JOHN'S POV:

"...I dont feel good, John" Alex said honestly completely ignoring what I just said. She got up off my lap and walked towards the bathroom and closed the door shut behind her. I threw my head back on the pillows of my couch. What the fuck? So confessing my love for her while she's drunk wasn't working and I was running out of ideas. I didn't know what to do anymore. I took my phone out and called Stacy. "Yeah?" she asked, her voice full of anticipation.

"She's drunk...and I told her I loved her-"

"John what the fuck-" she began.

"And she's too drunk to realize what I Said"

"So what did she do?" she sighed.

"She said she doesnt feel good and went to the bathroom"

"Oh...well bang her when she gets back" she replied bluntly.

"Stacy"

"What What What?" she asked. "Jesus John what more do you have to do, you have a girl who you love and think is hot drunk alone with you in your house isnt that what every guy wants, what the fuck bang her get it over with and then somehow word will leak to Randy and I'll be there for him"

"Yeah but its not that easy"

"I dont know why I teamed up with you am i gonna have to do this shit alone? call me when you actually get her into bed" she said and then she hung up.

Alex emerged from the bathroom. "Who were you talkin to?"

"No one"

"Orton?" she asked looking at her nails.

"Absolutely not"

"Good thats good thats real good because I do not want to speak to him" she said, she sat down next to me again.

"Alex..." I began.

"Huh? What?"

"I..need to...want to tell you..." I couldnt just come out and say it to her. I wanted to but I couldnt. I wanted her but something kept pulling me back.

"I'm tired John" she said with a yawn. She laid down on the couch and rested her head on my lap again. She closed her eyes, I didn't know if she was sleeping or not yet. Just go for it, I told myself. I began to run my hands through her hair.

"Feels good' she mumbled.

"Alex, I love you" I said again. She yawned.

"Yeah John" she waved her hand casually in the air.

"But not the way you think" I continued.

"John...what are you?" she said opening her eyes a little to look up at me.

"I mean I love you love you I want to be with you. I think you should be with me instead of Randy he treats you like shit cause of Stacy and I think I could love you a whole lot better"

"...what?" she said quietly with a look of confusion. "Love?...I...but you...Randy and me"

"Do you really think that he loves you if he ditches you for Stacy all of the time"

"well--" she began.

"if someone loves you they wouldn't treat you the way he treats you"

"but--but---"

"but im right and you know it alex, randy has made you angry and he's made you cry and you're mad at him right now for something he did not too long ago yet you claim he loves you" She looked up at me.

"John" she said. "…randy…loves me"

I stared at her for a moment. Innocence and honesty lay in her pretty brown eyes, I couldn't hurt her. I just couldn't. She was first and foremost my friend and I knew that Randy meant the world to her. I couldn't do it. I couldn't do it.

"You're falling asleep let me show you the guest room" I said patting her head gently.

She looked at me confused. "Oh…okay okay I'm tired"

She got up and followed me upstairs to the guest room. She climbed onto the bed and went under the covers. "If you need anything, I'm here dollface"

"Thanks John" she said drifting off to sleep.

END OF POV

I rolled over to my side and held my head. Shit, I thought, I felt like shit. My head hurt and my stomach felt sick. I haven't felt this way since…college. Oh god, I'm hung over, I thought. I pulled the covers down from over my head, where was I? I quickly remembered last night, the fight with Randy, going home with John, and drinking. I sat up and looked for my cell phone. I didn't have to look far because it sat right on the nightstand. I flipped it open, turned it on, and set it down to see what it would do. I waited for all of the voicemails and text messages to come in and of course, they would all be from Randy. My phone began to vibrate.

"One new message, two new messages, three…" I sighed holding my head. Then I remembered John, he said something about loving me. He also said something about me being with him instead of Randy. Wait-No, that couldn't be right. That must have been a dream. I tried to think back to last night but parts were blurry. "Whatever," I said. I checked my messages.

Message from: Baby

Alex, please talk to me. I love you. Randy

Message from: Baby

Alexandria, please we need to talk.

