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Chapter 4

JPOV

"So, all those stories that my dad tells at the campfires are true?" I said in utter disbelief.

I was more than likely going to turn into a werewolf. Sam, Jared, Paul and now Embry had already shifted.

"Why wasn't I told about this until now?" I questioned frustrated

"We were bound by Sam. He is the Alpha of the pack and he tells us what to do, or not to do, his orders must be followed. It physically hurts us if we don't follow his orders." Jared explained

"Wow...well...jeez I don't know what to say," I was speechless, maybe a little in shock. Either way I knew that my life was over. I was going to become a werewolf and never be able to see Bella again.

"That was just the beginning. There is so much more. Aren't you wondering why we are turning?" Jared questioned

"I don't care! The life that I knew is over! I am going to be a monster! I am going to have to lose the one thing in my life that is normal! Damn it!"

"Jacob, sit down. You are going to feel different once you know everything. Bella has not been completely honest with you." Jared stated

I sat down quietly and they me told everything. The Cullens. The reason why we were turning. Bella and Edward. Some redhead chick that keeps circling the area that the pack patrols. I knew everything now. But, my love for Bella was only stronger. She had escaped a life that wasn't right for her. I was right for her. Edward had left her and gave her a life to live instead of becoming a vampire.

Three days later, I became what I had feared. I was in the kitchen with Billy and he said something, that set me off, which I don't even remember. All I felt was the pent up anger and the next thing I knew I was running out of our house. Sam seemed to have known something was up because he was running full force at me when I reached my porch. My insides burning with a blazing fire in the pit of my stomach. I felt like I was a firecracker about to explode. I looked down to see my clothes shredding as russet brown fur grew in its place. I looked at Sam and everything went black...

BPOV

"He is really sick, Bella," Billy stated for the third day in a row.

"Okay, well can you have him call me when he is feeling well enough to talk?" I said with a low voice.

"Sure, Bella,"

He didn't call….

It had been two weeks. Since, my Jacob, had told me that we were official. I left his house that night with a new lease on life. I was happy for the first time in months. I was able to see a future that was bright. Then, nothing else from him. He didn't call. He didn't stop by. I went to his house and Billy wouldn't let me in. It was happening again. I was being left alone. Jacob was my sun, the bright, warm reason for living and now all I had was darkness.

"Jacob still sick, Bells?" Charlie asked interrupting my thoughts.

"Yeah, Billy said really sick. I don't know what he has but it must be bad."

"Well, I'm sure that Billy is making sure he is well taken care of. Don't worry, Bella, he will be good as new soon." Charlie reassured me.

I couldn't help but think that there was something else. I wasn't about to lose Jake too. I had to see him. I didn't care if I caught whatever he had. I need to see my boyfriend.

I was in my truck headed towards the reservation an hour later. I had made him some soup and bought him a season of "Monster Garage" to watch while he rested. But, when I pulled up there were four boys in just cut off shorts in his front yard. Geez, it is the middle of winter and they are running around in just shorts? I turned the truck off and looked up to see Jake walk out of his house in some basketball shorts. His shirt was off allowing me to see the sculpted, muscular chest, of the boy that I was searching for. He was so beautiful, like a greek god. He had to duck down to get off his porch without hitting his head. Had he grown that much in just two weeks?

"Bella, you need to go home." Embry said to me with his hands up.

"What?! No, I want to talk to Jake!" I screamed.

Why was everyone trying to keep us apart?

"Go Home, Bella!" Jake's words ripped through me like a million knives.

"What? Jake...no...why are..you doing this...to me too..." I could barely talked between the sobs.

"Jake, say your goodbyes and meet us in the woods. We will wait for you." The tall one said and ran off with the other boys in tow.

I was being pushed to the side again. I was going to be left alone with a shredded heart. Again. What had I done in my life so wrong to deserve this. I couldn't let this happen. Jake had brought me back to life. He was the glue that put me back together. I wasn't going to give up this time. I was going to fight for my happiness. He made me happy, I made him happy. We were a team and I wasn't going to let him walk away from me too.

"I won't let you do this to us. I will not stand to the side, Jake." Wow had I really said that?

