Can't believe this, but this story is actually coming to an end. No no no not this chapter yet, but soon. Which makes two, cause next update I post of my other ongoing one is the last. It feels so weird, it's like my two babies going off to college.
Well this is kinda an emotional one. Just like the last one. Not quite as tho. Get read and keep your mind open.
It was that time of the year again.
Award season.
She hadn't seen him since they came back from Italy, Calum and Raini. Fully focussing on her music and college, she had isolated herself from all her friends and even her family sometimes. They weren't stupid, they knew what was going on, but not all of it and Laura didn't have enough energy in her body to enlighten them or enough power to hold the tears again while reliving the moment.
She had been absent during the Kids' Choice Awards, a consequent of a well planned trip to an event her record label planned in some European country. She hadn't even enjoyed it that much, the whole week was a blur, but it was better than having to face people she had been ignoring for quite a while without giving them a reason for it.
But this time, she couldn't escape it. The Radio Disney Music Awards.
Out of everyone, her sister had seen her most after the break up and seeing Laura's state, she didn't interfere with it, which she was grateful for. Figuring the two sisters always went to the award shows together, this time was no change. Laura didn't mind. Vanessa didn't ask questions, she just stayed by her side and made the occasional light joke to clear any tension. She couldn't ask for a better partner in this event she was forced to participate at.
''That top looks amazing on you!'' Laura jumps when she hears Vanessa's high squeal and turns around. Leaning against her door post, already fully dressed, makeup and hair on point, she's eying her with a loving smile. ''Do you want me to see for a skirt for underneath it?''
''That's okay, I'm wearing my yellow one with the strappy wedges,'' she gives her a short, thankful smile as she looks at her outfit. ''Since when are you the one who proposes to wear colour?''
''Not my first choice, but I figured we could use some happy thoughts in our clothes,'' Vanessa answers while letting her hands brush over the black and pink fabric of her tight dress. She would do her a favour by matching her colourful outfit, but eventually, she would always add a dash of black. ''The makeup crew is ready whenever you are.''
''Thanks, I'll be there in a bit,'' after her sister leaves, Laura opens her closed to reveal one of her favourite skirts. The elastic, yellow fabric hugged her hips perfectly and stopped on the perfect height; short enough to be named sexy, but not enough to get the wrong idea. After wrapping the show, she found herself finally having the courage to wear the more daring outfits in her closets. As long as she covered enough, she could show all the skin she wanted to. Especially the bare-back tops were her favourite, including her well-worn, black jumpsuit she had put on several occasions.
After double-checking her reflection, from top to bottom, she heads towards the living room, where the stylists would take care of her face and hair. After that, there was no turning back.
After having done a few interviews with Vanessa, they both decided to do a few alone, both to promote their own stuff individually. Laura was just moving on from one interview before getting tapped on her shoulder.
''Hey, stranger,'' the tiny girl greets her with a wide smile. Laura's eyes widen before attacking her with a tight hug. ''It's been a while.''
''I'm so sorry Raini, I've been-'' she gives her a guilty look, knowing it's been extremely selfish of her to ignore her friends like she did before Raini holds up one hand.
''Don't apologize, I get it,'' she admits, showing her a heartfelt smile. Laura looks at her confused before she explains. ''News travels fast in Hollywood.''
''Of course,'' Laura comes to mind, realizing everyone must've known from the moment the word was out, including her friends. That didn't make up for her behaviour, though, she knew that. ''I'm really happy to see you again.''
''Not just me,'' she spoils before a redhead appears by her side.
''Oh my gosh, Calum, I missed you so much!'' she launches herself at his tall body, enjoying the great hugs he always gives.
''Raini, Calum, Laura! Can we have you three for an interview real quick?'' after some debating looks between the three, they walk over to Hunter, the usual interviewer for Awesomeness TV. ''Great to have you three together here.''
''It's a bit crowded, but we'll make it work,'' Calum grins as he lets the two girls stand close to him as he takes place in the middle, easily being able to look over their heads.