Message from: Angel

Girl, its ya BFF please call randy he's going crazy. Wtf happened? I hope everything's okay, love you

I snapped my phone shut and climbed out of the bed and headed to the bathroom to clean myself up. After I washed my face I heard the door bell ring. I shrugged it off and finished combing my hair. I began to walk down the spacious hallway to get downstairs I didn't even know where I was going I was too drunk the night before to notice my surroundings. I finally made my way to a staircase and I heard a familiar voice. My heart started pounding. It was Randy.

"-Is she?" I heard him yell.

"Sleeping in the guest room" John said. "But I have to tell you something first"
"Whatever you have to say can wait, I'll be right back" Randy said. Shit, I thought. I turned around to hurry back to the room but I he caught up. "ALEX!" he yelled. I stopped dead in my tracks. I turned around slowly.

"…Randy…" I said staring at the ground. He walked up to me and swept me up in a hug. I just stood silent with his arms around me. I didn't know what to say to him, I was still mad at him.

"Baby, we have to talk" he said. I sighed. I turned and walked back to the guest room and sat down on the bed. Silence. This was so awkward and I didn't want to be sitting here right now. This shouldn't even be happening, two people who love each other so much cant even say a word to each other now.

"I have nothing to say Randy" I finally spoke.

"Baby…I-"
"I am SO tired of this . The fighting, the crying then we get back together only to fight over and over again. Its not healthy I either end up crying or angry or frustrated, my emotions cant take this a n y m o r e"

"Alex, honey, I'm sorry" he said.

"You're always sorry Randy…" I began. I stopped to think of my next words. "But…if you were really sorry this shit wouldn't keep on happening"

"Baby, I never want you to go through this I always tell you to stay with me and not go and you run off and you beg to leave"

I stared at the lavender bedspread. "so…this Is MY fault" I asked boldly. "…so…what are we going to do now?"

He ran his hand through his hair and took my hand but I snatched it back. "What do you want to do, baby"

I opened my mouth but no words came out. I was starting to tear up.

"I…I…" I said.

"What do you want Alexandria?" he asked his voice getting louder. "what do you want for us cuz apparently you're unhappy with this relations-"

"I NEVER SAID I WAS UNHAPPY"

"Showing signs of it though" he shot back.

"I was only unhappy when we fought, okay?" I looked at him. "I was unhappy when you would leave me"

"Baby I said I was sorry" he said. "I've done a lot of shit and ive thought about it and what I did was wrong and I hurt you and all I want to know is what you want from this, from us"

"Randy" I said. "You've done so much more than hurt me. We've done this whole thing So much and I can't take it this-"

"Alex-" he began softly.

"Randy let me speak" I closed my eyes. "I think that its best we say all we have to say and then decide what we want"

"Okay" he said.

I sighed loudly and sniffed back tears. "Randy…I wish… I didn't love you sooo much sometimes cuz im tired of being hurt and being afraid that im going to lose you. I don't want to lose you Randy and somehow I put up with all of this shit cuz I want to be with you….You want to know what I want? You. That's it just you. I don't want the hurt, the pain, I just want to be happy with you"

"Alexandria, I thought of everything you said to me and im willing to do whatever you want me to. I need you, babe. I can't do this anymore, I'm a mess when you're not around, you're all the way in Connecticut and im in fucking St. Louis. I know ive hurt you and ive done a lot of shit that you didn't deserve and ill do whatever it takes to prove it to you. If you don't want me to talk to Stacy again then I'll do it. I want to be with you more than anything and I don't ever want to make you cry again"
Was he serious? We just sat in silence and he pulled me close. "I love you, Alexandria, I love you"

"I love you too Randy" He held my face in his hands, wiped my tears and kissed me sweetly.

"Get your stuff we're leaving, honey" he said after kissing my forehead.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"Home…I called the realtor last night and I'm in the process of getting a house" he said simply.

"You already have a house" I blinked.

"In Connecticut" he said with a grin. I gasped.

"BABY?!" I asked. "Are you serious?"

"Yep" he said.

"But why?"

"You'll see…" he said. "I'll be downstairs waiting"

I'm sorry I took so long to update but I graduated and now im getting ready for college. I hope everyone's summer is going well. Please review!! Love you guys 3