The emotional pain was more dreadful to bear than the physical pain she placed on herself. The 4 slashes on her right arm had stopped bleeding an hour ago. She looked at the ceiling, hanging her arm off the bed. She was up all night thinking about the same things. It crushed her and as the morning sun shined through her window, her sadness elevated every time the chirping of birds were heard.

"You hate me." The words she had heard from him had crushed her but she still undoubtedly loved him more than anything. She glanced at the clock on her nightstand and sighed, looking back at the ceiling. There was 10 minutes left until Sesshomaru would always come and wake her up for school but not this time. After what happened she knew he wouldn't be coming. The door was lock anyways and he would only get the hint that she already has gone to school.

Her eyes became heavy and she turned her head away from the ceiling and looked at the floor where spots of blood led to her bed. The razor laid by the dresser still covered with blood. It wasn't that bad, it wasn't as painful as she thought it would be and it did let her mind drift off from her problems. The pain was only to distract her from the torture that she went through. Even though it worked it was still wrong.

She shut her eyes, not even caring about school. Her parents were still at work as always and they were the only ones who had the keys to the whole house so no one was coming in without her consent.

She drifted off to dreams and found herself in the same, torturous situation. The kiss, the warm lips that laid on her own mesmerized her but than that smug of a smirk. His laughter and his words that hurted her so much escaped those lips, making her heart beat uncontrollable.

"Kagome!" Dripping with sweat she sat upright and glanced at her clock. It was 3 in the afternoon. "Kagome!" She looked toward her door with wide eyes full of tears. Sesshomaru's voice boomed though her ears but she tried to ignore the pounding on the door, hugging her legs up against her chest, laying her chin onto her knee.

"Kagome open this door!" Sesshomaru warned.

"Shut up! I'm tired so leave me alone before I come out there and kick your ass."

He leaned his forehead up against the door as he continued to slam his fist on over and over again. "Than come out here you idiot. You want to kick my ass than come out here and try." He stop hitting the door and listened in on her mumbling that she did. It was a strain to listen to but she didn't come, she became silent and that's when Sesshomaru's brow furrowed.

"Get out here now! Or I'll break the door open." He heard shuffling and rummaging of her feet walking and dragging onto the floor. What ever she was doing in there, she did very quickly and as soon as you knew it, the door yanked open, revealing the most hellish scowl he had ever seen from his sister.

"You're a bitch you know that." She kicked him in the shin and shoved him aside. She ignored the colorful cursing that came from her brother and trudged down the steps. He wanted her out and so she compiled, jumping over the couch and laying right on it. She acted as normal as she would have been before the whole kiss thing. The cursing was heard coming down the stairs and she tensed for a moment, surfing though channels.

"Why you little-"

"You told me to kick your ass and instead of that I kicked your shin." She smirked up at him when his face came into view. Every bit of his expression hinted Kagome that he wanted to kill her so she prepared her self for the worst, keeping a careful eye on his every movement. When he got around the couch all he did was push her aside and sat next to her, taking the remote and flipping though channels. The pain must've not been that bad seeing how he was so calm about the whole situation.

"Jerk." She muttered. It was the food channel that was on and she cursed under her breath. It was the most boring channel ever. Food was all they showed and as much as she loved eating it, it sure didn't follow with watching the thing.

"Changed it." She said, trying to glare through the TV.

"No."

"Change it now."

"No." The egotistical bastard turned up the volume and gave her a shadow of a smile that was easily noticeable.

"If you don't change it-"

"You always make threats Kagome. It gets tiring sometimes, why don't you just act without saying it." The same insults, the same comebacks and the same expression, he was acting like the kiss didn't happen and maybe she should do the same. Just forget about everything and move on.

It seemed like he notice the silence as Sesshomaru immediately turned off the TV and directed his attention straight at her. She could feel his eyes staring, waiting for her to say something or even react.

"I was watching that." She said bitterly.

"Don't play stupid Kagome you didn't go to school today."

"So."

"Why. I thought you went but I was wrong. What have you been doing in your room?" Did he know? It seemed he knew because those eyes just attempted to claw out the truth. The temptation to say 'I love you and if you don't love me back I'll cut myself' was on the tip of her tongue. She was a naïve lovesick girl but it couldn't be helped and it was great that her older brother wasn't here. Unlike Sesshomaru and Inuyasha, with there silver hair and golden eyes, her 2nd older brother was just like her in every way, with his raven-colored hair and hazel eyes, they were like twins but his attitude toward life was way to uplifting than her own but he was a great helper with her problems. He went to college now so it's been a while since he's been back home.

