The past of misunderstanding

The grains of sand between her toes gave her a sense of discomfort. She had blue slippers on and she looked down, frowning. "Yucky." She whined, sitting on the sand and taking off her slippers one after the other. The crashing sea at the near by cliff lightened her eyes with amazement but she couldn't enjoy it to well.

She pressed her finger against her toes, rubbing vigorously until all the sand was gone. "The little sand... lays upon my hand...I can not stand... because of the sand." She hummed the little tune until she finally put on her slippers and began to walk to the cliffs which was named Yoru.

Dark, mysterious and the cause of many teenage death who only sought comfort. If you wanted to die quickly you would go there, lead your way right to Yoru. It was a sign where light faded and the draped darkness takes hold of you until you jump off that cliff and find your way in hell.

"Sessho-Kun! Hito-Kun!" Kagome waved her hands in the air and the boys who sat near the ocean waiting for her immediately stood up at the sound of her voice. They were obviously mad at each other again by the distance apart they were from each other and the glaring expression on Sesshomaru's face. Kagome slowed her pace once she had reached the two boys and the smile on her face faded.

"You took forever." Sesshomaru said cruelly as he looked at the sand between his fingertips.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to brother."

"Don't say sorry Kagome. Sesshy-chan's just a big baby because he had to spend 5 minutes alone with me. Dummy. You're always glaring and it makes your sister sad." 8 year old Hiten stuck out his tongue once he caught Sesshomaru's attention. The thunder of pure hatred between them sparked midway and Kagome couldn't help but nervously laugh and stared on.

"Shut up! What I say to my sister isn't none of your business. Idiot." Sesshomaru retorted.

"I'm telling your mom that you said the bad word you juvenile delinquent."

Sesshomaru thought for a moment but didn't get the chance to say anything. Hiten's laughter broke him off in that split second. The hair on his neck stood on edge. He always did despise the way his cousin laughed at him.

"I bet you don't know what that means huh? Dumb Sessy-chan's always have to look so confused."

"Shut up!" Sesshomaru warned. His hand slowly curling up into a fist.

"You always was the dumb one in the family. Look at that silver hair it's so awkward and that ugly face of yours. I can't believe-"

Kagome took a step back once Sesshomaru pounced on Hiten and started swinging his fist, refusing to hold back. Sesshomaru's fist had a little amount of blood on his knuckles but as the punches continued it was soon draped with red.

"S-Sesshomaru stop it!" Kagome didn't dare to approach the boy's but watched with wide eyes, unable to take a step forward.

"Sesshomaru!" Though with his name being shouted over and over again he didn't stop until Hiten finally took a hold of his hands and pushed the 8 year old off of him.

"You damn brat!" Black eyes burning with fire targeted his prey and he immediately straddled Sesshomaru's waist, his hand curling around his cousin's shirt and a fist in the air ready to hit at the bastard who caused him to bleed.

"Don't! Hiten don't hit him!" There was no amount of force that Kagome could ever harbor to stop these two boys. It was either stay where she was and be as safe as possible or do something about it and get hit in the process. But she couldn't control herself.

Seeing Sesshomaru placed on his back ready to get punched was all it took for her to run and push Hiten off of Sesshomaru.

She held her brother's neck tightly, staring at Hiten who looked at the two with a baffled expression. There wasn't an amount of pain that the push from Kagome had caused but the simple wonderment of why she only reacted now was a mystery.

While Sesshomaru's fist was covered with blood, Kagome did nothing but when Sesshomaru was about to receive the same punishment it was like a wild animal exploded out of her, causing her to only protect Sesshomaru while Hiten sat there bleeding.

"Stop fighting! I can't take it when you two are fighting." Kagome had her arms tightly around Sesshomaru but that comfort of having her brother safe didn't last long. Sesshomaru growled, gently pushing her sister away and dusting his self off once he got on his feet.

"I don't need you to protect me Kagome." Sesshomaru said hatefully. "You're a girl, there's no way you can protect me anyways. Idiot."

"But brother-"

"Shut up. You're so annoying. Just get out of the way next time. I don't want you in the way when I beat that stupid bastard to the ground." He pointed toward Hiten who glared but his attention toward his bastard of a cousin went toward his sister. She ran across the beach crying, running toward the asphalt and following the path.

"Look what you did. You can be such an idiot." Hiten ran after her, ignoring the smug comments that Sesshomaru spat out.

His face was in excruciating pain but he was catching up to her. Even though the thought of his cuts needing to be treated ran in his mind, he knew that Kagome was his first priority.

Running a couple of feet away from her, it wasn't to long until she took a sharp turn and disappeared beyond the lining of trees. His eyes searched through thick branches but she was no where in sight.

There were incidents where he thought he had spotted her but than lost her a second later. It was getting quite terrifying searching through branches and tress so he ran forward.

