I wanted to run away. I couldn't believe what was happening.

Why was he here?

Maybe I can excuse my self to the bathroom and hide in Kiara's room until he leaves, I thought glancing up the massive staircase.
"I'm gonna leave yall alone cuz shit is about to get poppin in here" Keyshia said walking back into the living room. Key no!1I looked at her begging her not to leave me alone with my ex-boyfriend. But she simply sauntered back into the living room. Some cousin you turned out to be.

I sighed and leaned against the wall. I surveyed the spacious foyer and tried to ignore the awkwardness that surrounded us. Why can't Keyshia come back and take me out of this hell?

"I can't believe this, Lex" he spoke.

"Me either" Literally. I scratched my head with a smile.

"It's been awhile, Alex…" he said. I nodded. I was at a loss for words. What is there to say? "I really want to talk…You want to go for a ride?"
Do I? I wanted to say no but his eyes begged me to say yes. We hadn't seen each other in years.
"Sure, let me get my coat and shoes" I heard my self say. I went back into the living room. Keyshia was now sprawled out on the couch still watching Smackdown.

"Rey won" she said with a frown. I shrugged and snatched my purse off of the glass coffee table. "Going somewhere?"

"Yep" I said.

"With Damon?" her eyes widened. I nodded.

"Wait, hold up" she sat up straight. "How unfaithful are you?"
"I'm not!" I yelled but I remembered that Damon was not too far away. I moved closer and whispered. "We're just going to talk"

Keyshia rolled her eyes. I started to reach in my purse for my mirror. "Right you're just going to talk with your ex-boyfriend. Alright Lex, I get you"

"Lay off the sarcasm, Key" I said looking at myself in my compact mirror.

"I will when you do" she smirked. I shot her a glare. "Need me to wait up for ya?"
I shrugged. "Don't"

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"So…" I sighed as we drove in Damon's black Porshe Cayenne.

"You look different" he said.

"Do I?" I asked looking at him.

"Yeah, you changed I can tell" I'm not some crazy ass teenage girl, if that's what you mean.
"I don't think so" I shrugged rubbing hands together trying to adjust my body to the warm car. It was suddenly chilly outside.
"You did. But you're still as fine as the day I met you. You know, I changed too. I gave up all that hustling, gang bangin shit a long time ago and I'm actually using my degree…"

I stayed silent.

"Where do you work?" I asked.
"In Manhattan for a fortune 500 company"
I nodded. He did change.

"You work in Stamford, right?"

"Yep for World Wrestling Entertainment" The best job ever.
"That's what's up" he said. "Got a special man in your life?"

Yes and I miss him so much right now. I hesitated to tell him.

"Got a special woman in your life?" I countered. He laughed.

"I take what I said back, you still the same, Lex"

"But yeah I do actually…" I finally said after a moment of silence.

If only we didn't have a huge fight a few weeks ago.

"Sorry to hear that" he said.

He turned on the radio and Mariah Carey's 'Don't Forget About Us' was playing.

"I hate listening to this song cuz it reminds me of you and me" he admitted. I looked at him. Shit, shit, shit.

"It's in the past, Dame" I said softly.

Oh they say that you're in a new relationship
but we both know nothing comes close to what we had, it perseveres.
And we both cant forget it
How good we used to get it
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
no matter who you go through
We are one, that's a fact that you can't deny
So baby we just can't let the fire pass us by
Forever we'll both regret
(So dont forget)

Late nights, playing in the dark and waking up inside my arms
Boy you'll always be in my heart
and I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
I'm just speakin' from experience
Nothin' can compare to your first true love
So i hope this will remind you
When it's for real it's forever so dont forget about us...

And if she got your head all messed up then thats the trickery
she'll wanna act like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she cant do it like me
She'll never be M.C
Baby dont you, dont you forget about us!

Dont baby dont baby dont let it go
No baby no baby no baby no
When it's for real it's forever so dont forget about us...

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We went to a park near the Hudson River where you got a great view of the New York City skyline.

"Damn, remember this?" I asked as I stared at the skyline.

"Yeah"

"I was mad at you that day because I thought you weren't gonna ask me to prom because someone told me that you were going to ask Brianna James. But you brought me here and asked me….that night was perfect"
He turned me around to face him.

"I'm glad you came back, Alex" he said sincerely.

"Me too" I admitted.

Could I be having feelings for my ex?
No. I'm in love with someone else and don't let him forget that.

We walked around the park some more laughing at all the stupid stuff we did in high school.

"You ran off to Connecticut" he said when we talked about our break up. I didn't run off, I went to Yale.

"I didn't run off, I wanted to be alone and do things for myself"
"And get new boyfriends, right?"

Exactly. And I know you got new girlfriends too.
"It's all very complicated" I said starring up that the starry night sky. So complicated I could write a book.

"So your boyfriend, do you love him?" he asked bluntly. I can't believe he just asked me that.

I paused for an awkward moment and looked at him.

"What do you want me to say, Dame? No I'm not in love and I'm considering leaving him so we can get back together"
"Yeah" he answered quickly.