"It's none of your business. I've been sleeping all day so stop the Q&A." She bolted out of her seat, grabbing a cup of water in the kitchen. He followed of course and took a seat at the table, watching her with those piercing golden eyes like a hawk.

"Your going to school tomorrow even if I have to break the door down you got it?"

"What ever." She took another sip of water, staring back at Sesshomaru with those same eyes of annoyance.

"Oh and by the way, I'm going out tomorrow." Kagome, trying to escape from a page long lecture, walked toward the staircase.

"Stop right there. Don't you move. You're not going."

She ignored his order and his reply, ascending the staircase. Permission or not she was going out no matter what. She needed space to think, recollect her thoughts and breath. The house was suffocating with no privacy anywhere, not even in her own room.

Her hands pulled up her sleeves and the cuts placed on her arm made a tinge of disgust trail down her throat. "What am I doing?" She went in her room, locking the door behind her before falling back onto her bed. School was going to be a drag and she could feel it scratching at her in the back of her mind.

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"Why didn't you come to school yesterday?"

"I got sick." Kagome answered, giving Sango a smile before entering the classroom. They had a lot of time to kill before morning classes to start so as always they sat in a desk and talked.

"You're such a liar. Come on Kagome tell me." That smile on Sango's face soon turned into a frown as Kagome lifted up her sleeve. She was going to pester her if she didn't tell her the ultimate truth so there it was, many scars on her arm, the reason she didn't go to school.

"Kagome. What the hell happened? What did you-"

"Remember in health. That topic where teens try to escape depression by-"

"You cut yourself." She said in the whisper, aware of the group of boys and a girl or two who entered the classroom. Kagome immediately pulled her sleeve in place and nodded.

"It couldn't be helped."

"Kagome. Don't give me that shit. You fucking do that again I'm telling your brother."

"Sango. You're my best friend you never told anyone the things I tell you. Don't start now."

Sango shook her head and gave a look of concern, a look that Kagome never sees from her always happy, joyful and positive friend. "You can't do this. It's different, it involves your life and if you do this again I'll tell Sesshomaru. I'll check everyday and if-"

It seemed that it got to her. Kagome stood up abruptly, clenching her fist tightly. She felt her arm shaking for fear that Sesshomaru was going to find out. He was worried about her failure to go to school and if he finds out about this, things would just be worst.

"Kagome you have to understand. You just-"

"I do understand but it hurts. These feelings are just-"

"Kagome." Both girls' attention looked toward the boy who had entered the classroom not to long ago. Hojo Tachigawa, the founder of Tachigawa high's son and the wealthiest child in the district. He was popular, had looks that every girl drool over and had a nice and warm personality.

Kagome immediately bowed as all the kids around school does when he approaches them. "Good morning Hojo." She quickly stood up straight, looking at the smile on the man's face.

"You don't have to do that Kagome-chan" He was a great looking guy and she had to admit that he was perfect in everyway. Good grades, great personality, great social status, it was like some kind of machine that could never make a single mistake.

"Oh." She said nervously. "Sorry."

"No that's okay. Well I wanted to ask you if you had plans after school." Was he asking her on a date? If he was than the answer would have been no but the sight of Sesshomaru coming in the classroom and heading toward her made her mind change quickly. She wrapped her hands around Hojo's wrist and smiled up at him in a flirty way.

"Sure. Let's talk out side of the classroom." She could feel Sesshomaru standing behind her so she elbowed him in the stomach, pulling Hojo out the door and into the crowded halls. Jealousy wouldn't work on her brother; she knew that but this lead to a new future. If she didn't move on, she could end up dead in sadness.

"What the hell?" Sesshomaru targeted his glare at Sango, seeing that there was no one else to aim it at. "Why the fuck is she doing that?" He asked quite angry.

"Don't you see Sesshomaru? Hojo asked Kagome on a date and she accepted it, so why don't you leave them alone and mind your own business." Sango couldn't help but smirk at the angered man in front of her. Was it her imagination but was his anger more than anger but jealousy. But as he shrugged with a smirk, that ruling of jealousy struck out in a flash.

