Confessions

After that, I went home and cried. I know that seems so stupid and childish, but I couldn't help myself. I was so close to having contact with Ethan, but no…I had to be too weak in order to open my eyes.

So close to see his eyes…those amber quartz eyes that I missed terribly…

All I had was the memories…of the songs he played…and his image…

The next day I had to go to school, and no matter how much I tried to get it off, I couldn't clean my red eyes. They were too swollen from crying. I have to keep a low profile today…

"Kimiko what's wrong?" Damn it. Dad found out.

"Umm…nothing." I muttered, staring at the ground.

"You were crying," He didn't seem so good himself. I smelled alcohol on him.

"So…" I headed for the door.

"It's not about the divorce is it?" He grabbed my hand to stop me. His hand was unbelievably scorching today.

"No…I'm fine. Speaking of the divorce…do you think you'll ever get back with Mom?"

I heard Dad sigh. "Sorry honey. That's not possible. But thank you for making me meet up with Bella. We said our final goodbyes…" He looked wistfully out of the window with a distant look on his face.

"That's good." I walked out the door. "Mom's going to drive me to school today so you didn't have to wake up so early."

"Nah, I was going to be up early anyways since I was going to work on my bikes. Something to keep my mind off stuff…"

"I'll see you Dad,"

"Bye, have a good day at school,"

I walked over to my mom's house, well technically it was her mother's house, which was my grandmother…but you get the freaking point! It wasn't far, but I passed by Hiro's house, and unfortunately he was out.

"Oh my god! Kimiko, you have been crying! Look at your eyes!" He stopped me from walking and held my face. I was too tired to restrain.

"Yeah…so what?" I asked. His eyes were filled to the brim with concern.

"Was it about Ethan? You miss him don't you?" He asked, his face serious.

I pulled back. "So what if I do?" I asked, my voice on the edge of crying again at the mention of his name. "I'll see you around," I ran away from him so he wouldn't reply back.

X O X O X O

"Ooh! So it's getting chillier so my mom just got me a brand new coat. It's so awesome!" Some random voice said. Probably belonged to a prep.

"Yeah…well guess what? I got a date to the winter dance!"

"Really?! Awesome! Who did you snag?"

I was out of sync during English, but from the voices I overheard about the dance, I could tell that almost everyone was going to grab a date for the dance. Maybe I could ask Hiro…that way I knew that he wouldn't be taken.

"Hey Kimiko guess what??" Erika squealed with excitement.

I smiled weakly back. "What?"

"I got a date! My crush asked me! Isn't that awesome?" But then she noticed that I was going stag. Her face fell and she suddenly looked regretful. "Oh my god I'm so sorry Kimiko…I should just shut up." She stared down at her desk.

"No…I'm happy you got a date," I gave her a sincere look. She grinned.

"Okay then…hey, um Kimiko…" She looked a little sheepish. "Ehh…do you think I could borrow your notes from yesterday? I was kind of…well...uhh…"

Before she said any other word, I handed her my notebook. "Here ya go,"

"Thanks!"

"Hey," I recalled her in my head giving me that expensive dress. "What are friends for?"

X O X O X O

After school, I looked up at the sky. It was a bleak gray as always. It would probably rain again soon too. As I passed a corner I hid back because of what I saw.

Ethan and Hiro.

Thunder was rumbling faintly in the sky. Hiro glared at Ethan, but I couldn't see Ethan since his back was turned towards me.

"What do you want Hiro?" Ethan said, his voice calm with an edge.

Hiro looked furious. "You made Kimiko cry didn't you?"

My heart skipped a beat. Oh. My. God. Hiro don't!!!

I couldn't see Ethan's face since his back was turned against mine. "This is none of your business." Ethan said, withholding his temper.

Seriously Hiro! You don't want to make a vampire angry!! I remembered the face of Edward pop into my head, and I quickly dumped it out into the trashcan.

