Chapter 3—what do You Want?

JESS POV

I know exactly what brought the break down on… he's going to go no matter what. It's his dream college and he's getting in free. That's amazing. I can't tell him he can't go because I'm going to miss him too much. I get into the Hawthorne's' pink kitchen when start sobbing uncontrollably and collapse on to the floor. Pip the Labrador puppy we got Emma for her birthday a while ago starts barking like mad and runs through the open door outside, I can He the commotion he's creating.

"What boy? What is it?" Darcy asks him.

"Darcy go see what that crazy dog is barking about, will you?" Mr. Hawthorne says as Pip runs back in the kitchen and into my lap. Darcy runs in after him and so do the other girls.

"Pip what is going on with you! You never act like this!" Emma yells as she walks in. She got in first, followed by Cassidy who yells when she sees me on the floor sobbing.

"DARCY! GET IN HERE!"

"What? What is so im- Oh, Jessie!" He starts and then his attention gets focused on me on the floor.

"Come on, Jess, Emma, we'll be in the game room." He says as he picks me up. When we get to the game room (which is actually the attic but two years ago Cassidy, Emma, Megan, Becca and I told Mr. and Mrs. Hawthorne that we thought it would be cool to change it into a game room) Darcy puts me on the couch and just looks at me.

"Jess, what's wrong?" he asks, confusion shining in his eyes.

"I'm … Going... to miss…you so…much!" I somehow say in between gasping breathes.

"Oh, Jessie, please, please don't cry! I'm not going to be gone forever." He tells me pulling me on to his lap. I rest my head on his chest, breathing him in.

"Just calm down, if you need to cry, baby, just cry." He tells me… He's so sweet. "Emma, Sloane, Megs, Becca… Stop eavesdropping." He says chuckling. I can feel the laugh in his chest.

"Sorry, we wanted to know what was up." Megan said as the four of them came in. they all sat on the floor… looking at me… in Darcy's lap.. as I cry.

"Hey, you guys, we love all, but, can you know, you know maybe… Get out." Darcy told them. I laughed.

"Fine, way to be pushy big bro." Emma said joking. They walk out the door and I hear them stomp down the stairs.

"So…" I say knowing Darcy has a question to ask me. I can tell.

"Jess, if you're so worried… What do you want?" He asks.

"That is the hardest question ever Darcy and you know that. I want what's best for you and want you to live your dreams but… I want be selfish for once and want you to stay here… even though I know you can't." I tell him.

"Jessie… I know it's going to be hard but, we have to learn to be our own people because we are our own people… iloveyou so much Jess… you know I don't want to leave but-" I interrupt him.

"This is a great opportunity, you have to take it, This is a once in a life time opportunity and you want me to be happy for you… and I really am, I am so very very very proud of you, more proud of you than you will ever understand…it's just…"

"I know Jessie, I know."