His eyes were staring at me with fire behind them. They didn't look like the eyes of the boy that I had been spending my days with and nights dreaming about. They were just different. Dark. Angry.

"Is that what you told your precious leecher lover too?" He spat between gritted teeth.

What?! How could he have known about...him. I couldn't even think his name.

"Jake...ah...what are you talking about?" was all I could stammer out.

"Yeah, Bella, I know all about the Cullens and their little situation."

"I don't know what you are talking about, Jake. This isn't about them or...Edward." Ouch that hurt "This is about you and me. The Cullens don't matter, they are gone.." Forever "I want you. We are together."

His face changed, he was looking at me with a face of someone literally in pain. Then like a bolt of lightening the beautiful eyes of My Jacob returned.

"I'm not good for you, Bella." Yeah, I've heard that before "I'm not who you think I am. I'm different now, everything is different now."

"Jake, I don't care about any of that. I don't know what's going on but, we can get through it. We have to get through it. Jake, I...I love you." I meant it. I loved him. He changed me in a way that I didn't know was possible. He was what I wanted, needed, and couldn't lose.

"God, Bella, I love you too. I have loved you forever. That is why I have to let you go. This life I have now is not good for you. You deserve to be happy and I can't do that for you. I'm sorry, Bella, you need to go home. Move on with your life and live. Live a life that is your's without complications." He hugged me and I could smell his scent. The scent that threw me in to ecstasy. I closed my eyes and took him in the smell of woods, pine and grease. Then, he let me go, kissed my forehead and I heard the sound of him running away.

JPOV

I ran into the woods to meet up with the pack with tears running down my face. "Shit!" I had to get a hold of myself. They couldn't see me like this. I took my shorts off and put them in the tie I had around my ankle and phased.

"It will be okay, Jake. This is for the best. She can't know about us, it is dangerous for her and the whole pack." Sam said in my head.

"This is bullshit and I don't want to talk about it"

"Jeez, Jake, she is just a girl. A leech lover. She would of just ripped your heart out and you know it" Leah smirked. She was the newest member of the pack and the most annoying. When, she had phased it was the hardest on Sam. Our thoughts are never hidden from our pack so, Leah's thoughts jab into us like knives. She was still in love with Sam and we all knew it. Sam felt so bad about how everything ended with them but he couldn't change it.

"Shut up, Leah," Sam ordered. "Jake, is our brother and needs us to be supportive"

"Oh shit! You smell that?" Paul yelled

It hit me like a wall. Bella! She was coming after me. It all happen in a flash. Paul phased back and ran towards her smell.

"Where is Jake and what the hell have you done to him!" She screamed

"He is gone, Bella. Leave it alone. He doesn't want you and your leech loving heart anymore." Paul said with anger.

"You son of a bitch!" She had never talked like that before. Then, I heard her slap him.

"Oh, shit! Everyone phase back. Jake, get Bella before he hurts her." Sam ordered. I was there in a flash to see bella's face red with anger. She looked at me with disbelief and sadness. But, was walking backwards as Paul started shaking and screaming. He ripped through his clothes and burst into his silver wolf. Bella screamed and starting running at me.

"Jake! Run!" She screamed. She was to me in seconds and I threw her behind me pressing her against my back. I heard the rest of the pack behind me. I wasn't going to be able to hold it in much longer. The girl I loved was in trouble, my instinct kicked in and I hurled her at Embry.

I growled and burst into my wolf leaving my shredded shorts on the ground. I jumped at Paul ready to kill him.

"Paul, you are not going to hurt her!"

"That bitch slapped me!"

I leapt at him and dug my teeth into his back and was ready to kill him...

BPOV

Jake was a wolf. Were all the fairy tales and superstitions of the world true? I looked around almost ready to see a little girl in a red hood.

"Sam, what do I do?" Embry called out

"Get her to Emily's I'm going to go after them" The tall one who's name I now knew was Sam.

"Come on Bella. Let's go sit down and get some water." Embry said compassionately.

We walked in silence until we came to a small cabin that was breathtaking. There were flowers hanging in baskets all around the porch making this smell of wisteria that was like magic. I let a little laugh escape my mouth thinking about the little red riding hood reference. Was this her house?

