It never stopped nagging me, that sense that I wasn't forgiven for what I had done to Jacob. But who could forgive me? I was laying in the meadow, watching the stars twinkle. I had been laying here for the past two days. No one knew where I went, except for Edward, but I told him I need to be alone.

I felt a bit of relief that I had stopped an all out Werewolf-Vampire war, but the whole thing was my fault anyway. If I had never come to Forks, Washington, Jacob would be alive, the Cullens would have been happy, and…I never would have met Edward, and I never would have had true love. Life was pretty screwed up, huh?

Almost silent footsteps announced the arrival of Edward. He sat down next to me, and I silently shifted myself so I was leaning on his knees. He pulled me up so I was sitting on his lap. For once in three months, I felt better.

"You haven't let me touch, or even look at you for three months, love. Thank you." He whispered.

"I'm so sorry, Edward. I just…everyone was trying to make me feel better when I needed to be yelled at. And I was just too ashamed. You are so much better than me Edward, not the other way around." I whispered back, and we kissed.

The kiss was three months too late, and I had to smile. "Remember when I kissed you for an hour because I couldn't for three days?"

He looked confused. Did he really not see where this was going? "Yes..."

"Well, it's been three months…" I smiled of the first time in so, so long. It felt so right.

"Bella." he sighed.

"Edward…"I leaned in to kiss him. A few minutes in to the kiss, he broke away.

"Bella, Bella stop." He looked upset, even angry. I was surprised, even hurt. Would he leave me again? But…why? What had happened?

Then I noticed where my hands were, and what they were doing. I blushed red like a fire truck, and zipped his fly back up. "Sorry, Edward."

His eyes melted, and he chuckled. "Bella…" he murmured.

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Alright, you all can hate me. I GIVE YOU PERMISSION!!

This is all I could think of. I'm sorry. I am trying my hardest to write this fic, and keep up with school. Not working so well.

Anyway, I'm really sorry.

I'll update ASAP!!