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Half a Heart – Destiny's Story

Destiny's Point Of View

Part Seven – Love and Lies

Author's notes: This chapter turned out really long. I mean, I expected it to be half that! Anyways, I'm very content with how it came out. Please read and review!!

Oxoxoxoxoxo

I stared up at the sky for a little while before deciding to go talk to Sachiel. I wanted to apologize, even though I knew I was the one that should've been apologized to. He was the one that practically called me a whore. All I did was ask him a simple question and he got all upset.

I paused outside the door, shifting my weight from foot to foot. I didn't want him to yell at me or anything, but... I did kind of want to make sure he wasn't too upset.

"Sachiel?" I asked softly, pushing open the small wooden door and ducking inside. "Sachiel, are you in here?"

The boy was sitting at the Captain's desk, feet propped up on it, arms crossed over his chest. He actually glared at me as I entered the room. I glared back. I mean, I really didn't do anything.

"Sachiel, look. I'm sorry for pissing you off." I muttered, crossing my arms and looking over him. "But you get upset WAY too easily. All I did was ask a question, and then you go off, calling me names again!"

"I didn't call you names."

"You might as well have called me a whore." I glared. "I dress this way because it's how I feel most comfortable." I half-lied. It's how I had dressed on the island, since it was hot, but I also liked getting attention from boys. It made me feel...loved.

"Whatever." He rolled his eyes. "I really don't give a shit, Destiny. Just go out and talk to Riku." He looked away.

I glared. "Why do you hate Riku so much? I guess he's cocky sometimes, but so are you!" I walked towards him slowly. "I mean, you spend all of your extra time doing things for Ansem! How do I know you don't have a crush on him!?"

He rolled his eyes. "That's ridiculous."

"Yeah, sure. How do I know you two aren't an item?" I smirked, walking closer. He stood, getting agitated with me-- more so than he already was.

"An item, Destiny? Whatever."

"Yeah, I'm sure you're screwing him." I smirked. "That's why you get so upset whenever someone insults him, right? Yeah, that's gotta be it."

Sachiel growled. "Destiny, you should shut up. You're really pissing me off."

"Good! Maybe you could go crying back to your boyfriend. I'm sure he'd lend you a shoulder to cry on." I crossed my arms and turned my back. I heard something whiz past me, narrowly missing the side of my head as it smashed into the door. It was a glass.

I covered my head, shutting my eyes tight. Scary. I took a deep breath and slowly revolved back around before staring at Sachiel, trying to seem as cool and collected as possible. "You missed me."

"I wasn't aiming at you." He retorted, cracking his knuckles. "I'm sorry, do you want me to hit you or something?"

I glared. "Sachiel, that's not nice."

"It doesn't matter, get out of here."

I glared again and went to push open the door but stopped, freezing in my steps as I heard Riku's voice. I covered my mouth to keep myself quiet.

"I didn't think you'd come, Sora." Riku sounded cocky, as usual. "Good to see you again."

Sora sounded confused and upset. "Where are Donald and Goofy!?"

"Are they that important to you? More important than old friends?" I heard shuffling feet above my head. "Instead of worrying about them, you should be asking...about her."

I frowned, wondering what was going on, but my question was answered very shortly after when I heard Sora call out a name.

"Kairi!"

"That's right. Why you were off goofing around, I finally found her."

At that, I slammed the door shut. Kairi was more dear to them than anyone else they knew from the islands. Even if I didn't talk to the boys very often, I still liked Sora and I would love to be cared about by someone around here...

After a couple deep breaths, I opened the door again. Sora was gone and Riku was coming towards the door. I glared at him and moved out of the way, walking to the other side of the cabin. I was unhappy to discover there was a square hole in the floor with a ladder leading down.

I looked around, trying to decide if going down it was a good idea. I thought about it for a minute before nodding. Anything to get away from Sachiel and Riku. I knew they were going to start up a fight and I didn't want to be in the room.

