So if you don't mind, Mr., Slater, I'm going to proceed to class, because I'm anxious to begin a day of learning." She grinned with sadistic happiness, walking by him as he glared and sniffed.
"You don't smoke." Kyla said as she fell into step behind Ashley.
"That is true." She said, looking amused. "But now he's gonna sit around and be mad that I got away with it."
"But you didn't." Kyla looked confused.
"Also true." Ashley agreed, earning a confused look but pretending not to notice.
"I don't know how anyone tolerates you." Kyla laughed, shaking her head.
"You know you all love me." Ashley countered with the cutest face she could muster, making Kyla laugh harder. "I'm serious." She added, then zeroed in on some girl talking to the guy who'd done her homework, making him look uncomfortable as she glared at him. "What's going on?" She asked seriously, with a dangerous tone.
"She wants me to do her homework." The nerd blurted, pushing his glasses up his now red nose. "I said no, but-"
"Back off, find somebody else. He's my nerd." Ashley snapped at the girl, who looked frightened. "Talk to Jensen, he does people's homework and has good results." Ashley added, glaring wickedly as she scampered off. Then she turned to the nerd. "Well, Skippy get to class." She said as he gave her a thankful look and left. She noticed Kyla staring at her. "What?"
"He's been doing your homework for how long and you don't know his name?"
"Five years, and of course I know his name." Ashley argued as they walked towards class. "His name is Skippy." She ignored a girl giving her an appraising look, even though the other girl was good looking.
"His name is Sam." Kyla told her, trying not to laugh.
"Who says?" Asked a bewildered Ashley, eyebrows wrinkled in confusion. "That would explain why its so hard to get his attention."
"I can't believe you didn't know that, he's told you half a dozen times." Kyla pointed out.
"I don't remember him ever saying anything about his name being Sam." scowled Ashley, thinking. "His last name is WonderBread, right?"
"No, that's a nickname." Kyla said patiently, then paused. "You really thought his name was Skippy WonderBread?"
"Well…yeah." Admitted Ashley without shame. "I wonder where I got Skippy from, is that a common nickname for him?"
"No, you're the only one. But you make up names for a lot of people and pretend they're real." Shrugged Kyla. "why didn't you let him do her work?"
"If he does a lot of people's work the teacher's might start recognizing his handwriting. I already have him do every assignment in that class so there's no discrepancy in our handwriting, if I ever turned something in on my own they'd think I had someone else do my work." She laughed. "But I've been practicing copying his handwriting just in case he ever leaves or something."
"You know, you always put so much effort into not putting any effort into anything." Kyla observed as they entered class and sat down.
"Another fact. You're on the ball today." Ashley observed with a mischievous smile.
"Ash?" Spence called out, letting herself in as Ashley had told her to do earlier when they talked on the p hone. Ashley's mom was out, and Spencer's mom was pulling an all nighter at the hospital, so even if she got suspicious about Spencer hanging out with Chelsea she couldn't do anything about her suspicions. Spencer heard Ashley yell to come in from a room Spencer had never been in before, and she tracked her voice until she found herself in what appeared to be a dining room. There was a large table for everyone to sit at that was clean but untouched, and a smaller table off to the side for smaller groups. This smaller table now had a red tablecloth laid across it along with white roses in the middle, the opposite of the norm, along with small white candles scattered on the table and red candles around the room, the chairs set up so they could sit right next to each other. Ashley was standing in the corner watching Spencer hopefully, wearing a nice black blouse and expensive black pants.
"Do you like it?" She asked nervously, but trying to sound confident. She's been planning this night for a while and wanted everything to go perfect, for Spencer to just have one night without worrying about her parents, her brothers, school, anything. One night where she could actually be perfectly happy. But she was worried Spencer wouldn't like it, that she'd think Ashley went overboard. "I made the food myself, I practiced making the food a couple times and I tasted it to make sure it wouldn't kill us." She joked, still nervous, rambling and hating herself for it. It wasn't like it was their first date, or even at all special compared to their other dates, she just wanted to do something for Spencer.
"Ashley, I…" Tears sprang to Spencer's eyes, and Ashley's heart fell. She'd done something wrong, and she instantly felt terrible. She started to apologize when suddenly Spencer ran at her and pulled her into a kiss, surprising Ashley but definitely in a pleasant way, and she kissed back happily. She hadn't screwed up, Spencer was happy. Whish was enough for Ashley. Spencer finally pulled back, leaving Ashley in a happy daze. "Thank you." Spencer smiled, tears in her eyes.
Ashley smiled gently and kiss Spencer's nose. "Perfect night for the perfect girl." Smiled Ashley, pushing some hair out of Spencer's face. "C'mon, lets eat. But you're responsible for your own actions, if my cooking puts you in the hospital you can't sue."
"Ahh, there goes my get rich quick scheme." Sighed Spencer wistfully, joking, as they sat down and Ashley pressed a button on a stereo, which started playing music softly in the background, all acoustic covers of love songs. As they ate, they talked about anything that came to mind, which ended up being basically every topic imaginable, and yet nothing negative was spoken about. Every time something negative was mentioned or even hinted at, Ashley steered the conversation elsewhere, determined to keep the night perfect. And when a cover of Eternal's I Wanna Be the Only One came on, Ashley smiled and extended a hand.
"Dance?" She asked, smiling slightly, her eyes showing more emotion than Spencer had seen in a long time. She stared down at Spencer, her hand extended towards her, as she eyed the blonde, who's eyes were twinkling happily, her flawless skin looking beyond perfect in the candlelight. Spencer accepted her hand and they started slow dancing, Ashley singing softly in Spencer ear as they moved, joining in with the singer mid verse.