He found himself in front of a church but there was no sign of his cousin anywhere.

The chime of a bell from the church made his eyes shifted to the white double doors which revealed Kagome on her knees. The sight boggled him for a moment but he approached the small steps and slowly made his way toward her.

"I'm sorry god." She said, her voice echoing in the small church. Hiten hid behind a pillar, listening. "Mommy said that it was a sin. She doesn't know, no one knows but I'm sorry. I hugged brother and I know I love him so much. I'm sorry but I promise I will fulfill the vows that I made to you. I will never tell brother how much I-"

"You love him?" Hiten's voice startled her. She was already shaking as footsteps was heard coming toward her. Did he hear me? Did I just break my promise to god? She stood up like rapid fire and smiled at her cousin who had nothing but disgust written all over his face.

"Hiten what are you-"

"Shut up! What the hell were you saying just now?"

"I-It was nothing. I just-"

"Don't lie to me. You love him. You're 6 years old. What the hell do you mean you love him? How can you be so sure?"

Kagome bit her bottom lip. She couldn't possible control her trembling or form her sentences correctly. Though with eyes staring down at her, she took a deep breath.

"I care about big brother a lot." Is all she said.

"Care about him? So you just care about him is that it?"

Silence had befallen the church and her eyes were downcast. There was no use in explaining, nor was there any reason for her to answer such a question. She walked toward him in silence, her eyes toward the floor.

This whole atmosphere that weighed down on her hit her like a tone of bricks once she got close to him. Even thinking of getting out of the church wasn't going to be a success.

He grabbed her arm. "You didn't answer me."

"Let go Hiten."

"I said answer me."

She pushed him away and was able to get out of his grasp. She hurriedly got out of the church and through the forest. But even though she had escaped him she wondered if she really did get away. He knew and the thought killed her slowly inside.

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"So I'm going for Pocky with the chocolate on top, or maybe strawberry, no wait how about vanilla. Come on Kagome help me choose." Sango held the boxes in her hand, darting her eyes toward the boxes and her friend. She was acting strange as usual, with those worried eyes of hers. There was no doubt that she was absolutely sad. "Kagome?"

"It's nothing."

"I didn't accuse you of anything but now I am. What's wrong?"

"Nothing.. I have to go." She heard her calling after her but Kagome walked out of the store.

The chime of the bell above the door caught her off guard for a moment. She stood there, her mind racing through every memory she had stored in her head. "Sesshomaru." The mere whisper snapped her back into reality and she proceeded down the street.

"Today in local news..." The television set in the window had stopped her in place. The picture in the upper right opened her eyes. How could her mind go off track like that? How could she have forgotten? She stared at the picture helplessly. Her hands instinctively covered her eyes that spilt tears of fear as well as remorse.

"The murder of Hojo Tachigawa remained a mystery till this day. Though with little evidence there isn't any clue as to who may have caused this gruesome murder..."

"Kagome!" A car pulled along the sidewalk made her hands uncover the tears that traveled down her face. The smile that Bankotsu once held had disappeared and he ran toward her, slamming the car door and placing his hands on her shoulder. "Kagome what's-"

"Stay away from me!" Terror in her eyes, she pushed him away and backed up onto the glass window.

"K-Kagome what's wrong? Why are you-"

"Don't come near me. Just leave me alone." For years she had admired her brother but now, she would never have imagine that Bankotsu, a sweet, funny, responsible person, would be capable of cutting off a person's head.

His hands were covered in blood and even though she couldn't confirm that it was really him who caused Hojo's death, she just didn't want to take those chances.

"Kagome calm down. What are you talking about? Why are you acting this way?"

"When you were drunk that day. You said all those things 'I'm sorry', 'I'm sorry'. It was like you really killed him. It was like you were the one-" She collapsed, falling to her knees as guilt caused her to remain silent.

"What are you talking about?" He repeated again. "Killed? I didn't kill anyone."

"Stop it! Stop lying to me!"

"I'm not lying. Kagome snap out of it." There was no explanation for her actions but Bankotsu knew that he couldn't stay here any longer. On lookers were Bankotsu's main concern right now. What ever she was going on about wasn't something that he wanted people to hear.

Murder, that was the word that stuck in his mind and even though he had no clue to what she was talking about, he ignored her thrashing and forcible got her into the car, flipping on the child safety lock and closing the door moments later.

Her hands were still placed over her ears, fear remaining in her eyes. "You killed him." She mumbled. "You killed-"

"Kagome!!!" Those eyes hazed with confusion had cleared and looked upon her older brother. That glint of seriousness in those pitch black eyes never left her sight. Formidable as it was to see, her heart that beat furiously against her chest languid.