I started down the small ladder, holding on with both hands. Even though it was nothing more than seven feet off the ground, I was afraid of falling and hurting myself. None of the boys up in the Capitan's Cabin would even care if they heard a crash. I didn't want to risk it.

Step after shaking step, I finally made it to the bottom and smiled, releasing the wooden ladder. My bare feet were already sore from walking around on the splintery wood and climbing down the wooden steps didn't help.

I looked around the room I had climbed down into. It was small with nothing much more than two hammocks, a fireplace, and several doors leading out. I shivered. I couldn't live on a pirate ship. It was too dirty and uncomfortable...

I exited one of the doors and walked for a little while, taking a left here or a right there and going through a couple of doors before I came to a large area. It had a small hall that opened up into a almost two story space. There was a ladder that lead down to the bottom, but nothing but a huge pole that lead to the top. I moved towards the ladder, wanting to investigate further, since the boys were too busy trying to be manly.

I wriggled my bare toes and sat on the edge by the ladder, getting ready to climb down it when I heard someone call my name. I frowned and turned to look, hoping that Sachiel or even Riku had come looking for me. But... it was Sora.

"I knew it was you! That pink hair of yours is one of a kind." I was greeted by the fifteen year old boy, grinning happily. "I haven't seen you since the heartless attacked Destiny Islands!"

I smiled softly. "Y-...yeah, the heartless."

He moved to hug me, but I backed away. I didn't want him to feel how cold I was. I didn't want him to know I was a half-heartless. He'd hate me and he'd love Kairi even more...

"Aw, is there something wrong?" The boy cocked his head to the side, his beautiful blue eyes gazing up at me. I bit my lip and looked to the side, letting my hair fall over my face.

"Sorry."

He sighed and folded his arms over his chest, the keyblade sticking out at such an odd angle. I glanced back up at him. I felt the urge to tell him everything. About the Princesses, about Riku, about Ansem, everything that I had learned... but I didn't want to risk being beaten by Ansem... so I kept my mouth shut.

"S-Sora, I have to go." I murmured, pushing past him. "It was nice seeing you again, I'm sorry!" I turned and pushed through the door, moving quickly through the way I came, rubbing my eyes hard. It felt like I was going to cry. I finally saw him again... and I couldn't even hug him...

Oxoxoxoxoxo

As soon as we got back to the Castle, I locked myself in my room. I really didn't want to be around Sachiel or around Riku. I sighed heavily, sitting on the bed and crossing my legs, looking around for something to do. My eyes settled on my little pink hand mirror, and I picked it up, gazing into it.

I wrinkled my nose. I hated how I looked. Bright pink hair and bright blue eyes. Unnatural and a terrible match. I was short. My skin was pale and had been ever since I had become half-heartless.

I looked like I was thirteen instead of fifteen with the way I wore my makeup. I wore light, shimmery, pink lipgloss. My black nail polish was chipped because I was too lazy to worry about re-painting them and my eyeliner was probably too dark, but...

I sighed, flopping back onto my bed, closing my eyes. I was tired. I rolled over onto my sigh and pulled my legs to my chest, nuzzling into the pillows. In minutes, I had drifted off to sleep.

I woke with a start in what seemed like only minutes later, but the sun wasn't filtering through my window anymore. It was nighttime, which meant I had slept for a couple of hours...

I swallowed hard and looked around slowly. I had a bad dream, but... strangely, I couldn't remember a thing about it. I wiped sweat off my forehead and gave a sigh, shaking my head.

When I went to move off the bed after assuring myself whatever had happened was only a dream, I felt my stomach grumble and I blushed softly. "Ah...I should eat something..." I looked down at myself. I was still dressed in my 'pirate' outfit. "...but I need to change first..."

I moved across my room to my little dresser, pulling the drawers open and retrieving a huge t-shirt. I stripped down, leaving my clothes in a puddle at my feet. I pulled the shirt over my head, smoothing my strangely colored hair as I started towards the door.

I hummed softly as I walked down the halls, looking around. I preferred the stone ground to that from the pirate ship. It was much more kind to my poor feet.

