Kay, first off in my amazing defense of why I haven't updated in so long is my new iPod. I have a new silver nano (the ones that can play vids!!!) and I've been LIVING off of it….second is, I'm lazy. It's true. Extremely .third…well…um…sleep. I need it. Fourth is…ok, you all know I'm sorry.

In the words of Kanye West, "YOU SHOULD BE HONORED BY MY LATENESS. BE GLAD I EVEN SHOWED UP TO THESE PLACES." Ha. Put THAT in your juice box and suck it.

If anyone's OOC, blame Monster Energy Drink. That stuff is like drugs.

BPOV

I walked back to the Cullen house, without any shoes or socks on. My wet, now stringy hair was pulled back in to a bun, and my jeans and camisole were completely ruined. Oh well, at least Mary was safe.

I sighed, and stopped walking when I reached Charlie's house. He wasn't home yet, because his cruiser wasn't in the drive, but I smelt his stale scent on the house. It had been a few months, and yet my life was so different. Or, maybe, my death was so different. But I didn't feel any regret, any remorse.

I walked up, and unlocked the door with the key under the eve. The kitchen was a disaster area, and the living room had so many beer cans in it you could barely walk. Who know Charlie drank?

My room was exactly the same as when I left, but Charlie's scent was here too. He must have checked in here for me.

I found a note on my bed.

Bella,

Where are you?

Jake

I looked at it, dumb founded. It must have been old, I thought to myself. From when I first went missing…

I took it in my hands, and hugged it. I wanted so badly to be hugging Jake. He always made things better.

I sat on the bed, and I heard heavy footsteps coming up the stairs. They were werewolf steps, Charlie's steps, or Emmett not trying to be quite.

"Hey, baby sister." Three guesses to who it is.

"Hello, Emmett."

"Edward is freaking out, and ready to kill himself again. You might want to come home."

I stared at him for a split second before I jumped up, and ran faster than anything I've ever seen, faster than Edward, faster than Jake, faster than—

I was at home already.

The door was flung open in front of me, and I sprinted up the stairs as fast as possible.

"Edward?" I asked, throwing open the door to our room.

He growled. I don't think he knew what was going on, or that it was me.

"Edward, it's me." I walked in. He was sitting on his couch, and there was no light in the room. Soft music played from the stereo system.

His eyes were shut. He wouldn't open them. I smiled as an idea came to mind.

"Edward…" I whispered, and kissed each of his eyelids.

"Anthony…" I kissed his forehead.

"Mason…" I kissed his temples.

"Cullen…" I kissed his nose.

"I…" I laid down on the couch next to him, and kissed up his arm.

"Love…" I continued kissing up his neck.

"You." I kissed him on the lips, and he couldn't help himself from breaking out of his revere to kiss me back.

"Why did you try to kill yourself, Bella?" he whispered.

"I didn't…" Then it dawned on me.

"Alice saw me jump."

"Yes." his voice was full of sorrow.

"I was jumping in to save a drowning person, Edward. It was Mary. The girl Paul imprinted on."

"Really?" he looked up at me with his beautiful, wonderful, amazing pitch black eyes.

"Really."

He didn't say anything after that, just kissed me. we kissed and made out and went pretty far, when Alice screamed "OH MY GOD EDWARD! I CAN SEE HER FUTURE AGAIN!! I SEE IT!! I--- Oh..."

I look around, and then looked down. I was in my bra and underwear, with Edward in his.

"Alice…" I hissed.

"Right. Leaving. Sorry."

"Thank you."

She closed the door while giggling, and I went back to kissing Edward.

"Did you really think I wouldn't want this? That I wouldn't want you?" I whispered, and kissed his stomach.

"Yes. Who wants to be a monster? Who wants to have to live off of blood? Who wants this?" he asked, as he held me tight.

"I do. More than anything in the world, I want the chance to be with you forever." I put my head where his non-beating heart would be, and said "thump thump. Thump thump. Thump thump. Thump thump."

"Heartbeat…" he breathed, and kissed me on the lips.

It was very late, so late that it was early, when he whispered,

"Why won't you marry me?"

I sighed.

"I want to…it's just…"I looked away from his searching gaze, and he sighed.

"It's alright, Bella. You don't have to tell me." he said, but I could hear the hurt behind his tone.

"No, it's just…Edward, you're going to laugh."

He looked at me like I was crazy.

(KAY, PEEPS, LOOK AT THE PART IN ECLIPSE WHERE SHE ANSWERS THIS QUESTION. I'M TOO LAZY TO TYPE IT ALL OUT!!!)

The sun made us rise, and I groaned as Edward pulled a shirt on.

"What?" he looked worried, like he had done something wrong.

"I can't go to school today, Edward!"

He gasped. "Oh my god! Nobody at school knows why you're gone! They definitely don't think you died in a tragic car accident!" he said, then burst out laughing.

"you killed me?" I asked, laughing with him.

"Well, it was Emmett. He threw in the car wreck because you wrecked his new Hummer. Which, by the way, he is blaming ME for…"

"good luck with that, love." I said smugly.