I killed myself.

I did it to get rid of the hurt.

Fairy Tail deserves anything bad to them.

But, I was wrong.

I wasn't freed from the torture.

I wasn't at peace.

I woke up suddenly. I didn't know how long I was out, or how long I was dead for, but all I knew was that I was in an unfamiliar place, surrounded by a white light. It was empty and I didn't know what to do.

"Where..."

I looked at down at myself, seeing the cuts, burns and bruises on my arms and legs. I was suddenly also wearing a tattered stained white dress that went below my thighs and it was strapless. I touched my neck and could feel a tightening sensation as I looked upward.

I began to wander again, barefooted, wondering what I was doing here and why was I there. But, no matter how far I walked or wherever I looked, everything looked the same. As if I wasn't walking at all. There was no else but me. I was alone and it was quiet.

That's when I heard it.

I heard the words and voices of those who tortured me back in the living. The hurtful words and laughter that broke and drove me to wherever I am now.

"Worthless." "Worthless little Lucy."

"You're wrong."

"Coward." "Coward little Lucy."

"Stop it."

"Weak." "Weak little Lucy."

"Enough already."

"Give up." "Give up on life little Lucy."

"Don't you see!? I did! I'm dead now!"

I covered my ears as I slid down to my knees, attempting to block the voices in my head.

This wasn't what I wanted. I wanted it to stop. I wanted it to go away. I wanted to be free from it all. But instead, I just got more hurt than when I was alive. My heart raced and I began to hyperventilate while sweating. I hugged my knees to my chest as I hid my face. Even in death these words continued to break me and torture me as I cried.

"Are you really?"

I gasped. I looked around me for the girl who replied. But there was no one there. I laughed at myself.

"Baka. You're dead and now you're hallucinating."

That's when I heard someone else speak this time.. and I knew exactly who the voice belonged to.

(A/N: if the words are just normal font((Ex. Like this)) It's the 'living' talking, except for one part)

"Is... that..."

Master...

Images started to appear before me and I was suddenly inside the guild hall. But no one saw me. Everybody was staring at the entrance with wide eyes and open mouths in total shock. I turned around curious to what it was and I suddenly understood 'who' it was.

There at the entrance was Wendy's team, staring at the mages with intense anger and sorrow.

Lily and Carla was flying as they gnashed their teeth with narrowed eyes, Lisanna had a tear stained face as she panted with anger, Laxus had lightning sparks going around him dangerously, Wendy had a great amount of wind swirling around her body and Gajeel had a death glare as he held my dead pale body in his arms.

"Look at what you've done."

Gajeel...

"DO YOU SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO LUCY!?"

"You burned her! Cut her! Broke her! Now... you KILLED her too!"

Laxus...

"Do you have any idea what happened in her apartment!? Everything was burned! Everything was bloody and shattered!"

Wendy...

"Lucy has done nothing to you! All she did was trying to talk to you! But you brushed her off like a little fly!"

Lisanna...

"Do you have any idea what she wrote on the walls of her bedroom!? 'FAIRY TAIL! YOU ARE ALL LIARS! YOU ALL DID THIS TO ME! I'M DEAD... BECAUSE OF YOU!' Do you know what she wrote that with? She wrote it with her own blood. The blood that you caused to shed!"

Lily...

"You should be ashamed of what she resorted to! Now Lucy's gone!"

Carla...

I watched closely as the guild members - especially Team Natsu - began to realize what they had done and their mistakes as tears threatened to flow from the corner of their eyes. They began mumbling words in a regretful tone and questioned their actions. That's when I saw Gajeel give my body to Lisanna gently as the 3 dragon slayers breath in.

"Iron Dragon..."

"Sky Dragon..."

"Lightning Dragon..."

"ROOOOAAAAAARRR!"

The 3 of them did their dragon roars, hitting everybody in front of them, except Master, as each member hit the walls. Getting blown away quickly, getting hit with bit of metal and getting electrocuted while coughing up blood.

Gajeel, Wendy and Laxus began scolding them even further. I saw each other guild members twitched hearing their words, trying to get up after the attack. But they froze on the spot when Laxus held up the blood stained note that I wrote for them to remember what they did to me.

The image faded as a new image appeared. It was at Kardiac Cathedral.

It was raining and everybody in Fairy Tail was wearing black while tears spilled from their eyes. I looked over and saw that they were having a funeral for me and were beginning to bury my body into the ground forever. For some reason I don't understand, my celestial keys stuck by me and were buried along with my body, leaving nothing left of me there.

Then, the images faded of into nothingness.

"Why...?"

"This is happened almost year ago."

That voice again. Whoever this girl was, I wanted to know who she was and show herself to me.

Wait? Did she say a year ago? Does that mean I've been dead for almost a year? Why am I awake then, after all these months I decide to wake up?

"Who are you?"

"Let's not worry about that."

"Okay... then where am I?"

"You are in the place between Fiore and the other side."

"Why aren't I on the other side if I'm dead?"

"There is only one reason you are here. Your heart led you in this place."

"That reason is..."

"A chance to live."

A chance to live? Now I know this is dumb. If wanted to keep on living, I wouldn't have to kill myself, would I? But, this person said my heart led me here. Does that mean a part of me still loves Fairy Tail? No it can't be. Lucy of Fairy Tail died a long time ago when that pink headed dragon slayer burned me to my breaking point. The guy that she loved most and the guy she thought was her best friend was the one who shattered her.

