Sorry for the late chapter but i hope you like the chapter.

It was so silent; there were no cars, no sound at all but the patter of raindrops falling on her. It made things difficult when she would walk; the sound seemed to amplify in her ear more loudly than ever before. She was an idiot; love was such a stupid thing to feel. No one could have felt so much pain than she did right now.

"I'll just give up." It was cold, the chills were felt so easily on her exposed skin. Her torn clothing was revealing her bra but there was no one on the streets to take any notice anyways. She wanted to love someone but that someone just betrayed her and her trust. The only thing that was going to break this shield of embarrassment and also disgust was pain. To bad a blade wasn't in reach.

Stepping on the cobblestones that led to the front door of her home, she froze. Debating whether or not she should even step foot in that house. Inuyasha was at Miroku's as usual and her parent's were at work but that left Sesshomaru. The state that she was now in made things so difficult to even touch the doorknob.

"I can't-" Her tears was felt trailing down her cheek, it could have been the rain but the sinking pain that she felt was unmistakable. It was for a moment as her mind went absolutely blank. Her whole body was numb and the cold air was felt to the bone. Just than she waited, waited for any sign as to take that step forward and walk right in the door. But that sign was more than she expected it to ever be once light beamed into her eyes.

"Where the hell were-" The door opened so fast that she couldn't react for a moment. Sesshomaru was just standing there, staring at her as if she was a dead body delivered right at his doorstep. If only she was dead, it would have been better than this.

"I'm sorry. I-I'm so sorry." She fell to her knees, burying her face in her hands. Only the unmistakable feeling of guilt gripping her heart ever so tightly. "I'm sorry brother."

"Shut up." Sesshomaru didn't have time for such unwanted forgiveness, he just picked her up, tucking his arms under her leg and lifting her up with the other. Cradling her in his arms, she immediately felt the heat radiating from his body. The only thing she did was cling to him tightly and just the thought of ever letting go made tears streak her face.

"What happened?" He asked as he tried to stay as calm as he possible could. Kagome was set on the couch and Sesshomaru went up stairs, not letting her have the chance to reply. For the matter of fact she didn't want to reply to such a question. She thought whether it would be right or wrong to tell him…it wasn't like anything happened.

"So what happened?"

She didn't say anything. Her hazel eyes just watched him as he put on bandages and wiped her down, draping a towel on her head.

"Are you going to talk or what Kagome? I asked you what happened now tell me or-"

"I-I don't know how to explain." She whispered. "I don't know what to say."

"Fuck Kagome. Just tell me what the hell happened? Where was Hojo when this happened huh?"

"He wasn't with me. I was wondering the streets by myself. Some guys just mobbed me for my money. They didn't do anything to me because I ran away just in time." Lies that was all her life was…. A big lie. She held her feelings toward her brother, she held everything from the world and her sins were only elevating. There was nothing she could do but lie and she hated it.

"At least they didn't touch you. Fuck Kagome why didn't you call me when you went out. I would have picked you up you stupid idiot." Pissed as he was, he could admit he was calmer than expected to be. He proceeded with the bandaging of minor cuts that were on her knees and on her neck. But as he scanned her body for more wounds Sesshomaru's eyes widened and he grabbed her arm tightly, wrenching her off of the couch.

"What the hell is this!? From the looks of it, these cuts were caused a long time ago!" Looking over her arm that was covered with numerous scars, he glared at her frightened expression. Her eyes were just searching for a way to get out of this, searching for any excuse but she knew he watched the documentary. Everyone in school was supposed to watch that health documentary about suicide and nothing that she said would bypass this whole ordeal.

"It's none of your business. Just let me go."

"Kagome! What is wrong with you!? Why are you doing this?!" He threw her back on the couch, tired of holding her down with her constant thrashing and gripped both of her arms tightly. Hovering over her and keeping her in place, he straddled her hips, sitting on her legs and struggling to calm her down. Even with many tears spilled, she kept on fighting back, trying to get out of his grasp.

"Kagome stop it already! Calm down!"

"No! Let me go!" Grasping both of her wrists in one hand, he curled his fingers around her chin catching her full attention. His face was close and her eyes grew wide from the warm breath that was felt upon her face. Her body finally stopped its constant attempt to set her self free. She took a breather, staring at his alluring golden eyes and listened to what he had to say.

"Why are you cutting yourself? What is the reason for this Kagome? Tell me."

Kagome glared at him, averting her eyes away from him. "I don't need to explain myself to you. Once this year is over and you leave for college you don't need to worry yourself about me so why don't you ignore it. I don't need you here telling me what to do so get yourself off of me before I tell dad you're trying to rape me."