''It'll work. So tell us, the RDMA's 2016, what are you most excited for?'' the three nod, taking turns in giving their short answers before the mic eventually ends up in front of Laura.
''So much! The music of course, just seeing all the lovely people on the red carpet. Doing fun interviews too,'' she giggles, looking around. ''Unfortunately, I couldn't make it to the KCA's, but I'm glad I can be here.''
''Indeed, the music is a big plus. Which one of the performers are your favourites?'' the mic stays at Raini as she sums up pretty much all the artists performing, R5 being one of the first ones.
''Speaking of, look who's here!'' Laura's smile flatters when hearing the very familiar greetings as she turns around. The five were just walking past them, before stopping their pace to exchanging some quick 'hello's'. After a few seconds, four of them quickly move on, Ross stays behind as he stands behind Raini and Calum.
''They're only here cause they missed me too much,'' Ross jokes leaning on their shoulders, still completely oblivious to Laura's presence behind Calum's tall frame. The other three laugh as Ross give Calum a quick hug. He's about to continue walking when he sees Laura over Calum's shoulder. She gives him a smile before turning back to Hunter, hoping he'll walk away without saying anything. There's a few seconds of silence before they hear his voice. ''Okay, well, I'll see you guys inside.''
As the interviews picks up its pace again, Laura can't really focus and only answers the questions asked her directly. Her plan was to avoid seeing him as much as she could, so what could he mean with 'seeing them inside'?
''Laura! Great talking to you again,'' the unfamiliar girl tells her in which she nods with a polite smile. She must've talked to this magazine once or twice, but she couldn't remember what it was. Deciding the best thing to do is pretend she did know, she went with it. ''So, what has been keeping you busy these last months?''
''Besides my music, which is always in a progress, I started my first college semester on NYU. It's going really great and I'm having a lot of fun and learning a bunch,'' Laura starts to relax, happy she was finally able to talk about her personal projects, even though there wasn't anything big on her path yet. In the other interviews, they had avoided the subject of the breakup, even though she knew they knew about it, which she was eternally grateful for. She was just hoping the rest of the interviewers would be ask kind to her. She soon found out this one wasn't.
''I've heard something truly upsetting, is it true you and Ross broke up?'' she gets straight to the point, looking her straight in the eyes. Laura's mouth hangs open for a split second before smiling awkwardly.
''That is true, yes,'' she hopes to let her know she wants to move on to the next question by the short answer, but the girl seems to have none of that.
''Can you give me any details?'' when Laura stays quiet, she encourages her further. ''Who broke up with who?''
''I don't think that really matters, to be honest. We just split as two adults and there's nothing more to the story,'' okay, most of that was a lie, she couldn't even look him in the eyes, but she needed to make it look as boring as she could. Knowing her agent, he would give her a speech about always being polite in an interview, but that seemed only a detail now. The girl seemed to have gotten the message as she quickly changes the topic.
''Alright, let's move onto something more fun. You look amazing, tell us about your outfit, why have you chosen this tonight?'' Laura steps backwards to let the camera film her whole body, making a twirl before starting to explain her choice of colours. While talking enthusiastically, she suddenly sees the lead of the last topic inching closer from the corner of her eye. She ignores his presence, focussing on the girl with the microphone in front of her as she feels her anxiety growing with every step he takes until the combination of ripped jeans, a leather jacket and blonde hair passes her.
He had thought of her a lot. More than a lot. It messed him up how many times she was on his mind. At the KCA's he had looked for her, but never found her. Today, for the first time in a while, she hadn't crossed his mind when he got out of bed. The fact that she hadn't shown up to the other awards show, could mean she wouldn't either at this one. So he went, with the band in the limo, with mixed emotions and blurry thoughts.
When seeing Raini and Calum, he had felt such a warm feeling, a feeling of coming home. He didn't expect to find her standing behind Calum, so when he hugged his friend, the big, brown eyes he hadn't seen in quite a while took his breath away. She quickly broke eye contact, though, only giving him a staged smile before turning her back towards him. He could only stare, trying to give this unexpected meeting a place in his mind, until he realized the presence of all the camera's facing him and snapped out of it. With a quick mumble, he said goodbye to the three before adding himself with his band, hoping the camera's hadn't caught too much of the scene.