After a couple minutes of walking, I heard an unusual amount of noise coming from Ansem's room. I frowned and slowed, covering my mouth. It didn't sound good. I moved to the door, pressing my ear to the wood, swallowing hard.

I could hear Sachiel crying out softly, as though he was being hurt. And that worried me. With a shaking hand, I pushed open the door and walked into it, shutting it behind me almost silently.

I squinted in the darkness. I had to wonder why everyone kept their rooms so dark all the time, but I couldn't cogitate it for long because I heard Sachiel cry out again. Moving closer, my eyes started to adjust.

I covered my mouth and stumbled back when I saw what was going on. Sachiel was sitting on the edge of the bed and Ansem was between his legs. I shivered and bit my lip, keeping my hands pressed against my mouth, afraid to make any noise.

Sachiel gave a low moan, clutching his hands into Ansem's long hair. His own head was tilted back, his golden eyes shut. I heard Ansem give a chuckle. By then, I was groping behind me for the door knob. I didn't want to stick around any longer. What I'd seen already was upsetting.

When my hands finally closed around the metal doorknob, I flung it open and bolted out. I knew my cover had been blown, but I was too distracted by the tears running down by face.

The first place I went to was the library. I threw myself down into a chair, crying into my arms. I couldn't have Sachiel. Ansem already had him...

Expecting the worst when the Library doors opened, I covered my head, biting my lip to stifle my sobs.

"Destiny?" Sachiel asked softly, moving towards me. I peeked out at him from under my fingers and then hid again, whimpering.

"G-g-go ah-ah-away..." I managed to say, moving away from him the best I could while still staying in the chair.

"Des'...Destiny, I'm sorry...I...would've told you, but... Ansem didn't...he told me not to." He moved towards me slowly. He seemed really upset, but it didn't bother me. I glared at him, the tears still cascading down my cheeks.

"Go. Ah-away." I murmured again, taking a couple deep breaths. I had to calm myself.

"Y-you shouldn't have came in!" He looked away from me. "You're supposed to knock, you know..."

I finally moved my hands from my eyes, rubbing at my cheeks. "I ... I was wor-worried! I...heard...I heard you crying out...a-a-and I got...reh-really scared...t-t-though' he might...hurt you..." I looked him over. He wasn't wearing a shirt and his jeans were haphazardly done, the zipper only half way up, and they were wrinkled, but... I wanted him. I wanted him like Ansem had him. It wasn't fair...

"Destiny...shhhhh, stop crying... you're making me feel bad..." He murmured, eyes still averted.

I looked up at him before nearly tackling him, wrapping my arms around him tight and crying into his bare chest. He smelled like Ansem – old, strong cologne. I whimpered again and looked up at him when I felt his hand running through my hair. He was unexpectedly gentle.

"S-...sachiel..."

"Destiny, I'm sorry... I really would've told you... I didn't want you to see that..."

"You...y-y-you don't under...stand..." I closed my eyes, burying my head back into his chest. "I..." I felt my face get hot, but I had to say it. I knew he was going to reject me, but...but, It was better than keeping it to myself. "...I love...you..."

Sachiel swallowed hard and he ran a light hand down my back, making me shiver. "...Des', I'm not sure... if I can love...I'm full heartless and you know that..." I nodded slightly. He was right, there was no heartbeat. He continued, "But... I feel very strongly for Ansem..."

"O-...oh..."

"He raised me from a boy... and... well, no..." He shook his head, falling silent. After a couple moments of awkward silence, he put two fingers under my chin and kissed me very gently. My eyes widened and I got this strange, fluttery feeling in my stomach and my face got really hot.

He pulled away what seemed like a mere two seconds later and I locked eyes with him, blushing softly still. "S-Sachiel..?"

He smiled softly and said nothing as he turned and walked out of the library leaving me alone. Stunned.

Oxoxoxoxoxo

Author's Notes: Wow, I said it was long, eh? Yay for romance and ... stuff. O.o Anyways, pleaaase read and review, I'd love you all! Thanks for reading!