She sang as they spun, her mouth right next to Spencer's ear, sending shivers down her spine, her hands pulling Spencer tight up against her. "I wanna be the only one to hold you, I wanna be the only one to soothe you. I wanna be the only one to love you, love you, I wanna be the only one, the only one.""Ashley, tonight is so perfect." Spencer whispered, again feeling tears pricking at her eyes. She snuggled tightly into Ashley, who kissed her temple lovingly. "I wish everyday was like this."
"So do I, Spence." Ashley said back, also whispering, pulling back slightly to look into Spencer's eyes. "I love you, so much. And I promise that no matter what ever happens, no matter what I say or do to make you think otherwise, I always will. And I'll always protect you and be there for you, okay?" Her eyes were kinda moist to, out of character for Ashley, but she needed to say these things, not because Spencer would love them(which she would), but because she meant them.
Spencer stared back, now letting the tears fall, and smiled. "I love you, too." She said, kissing Ashley softly, and Ashley returned it while the song played in the background.
"Movie time?" Asked Spence, smiling not only at the great time but at the idea that the girl who had just set all of this up had horror movies waiting in the next room over. Ashley was without a doubt a puzzle. Spencer wasn't sure she could ever figure her out, but she was willing to try.
"Yep, first up: Vacancy." Ashley said ominously. Spencer shuddered as she allowed herself to be led to Ashley's bedroom. She normally hated scary movies, well actually scary anything, but no matter what she felt safe with Ashley, so she didn't mind when Ashley was around. Beside it gave her an excuse to snuggle with her.
Ashley was sitting in first period, her feet up on the back of the girl's chair in front of her. The girl didn't look very comfortable, having to lean forward to avoid Ashley's shoes, but was too intimidated by Ashley to do anything about it. Ashley noticed. "you want my feet down?" She said out of nowhere, making the girl jump and turn around. "Well?" Ashley demanded with a scowl.
"I, um, yes-I mean no! I ,um-" the girl stammered, eyes wide and cheeks pink as she stumbled over her thoughts.
"Its not that hard to say yes. I don't bite, well most of the time at least." Ashley joked, and the girl chuckled nervously. "Just tell me, 'Hey Bitch, get your shoes out of my way.' " Ashley suggested, making the girl flush again. Ashley glanced at Jaden's seat next to her and frowned. She still wasn't at school, and another tardy would get end up with her in Saturday detention. She took out her cell phone and considered calling her. "well, my feet bothering you?" She asked the girl gruffly.
"Leave Kay alone, why do you always harass people?" Asked Jaden from outside the window, sticking her head in to check for the teacher and climb in the window. She picked Ashley's feet up and set them on the floor. "Sorry, Kay, next time flick her." She advised the shy girl with a smile, making 'Kay' laugh. Jaden plopped down and yawned, stretching. Ashley could smell cigarettes, fruity shampoo, and a hint of vodka, and could see Jaden's eyes were somewhat bloodshot, either from lack of sleep or something else. Jaden noticed her little examination and flashed a smile. "So, you and Spence looked like you were having fun last night." She commented with a smirk.
"We-what?" Asked Ashley, sitting up more and turning somewhat pink. "How would you know?"
"I stopped by to see if I could stay the night, didn't want to go home that late." Jaden explained, looking amused. "but uh, you looked busy so I decided to leave." She smirked, entertained by Ashley's expression. "Don't worry, all I saw was you guys making out, then I decided to go." She laughed. "I was too frightened to hang around anymore, who knows what I'd hear."
"Jaden!" Scolded Ashley, making Jaden laugh harder. "Actually, its probably a good thing you left." Ashley winked, making Jaden wince.
"Great, now I can't look Spencer in the eye for at least an hour." Jaden grumbled, making Ashley hide a smile.
"Why were you stopping by? Did something happen?" Asked Ashley, concerned. Jaden wouldn't have bothered stopping by unless something happened, she knew Spencer was gonna be over.
"No, but you know how my step-dad gets when I get home late, I didn't feel like dealing with it, but he never woke up." Jaden shrugged. "I just went to bed, told him this morning I had gotten in earlier."
"He believed you?" Asked Ashley, one eyebrow raised.
"You know how he is." Jaden repeated, shrugging. "He's gullible. I told him I was staying the night at your house tonight, which I sorta am." she shrugged. "After all, when the parties end and you break into Spencer's house, I need something to do." She said brightly. "And you have a liquor cabinet."
"You have such a one track mind." Laughed Ashley. "You're gonna drink alone?" She asked.
"Ahhh, good point. Its no fun without a drinking buddy." Pouted Jaden, crossing her arms and leaning back.
"yeah, I don't like when you drink alone." Ashley said bluntly, giving her a severe look, but it was softened by the concern in her eyes. Jaden immediately averted her eyes, tapping the desk nervously. "Jaden-"
"Relax, I wasn't actually planning on it." Jaden snapped, making Ashley feel bad for bringing it up in the first place. The air was tense between them before it was filled with the sound of the tardy bell, just as the teacher walked in.
"Okay, guys, pass forward the homework and take out your lecture notes from yesterday, we'll be finishing them today so you can study for the test tomorrow." She announced, staring impishly over her glasses and squinting at the students. Ashley glanced at Jaden, who avoided her gaze for a second before looking back at her and offering a conciliatory smile, which Ashley returned happily.