And there she stood again, apparently having passed them while they were busy doing another interview, twirling around as she makes wild arm gestures towards her outfit. A quick glance to her right causes them to connect eyes. They linger for just a second before she continues talking, ignoring him from a distance as he's on his way past her. The bright colours of her top and skirt give her bubbly personality an extra boost and shows just enough skin around her waist, a line of barely two inches. As the distance between them gets smaller with each second, a wave of confidence washes over him and he decides to take his chance.
Carefully, making sure the camera that was facing Laura wouldn't be able to catch it, he walks as close to Laura as he possibly can without making it obvious. Then, as soon as he knows for sure Laura's body is blocking the view, he lets two fingers barely, but undoubtedly enough, brush the strap of skin between her short top and high skirt, all the way from one side of her back to the other, making sure to step away as soon as he passes her.
As soon as his fingers touched her skin, he could feel her tense up. Knowing how she saw him walking closer, he's sure she knows exactly who touched her and that it definitely wasn't an accident. Words fail her, as all she can focus on is the rough skin on fingers, clearly caused by years of playing guitar, teasing her back. When she finally finishes her sentence, in between questions, she dares to look her left, only seeing him look over his shoulder straight at her.
He didn't know why he did it, what was going on in his head or what he was trying to achieve from it. But it got her attention, it made her notice him and that was all he craved for now.
''I'm so happy we get to sit close to each other!'' Raini and Calum had joined them just before her and Vanessa had gone inside. They already knew where they were seated long before Laura did. Walking behind her friends, she was leaded to her chair. As they approach four boys and one girls all seated next to each other, Laura does a silent prayer to every god she knew, but finally reached her seat, her picture hanging on the backrest, as Ross was sitting only two chairs next apart, one row in front of her.
''You okay?'' Vanessa whispers softly while touching her arm. Laura shakes her head with an easy smile, trying to assure her not to worry.
''I'm fine,'' her voice comes out in an abnormally high pitch, causing Vanessa to raise her eyebrows in disbelief, her eyes filled with concern at the same time. Coughing, Laura tries to calm herself down, repeating the same statement in a slightly too calm tone. ''I'm fine.''
''I'm so happy I get to hang out with you at an award show again,'' Raini admits in seat on Laura's other side. She smiles happily in response, giving her a side hug before catching up with her best friend. They are just about to relive one scene, where Laura accidently dropped a wedding cake and they had to use that one take, even though it wasn't planned. ''That cake was almost heavier than you, I still can't believe you managed to carry it so far.''
''I can't believe I managed to not mess up the takes. We would've had a serious problem if I did,'' Laura laughs behind her hand. ''I actually tripped over the dress, the skirt was slightly too long. It was pretty, though.''
''Yeah, you looked so beautiful in it, that whole episode was great in general,'' Raini sighs, proud of the work they delivered. The smile on Laura's lips falters when thinking to the easier times, how Ross and she could just film romantic scenes like that without complications. When she notices herself automatically looking his way, she finds his eyes already looking her way before he catches himself staring, turning around in his seat again.
After a few awards and performances, a man appears out of nowhere, telling R5 to get ready for their performance. They get up in silence in order not to disturb anyone with their movements and disappear in the back. Ten minutes pass before they're announced. The five run on stage, first greeting the crowd before taking their usual spots behind their instruments and microphones.
''What's up RDMA's?'' Ross yells through the mic, earning himself a loud roar from the fans. After exchanging a grin with his bandmates, he announces their song. They perform two songs, the whole stadium singing along as Laura isn't able to pull her eyes away from the leading man.
''You killed it out there!'' Raini yells as the band returns to their seat, receiving several high fives.
''Best performing band goes to,'' Becky opens the small envelope before making eye contact with the five just as they're about to sit down. ''R5! Get back up here!''
