A/N: Just wanted to let you know I do not know the in's and outs of the F.B.I so the information may not be correct. Just take it for what it is. Thanks! Enjoy!

Seeing Esme had been an eventful moment. Emmett had brought the wheelchair with him something I had been unaware of. I was instructed I would be using it until I was strong enough to use a walker. I didn't think I need either but I was out of the hospital so I didn't argue.

As soon as I had rolled through the doorway, Esme was waiting. I recognized her right away. She had come over and gave me a hug. I cried. And when I said I cried, I mean I bawled. And sobbed. And sobbed some more. I hadn't realized I had needed her so much. At some point, I was lifted to the couch where I laid my head in Esme's lap. She played with my hair and sang to me, all the while I sobbed. I must have fallen asleep at some point.

Now it was light time and I was in an unfamiliar room, lying in a soft, warm bed and I had no idea how I had gotten here. I didn't recognize this room from before. It was very large and bright. White and lavenders plastered the walls and furniture. This room was definitely new to me. There was a large couch against the far wall. Emmett was curled up on it, snoring. I had no idea where anyone else was.

I had to use the bathroom. No, you wait. No, I need to go. Toilet time, burn. Stop. Deep breath. Yes, I need to go to the bathroom. I could see a door that looked like it led to a bathroom. It wasn't very far away from the bed. I felt strong, determined.

Emmett was still snoring, he was probably very tired. I didn't want to wake him up. I slowly started to swing my legs over the side of the bed. I took a moment before I carefully stood up. Good. I felt good. I held onto the wall and slowly made it to the open door. I had been right, it was a bathroom. I was slowly starting to get out of breath. No, I would make it. I had to. Emmett would be so mad if I didn't make it, burn. I made my way to the toilet and pulled down my sweatpants. I was in the same clothes Rosalie had put me in when we left the hospital, minus the sweatshirt. I now just had the white tank top on that was underneath. I sat there feeling accomplished but even after I was done peeing I still sat there. I wanted to make sure I had enough energy to wash my hands and make it back.

When I felt ready, I stood up pulling my pants to my waist. I made my way over to the sink and washed my hands. Only when I looked up, I noticed the mirror. The girl that stared back at me was frightening.

"Who are you?" I whispered.

I was ugly and scarred. Ruined. I took the washcloth that lie on the sink and wet it. I wiped at my face, trying to erase him from me. I scrubbed at my arms. But the marks wouldn't go away. I had never felt so dirty.

Scrub, scrub, harder, scrub. Tears, no. Please. Stop. I was running out of steam. I lowered myself to the floor and tried to wipe away the scars, the filth, the shame.

Scrub, scrub, scrub. Harder. Burn, no. Get off of me! Stop.

"Bella?" I heard Emmett's voice but I couldn't answer him. Scrub, Scrub…off…wash…dirty. Ruined.

"Bella, what are you doing?" Someone was shaking my shoulders slightly.

"Dirt…filthy. Ruined, I can't get him off of me!" I screamed, scrub, Harder.

Someone grabbed at my wrists, forcing me to stop scrubbing. I looked up, it was Carlisle.

"Bella, you are safe. He can't touch you anymore."

"But he is still on me! He ruined me! He made me ugly!" Air in, air out.

"You are not ugly and you are not ruined. You are a beautiful and strong."

"No!" I screamed at him, he didn't understand. Air in, air in, air in, air out, air in, air in, air in, air out.

I couldn't catch my breath. No, please. I don't want to give in.

I noticed Jasper walk in and crouch down next to Carlisle.

"I'm…ssorry…burn….no….I…can't" I see a pill bottle and a syringe in his hands.

"No…burn…please….stop…no…." The fog is creeping in.

"Bella, you are safe." He held up a little white pill. "I am going to put this under your tongue, its just medicine to help you catch your breath, okay?"

"No…burn…no…"I shook my head. The fog was winning, I was losing control. Burn, oh baby, burn.

"Bella, please. It will help, I promise." Carlisle encouraged, he still had a hold of my wrists.

"No please, burn!"

"Would you like me to give her the sedative?" I heard Jasper ask Carlisle.

"No, please! Loving time, burn, oh baby burn, no!"

"Bella, no one is burning you. Please let Jasper give you the medicine, it will help."

"I'm sss…ssorrryy…"

"Open your mouth sweetheart," instructed Jasper.

The fog was overwhelming so I did as he asked. He placed something under my tongue, "Go ahead and close your mouth. Let it completely dissolve and focus on your breathing. Deep breaths, slow and easy."

