CHAPTER 3

Arashi Narration

Why would I fall back on George? Out of all the fucks I could see last night it was that blue haired queer…I walked down the street with my hands in my pockets. I was freezing my arse off. I had tossed my shirt into the garbage, why wear it when I puked ALL over it. I hate December. That's it! Winter is why I'm doing stupid shite like kissing that freak!...oh I miss him…I pulled out a cigarette and lit up. I needed some nicotine in my body. Just when I think my life couldn't get any worse guess who walks up to me…THAT LITTLE BITCH!!!! I just wanted to strangle her.

"ARASHI! IT'S BEEN FOREVER!!!" She screamed, jumping into my arms. I held the cigarette away from her. I wish I would've caught that bright pink hair on fire…I'm not that mean now, I am?

"Not long enough…" I muttered after she took a step back. I was still shirtless…how embarrassing. My ex-girlfriend catching me on the street looking like shite…nothing could be worse than this.

Miwako giggled. "Why don't you have a shirt on SILLY?" She poked my nipple with a big smile. I smacked away her hand. WHY WAS SHE TALKING TO ME!? I took a long drag of my cigarette and just stared at her. "Hello! Earth to Mister Arashi!" She waved her tiny hand in my face. I can't stand this…I walked right past her and continued toward my apartment…until I heard her little pathetic sobs.

I turned to look at the fragile pink-haired girl…she dumped me! Why is she acting like I'm the bad guy? I stopped and watched her. Tears were streaming down her cheeks. "Arashi…I think I'm pregnant…" She said, loud enough for me to hear. The cigarette fell from my mouth and into the snow. I'm so scared that I think my stomach is trying to hide…she couldn't be pregnant… I slowly walked up to her and embraced her.

"Have you taken a test?" I whispered to Miwako, hearing her crying killed me inside. Why me…why fuing me!?!? I was so scared, I couldn't help it, a tear fell down my cheek too.

"Yes…it was positive…I haven't seen a doctor yet though…" She sniffled, with her face in her hands. Her head was up against my chest. I used to hold her like this every time she cried. Oh, I missed holding her in my arms…my poor little Miwako.

I took a deep breath and wiped my eyes with my free hand but I was still holding her in my arms. Now the little bitch needs me…right after I thought everything couldn't get FUING WORSE!!!! "What about Yukari…? What does she think about this?" I asked her, my eye twitched when I said that prissy whore's name.

"She said she wants to keep it with me…but I want you in the baby's life too…that's if I am pregnant. Do you want to come to the appointment? It's tomorrow at 3:30…" She whispered, looking up into my blood shot eyes.

I took a deep breathe and nodded gently. Tomorrow was the 23rd of December. Two days before Christmas….merry Christmas to Arashi… "I'll meet you at your apartment…" I rubbed my forehead after letting go of her. "I'll be there at 3…" I already knew where her gynecologist was and it wasn't far from her place…I didn't want to be with her longer than I had to…3 was perfect. Miwako nodded and waved bye before walking off. I watched my ex walk away from me…my heart was crushed all over again.

When I arrived at the shitty apartment I slowly closed the door behind me. I don't know what came over me but I had to urge to punch a fuing wall…so to relieve the pain I put Pink Floyd in my record player then rummaged through my drawers, throwing clothes everywhere. There was the heroin and the needle. I promised myself I was done before but one more hit wouldn't hurt would it? Nah didn't think so… I wrapped a tie around my bicep to cut off my circulation then inserted the heroin needle. All my worries had escaped me…my eyes slowly shut…LET THE FREEDOM BEGIN!...even if it's only for the night.