"Good. Now she can stop bothering me and take her damn problems else where."

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3 weeks has passed and Kagome couldn't help but smile. She had gone to movies, 5 star restaurants, the amusement park and even Kyoto last week. Having a rich boyfriend wasn't all that bad. Excitement was all their relationship was and boredom was not something that Kagome felt when she was with Hojo. It made things easier to forget about that miserable kiss with her brother. Speaking of kissing, Kagome never even laid her lips on Hojo even though he treated her to so much stuff.

"Where are we going?" Hojo seemed too confident for words. He held her hand tightly; going off to a direction that she wasn't too familiar with. Hojo seemed different now a days, he seems more pushy lately and might you add protective.

"Don't worry, I have to pick up some stuff." That brilliant smile as always glanced at her and she just nodded. Talk around school of the cutest couple was the topic now. Hojo always liked presenting her as his girlfriend, having his arms around her, trying to kiss her in the halls. Kagome wasn't bothered by it but not having to kiss him kind of got Hojo on the edge.

Kagome held on to his arm tightly, her eyes scanned the neighborhood where you could hear lots of arguments. Screams, cries, a car alarm wailing in the streets, it was not a suitable place to be walking in. There was graffiti on the wall and ominous people who walked the streets with nothing but scowls on their faces. Even with the bad neighborhood Hojo seemed calm, walking confidently through the streets until turning into a dark alley.

"Hojo, what is this place? We shouldn't be here."

"Don't worry Kagome, no ones going to hurt you. I'm here." Kagome wasn't assured, he had a black belt in Karate and took kick boxing lessons on his free time but these smug people looked like the could kill him if they wanted to.

At the end of the alley they stopped in front of a red door covered with painted words such as 'get out' or 'come in and die'. She shivered, pulling Hojo into the other direction.

"Kagome stop it. How many times do I have to tell you, don't worry so much." With a smile he opened the door and pulled her inside. There were scowls in ever direction, looking at them as if they were going to smash a beer bottle over their heads. She was uncomfortable but the arm around her waist pulled her closer to him. He seemed fine, even with the smoke and the clashing of beer bottles hitting loudly on the table, Hojo had one hand tucked in his pocket with the most casual smile on his face.

"Hojo. We're going to die if we don't get out."

He turned toward her, leading the way and sighed. "I come here all the time. Don't worry." All the time? She thought. This place was disgusting for someone like Hojo- who was use to classy things in life- to be in. But even with the suffocating air, he sat on the stool, leaning his arms on the counter. Kagome sat beside him, a waiter who had a tattoo of a skull on his shoulder approached them moments later.

"The usual?" He said, picking up a glass.

"Yeah." Hojo replied.

"How about your girl? Does she want anything?"

"She'll have what I'm having." Kagome felt nervous but the hand on her shoulder turned her attention away from her worries. She was met with a smile and she uneasily smiled back.

"What are we doing here?"

"Just hanging out. I'm meeting someone, like I said before I'm picking up some stuff and when I get it we'll go back to my house okay. My parents are home as always so they'll be happy to see you again."

"Okay but I hope it's soon." A glass was placed in front of her. The liquid wasn't what she expected it to be. It was a tangy red color with a celery stick in the glass. Hojo couldn't help but notice Kagome's questionable expression so he pushed the drink more towards her.

"Drink it. It's good." He lifted his glass and drank the liquid in one gulp, biting the celery moments later.

"What is it?"

"You know, something like those vegetable juices but a little sour. Packs a punch to." Even with a lot of doubt she gripped the cup in her hand, watching the liquid as if it was going to jump out at her or something. But with a sigh she drank the whole thing, taking a deep breath afterwards before slamming the glass on the table.

"Yuck, What was in that thing!" She yelled, catching a lot of attention.

"I told you it packed a punch. It's called Bloody Mary. You like it?"

"Bloody Mary? Isn't it liquor or something like vodka?"

"Something like that." He put on a devilish grin. Leaning his chin on the palm of his hand, humming a cheerful tune.

"Why did you let me drink this? Why did yo-"

"It's not like it's going to kill you. Relax Kagome, I'm sorry okay. Will you forgive me?"