"This is Sam and Emily's house. Oh, umm, don't stare at Emily. It really upsets Sam." Embry said as he walked into the cabin.

"Hey Em, this is Bella Swan, she needs some water. Paul just phased in front of her." He filled her in

"Hey Bella!" She said handing me some water and a muffin.

She was beautiful. Tall with beautiful dark skin and hair to match. I knew instantly what Embry was talking about. She had a scar down the side of her face. It did not make her any less flawless.

"Hey, I appreciate it," I said with a smile.

"So, Paul and his temper let the wolf out of the bag?" She said with a laugh.

"Ha! Yeah, Bella, slapped the shit out of him and he couldn't take it." Embry was laughing.

"Bella, you could have been hurt." Emily looked concerned. It made me wonder if she had done the same thing.

"Well I didn't think he would turn into a wolf on me. I was just mad and trying to be possessive."

"You're braver than I gave you credit for then." She said with a smile. Looking up to see the boys wander into the cabin.

"I'm sorry Bella" Paul said with a smile.

"Umm, its okay. Just don't try it again." I said laughing, trying to hide my anxiety.

My eyes met Jake's and I lost my breath. I didn't want to hear what he had to say. He was going to leave me. I wasn't ready for this conversation. He moved his head back motioning out of the cabin. He wanted to talk alone. I almost wasn't able to get up.

"Umm, I guess, I'll see you all around. Thank again, Emily." I said walking out of the cabin.

We walked in silence for a while. I wasn't ready to let go of Jake. I just reached out and grabbed his hand. I didn't ever want to let go.

After what seemed like a lifetime Jake stopped and turned to me.

"Bella, I..."

"No, Jake, No! Please don't do this..."I said in desperation.

"No, Bella you need to hear this."

"I..can't..hear this from you. Not you, Jake...please" I was sobbing now. I fell to the ground at my truck. I didn't even realize we were back to Jake's house. The house where our relationship started to blossom and turn from friendship to love.

"Bella, I know that you won't want me after this but, please let me explain everything before you go."

"What? Why wouldn't I want you?" I was stunned. He thought that I wouldn't want him?

"Well, because...I turn into a wolf. I am not a normal kid anymore." He was crying now too.

"Jake, I don't care what you turn into. You are good. You have a heart of gold, Jacob Black. I have dealt with the supernatural world. I am not scared of you. Jake, I am in love with you. All of you and all that comes with it. Plus, we still aren't done with my Dad's bike. You promised you would help me finish it." I had to make him understand I was here to stay.

"God, Bella, I love you too! How am I so lucky? You are the most amazing girl in the world." He kissed me.

This was a different kiss, this kiss was fierce. I lost myself in him. His scent, his touch, his warmth. I wrapped my arms around his neck and let my hands run through his newly cut spikey hair.

"Mmmm" I groaned. I needed this. I wanted this.

"Bella...I thought you wouldn't want me" He said when we came up for air.

"Jake, I want you...completely"

This time he grabbed me around my waist and picked me up. I instinctively wrapped my legs around him and pressed myself onto him. I wanted to be as close to him as I could be. He walked me into his house and threw me against the door. His hand were on the small of my back pressing me harder into him allowing me to feel his ever hardening shaft. He looked at me with the eyes that I had wanted to see for so long. He was instantly at my neck, softly kissing and nuzzling. I let out a little moan and his touch intensified. He was rubbing my back and growling. I was in absolute heaven.

"Jake, I want you..." I was able to let escape

"You want me to what?" He looked at me. His eyes darkened with lust and love

"No, Jake, I want you..." I smiled

"Dad?!" Jake yelled. Wow that was not what I wanted to hear after I had just told my boyfriend I wanted him to have me.

"Ha! Okay well that was unexpected,"

He chuckled "He is fishing just wanted to make sure he wasn't back yet."

He carried me to his room and slammed the door behind us with his foot. He laid me down on the bed and was laying next to me holding himself up with his elbow. He started tracing all my lines with his fingers. He was thinking about something but, didn't seem like he wanted to tell me.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked

"I have waited to this moment for a long time. I want to savor every minute of it." He smiled and was on me in an instant. His body was so warm next to me and made me feel at home. He sat up and started unbuttoning my shirt. His eyes never left mine.
"Jake, I've never done this before." He needed to know. I wanted him to know that I had never wanted this with anyone else.

