It has been four days since I have heard from Rin.
He does this every time. Makes me feel loved, dependant on him, we have sex, then disappears, and leaves me to put myself back together. In a few weeks he will get horney and start returning my texts. Until then I'm alone. Asshole.
I don't know why I let him do this to me… He's just so… He makes me feel like a whole person, like when I swim. I mean nothing could even begin to compare to swimming, but the way he makes me feel comes pretty damn close.
Makoto won't stop calling. I delete his messages without listening to them, and avoid him at practice. I know I'm being cruel but I mean, how am I supposed to deal with Makoto, when I'm so depressed over Rin… But then again, he is ignoring me… and Makoto deserves some kind of explanation…
Fuck it, I'm calling him.
Ring ring ring
Maybe this is a bad idea…
Ring ring ring
What am I even going to say?
Ring ring
I'm hanging up.
Ring-
"H-hello?" He answers sleepily. I forgot it's nearly four a.m… Oops.
"Hi, it's Haru."
"Oh! Hi!" He seems awake now, "I'm sorry I've been calling you so much, I just wanted to apologize, I never should have cornered you like that… It's just I heard you were seeing someone, and I've had a bit of a crush on you for a while now, I'm sure it was obvious… So I wanted to, you know, throw my hat in the ring-"
"Hey can you meet me somewhere?" I cut him off before he runs out of breath, I don't think he took one that entire time.
"Uh sure… Where?" He says, unsteady.
"The 24hour diner near my house. 20 minutes."
"Deal"