A/N: As a reminder, this weird version of Star Trek is based on my life, so there's no telling what will happen because life is unpredictable.
Ode to A Starship by Lina Shay
Chapter Thirty-Nine: Oops I Did it Again
The School of the Will of the Prophets was a lot more interesting than it had been the last time. I was also pretty excited that Manda was on shore leave and came to talk.
"Have you been in contact with Jala?" I asked her.
"She sent me a message a while back to ask if we could get together when she got settles at the new ship," Manda began, "but I haven't heard from her since. I don't know where she even is right now."
Sava and Truda sat beside me.
"Hey!" Greeted Sava.
"Hi," I responded. "Where's Kenned?"
"Oh, he's around somewhere," she shrugged with a large smile.
I doubted if I would see him anyway. It seemed obvious that Kenned had little interest in talking to me. I began to wonder if it wasn't a good idea for him to steer clear of me. For one, I was attracted to him. That could only mean that I would flirt with him like crazy, he would think I was serious about him, and I would end up hurting him. I happened twice before. I don't mean it to happen. I actually do really care for him, but I could never date him.
I was surprised to see Kenned standing outside the door of the school. He was talking to a girl. I was indifferent to her. I wasn't jealous, but I wasn't excited he was finally interested in someone. I punched him lightly on the arm just to remind in that I exist.
He came up to me a little while later and asked. "So, how do you like working for the First Contact Commission?"
"It's really boring," I said with a sigh.
He smirked, making his eyes shine. "It sure is. Have you gotten the algorhythems?"
"Not quite," I muttered. "I'm really slow to remember the right algorhythems."
"Don't worry," Keened said. "You'll get it down so you couldn't dislodge it from your head with a crowbar."
He laughed at himself and then wandered off. I watched after him. I had to wonder why he always had to be in motion. He had been that way since I met him. If he wasn't drawing, he was wandering aimlessly, never staying in one place for more than a minute. I wished to understand that about him, among other things.
Kenned was nowhere in sight when I went to leave. I had wished to hug him goodnight. Sava told me that she thought he was headed to the Communication Relay Station. I thought of maybe stopping by to say hey to him- But then I got this vision of me telling him I love him and kissing him. I would never actually do it, but I figured I shouldn't go just in case. Even if I didn't kiss him, I could have a repeat of what happened a couple summers ago. I only meant to say goodnight.
FLASHBACK
"Kenned!" I called.
He looked back at me. he hadn't been in a good mood that day and I felt he needed a hug before I went home.
I walked up to him and put my arms around him.
"You looked like you needed a hug," I told him.
He smiled and thanked me. I could never resist his eyes when they shined like that.
"You're so cute!" I said before I could help it. "Isn't it horrible that after all this time, I still have a crush on you."
"I wouldn't say it was horrible," He blushed.
From there, Kenned asked me on a date, which was fun enough. but I soon realized that no matter how much I cared about him and how attracted I was to him, I just couldn't have a relationship with him.