"Me either" he admitted

My shirt was off a few minutes later. I was about to take my bra off when he stopped me.

"No, Bella Swan, I have wanted to undress you from the first moment you came back to Forks. Please let me." My whole body was on fire. I could feel my core wet with the lust I had for this man. He was so soft with his movements. My bra was off and he intensified his looks at me.

"Oh, God, Bella you are gorgeous" I lifted myself up to his lips with force and demand. I need him and I wanted him to know it. He bit my bottom lip and brought his tongue into my mouth. Next was my neck as his hands cupped my breast. His thumb rubbed my nipple and I could feel my core melting for him. He moved his hands to my jeans and slowly unbuttoned them pulled them off. I had wore my little blue panties that were comfortable. Not the panties that I wanted Jacob Black to see. I blushed and knew that my face was red.

"Bella, you don't have to be shy with me. It's me."

"I know I just didn't wear clothes that I thought you would be seeing."

"You are beautiful in anything. But, I do have to say that you are the most beautiful without theses on" He said as he took his fingers under my panties and ripped them off of me. Well I won't be able to wear those again I laughed

I felt a bolt of excitement in me. I wasn't shy anymore. This was Jake. The man I loved. The man that I wanted. I wanted him so much it made me ache.

I jumped onto him, throwing him up to the headboard.

"It's your turn, Jacob Black" I smiled knowing this was exactly what he wanted.

I grabbed his pants and ran them down his legs. God, he wasn't wearing underwear.

My eyes couldn't help but but in love with him all over again when I saw all of him, he was beautiful and his shaft was big and thick, the veins were so prominent letting me know he wanted this just as much as I did.

"Oh, Jake, you are gorgeous, but I think I'm in for some pain"

"Don't worry, I'm going to make you feel really good before that," He grinned

"Ah, Ah, it's my turn," I smiled seductively

I grabbed his shaft and he groaned, I stroked him up and down as he writhed in pleasure. I couldn't believe I was doing this, but the shyness had melted away a long time ago.

"God, Bella, I've been dreaming about this since you first came back, I didn't think...uhh...it could be...mmmh...possible," He groaned

I decided to test the waters and lick the tip of his shaft, as the liquid oozed

"Oh fuck!" He growled grasped my hair with one hand and grasping the sheets in the other

I engulfed him into my mouth, I sucked and licked him up and down as he shuddered in pleasure.

"Bella, this feels so good but I'd rather make this last as long as I can." He chuckled

I giggled and pulled back he flipped us over and kissed down my neck, collarbone, the valley between my breast. I grasped his hair as he reached my mound. He licked and sucked as I cried out in pleasure.

I have never felt such heat in one place, he grasped my breast and rolled my nipple between his finger and forefinger. I moaned and arched my back. He pulled back and then I felt his fingers slide into me, I cried out as he fingered me softly, he rubbed my core until my body contracted into a tight ball, then released into a million shards I was coming for him as he drank into me. He came up to my face and kissed me softly, I looked into his eyes and he stroked my cheek.

"Jake," I whispered

"Don't be scared, I'm going to be gentle. I promise."

He grabbed the condom from his drawer and rolled on a condom as he centered himself between my legs.

"Bella, look at me." I obeyed as he slowly slid in, I cried out in pain and pleasure, a tear streaming down.

"Ssh, I'm sorry, it will be okay soon..ahh...you look so beautiful with me inside you." He kissed away the tear and grasped my hands in his.

"More, Jake…" was all I could manage to say as I grabbed his hips and dug my fingers into them.

He started pushing again and the pain became pleasure. I moaned into his shoulder and nibbled into his neck. He thrust into me softly and gently.

"Oh god, Bella you feel...uuhh...so good mmh"

I gripped his back and cried out when he allowed me a release for the second time.

He started going faster his hips thrusting into mine, I moaned and he kissed my neck

"I love you," he whispered

He thrust into me harder and faster until he stiffened and let out a wail as he came with me groaning.

We laid tangled into each other for a while. I could do that over again and again. He pulled me into him as I allowed sleep to overtake me.