Each time I open my eyes, I am confused. I don't know what has become of my life. I don't know these people. I think I am suppose to. But no, I know no one.
I open my eyes, its light. Breakfast. Burn. Oh, no. I don't know what to do. I feel drops fall onto my cheeks. No, no tears. He doesn't like tears. Tears no, screams yes. I look around. Curly, I mean Emmett, are sleeping in a chair. Cullen is beside him. I do not remember them coming in. I wonder where Carlisle is.
I have a pressure in my belly. Rosalie said I could ask. But there is no one awake. I don't know if I believe her. Burn. There was no burning yesterday. No loving time. No, nothing. It doesn't make sense. I don't know. I am lost. Maybe this is a dream. Maybe this is hell. No, hell was before. Where it burned all the time.
The door opens. Carlisle walks in. "Good morning Bella."
"I am no one," I say automatically.
"You are Bella Swan. A beautiful, strong, special person." I nod. I don't believe him.
"How are you feeling?" he asks.
"Fine." I am not.
"Are you in any pain?"
"No." Yes.
"Do you mind if I do a quick exam on you? Make sure you are healing okay?"
"No." Yes. This scares me. I don't want to burn. I am scared. At least with him, I knew what to expect.
"Okay then. First I am going to check your heart and lungs. I will need to untie your gown and bring it down just a little bit, okay?"
No but I nod. It is not my body, I do not own it. He does. I wonder if Carlisle asked if he could touch me.
Carlisle's hands are warm. He places something into his ears and then brings the end of the object to my heart and then lungs. I do not move. Burn, I know it's coming.
"Good. Now I am going to press on your stomach, let me know if you feel any pain or discomfort."
He moves his hands around my stomach, pressing gently each time. I grimace but try to not show my pain. I need to go to the bathroom but I can't ask him. I am afraid.
"Okay Bella. Rosalie is going to come in here and check your IV's and then I will be back to finish the exam. Okay?"
I nod. He smiles then leaves. Always smiling.
A few minutes later, Rosalie walks in. It wakes Cullen up.
"Everything okay?" He asks frantically.
"Yes, Edward. We are just doing an exam, make sure she is healing okay. Right, Bella?"
They both look at me, I look at Cullen. Our eyes meet, my cheeks flush. I don't know why. I nod. Then look away.
"Edward, I am going to take Bella into the bathroom, it will be a little bit. Why don't you take Emmett down to the cafeteria and get some coffee and breakfast?" Rosalie asked. We will be a little bit? What was she planning on doing?
Edward looked at me and smiled, "Okay. I am going to run to the restroom real quick and then I will get back to get Emmett."
He left and Rosalie started to unhook me from the machines like she had last night.
I was nervous, "Bella, we are just going into the restroom so you can go to the bathroom, okay?"
I nodded, unsure. Burn.
"Nothing is going to happen to you. I am not going to hurt you. I promise."
I wanted so badly to believe her but I can't.
"Did I hurt you last night?" she asked.
"No."
"Okay then."
She helped me out of bed and into a wheelchair, the same as last night. I was still unsure. But she didn't lie, yet. She helped me use the restroom and that was it. She put me back into bed. Cullen and Emmett were both gone.
"See, I promised you I wouldn't hurt you and I didn't. Bella, no one is going to hurt you here. I promise that."
Carlisle walked in just then, "Hey Bella, how are you feeling?"
Didn't he just ask me that a little bit ago, "Fine."
"Good, let me know if you are in pain."
"Okay." No, that will burn.
"Alright so Bella, there is a friend that I want you to talk to in a little bit. He is really nice and he won't hurt you, I promise. But first do you remember how I wanted to examine you to make sure that you were healing properly?" he asked.
I nodded, unsure.
"Well there are other injuries and concerns on the rest of your body that we need to make sure are healing okay that I didn't get a chance to check this morning."
"Like between my legs?" I asked. Burn, I knew it.
"Yes, you have some stitches and injuries there that we need to make sure aren't getting infected. Do you understand this?"
"Yes." Not really.
"Is it okay if I take a look?"
"I don't know." No. Burn, I am afraid it will burn.
"Rosalie is going to stay in here with you the whole time."
"But…I am afraid it will burn…" I whisper. Did I just say that out loud? Oh no, it's really going to burn.
"Bella, I promise you I will not burn you. There might be slight discomfort because of your injuries but I promise I will not hurt you on purpose. And I most certainly promise to not burn you. We are going to take it nice and slow and I will tell you everything I am about to do, okay?"
I nod, I don't believe him. This is going to burn, I know it. But if I fight, it will be worse.
Rosalie starts to pull things from cabinets and Carlisle washes his hands and puts on gloves.
"Okay Bella I am going to put your feet in these stirrups okay?"
I nod, that beeping noise starts again. Rosalie lifts both of my feet carefully and puts them in these 'stirrups' as she called them. There must be a button or something behind me because Rosalie reaches behind the bed and that beeping stops. Air in, air out. If I fight, more burn. No tears.
Carlisle sits at the end of the bed, "Alright, Bella. I am going to move this blanket."
He moves the blanket up and situates himself slightly between my knees. Somewhere in the back of my mind I feel I should be slightly embarrassed to be so bare to him but I am not. Burn. I know it.
"Okay you are going to feel my fingers on you. I promise to be gentle and I will not burn you."