They jump up, ecstatic about this sudden announcement, before hugging each other and running back on the stage. As Raini, Calum and Vanessa stand up to give them a standing ovation, Laura is being pulled up too by the invisible force of principles. She smiles uneasily while clapping, feeling every camera facing their direction. After a short speech about not expecting winning the awards, thanking their manager, their family, their fans and whatnot, they return to their seats once again.
Around her, everyone congratulates the band and she blends in by hugging Rydel, who's seated right in front of her. As Laura covered everyone eventually, she only hadn't praised one person. She sees everyone around her sit down already as only she and Ross are the ones standing up.
''Congrats,'' she mutters, only audible for the person who it's meant for to be heard, and sits down after giving him a quick smile which fails to reach her eyes.
''Thanks,'' he breaths, his eyes shamelessly studying her for a few seconds before finally turning back to the stage as he lowers himself in his seat. Laura feels herself breath heavily without a reason and catches her eyes to drift back to him every few seconds. Pursing her lips, she blinks a few times, forcing herself to focus on the stage, but when she hears the people around her clap, she has no clue who she's applauding. She notices movement when Ross leans over to Riker to say something behind his hand, making the two laugh. Only catching bits and pieces, she understands it's an inside joke about the song Ariana is about to perform.
She isn't even aware of staring at him again until their eyes accidently connect, causing her to look away quickly. When she wants to check if his eyes are still on her after a minute by subtly overlooking the crowd, she finds his stare being as deep as ever, not leaving her for a second. After not being able to stop herself and looking back at him, she can't seem to pull herself away. Luckily, she hears Dove Cameron announcing the commercials and takes her chance.
''I need to go to the bathroom,'' she insists, tapping her sister's shoulder.
''Make it quick. Sabrina is about to perform,'' with a quick nod, Vanessa stands up in order to let her through before Laura hurries away, in search of a bathroom.
''What the hell am I doing?'' Laura mutters to herself, desperately trying to set her mind straight in the small room which she luckily found completely abandoned. Checking all the stalls one last time, she leaves out a grateful breath when finding them all empty, happy no one caught her talking to herself. She feels the utter need to splash water in her face, but she could name at least three people who would kill her for walking around with ruined makeup, so she pushes the thought away.
Instead, she leans on one of the sinks, looking at her reflection in utter confusion. She studies her face, coloured with bright colours on her eyes, cheeks and lips in a hopeless attempt, but she could see the dull colour of her skin and dreary eyes now. She jumps and turns around quickly when she sees her reflection showing something that's not supposed to be there.
''What are you doing here?'' when he gives her no response, only a blunt stare, she looks around nervously. ''You can't be here, this is the girl's bathroom. What if someone walks in?''
''The show started again, no one is gonna walk in,'' Ross gives her the obvious excuse while inching closer. He stops on a decent distance, not wanting to give her a suffocating feeling, and looks at her worrying. ''Are you okay?''
''I'm…'' Hurting. Lost. Lonely. Depressed. Sad. Broken. Hopeless. Dying. Crying. Alone. Frustrated. Gone. ''I'm fine.''
''You don't seem fine,'' he states the obvious, pushing away the need to hold her. She stays silent, not being able to defend herself. After a long silence, he decides to ask the one question he'd been wanting to ask her for a long time. ''Why did you give up?''
''You think I wanted to give up? I seemed to be the only one who saw we were growing apart,'' she's in awe by his accusation. As he keeps staring at her, she explains herself for the first time. ''I had to end it before it got too painful and couldn't do it anymore.''
''Then why are you hurting now?'' it was clear she wasn't okay and she knew it herself too. No amount of time could make it less painful.
''Look, I can't deny it's killing me. There will always be a part of me that keeps loving you, no matter what. I can't ignore that,'' she admits, touching her forehead with the palms of her hands, trying to push the feelings out her body like she tried so many times before. Ross's eyes light up, feeling the tiniest bit of hope after this confession.
''You still love me?'' he asks her, walking closer as she presses herself tighter against the sink behind her.