Air in, air in, air out. Air in, air in, air out. Breathe Bella. As I did this, all I could think was that Alice cared for this man, unconditionally. You saw it in her eyes when she spoke about him. He was going to be the father of her child. I needed to learn to trust him, if only because Alice did.

I don't know how long all three of us sat there while I tried to calm down but eventually I was able to catch my breath and the fog cleared. I was still shaky and slightly anxious but I was in control.

"I'm sorry," I was embarrassed.

"Bella, you have nothing to be sorry about," Jasper said.

"Please don't send me back!"

"We aren't going to send you back to the hospital, this is a normal reaction to the situation Bella. We will only take you back to the hospital if you fall ill and we are unable to treat you here, okay?" Carlisle placed his hand on my shoulder.

I nodded.

"I'm going to pick you up and carry you back to bed okay?"

I nodded again, I wasn't scared. I was in my happy place. Carlisle put me back into bed and covered me up, I closed my eyes. I didn't go to sleep, I was just enjoying the calmness of my mind.

"I told you she wasn't ready!" Screamed Emmett.

"Emmett, keep your voice down. She's fine. This was expected both at the hospital and out. It was handled no different if she would have been at the hospital."

"But she hurt herself," Emmett said much quieter.

I did? I didn't mean to, I'm sorry.

"She just aggravated her skin, she will be fine. We will put some ointment on her arms and everything will be okay. I have already told you and Bella this but I will remind you again. If she falls ill to the point that we are unable to treat her here, I will not hesitate to recommend her going back to the hospital. Even if it's in the mental capacity and would require more extensive psychiatric care we will get her the help she needs. But right now I believe we can handle this at home. It was her decision and it was a big one, that is a big step and you should be proud of her."

Proud? Why is that something to be proud of? I don't understand.

"I am proud of her, so proud. I just want to make sure we are doing everything we can for her."

"I believe we are Emmett."

"I'm sorry Carlisle; I know you wouldn't jeopardize her health."

"Don't worry about it. It's hard on all of us, we all need to heal."

I was hurting them. Burn. Good night.

When I woke again, I could hear arguing outside my door.

"I'm telling you now Edward, it is my recommendation to wait…"

"It's out of my hands Jasper!"

"She has barely been home for 16 hours! She barely remembers her family but you want her to recall the last 10 years of her life!"

No, I didn't want to talk about it Jasper was standing up for me.

"It won't be like that. If it is I'll put a stop to it!"

"Then why can't you stop it right now!"

"We found her by accident, we weren't there looking for her. We were there for possible gun trafficking. They need to speak to her so they can build the case, it's been over 3 months already."

"I can't believe you are saying it like that. I thought you loved her, you of all people know how delicate this whole thing is, how delicate she is. Do you want to be the cause of another three week catatonic episode, or even longer? She can't even hear the word love without shaking, she puts the word burn randomly in her sentences without realizing it and she feels this man ruined her completely. She is barely hanging on and you just want to throw her overboard!"

"Jasper, you know I love her with everything I have. I would not do anything to harm her but like I said before, it's out of my hands. I was assured that they only want to ask a few questions to confirm that she was there against her will…"

He loves me, burn. No, there is a right way to love. Burn, oh burn baby. No.

"You think she wanted that?!"

I jumped at the booming voice of Jasper. I had never heard him speak like that.

"Absolutely not! But they need to hear it from her…"

"You don't think the pictures say enough?"

Pictures? What pictures?

"They need her to say it…"

"I just don't get it. They are dead, what case is there? It's over!"

"It's so much more complicated than that and I can't get into it."

"What does Emmett think about this?" asked Jasper curiously. He was no longer yelling but his voice was raised.

"It's out of his hands too. He obviously isn't happy about it."

"You are going to go in there and ask her."

"What?"

"You are going to go in there and explain to her what is going on and then ask her if she wants to talk to them. The F.B.I may think they can control you and Emmett but they don't control her. Because Emmett has power of attorney over her they think they can manipulate him but if she refuses to talk to them, I will stand by her."

Power of attorney? Over me? I didn't know what that meant.

"Emmett wanted to explain everything to her."

"Well then go find Emmett because no one is talking to her until you or Emmett explain everything. And if she does agree, I will be in the room with her. Not you or Emmett, I am not easily persuaded by the big and scary F.B.I. I will put a stop to it if need be."

"We would do the same."

"Yes but I can't be terminated or suspended. You can and Bella would not be happy to find out you both lost your jobs because of her."