"Rape you? Have you gone mad Kagome? Damn it your a pain but you're still my sister you idiot. Don't you think I have a job as a brother to protect you?"

"Coming from you no. I can take care of myself so it doesn't really matter." His body was getting quite heavy on hers. She could feel her legs cramping up but she still held that smug look. There was that and her attitude that she despised most but she had to do it, her life was nothing but a lie after all so there wasn't any reason as to show her true colors.

"I see. You don't want my help…fine but I'm still watching after you. If you cut yourself again I'll tell dad about it so don't you think twice about picking up a knife. Got it?"

"What ever just get off." As soon as Sesshomaru stood up, Kagome made her way up stairs, slamming her door with brute strength. The sadness that once coursed in her veins already was draped with anger and disappointment. One little cut, one slice can send her father on a rampage. It seemed easy just to get away from object that hurted her the most but when that object is a person, you have nothing but feelings bottled up inside.

Forbidden love was the problem and without a razor to release those unwanted feelings of sadness. What else was there?

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"Friends."

"What?"

"Friends…Were friends right? Damn Kagome you have to tell me why you're so gloomy today. Show me your arm, did you cut yourself again or something?" Sango lend out her hand, demanding Kagome to place her arm in it. But she didn't need the assistance, she sighed and lifted her sleeve as Sango started to count the scars on her arm.

After the accurate count she pulled her sleeve down. "Are you happy now Sango? I didn't cut myself and besides Sesshomaru already knows about it."

The news seemed to strike her like a ton of bricks. She grew wide eye for a second and was at a lost of words.

"R-Really? He knows. What did he say?"

"He just said the same things you said so yeah. Next time I cut myself he's going to tell my dad."

Sango smiled, laying her head on the desk. "That's good. Now I can get this weight lifted off of my shoulders. I'm worried about you Kagome so don't do anything stupid."

"Yeah. I know."

Waiting for the summoning bell, Sango stared out the window while Kagome stared blankly at the white board. She recollected her thoughts to that horrible incident with Hojo. Kagome wondered if he was even at school but there was a lot of hope in her that wished he wasn't. After that day there was no possible way she could look at him again.

"Kagome?"

She turned toward Sango. "What is it?"

"Don't look now but your boy toy's coming at you with a hand full of roses." Kagome took Sango's advice and averted her eyes away from him. She set her eyes on the desk, wishing to the gods that something could get him away from her. Just when she thought it was safe, her true nightmare stood in front of her, lending out a bouquet of roses for her to take.

"Kagome?" Sango was puzzled at the lack of contact of the two couple. Kagome just sat there looking at the roses with out even putting an effort to grabbing them from Hojo who just gave her nothing but a smile.

"Good morning Kagome-chan. I hope you're feeling well."

With an unsure smile, Kagome took the roses in her hands and took out the card that was stuck in the red bouquet. She didn't open it, she just stared at it uncomprehendingly until she looked up at that smile once again.

"Thank you Hojo. I'm feeling great to day how about you?"

"I'm good as well."

Sango raised a brow at such a formal greeting. The whole atmosphere was getting to weird and Sango took the hint as she got up and smiled at the couple.

"So I'll leave you two alone. Take care of her now Hojo." She teased as she went out the door, taking one last glance at Kagome who seemed really nervous about Hojo's presence. Even with the feeling that something was terrible wrong, Sango went out of the classroom hoping that her actions weren't going to lead to something negative.

"I'm glade you're feeling alright Kagome. I was worried when you walked home alone. I thought some creep was going to mob you or something." Taking a seat next to her, he smirked causing Kagome to quickly look away. She couldn't stand it anymore, his personality was different and even with many students in the classroom, she couldn't help but feel like her life was at stake.

"Why aren't you looking at me Kagome? I thought you loved me."

"I thought so as well but I was ultimately wrong."

Hojo laughed. "I see. Well why don't you look at that card I gave you. Tell me what you think of my little message." It wasn't like she had any choice. She peered at the envelope before tearing it open, revealing a happy teddy bear on the front cover. It's going to say I love you or something. She thought distastefully opening the card. Once she opened it her heart seemed to drop in the pit of her stomach. Her hand eventually became numb and the card slipped out of her hands.

"Like it." Hojo asked with a wide smirk on his face.

Kagome quickly picked the card up and gripped it tightly in her hands. "This picture. Why are you doing this? Don't mix me up with you're money making hobby." She was on the verge of spilling out tears but the malicious look in Hojo's eyes as he stood up kept her from doing so. Her body tensed as his hand caressed her cheek, his eyes locked on frightened ones.