Yea, no. I don't believe him. Burn. Air in, air out.
Rosalie holds my hand, "Nice easy breathes Bella. Try to relax."
I jump slightly from his touch, "It's okay, just breathe. You are going to feel a q-tip touch you."
A q-tip? I am slightly confused but too scared to ask. I feel his fingers again, touching me. Burn, no they are not burning. Yet.
"Okay Bella, we are almost done. But first you are going to feel some pressure, I promise just for a moment."
I am sure I do not understand what he means until I feel something enter me, "Burn! Burn! Burn! You promised! Burn!"
"Bella, I am not burning you. It is just my fingers. I need to check to make sure the swelling has gone down. Take a deep breath and tell me, am I burning you?" Carlisle asks.
I look at Rosalie. "Deep breath Bella," She encourages me.
I take a deep breath and I feel. Pressure. No burning. "No. No burning." He removes his fingers after a few brief moments, snaps his gloves off and covers me back up before going to the sink to wash his hands again.
Rosalie helps me get situated in the bed again.
"Bella, I promised I was not going to burn you and I didn't. No one is going to hurt you. Do you understand this?" Carlisle asks.
"No. I don't understand any of this."
"Well I am going to explain all of it to you but first I am going to bring my friend in here so he can help me talk to you, okay?"
I am unsure, a friend? That's what he said, his friends were not nice.
"My friend will not hurt you. He is also a doctor."
I still don't say anything but he pokes his head out the door, "Jasper? You can come in now."
A tall blonde thin man walks in, "Hello Bella, my name is Dr. Jasper Whitlock. I am a friend of Carlisle. You can call me Jasper. Is it okay if I call you Bella?"
I nod. I am no one but no matter how much I tell these people that they keep calling me Bella.
Rosalie starts to leave, "Bye Bella, I will be in to check on you later." She smiles at me. Her and Carlisle must be related, always smiling.
"So Bella, I have a few questions for you. Do you know where you are at?" Jasper asks.
"I was told a hospital but I don't know why. He is going to be so mad." I whisper.
"Who?"
"Him. Joseph."
"Who is Joseph?"
"My owner."
"Bella, he is not your owner. No one is."
"But…I don't understand. I don't know…" Everything was so confusing.
"Bella, we are going to start from the beginning. You can interrupt at any time to ask questions, okay?" Carlisle asks.
I nod.
"Your name is Isabella Marie Swan. You are 25 years old and were born on September 11th, 1989. You are from a town called Forks. You lived with your Father, Charles Swan and your brother Emmett Swan. When you were 15 a man and his girlfriend abducted you. The last place you were seen was by friends and your brother at a gas station in Port Angeles. You have been missing for 10 years. You were found 30 minutes from Forks, outside a cabin. You were injured and freezing. You had a lot of drugs in your system which we believe has been causing your memory issues. This man named Joseph and his girlfriend Barbara brainwashed you, tortured you, and are not nice people. You have been in the hospital now for two weeks." Jasper tells me.
Bam…again….hard in the chest. A memory.
"Bella, please, please, please! Edward said he would drive, Emmett is going too. I really want to get a new pair of boots to wear to the party this weekend," Alice begged.
"Uggh, I don't want to spend the afternoon with MY brother. And I don't want to go to the mall, besides I am not going to that party."
"Bella, please! Edward and Emmett are going to the movies, so you only have to spend a little bit of time in the car with Emmett. We will only be at the mall for like 2 hours while they watch that stupid movie. It's not like we will be there all day! Please, please, please! You can have shot gun!"
I blushed, "Alice! Stop….I do not have a crush on your brother!"
She tortured me for hours because she thought I had a crush on her older brother Edward. Which was so not true, at least I had never said it aloud. To ANYONE.
"Whatever, please say you will come! Umm, I will stop bugging you about Edward for two weeks."
"Fine, i'll come. What time will you be here?"
"Bella! Get down here, we are leaving!" Screamed Emmett from the living room.
"Alice! I am not ready!" I looked out my window and parked out front was Edwards Volvo. Alice hopped out waving to me. I glared at her, just realizing that she must have said that Edward comment while we she was in the car with him! I was going to kill her…
"Bella, you okay there?" Jasper asked.
"Umm…" I looked at Carlisle. He had Alice's eyes. "I am suppose to know you aren't I?"
He froze for a moment, "Well, I know you if that's what you mean."
"Like from before?"
"Yes, I knew you before you were abducted. I have known you since you were born."
"How?"
"Your Father and I were very close friends…."he hesitated and looked at Jasper.
Jasper nodded which seemed to answer Carlisle's unspoken question.
"And you and my daughter were best friends."
"Alice." I stated. My chest grew heavy.
"Yes, do you remember her?" Jasper asked.
"I think, maybe. I don't know. I know no one. Does she remember me?"
"Oh yes, of course sweetie. She still cares for you deeply. She has not forgotten about you, she never will." Carlisle smiled.
"Do you have any questions Bella?" Jasper asked me.
"A lot, but I am tired. Can you tell Emmett I'm sorry? The end." I said, as I closed my eyes and wished for sleep.
"Sleep well Bella, we will be back to check on you."
Please don't, just let me burn in hell. It made sense. Please.
A/N: Please review! It helps motivate me! Thank you for reading, have a great weekend!