She felt light headed but she just nodded. It wasn't like he was trying to get her drunk or maybe it was but she was feeling the drink in her system. Hojo smiled pleasingly at the daze look in her eyes but soon turned his attention to the person who sat beside him. A man that looked no older than 19 placed a pack of cigarettes on the table. He seemed out of character with his business suit and brief case that lay beside his chair. Before they started to talk, Hojo told Kagome to stay put before leading the man to another table.

"Little rich kid came for the developments huh?" The man said with a smirk.

"Shut up Naraku just give me what I want and I'll be on my way."

Naraku nodded, glancing at the girl than back at him. " So who's the girl? Your next victim or something?"

"Haven't decided yet." He said in a whisper. "So where's the pictures?"

After a while shuffling through his brief case. Naraku brought out a paper bag, placing it on the counter. "How much is she willing to pay for these?"

"About 500 dollars each. Didn't know she was that desperate to have these back."

Naraku shook his head. "You know women, always so naïve as to trust a man like you."

"I tell you. They like my face so they don't know what's coming to them before it's already done. But other than that give me the pictures."

"Can't wait to see them huh?" He gave Hojo the paper bag and with out even looking in it, he stuffed it in his pocket, getting up from his seat.

"I'll be going. Have to get my girl back to my house."

"Parents gone?" Naraku inquired.

"Yeah. I don't think we'll do anything though, she's not as willing as the other girls that I've seen." Hojo laughed and made his way to Kagome who raised a brow. Before she could ask him anything, she was wrenched out of her seat, passing smug faces and making there way out into the alley.

"Who was that?" She asked, feeling a bit woozy from the liquor she consumed.

Hojo didn't fail to notice how tight she was clinging on to him, preventing herself from falling over. " A friend. So you want to go back to my house? My mom should be starting dinner right now."

"Um, sure." She didn't know what they were talking about but she did notice the strange package that the man gave Hojo. She didn't want to ask yet, she was going to wait until she got to his house but it seemed weird how he acted. This whole side of him was really getting to her. Hojo was a stranger from the start; she knew nothing about him before dating him and something in the back of her mind doubted this relationship. She just hoped that her decisions weren't going to back fire and lead her right into a web of trouble.

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Opening the door to a wide-open area, they walked along the tiled hallway and ascended the staircase. No one was home for some reason, not even the maid that usually greeted them and took her coat. Hojo didn't explain nor did he stop to look for his parents but just made his way to his room.

"Where are they?" She finally ask, getting to his room and sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Who?"

"Your parents." He set his coat on the table along side the wall and glanced at her. It wasn't all that strange how he just smiled but it made chills run down her spine. It wasn't a malicious smirk but just a calm smile as if he was hiding something from her. Her eyes just stared at the coat and that's when that brown package the man at the bar gave him caught her attention. She didn't say anything though; she just stared at Hojo who made his way to the door.

"I'm going to get something to drink. Want something?" She quickly shook her head no and he nodded, going out of the room closing the door behind him. Now was her chance to go to his unguarded jacket and see what he was hiding. It was prying into his personal belongings but she had to know. Thinking wasn't an option when she got up and made a beeline to the coat.

"Should I?" She questioned herself but had no answer as her fingers laid gently on the paper bag. The feeling of guilt was building but she knew she didn't have time so she whipped it out of his coat pocket and reached in the bag. She took out several pictures, glancing and turning to each and every one. A wide eye expression masked her face and she dropped the pictures, a trembling hand placed on her mouth.

"Ayame, Rika, Takako?" The girl's on the pictures were people she knew. She went to her school and they were all Hojo's ex-girlfriends. The explicit pictures with the nude girl's in various poses were all a shock to her. They were blind folded, tied up and some were tied to the bed. She wouldn't believe this if she didn't see them with her own eyes but as footsteps were heard, she got on her hands and knees, gathering the photo's as quickly as possible.

"What are you doing Kagome?" He peered over her shoulder, as she froze in place. She was sitting on the floor, pictures that he recognize in her hands caught his full attention. "Enjoying the photo's I took." He said with an alluring tone.

She didn't want to be there and she accentuated her worries as she got up like rapid fire, dropping the pictures on the floor. There was no point in hiding it so she pushed passed him, grabbing her bag on the bed. The click of a door stopped her in place. Hojo stood in front of it, taking out the key from the door and placing it in his pocket.

"Leaving so soon Kagome?"

"I'm going to scream if you don't let me out."