"I'm not going to mix you up with those girl's Kagome. I don't want money from you but your body." Kagome hesitated as Hojo moved in for a kiss but as his eyes searched into her own she compiled. This kiss was nothing like the one she shared with Sesshomaru, this was meaningless. His tongue that enveloped in her mouth caused her hand to reflexively crumple the picture. She quivered as his fingertips traveled slowly down her arm, making her eyes shutting tight together.

As everyone looked at the couple as to think it was just another normal kiss. Kagome thought other wise. It was blackmail and she was caught in it so tightly that she couldn't break free.

He forcefully pushed harder against her lips, gripping the back of her head firmly in place. "You're special to me Kagome and it's just a matter of time when you'll fully be mine." Simultaneously the summoning bell rang, causing Kagome to let out a sigh of relief. Hojo didn't fail to notice and he reacted with a smile, kissing her once again.

"Don't forget Kagome. I'll be meeting you after school and if you fail to show up I'll send that picture of you all over school as well leak it into the media. Don't underestimate me Kagome because I sure can make that happen if I wanted to."

"I understand." As he walked away, Kagome shred the picture into pieces, making sure it was completely unreadable. To make sure it wasn't going to get into anyone's hands, she stuffed the small pieces in her bag and slung it over her shoulder. She knew what was going to happen, she knew what was going come to her if she didn't meet him after school but she got up and headed toward the crowded halls.

"I can't stay here." She muttered, making her way pass students and finally getting to the sidewalk. Her life was sunk, with her suicidal mind, her love for her own brother and now this whole black mail scheme, there was no possible way out of this. She head toward her house, slamming her way through the kitchen and up the flight of stairs.

There was no doubt in her mind that she was going to go back to school to meet Hojo but she just needed some rest. With everything going on she needed some time to think her way out of this predicament that she got herself into. But suddenly she stopped in the middle of the staircase only realizing that the front door wasn't locked. Usually when Sesshomaru left for school he would lock the door but now….

Going down the corridor she slammed into Sesshomaru's room but no one was there. Her eyes accurately looked around the room and she even check in his closet but the room was empty. From her parent's room to the guest room, there was no one there but as she made her way to her own room, her door was mysteriously wide open.

"I closed that door." She whispered, entering the room and looking around. There was nothing but she knew that Sesshomaru wouldn't be so absent minded as to leave the front door unlock. Inuyasha always left for school early so there was no possible way that it could be left open like that.

"How awkward." Walking toward the window she sighed. Her mind was running like crazy for the uncanniest reason like an unlocked door, she knew she was losing it. Maybe it was a mistake. Just a little mistake. She mused trying to calm herself down but as her eyes caught movement and a reflection of a figure sneaking from behind was shown on the window, she couldn't react.

A hand curled tightly around her mouth, she couldn't move. She was held against the man so closely that she could feel his breath press up against her skin. The only thing that was of option was to step on his foot but he quickly took care of that, as he sat down on the bed, pulling her along with him and straddled her legs with his own.

She sat on his lap, trying to set her self free but she realized the more she struggled the more her breathing would come out in short gasps. The day was going horrible and now she thought that she was going to be killed or even worse, raped in her own room. The thought made her mind haze and she immediately began to cry.

"You don't need to be afraid Kagome." His voice was low as if he was trying to mask his real voice. But as his hand found its way under her shirt and laid on her bare skin she froze. Even if the cold hand was on her stomach she felt like she had to get away even if she had to die to do so.

Than his mouth drew closer to her ear making her heart beat rapidly. God was against her, the whole world was against her and she didn't know what she did to deserve this.

"I'm not going to hurt you but I want you and you alone Kagome. There is nothing that will stop me from having you all to myself." Even if she bucked and thrashed he didn't seem to care as his lips laid on her neck, making it's way up to her cheek. Some how this action was recognizable but she couldn't place it.

When his lips pressed gentle on her earlobe it all seemed familiar but she was too afraid to think it over. She may just be going out of her mind as to think these actions were felt before. She just had to be going crazy.

"I love you Kagome and you won't escape from me again."

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I know I leave for a long time and I end it in a cliffy. I'm evil and I'm sorry. Well as for my long absence, well my computer was going on the fritz and I had to wait to get a new one. So I was pissed when all my stories weren't able to get a hold of again. So I had to write the new chapter once again but yea. Sorry I took a long time but now that I have a new computer I can update every day. Or try to. Well I hope you all like it. Sorry for the cliffy again so sorry please don't yell at me :BOOOOHOOO: lol