The dreams never stopped. I couldn't make them go away. Jacob's birthday present didn't help them. The dream catcher that he gave me on my 18th birthday was hanging on my bedpost. I took it off and threw it across the room. "You're useless!" I screamed. I heard Charlie coming across the hall.

"Bells, you okay?" He said sleepily.

"Yea, Dad I'm fine. Sorry just another dream." I said with a heavy heart. I felt so bad for the last few months. He has barely slept right along with me. He was always there to soothe me back to sleep after every nightmare. He didn't deserve that.

"You need anything?"

"No, I'm going back to sleep. Thanks Dad. I love you." I said walking across the room to grab the dream catcher I slid it under my pillow. "You have one more chance with me." I muttered as I feel asleep. I slept the rest of the night with no nightmares.

The next day I woke up to my phone ringing on my nightstand. It was bright and sunny in my room. How long had I been sleeping? I looked at my clock...1:00! I grabbed my phone it was Charlie.

"Hey Dad"

"Bells? Were you still sleeping?"

"Yea, I was! Why didn't you wake me up this morning?"

"Are you kidding me? You haven't slept past 6:00 in months. I wanted you to get some much needed rest."

I grabbed the dream catcher under my pillow. Was this my answer to getting rid of the nightmares? Had this little thing actually worked? No way I just needed rest like Charlie said.

"Well thanks Dad. But, I was going to Jacob's today. Most of the day is gone now."

"He will understand. Look, I'm coming out to Billy's tonight for dinner so I will see you there later, OK?"

"Great! See you then and Dad? Thanks again for the last few months. I'm glad you were the one here for me. I think Mom wouldn't have been strong enough to deal with me."

"Bells, you don't even worry about it. When I am old and senile you better be there for me, okay?"

"Deal" I said with a huge smile of my face.

"See ya later!" He said as a deputy in the background called his name.

"Bye, Dad"

When I pulled up to Jacob's house I couldn't help but feel a little nervous. What was I doing? Was I completely out of my mind. Fixing a motorcycle? I knew absolutely nothing about motorcycles. I was just going to get in the way of Jacob's life. Why would he want to hang out with a girl that was broken and dead on the inside when he could be hanging out with a girl that he liked and could have a relationship with? I was about to just leave when Jacob ran out of his house. God, he was gorgeous! Wait? What was that? I couldn't think like that. I shook my head. Geez, what does this boy do to me?

"Bella! I was wondering when you were going to get here." He said with that beautiful smile. Stop it Bella what the hell is wrong with you!

"Sorry, I over slept. Charlie usually wakes me up to say goodbye to me in the mornings."

"Wow, that was some sleep then if you just woke up!"

"HA! Yea I guess I just really needed it." I said looking down at my hands. Stop fidgeting Bella!

"Okay, well lets get this thing in the garage and we can get started."

Did he really want to do this? I felt my heart leap. He wanted to spend time with me?

"Umm, okay but I'm not as strong as you. I don't know if we can get it out of my truck."

"Not a problem. I've already thought of that. The way I see it, the motorcycle is already wrecked so if you just pull the truck up and back it into the garage. We can just push it off the truck and into the garage."

"Genius!"

"Thanks but I'm pretty awesome so you should just get use to it." He said laughing

"Oh wow I hope I can fit in the garage with the bike, you and your big head." I even surprised myself with the laughter that came out of my mouth.

Thirty minutes later we were warm and settled in the garage. The motorcycle was in front of us and I'll admit it. It looked bad! My mom had done a number on it. I still couldn't believe that my mom had even done this. She was always against any violence or acting out of anger. Maybe, love makes you do crazy things. I know more about that than I would like to admit. I wanted to become a vampire for my love. But, that was in the past and thinking about it physically hurt my insides. I grabbed my sides and closed my eyes.

"Bella are you okay?" I almost jumped out of my skin! I didn't even realize Jacob had been looking at me.

"Oh! Sorry, yea I'm fine. I was just thinking abo...about...about something." I said wincing when I almost said his name.

"Edward?" Jacob said with a sad tone.

His name...why did he say his name?! I couldn't breathe. My whole stomach turned a million times all at once.

"I think I'm going to be sick!" I said and ran out of the garage. I had to get some fresh air before I split in half. I don't know how far I ran but, of course, I tripped and fell against the cold ground with a thud and just started crying. Why did he say his name? I curled up and wrapped my arms around my legs and cried.

"Bella! What are you doing? Are you okay?" Jacob yelled running up to me. Then, he did something that made me snap out of my crying fit. He laid down on the ground with me and held me with his strong, warm arms. I was in complete shock. Jacob Black was holding me. He was holding me in the middle of the reservation, on the ground, where anyone could see us, while I was crying over another boy that broke my heart. He had to be just as crazy as I was.

"What did I say, Bella? I'm sorry!" He said while running his fingers through my hair.

I sat up and wiped my eyes. "Jacob, you didn't say anything wrong. I...just...can't hear his name right now. Sorry."

"Man! He did a number on you didn't he?" He said with concern.

All I could do was shake my head. Yea, he had done a number on me. I fell in love with him and he left. He didn't want me anymore. I wasn't good for him.

"Well, he is an idiot! How in the world could he possibly let go of you?"

"I...I wasn't good for him" was all I could spit out.

"Bullshit!" he said making me look up at him.

"I'm serious, Bella. That is bullshit if you ask me. He had you and was dumb enough to push you away, while making you think it was your fault?! What an asshole!"

"What? I...I...don't really want to talk about all this right now. I am still hurting." I said getting to my feet and dusting my self off.

"Okay, I get it" He said with an understanding tone.

"I'm sorry Jake. I am a mess and I don't want to drag you down with me."

"What are you talking about?! How could you possibly be a mess while I'm around?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well like I said before I'm awesome and tend to make everyone around me completely happy"

"Ha! You are something else!" I said hitting him in the chest.

"I think that is what you need, Bella. Something else. Am I right?" He grabbed me and hugged me tight. Oh God! He was right. I did just need something else and Jake was going to be it. He was going to be the friend that I needed.

The rest of the day went by fast. Too fast if you ask me. I was actually enjoying handing tools to Jacob while he explained what he was doing. The bike was going to need a lot of work but, we were up for the challenge. Well, Jacob was up for the challenge and I was excited to have something to think about other than...well you know...