AN: thanks for the reviews, 13 & guest :) it is appreciated. Here's a new chapter. I didn't really know where I was going and I still don't know. I just wish it goes well and you like the writing.

Amanda's POV

Fin's coming towards me. I don't want anyone touching me right now. And to be honest i'm mad at him. He didn't go away when I did not answer the door. I didn't want to see anyone today! I didn't answer the damn door. Why did he still come! I didn't want him to see me like this. How is he gonna trust me after that? How is he gonna trust that this weak crying girl will be able to have his back if she can't even protect herself? I can't have him around right now.

I shout "NO!" with my hand in front of me because I want him to step away. To go away. To run right out of my apartment. He looks at me and say:

- It's okay 'manda, i'm not gonna hurt you.

Oohh good! Now he thinks i'm scared of him! Like some broken thing.

- I'm not afraid you're gonna hurt me.

I spit out angrily.

- What's going on Amanda. Talk to me.

- Nothing. Go away Fin!

- That's why you're drunk and crying? Because nothin's going on?

- Go away Fin! Go away!

I'm now yelling. Tears are streaming down my face. I can't stop myself from crying. Oh gosh how can I be so weak!

- I'm not leaving you. You're not alone in this Amanda. Whatever it is, you can talk to me. You can trust me.

Urgh Fin. I really want to trust you but I can't! I can't talk to you about this. I can't talk to anyone about this.

- I can't

I feel physical pain just by saying this little sentence. I look at Fin in the eyes. He feels it too. The pain. I can see it in his eyes.

- It's about Patton isn't it?

Oh no. I can't. I can't deal with this. I'm not going to talk about Patton with Fin. Nop. No way. This is not going to happen. I'm completely terrified to go into this subject right now. I know it's hurting me. To keep it all inside. It's using all my energy just to pretend i'm fine with it. But I can't tell Fin. He's gonna see me as I see me. And I can't let that happen.

Fin's POV

- It's about Patton isn't it?

I regret saying this right away. She might not be ready to talk about this. I don't want to push her too far. I'm not good at handling these things. I'm not a good talker.

Amanda's obviously not fine. She looks terrified now. She seems to be drowning in her thoughts. I can't leave her like that.

- What are you so afraid of Amanda?

She looks at me surprised. I'm not quite sure i'm gonna get an answer out of her, but I think it might help her if she acknowledge what she's afraid of.

- I'm not afraid of anything.

- I don't know what's going on with you right now, but i'm your partner… I-I'm your friend Amanda, and I hate seeing you in pain like that. I can only promise you that whatever it is, you can tell me. I'm not gonna judge and i'm not gonna see you as anything less.

I'm kinda surprised with the amount of words I just said. I think I didn't screw up here. I talked the truth. She's gonna know that.

She seems to be thinking really hard. I can see her analyzing every single words I said. Considering whether to talk or not. She looks at me and let out a deep breath.

- I'm gonna talk. I just need time.

She points to me the opposite wall, right next to the pieces of the bottle. I understand her silent plea and sit down there. She's letting me in. Slowly, but at her pace. I'm not gonna push her further more. I'm here for her and, now, I can see that she knows.