"Yes it is!" The thunder growled, as if it knew Hiro was pissed. "Do you think I like seeing her suffer like that?! Did you know she was crying?? For you!"

Ethan said nothing. Hiro was standing up for me…

"You like Kimiko don't you? I think you two would make a nice couple…I'm not healthy for her…" His voice was now quiet, barely above a whisper.

Hiro clenched his fists. "You're fucking selfish you know that?! And besides…Kimiko doesn't like me. She likes you. And you're just acting like you don't care."

"So you want the truth?"

"Hell yeah I want the truth why are you suddenly ignoring her!"

"Have you ever heard enemies getting friendly with each other?!" Ethan said a little too loud. I couldn't see his face, but I could tell that from Hiro's face he was scary. There was even a hint of fear in Hiro's eyes.

"It's not supposed to work like that, but sometimes it does, doesn't it?! At least from what Edward, my father, has told me…do you see my parents?? Bella was a human…and then she got turned into a vampire because of their love…now what if Kimiko and I love each other so much that she too wants to be a vampire?!" Thunder roared which made an echoing sound, bouncing off the walls. It was louder than before.

I have never noticed that. I trembled at how dangerous our relationship could be. His words had struck like lightning making me realize it wouldn't work.

"Not to mention she lives with werewolves…do you think one of their kind would be happy she gets turned into a vampire? This pains me too…it pains me…to see her hurt like that. And I have to bear it." A steady rainfall began to start.

"I've tried to chase her away, because every time she comes closer to me…my heart burns for her."

I just stood there, even though I was getting soaked, trying to instead soak in the words that just poured out of his mouth. He really did like me. But he was trying to think for the best of me.

In my backpack, a pencil fell and both of them whipped around for the source of the sound. Oh what great timing. I hid myself, my back against the wall, and I slowly slid down. All this time…he really cared for me.

Edward's words were right. And so were Bella…but I didn't have to be kept out of the loop for just this. I knew we would be able to get through it…

"Kimiko." I gasped as I saw Ethan leaning against the wall, his arms crossed. "You heard everything didn't you?"

I nodded. "You should've told me." I whispered. It was hard to hear in the rain.

He went down to my eye level, staring into my eyes. "I'm sorry."

Fresh tears streamed down my cheeks. Happy ones. I couldn't believe this was actually happening. I wrapped my arms around him. "I'm so glad," I cried out. "You actually do care about me!"

He pulled me away, and held my face softly, his cold hands comforting against my hot cheeks. Then, like as if his eyes were magnetic, I leaned in and our lips met.

His lips were soft, and a little held back thinking he might injure me. I felt a little light-headed from the cold contact, but then he parted to give me breath. I felt disappointment creep into my body.

"That was a good first kiss…" I murmured, still a little dizzy. The rain only poured harder.

"I'm not sure about the first," He muttered as he avoided eye contact.

My eyes widened. "Wait what? That wasn't our first kiss together?!"

"Umm…actually…"

I laughed. "So you were the person who kissed me in my sleep. I thought I felt something cold."

He smirked. "Guilty as charged."

I saw Hiro begin to leave and I called him. "Hey wait Hiro!" He turned around. "Thanks…really…" I said over the rain.

All he did was smile and wave as he disappeared.

Wow…this was too good to be true…everything was going fine.

So far….

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Author's Note- It's not too fast moving right? o.o If you think it is, then you're right lol.

Oh man! I didn't have an author's note in the last chapter because I was so in a hurry to update…sorry please forgive me!

There are still a couple of chapters after this…it's not done yet…it's too much surreal. Whatever that means.

Yeah…I shouldn't use surreal if I don't know what it is …ehh… What does it mean?

Oh yeah and I have a few questions to ask…I've asked some of you but I got no replies…T.T

When was the Cullen family made? I know it's Carlisle, then Edward…but I forgot the rest. I don't have the twilight book so yeah…

Is Edward's human name Edward Anthony Mason? These questions would really help me with future fan fictions. Or maybe not. Hahah!

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Vickie