No definitely not. I would not be happy at all. Burn, baby burn.

I heard shuffling feet and I wasn't sure what I was to do. So I pretended to be asleep when Edward and Emmett came into my room.

"Bella, are you awake?" Edward asked.

Should I tell them? Let them know I was?

"Bella, its okay. I'm sure all the yelling already woke you up." I felt Emmett sit down next to the bed.

How did everyone know when I was awake?

I opened up my eyes, "Sorry."

"So what did you hear?"

"A lot but I don't understand most of it." I answered honestly.

Edward stayed back and took a seat on the couch.

"So Edward said you were asking about how you were found and why the F.B.I was there. You already know that we work for the F.B.I"

I nodded, "Yes, but he wouldn't tell me anymore."

"That's because I asked him to let me tell you, Bells. After you were taken, everyone did everything they could to help find you. Your disappearance made national news and thousands of people helped search for you. But obviously as you know, we weren't able to find you. After graduation both Edward and I joined the military and from there we were sought out by the F.B.I. I won't get into much detail of that, if you have questions later I will answer them for you. But let's just say I am actually more intelligent than I look," he joked. "We never gave up looking for you. Edward and I actually utilized some of the resources through the F.B.I to still continue the search but it was a dead end. You had gone into that gas station that night and you never came out. No one saw anything and they didn't have any working security cameras. It was like you disappeared into thin air."

I shivered as I remembered that night. Joseph had told me that his girlfriend had been in the bathroom for a very long time and asked if I could check on her. He didn't look threatening at the time and so I obliged. He followed right behind me and then everything went black.

"Are you okay, Bella?" Emmett asked, "You sorta just zoned out for a moment." He looked worried, he thought I was having another episode.

"Oh, sorry. Yea, continue."

"Well like Edward told you, it was a complete accident that we found you. Joseph had been under our radar for gun trafficking."

"Gun trafficking?"

"Yea, he was selling illegal guns and weapons to foreign countries."

"Wow, I didn't think he was that smart."

Edward sighed, "He wasn't."

"He was the front man, the face of the operation but he never made a decision. Everything he did, he was directed to do." Emmett explained further.

"Oh."

"We had his cabin surrounded, there was no way out for him so he shot Barbra and then turned the gun on himself. Edward was part of the team that was searching for other people in the area outside the cabin and found you."

"Outside of the shed." After loving time, he said I was worthless, garbage. And that I needed to be treated like trash. The memory is foggy, it was an extremely bad loving time. I remember death was coming for me and that I was okay with it. I would finally be in peace, be with my Father. But it didn't happen that way.

"Yes."

"So why is Jasper so upset?"

"Our supervisor, Aro, wants to ask you a few questions." Emmett gritted his teeth.

"But why?"

"Because we need to know the basics of what happened. We don't know if he has done this to anyone else, they need to hear it from you that you were held against your will."

There was a long silence. I didn't want to make anyone mad. But I didn't want to talk about what happened either.

"I don't know what to say…"

"Just answer the best you can. No one will be mad at you for what you say. Just tell the truth the best you can."

"Okay."

"Are you willing to talk to them?" Emmett asked, just above a whisper.

"Umm…I guess." Burn, oh baby burn. I needed to do what people wanted me to do.

Edward stood up and tugged on his hair, "I'll go call Aro and let Jasper know." He didn't look happy.

After he left, Emmett grabbed my hands. "I am going to have Esme bring you up something to eat and get you changed. I'll be back up in a bit to bring you downstairs, okay?"

"Yea." I had no idea what to expect but I would do what Emmett needed me to do, burn, love. I didn't want him or Edward to get in trouble.

Esme and Rosalie had both come upstairs. I ate a small meal and then they both helped me into a change of clothes and helped brush my teeth. I didn't look in the mirror again.

Shortly after, Emmett had come and helped me downstairs. The Cullen's had an elevator. I didn't remember them having an elevator. I didn't ask. I was taken into the living room where the tension was thick. When Emmett pushed me through the entry way Edward was pacing the floors and Jasper sat on the couch with a stressed look. I didn't know where everyone else was.

The door bell rang. My heart started pounding in my chest, air in, air out. I focused on my breathing. Edward left to go answer the door, I looked down at my fidgeting hands. I heard multiple foot steps coming towards us.

I didn't look back up until I heard my name, "Bella, this is Aro and this is…"

"James," I said. My heart stopped, I think. At least it felt like it.

Everyone froze, all the color drained from James's face.