''Of course,'' sighing, not being able to deny the fact. The way she hadn't stopped loving him makes it extra hard for her to stay away from him. She had to ignore her feelings every time he crossed her mind to remind herself how much it would hurt to experience the break up again. ''But it hurts too much. I need to forget about you, about us, forever''
She had put a lot of thought into this. At least once a day, Ross had appeared in her life, whether it was a photo or his name and it made her lose focus really quickly. The only way to get her life back on the right path, was to remove him from her life completely. And in order to do that, she needed to delete every connection with him as much as she could. She couldn't stay friends, cause they weren't even that. She didn't know what they were.
He didn't want to hear that last sentence. She loved him and that was all that mattered. All he had to do was convince her they could make it work, that she didn't need to worry about anything. They loved each other, what was the problem? He still didn't know what caused her to quit so easily. His words weren't reaching her, he noticed that so he could only use action.
In one big step he closed the gap between them by using both his hands to tilt her head before his mouth was on hers. A tight grip stayed on her cheeks while Laura froze, her hands still grabbing the sink she was pressed against. His kiss was dominant, forcing, trying too hard and even if she would've wanted to kiss him back, she now wanted nothing more than push him away.
There was something about the kiss that reminded her of a bad memory, one she couldn't seem to find in that instant. As she tries to turn her head away, he tightens his grip and suddenly it comes back to her. She had suppressed that event in her mind, but the way Ross touches her now makes her remember. The way that British guy in the club first bruised up her arms, pushed her against the wall and squeezed her chin to make her unable to turn her head was almost identical with what she was experiencing now and it all came down on her.
Tears appear in her eyes as she hits his chest repeatedly. After some struggling, she finally succeeds to escape his grip. As soon as she's free, she collects all the power in her body before raising her hand to let it hit his cheek. Ross stands there, perplexed with what he just experienced as he covers the stinging spot on his cheek. They look at each other, breathing heavily before Laura breaks the silence.
''How could you do that to me?'' her voice trembles as she touches her chin, trying to calm down the skin that he squeezed with force. ''After you made me forget that night, how could you do this?''
''Laura, I'm so sorry,'' he stutters, now finally progressing what he'd done. He was the one that made her forget and his stupid action made her remember again. ''I never meant to-''
''I want you to stay away from me,'' as he lets go of his now glowing red cheek, he tries to stop her from walking away in which she steps back determinedly while holding up one hand. ''Stay away from me. Don't even think about following me outside.''
''Laura, wait,'' he tries, but she's already out of the door. Following her command, he stays there, in the girl's bathroom, trying to remember where it all went wrong before he punches the wooden door in extreme anger.
Her manager had given her a free day; no interviews, no parties, no signings. No nothing. She didn't know if he could tell she was feeling even more depressed than the past two months or that he really didn't have anything planned for her, but she actually couldn't care less. The fact that she stormed out of the building at the RDMA's might've given him a slight hint. Either way, she had decided to spend the afternoon in her room, avoiding all kinds of social contact except for her never-being-allowed-to-be-turned-off cell phone.
She was just lazily laying on her bed, absentmindedly looking through an old magazine, her thoughts in a completely different place. Finally, she had seen her mistakes. Of course Ross had never meant to attack her with that kiss like that, he would never purposely hurt her. She was just a bit overwhelmed with everything that happened. In conclusion, she never had the right to slap him and she could feel her body filling with regret and guilt over the days after.
''Dammit,'' mumbling to herself in frustration, she throws the magazine to the other side of the bed before sitting up. She looks around the room, but feels her eyes being pulled to one certain object. On the other side of the bed, her small suitcase seemed to stare back, still unpacked after weeks of her returning from Italy. She could almost see some kind of dark cloud hanging above the stuffed suitcase filled with bad memories, causing her to leave it alone for quite some time. But she couldn't leave it unpacked for months, so, with great unwillingness, she rises from her bed to inch her way closer.
Pushing it over, it lands on the floor with a loud bang which she ignores before unzipping it. The few stacks of clothes are revealed, seeming to be relieved to finally get air after so long as they swell, revealing the wrinkles in the fabric. Postpone the worst job, folding all the tops and dividing them in categories dirty and still clean, she grabs her vanity case, setting it on her dresser. Sighing deeply, she stares at it before lifting her slightly shaky hands to open it. It's filled with some simple makeup, the one she could apply on her own, but she didn't care about that.