Hojo moved toward her, making her fears take a hold of her body. "Scream all you want. The walls are sound proof so no one will hear you. If you just minded your own business I wouldn't have to do this Kagome but you just had to pry your self into other people's business." He got close to her, every step he took she would take back but the bed that prevented her to move back, stopped her in place. The thought of him getting closer and closer was suffocating her brain with worry. She stepped into his private life that she wasn't supposed to find out about.

"I'm sorry. I won't tell anyone."

"To late for that now." He caressed her cheek the moment he got to her, bringing his face closer to her. The warmth of his breath pressing against her skin made an unraveling emotion crack and she started to cry. "What's wrong Kagome? Are you afraid of me? Those girls in the picture wanted me to do that to them. You saw there smiles so why are you so afraid?"

"I want to go home."

"But I don't want you to leave. Why don't you lie down for a while?" It wasn't request as he slammed her on the bed, a tight grip around her wrist preventing her from getting up. The most respectable guy in school, the so to say well rounded student in every teachers eyes was forcing her down on the bed ignoring the pleas to let her go. This wasn't him, Hojo was supposed to be the perfect boyfriend but with the many ex-girlfriends, in the back of her mind she knew something was up.

"Let me go. Stop!" His lips pressed on her neck as his legs straddled her waist. The hot feeling on her neck turning into waves a pain as teeth bit down hard. She yelled, she tried to fight back but nothing was working his overpowering strength just held her down in place. His hands found his way under her shirt, caressing her bare skin. The mere touch made her body ache with disgust that also made tears build in her eyes. The forceful hand that clenched her chin, forcing her to open her mouth made her tears fall. His face came closer, her heart sped in fear that this one kiss would led to much cries and regrets.

The only one who could touch those lips, the only one who can feel her unmarred skin would only be Sesshomaru. Even if he didn't love her, even if the feelings weren't mutual she wouldn't let anyone touch her instead of him. Kagome tensed up for a moment as his face, those lips drew near though she came back fighting, trying so much to get out. But it couldn't be help as lips locked with hers and his tongue licking the roof of her mouth, suffocating her.

His hands climbed up her body but when he reached her chest she dug her feet into the bed and kicked back. He was so caught up with the pleasure that his hands loosened causing her to get out of those grappling fingers. But as he tried to grab her again she kicked him in the face, moving back as quickly as she could.

"Damn it!" Hojo yelled. His hand covering his face expecting another blow but it didn't come. Kagome was already at the edge of the bed, climbing down and rushing to the front door. It was heart pounding, she forgot how to breathe for a moment though that breath came out in disbelief, as the door wouldn't budge. She was trapped and the thought made her trembling fingers around the doorknob pull even harder. With fear clouding her mind a laugh that pierce through those clouds caught her attention.

"There's no escape. I have the key and there's no where to go." He got up slowly, her eyes watching his ever movement. She was caged and the only thing that she thought about was Sesshomaru. He was her savior but he wouldn't come, he hated her, despised her and didn't want anything to do with her. The pain in her chest wasn't from the terrible situation she was in but the thought of never seeing Sesshomaru's face again. She felt hands wrap around her arms but she didn't move. Caught up with those dreadful words that Sesshomaru had spat out at her didn't make her body function correctly.

Hojo seemed to notice her lack of cooperation, as she just stood there motionless, staring blankly at him. But he set her on the bed, her tears still streaking her face and grabbed a camera. With her shirt torn, her skirt shredded and the pleasurable sight of tears dripping from her chin, he snapped a picture. Her eyes responded to the flash as she came back into reality. Hojo walked to the door, opening it up and motioning her to leave. Getting what he wanted, he would save this little pleasure because now she had no escape. With the picture in hand she was now the many girl's that was in his control.

"Hurry up and leave before I change my mind." Hojo watched as she slowly got up and went through the door. She was an empty shell that only filled with remorseful emotions. Making her way down stairs she went straight to the door, opening it with trembling hands.

It was cold. Rain fell heavily but she didn't care, she walked under it only to mask her tears that wouldn't stop spilling.

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Okay I know. Very weird but has to be done, it was either this or drugs. This all has a reason of course so please bear with me. Oh and you might notice that this situation is similar to a manga call "life" Kinda of similar but different, kinda. Hehe. Well hoped you like it and thanks for the review. Oh and for the 2nd older brother stuff, he's coming in later chapters or maybe the next one I don't know but this fic is way face pace than my other ones