I sighed. Damn it, Alexandria you put yourself into these situations, I scolded my self.
"I'm sorry but I'm not going to say that. Yeah, I' am in love and I don't want to end my relationship"
"Not even for me?" he asked running a finger along side my face. I looked into his hazel eyes. The same eyes I only wanted to look into five years ago. "Can your boyfriend do for you the things I can? I mean, we've known each other forever and we know everything about each other…"
"No we don't-" I protested.

"Well I do. I know that you hide your pain so that no one sees it and that you run from love because of what your Dad-"

"I don't want to talk about this" I said standing up. My God, I'am in denial.

"Well I do. I haven't seen you in five years and I've been thinking about all the things I needed to tell you. I don't know when I'll see you again so listen" I sat back down and crossed my legs. I didn't want to look at him so I focused on the Empire State Building in the distance.

"I'm with someone right now but I still love you. Always had, always will and if I had the chance I'd drop her and I would marry you right now, buy a house and live with you forever."

He was actually serious. But I didn't want to marry him and live with him forever; I wanted to do that with Randy. But maybe I'm just too over my head.

"Dame that's not right"

"So now it's your turn to say all you got to say to me"
I swallowed. All of these years I've thought over and over about what I would say to Damon if I saw him now that the time had actually come I couldn't say anything.

"There were times when I missed you so much but things have changed…"
"Cuz of him?"
"No cuz of me…I can't be with you, because I'm with someone else"
"And I'm with someone else too"
"Dame….it's not that easy, you can't just up and leave some girl"

"Yeah I can, my girl Tasha aint nothing but a ho anyway, she's no you"
"So you were planin on getting back with me, huh?"
"Since the day you walked out" he said seriously. Oh my god.
I blinked slowly and focused somewhere else.

"I was tired of you and your tired ass crew of gang bangin niggas who had no fucking future. I didn't want to deal with it anymore I was in college, getting an education, doin some real shit for myself. I never wanted anything to do with that" I was getting upset. I wanted to get up and run away. I had been avoiding Jersey and Damon for too long and now I didn't even want to face it.
"And I told you, Lex, I'm done with that"
"Please, Dame. You can't leave that, once you're in you can't get out"

"Well I'am out. I changed I'm not the same guy you used to know. Don't forget about what we had you actin like we never happened"
I opened my mouth to speak. To argue or at least try to defend myself but I couldn't find the words to say. I cant do this anymore.

"Take me home, Dame" Was the only thing that came out.

"Aight" he said nodding. He fixed his Yankee fitted cap and stood up. He offered his hand and I took it. "Let's go"

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"So what's his name?" Damon asked as we drove back to my Aunt's house.

"Is it anything to you, Dame?" I said staring out of the window.

"The least you could do is tell me" I sighed. What the fuck did it have to do with him?

"You don't know him" I said defensively. I started to look at my nails.

"Don't make shit complicated, I just want to know his name," he said aggravated. "Shit"

"Randy…okay?" I said "His name is Randy Orton, you can go google him now and get all the information you want on him, trust me it won't be hard to find, you'll find lots Dame"

"Why?"
"You'll find out" I shrugged.

Damon pulled up to the front of my Aunt's house. He placed his hand on my shoulder. I refused to look at him. I stared straight ahead. "I've been missin you like crazy, Lex and I'm so happy that I got to see you….I think… I think we both know how we feel about each other"
"Yeah" I sighed.

"I love you" he said.

I didn't know what I felt for Damon anymore. I wasn't the same teenage girl anymore who just needed to be loved. But there was something there. He was my first love and those feelings just don't go away.

"Need me to walk you to the door?" He asked as reached to open the door.

"I'm fine" I reassured him. I opened the door. "Bye Dame"

I pressed the door bell five times. I needed to get to bed and fast. Keyshia, clad in boyshorts and a wife beater, answered the door with her cell phone glued to her ear.

"Have fun?" she asked as we walked up the steps.

"Please" I sighed.

"Nothing happened right?" she asked opening the door to the guest room. She ended her phone call with a quick 'Later'

"No" I shuffled past my carryon that Uncle Dean brought upstairs. I opened my carry on to find sleeping clothes. I stopped at an RKO T-shirt that Randy gave me and shorts. I'll sleep in it tonight and dream of him.
"Must be strange…" Keyshia said taking my cell phone off of the nightstand. She started to fiddle with buttons.
"You have no idea…" I sighed getting back up. I closed my carryon. "I haven't seen Dame in years and all of a sudden…it's like…I don't know"
"And then you have Randy" Keyshia pointed out. She sat down next to me and placed my phone down onto the nightstand again.

"Yeah I have Randy" I said whimsically with a smile. I sat down next to her and crossed my legs.

"You really love him don't you?" she asked. "Randy I mean-"

"Yeah..I do…I really do"
"Call him"

"Uh…no, Key"

"Why not?" she asked. She really didn't want to know.

"That's enough questions for today…I'm tired" I said. "Get up let me get some sleep"

She got up and stomped to the door. "Meanie…I'll leave you to call your boyfriend so you can have some hot, steamy, phone sex-" I chucked a satin pillow at her. She ducked and ran away. "Night Lex!" she laughed over her shoulder.

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