In a small pocket on the back of the case, she finds what caught her attention. As she holds it up, the two charms dangle on the shiny necklace as she turns them around by moving her hand. Dance with me tonight. She still didn't figure out how he managed to make her forget all her troubles by just dancing with her time after time. She knows he put a lot of thought in his present, knowing how much trouble he had had with coming up with an idea from a certain trustworthy, red-headed source.
''Mine forever,'' she reads out loud, cocking her head as she lets her eyes freely roam over the letters and shiny stones. A loud ringtone awakes her from her trance, causing her to clumsily let the necklace fall from her weak grip before it lands on the light brown parquet. She ignores the sound of shattering glass as she reaches over to her nightstand to grab the initiator of the ringing.
''Yeah?'' she answers the phone rudely before finally inspecting the accident her phone created. On the floor, the necklace was laying in its normal state, except for the bottle. Dozens of tiny shards belonging to the glass bottle were spread on the floor, making it extremely dangerous to be walking around her room with bare feet. She gasps as she sees what she feared for, still one of the most important things she owned, partly destroyed. ''No, no. Fuck, no.''
''Laura, what's going on there?'' the sweet voice asks her. After giving her a quick, evasive answer, trying to brush it off, Raini gives her the reason for her call.
''So, Ross is starting his US tour tomorrow here in LA,'' the hesitating tone of her announcement doesn't go unnoticed by Laura, who decides to ignore the comment altogether. Instead she takes a seat on the floor, a safe distance between her and the shards as it stays silent, Raini waiting for some kind of answer before giving up by continuing to talk. ''Me and Calum are planning on going to the concert. We were wondering if you'd like to join us.''
''Raini…'' Laura starts protesting, almost whining while picking up the larger pieces to separate them from the rest.
''C'mon, it'll be fun! It's not like you two aren't talking right?'' Raini interrupts her, trying to convince her to come by asking her false assumption.
''Actually-'' she continues to sum up reasons why she really can't come with them as she's cut off by a sharp piece of glass stabbing in her thumb. ''Shit!''
''Laura, what's going on?'' her friend sounds rather worried as Laura puts her thumb in her mouth after seeing one drop of blood dripping out of the wound, sucking on the skin to prevent more blood from escaping.
''Nothing, I just cut myself. Nothing serious,'' she studies her thumb to see the shard only caused a small cut. ''Anyway, I can't go. Sorry, Raini.''
''Are you sure? It could be a lot of fun, some sort of second Austin and Ally reunion!'' Raini sounds genuinely excited, showing her she doesn't know in what kind of situation her and Ross are in. Laura isn't planning on enlightening her, at least not now on the phone.
''I'm sure,'' her eyes land on the destination of the single blood drop, seeing how the red liquid spreads on the side of the rolled up, white paper. With a quick goodbye, she hangs up. ''Have fun tomorrow, though.''
In between the dangerous shards, the content of the once whole bottle lays. She picks up the tiny paper, remembering the conversation they had when he gave it to her.
''Is there something on the paper inside?''
''That's something you need to find out another time.''
Unsure of what she will find, she rolls it out, already finding black letters written down. Holding the two ends between two fingers, she's finally able to read it.
I miss you.
For a minute she just reads that one sentence over and over again, trying to understand. But she doesn't. She clearly recognizes his messy handwriting so there's no doubt he was the one writing it. But when? Did he write it down in the shop? He didn't have any reason to, they were dating at that time. Did he take the bottle without her noticing some time, take out the paper and wrote it? It couldn't be, she had taken it off before he even entered her room the night they broke up and stored it in the pocket of her vanity case, the place it hadn't left since now.
Feeling light headed, Laura sits down on the bed again, constantly rereading the three words, even hearing Ross's voice saying it in her head. After sighing deeply, more confused than ever, she's about to continue to clean up the shards when a thought enters her mind. She slowly turns the paper around, indeed finding the other side also be written on. But this handwriting was unfamiliar to her.
