Disclaimer: Still own nothing. Love the stuff, yes, own, no. Oh, I don't own the song either.
AN: Ugh, I know, you all probably gave up on me. I'm so sorry I took so long, I'm going to have to try and update more often. I should hopefully get a few more in tonight. I'm not promising though incase something changes. Alright, anyways, I hope you enjoy.
Well, I don't know how well this one came out, I will try to do a better one in my next update.
Jacob's turn for some love (Bella's been changed).
Nevermore
The bumps in the plaster were beginning to blend together, making the ceiling look blemish free and perfectly smooth. He had stared at it for God knows how long. It hurt, he wasn't afraid to admit it. It hurt like hell.
"People
say she's only in my head
It's gonna take time but I'll forget
Say
I need to get on with my life
They don't realize
She had reeked, wasn't the same. A stone that lacked feeling, filled instead with a disgusting instinct. Like his own.
Is
when you're dialing 6 numbers just to hang up the phone
Driving
across town just to see if she's home
Waking a friend in the dead
of the night
Just to hear him say it's gonna be alright
When
you're finding things to do not fall asleep
Cause you know she
will be there in your dreams
That's when she's
More than a
memory
A shiver raced through his spine at the thought. There she had stood, and there he was, trying not to kill her. God, he'd wanted to so bad. So bad. He was hideous. Who wants to kill the person… no, she wasn't a person. Not anymore. That, that thing was not the love of his life. Not now.
Took
a match to everything she ever wrote
Watched her words go up in
smoke
Tore all her pictures off the wall
They ain't helping me
at all
Hug. All she wanted was a freaking hug. And that was too much even, not that it would have felt the same. Don't damn it! Don't cry. What is that going to do any ways? She was long gone. She might as well be dead.
'Cause
when you're talking out loud but nobody's there
You look like hell
and you just don't care
Drinking more than you ever drank
Sinking
down lower than you ever sank
When you find yourself falling down
upon your knees
Praying to god, begging him "please"
That's
when she's
More than a memory
She's more
She's more
It'd be better if she were dead. No. NO! Don't even think that! Don't even…
Why was this so freaking hard? God, why did this happen? Why are there any stupid mythical creatures at all?! Is this supposed to be some kind of sick joke?! Just, just make it stop….
His shoulders shook, sobs threatening. God, she's not there any more. She's not her. I want her…
'Cause
when you're dialing her number just to hang up the phone
Driving
across town just to see if she's home
Waking a friend in the dead
of the night
Just to hear him say it's gonna be alright
When
you're finding things to do not fall asleep
Because you know she
waiting in your dreams
That's when she's more than a
memory
People say she's only in my head
It's gonna take
time but I'll forget..."
I want Bella.