"Why would my heart want that?"

"Your mind may be convinced that you hate Fairy Tail, but there is still a small spark of you that wishes to see that guild once more."

"Impossible."

"You know in your heart that you forgive them. You love them even after what they've done to you. That is how you truly feel."

"No! That guild resented me! Forgot me and beat me to a bloody pulp! They never cared for me and I hate them til the day they die. No, even after they die I'll still haunt them forever!"

"That guild regrets. They wish to change everything that they have done to you. They wish for a second chance to make it up to you. They want to see you once again even if you have to leave. They just want a proper goodbye if you're gone for good."

"So what? I'm sure my letter was clear. I'll never forgive them. They tortured me to no end! I was scarred and betrayed by those people that I called family! I never want to go back!"

"You're lying to yourself again."

"No! I'm reminding myself the truth! That guild hated me except for Wendy's team and Master! They're the only family I had! But, I just couldn't take it anymore! I was broken! Broken mostly by... the person that I loved most."

"The dragon slayer, correct? He regrets most of all."

"Stop lying to me. He doesn't care for me. To him... I was just a toy. A replacement."

I started to cry. Just remembering what I went through, while remembering all the fun I had. I felt like my world was being pulled apart by these feelings. But, this mysterious person was right. In my heart, the heart that used to be filled with light and love for her beloved guild, I wanted to forgive them. I wanted to see them once more.

"Are you sure he doesn't care?"

I looked around me, I was back at Kardiac Cathedral. It wasn't raining. But, the whole guild wasn't there this time. Instead, it was just the idiot dragon slayer that had burned me the day I hanged myself. His back was toward me and he stood still, staring at the gravestone - that reminded me of my mother's grave - that had my name on it.

He held something in his arms carefully as if it was the most delicate thing in the world and had his head down.

"For the many months after you were buried, the fairies would come on the same day each month. Asking for your forgiveness, despite what you wrote in that letter."

I watched in a trance as he then crouched down and started fixing something on the gravestone. So whatever he brought, wouldn't fall and wouldn't break.

"But each day before the guild would visit, this boy in particular, would always visit and bring something to your grave. You may think he doesn't care for you, but he actually does."

I continued to watch him fix whatever he had held and when he stood up, I gasped as I placed my hand with the scorched guild mark on my mouth in shock.

There on my gravestone, were a bouquet of flowers. In front of the flowers were picture of my mother and father then... a picture of me before all this happened.

"Lucy?"

"Natsu?"

"I'm back again. I brought you flowers this time that Lisanna and Wendy helped me buy. I know how you liked these kind of flowers in your apartment."

I was shaking. I didn't know how to feel about all this. Not in the slightest bit. It made my heart tightened.

"Speaking of your apartment, we saw what it looked like a couple months back. It took us awhile and a little help from some Time Ark mages, but we all fixed it to the way it was before everything happened. Most of the time though, don't tell the others this, I had been digging for these pictures. I remember how much you'd look at them and now you have them by your side."

I tried to hold in my tears. He remembered. Natsu remembered that little detail and even what flowers I liked. I placed my left hand on my chest in a fist. My heart had tightened even more and my knees were becoming weak. I struggled just to make sure I can stand.

"We're all going to visit tomorrow. I mean it has been a year since then. I hope it doesn't rain. It's been raining every time we visit each month. Surprisingly, it's not Juvia' fault this time. We're all sorry too, Luce. I hope I can still call you that. We wish that we can go back in time and start over. We... I miss ya the most. We - and I - love ya... Luce."

That did it. I couldn't handle holding it all in now. I fell to my knees and started crying too. There was no way I couldn't cry because of that. They care. The miss me. Natsu misses me. They love me. They all regret. I tried drying my tears. But it was pointless. The tears just overflow. That's when I realized, that the part of me that still loved Fairy Tail. The part that forgave her guild even after death, had resurfaced and healed into my heart once again.

"I... miss you too. I love you all too. I want to see you again!"

I cried. I couldn't stop. No matter how many times I wiped the tears away.

"I want to live again! I want to go back too!"

Then, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I gasped as I looked up and turned behind me.

"Have you made your decision now, Celestial girl of Fairy Tail?"

The girl behind me looked at me with heart warming eyes. She had long wavy light blonde hair and emerald green eyes. She had fair skin like I once had. I've seen her before. I saw her in the old Fairy Tail history books and paintings. I nodded at her. Having a resolve and smiled at her.

She stretched her hand out to me and I looked at it as my teas stopped flowing down my flushed face. She nodded at me and I smiled again as I took her hand. A bright light surrounded us and we faded off into the unknown.

"Thank you."

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"First Master... Mavis."

I had killed myself.

I thought I hated them forever.

I was wrong.

I loved them and that's how it'll be.

And now...

I'm finally back to my real home.

There you go! I originally planned to get this uploaded the day before, but due to internet problems, I had to rewrite this chapter at least 5 times. But, I improved this chapter each 5 times. I hope you liked this chapter and since this is a short story, it will be finished in the next chapter. P.S, thanks for the follows, favorites and few reviews. I appreciate it a lot.