I've never seen anyone so determined to find the perfect gift. Make sure you keep him. X an observer
This advice was even more confusing than what Ross wrote, she thinks to herself as she lays the paper on her night stand. A tiring wave washes upon her as she bends down to clean up the shards. Yawning, she picks up the necklace before unconsciously putting it on in the routine she used to follow every morning. As she falls down on the bed, falling in a deep sleep, the pick charm, she doesn't know she holds so close, rests on her chest.
Pam pam pam did ya all expect that ending? Hope you read that careful enough
One of the last author notes I'll ever write for this story. Damn that's depressing.
One last message for everyone out there before I say goodbye:
Whether this day has been extremely kind or just awful to you, read these steps.
1. Breath in for two seconds, hold and breath out slowly. Bet you hadn't done that in a while. Felt good, right?
2. Check your posture. Is your back slouched? Stretch for a second, tense your shoulders before letting them relax again and sit/stand up straight.
3. Smile. Even if you're not happy. Just one smile sends a signal to your brains that you are happy, which makes you instantly feel better.
4. You're beautiful.
MerlinAddicted chapter 35
Me again :)
You actually made me hate Laura in this chapter she was just...ugh...my Ross deserves better than that. I'm more on his side (if you couldn't guess :D) I mean...she heard him so much...and he didn't even try to fix it...she took the easiest way out,and I hate that:( but very good writing on your part!
Nah i live in the middle of Germany :) so you won't der ne in Berlin have dun though! - Hey Hanna! That's right, I remember names :) I know, Laura is so complicated. It's hard to write her like this cause she's like my fav, if I had to choose one of the two. I'm always trying to make sure not one has the total blame, but man, I'm struggling. She'll find out what she's missing out on soon. Tots, I am too and I think the rest is on Ross's side too hahah. Well, I had a great time in Berlin, hope to go back there some other time!
AusllyRauralover100 chapter 35
Awesome chapter
What do you think about Ross and Courtney - Maaaan at least 5 different people have me asked about this and I tots get it, I love getting asked stuff so here's my answer. Courtney seems like a sweet girl, at least from what I've seen from her. I don't know her personality, I just know that Ross is a good person who is perfectly capable of making good life choices. Whether we like it or not, they're a good couple who seem to be comfortable with keeping their relationship slightly hidden. If the boy is happy, I'm happy. I'll always be a Raura shipper, whether it is romantic or friendly. That will never change.
missmia10 chapter 35
That was hard to read. i really don't know what to say. I knew this was going to happen eventually but this just hit me like a shovel on the back of my head. I needed that slap in the face of reality though. I have to face that Raura just isn't going to work out. Wow. That sounds really depressing. On a completely different note, how ya doin?Love ya! - Aww sorry to make you feel so dumbstruck! Hope the emotions got the best of you, in a good way :) it's like we're mixing reality with my story, right? My story won't have a bad ending, I can tell you that. So when reality starts to disappoint you, let's focus on the beauty of fanfiction. I'm great! Kinda stressed for exams in a few weeks, especially one math one, which turns out to be so important that if you fail, the school won't let you continue to your next year…. Yeah. So that's a horrible stress feeling to have. You?
Dirtkid123 chapter 35
Aw... My eyes were tearing up at this... I can't believe Laura! It makes me so mad, that she would do that to Ross! Of course Ross isn't completely innocent in this, but she really messed up. Oh why do you have to play with my emotions like this?! - OH NO! CAN I DRY YOUR TEARS? HERE HAVE THIS TEDDY BEAR. Just pretend I'm actually giving you a teddy bear. Did you all notice how Ross hasn't had a chance to voice his feelings? Hope he'll get to do that soon! ;)
AustinR5Ally chapter 34
This is my favorite story ever. I love your writing so much and I'm very pleased with how quickly you update. Thank you :) - WOWIE YAY! Those were some great compliments sweetie, thanks I really needed that for a second. Updating more than weekly is certainly a challenge, but my passion for writing and crazy inspiration that just HAS to be voiced is making it fun. The awesome reviews from the sweetest people ever is a nice bonus :)