"You're F.B.I?" I whispered.

All eyes went to James. He didn't say anything, he looked terrified.

"Bella, do you know him?" Jasper asked me.

James looked like he was about to bolt from the room.

"I begged you…" I whispered.

I could feel the adrenaline pump through my veins as I stood up, "I begged you! I begged and begged and begged you! But you wouldn't help me! You left me there! Burn, love, burn! You hurt me and you left me!" I screamed, tears rolling down my cheeks.

Then everything happened at once. Carlisle, who I hadn't realized was in the room, and Jasper stepped in front of Emmett. I guess to stop him from attacking someone but he wasn't the one who had needed stopped.

In one split moment Edward had his gun pulled and pointed at James, "Get on your fucking knees now!"

James turned to run but Edward was faster. He grabbed a hold of James and slammed his face against the wall. Edward had one of James's arms in a tight hold behind his back and his gun up to James's temple.

"Tell me one good fucking reason I shouldn't blow your head off right now!"

"I didn't know it was her! I'm sorry! I didn't know!" James begged.

"You never said anything about any other females besides Barbara at the cabin! I should just fucking shoot you right now!" Edward screamed and spit into his ear.

I just watched the scene before me, frozen.

Emmett walked over to them and placed his hand on Edward's shoulder, "Brother, don't. He isn't worth it. Prison will take care of him but you don't need to go to jail for some piece of shit like this."

I could see the conflict in Edward's eyes.

"Edward, please don't." I whispered. I didn't want him to go to jail. "Please."

Edward's eyes snapped to mine, "Please Edward." I begged.

"He hurt you, Bella."

"Yes, he did. But I need you here, I need you with me."

"Come on Edward, lower your gun," Emmett pulled out his cuffs.

Edward let go and Emmett cuffed James and then threw him to the floor.

"I'm sorry about all of this, I had no idea. We will question her at a different time," Explained Aro.

He helped James to his knees, then punched him square in the face.

"Police brutality!" James screamed.

"Ha, I doubt that. I think you were resisting arrest? Isn't that what you saw?" He asked Emmett and Edward. The both nodded in agreement.

Aro brought James to his feet and drug him away. Edward followed them.

"Bella, how bout we go sit down?" Jasper held onto my elbow.

I nodded in agreement; I was suddenly feeling very shaky.

After I was seated, Jasper crouched down in front of me. He placed 2 fingers inside of my wrist. I looked at him questionably.

"I am just checking your pulse. How are you feeling?"

"Umm…I don't know."

"I am so sorry Bells, I had no idea that you would know James…" Emmett apologized.

"It's not your fault."

"Nice, easy breaths Bella." Jasper reminded me.

Edward walked back into the room, Jasper stood up and Edward took his spot in front of me.

He grabbed my hands into his, "I am so sorry Bella!"

"You didn't know Edward."

"Was he the same James's from the story you told me in the car?"

"What story?" Emmett questioned.

I nodded.

Edward ignored Emmett "Did you meet him more than that one time?"

I nodded.

"Did he hurt you other than that time from the story?"

A tear fell, I nodded.

"You didn't know he was F.B.I?"

No. I shook my head, "I knew he was some type of police officer or something. I had seen his badge and I begged him to help me. But…he wouldn't….he just laughed…."

"Is this an official questioning Edward?" Jasper snapped.

"Jasper, unlike Joseph and Barbara, James is alive! We need to know what to charge him with! He needs to rot in hell but I can't make that happen unless I know what he did!" He snapped back.

"Bella, I just have one more question for now…." Edward hesitated, "Bella, did James rape you?"

A sob escaped, a tear fell and I nodded.

"Mother fucker," Emmett swore under his breath.

Air in, air out. Burn, oh burn, Love, burn.

"I'm sorry!" The fog, creeping in, always creeping. No.

"Bella, it's okay…you are safe…."

"No, burn! You don't get it…no no no…no…burn…love…burn!"

"Bella, repeat after me…" Edward instructed.

"No, you don't get it! I'm done, I don't want…want to feel…the end."

This time I begged for the fog, this time I let it win. This time, I welcomed it with open arms and an open mind.

The last thing I heard was Emmett scream, "Damn it, damn it, damn it!" And then something shattered. The end.

A/N: This is not the end of the story I promise, even though it ends The End. So most of you are enjoying the Bella POV. I may try a different POV in the next chapter. I am not sure yet but most of the story will be through Bella's eyes. I hope you enjoyed! Reviews make me feel happy :)