"Listen to me Kagome. I don't know what led you to believe that I killed someone but I didn't. I never killed anyone so please...don't give me that look. I'm your brother and I wouldn't do such a thing that would hurt you so much like this."

She said nothing. The cognitive tone in his voice pained her with guilt. The nagging feeling of wanting to believe him bothered her. Deniable as it may seem, she wiped her tears away and smiled.

"I'm sorry. It's just that I can't think straight anymore. I mean Shippo and Hiten are here and now Sesshomaru wants to get into fight with Hiten ever chance he can get. Than-"

"Kagome it's okay. Just don't cry anymore. I hate it when you do that." That gentle smile on his face gave her a sense of well-being. For all she knew, he could actually be telling the truth but who could have decapitated his head and kill him in cold blood?

The sequence of events that led her to her suspicions were undeniable foreseen. From Hojo blackmailing scheme that could have notable ruin her reputation, to being killed. It was all a mess of who did it and she wasn't capable of finding out who. Maybe leaving it all to the police was the best resort.

"Are you okay?" Bankotsu asked, his hand on her shoulder.

She was so caught up with her thoughts that she never even realized she was already in front of her home.

"I'm fine. I just need to sleep or something that's all." She got out of the car and walked along the cobble-stone path.

The moment she stepped into the house was the moment she sighed and wanted so much to just step back outside. Yell after yell, threat after gruesome threat, Kagome knew Sesshomaru and Hiten were going at it again.

"Are you a big baby Sesshy-chan? She's coming back with me and that's final."

"You damn bastard! I'm going to-"

"You two at it again?" Bankotsu shook his head, taking off his shoes and walking into the kitchen. "Nice name by the way Hiten. I never even imagine calling my little brother Sesshy-chan."

"Shut the hell up. You call me that again I'll kill you."

"Come on Sesshy-chan. Be a good sport and-"

The constant arguments going back and fourth had gone unnoticed to Kagome's ears. She stood right in the middle of the screams that came from Sesshomaru and Bankotsu though she paid no mind to it. The only thing that her eyes were fixed on was that despicable smile on Hiten's face.

His lips formed the words 'can't escape' and it was true. He knew everything, he knew her true feelings for her own brother and he had her in the palm of his hand.

"Stop it!!!" The room went silent and all eyes were on her. "Just stop it all of you." She sighed. "I'm going in my room. I don't want to hear nothing from all of you. You're like children, now why can't you guys like go out of the house or something and just be quiet. Please."

She marched up stairs, slamming the door and diving into her bed. School was a living hell and now her home was hell itself. At least it was silent, She loved the peace of it all. It was so tranquil that she thought it was a dream but than the thump of footsteps coming down the corridor made her eyes open.

She laid her face amongst the pillow, breathing in the sweet smell of fabric softener. The door creak but she reframed herself from looking at the door, her face deep within the cotton pillow.

"Go away Sesshomaru. I'm fine I'm just having a headache right now okay."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah so can you please leave. I'll talk to you later okay."

"Bankotsu took your advice and went out for 3 hours and he brought Sesshomaru and Shippo with him. For some errand or something."

"Can you just-" Kagome sat up right and glared, the sun that illuminated the room caused her to wince at the harsh brightness. Though there was no mistake, that pitch black hair was all that convinced her to send streams of fear throughout her body.

"So about this game Kagome..."

"Get out of my room!"

"My, My aren't you the one in the position to give such orders."

"Shut up! There's no game. I just-"

"The look on Sesshomaru's face when he was forcible taken out of the house convinced me that what you said 11 years ago in that church was true. If Onigumo found out I wonder what's going to happen?"

"My father? You want to tell my father such a lie."

Hiten took a seat beside her. "A lie you say. I don't think it's a lie at all. You love your own brother. Do you know what that sin is called?"

"Shut up and get out of my room! I don't-"

"It is only to be described as incestuous." He paused and smiled. "Don't know what it means Kagome? It's impure feelings between a person who is closely related to you. Such as your brother. How awkward huh? I bet you're always saying to yourself 'love is love and it shouldn't matter if you're related' but it does. Sesshomaru can be quickly kicked out of the house if your father finds out. No tuition money for college...nothing. He'll have to survive alone and his future is going to be the fault of your love for him."

"I'm not such a thing. It's not-" She was caught off guard. His hand that pressed against her cheek laid there for a moment. He was pleased at what he saw, his thumb ran under her eye, pulling away moments later.

"Than why are you crying?" Her fingers slowly ran along her cheek. She didn't even distinguished the thoughts that saddened her so much, bringing so much tears to fall from her eyes. "I won't tell Kagome. All you have to do is listen to me and follow every single thing that I order you to do."

His hand cupped her chin, pulling her closer but as suspected she pulled away. "Don't touch me."

"Don't be so stubborn. You kissed your brother right? It's just the same."

"I said don't touch me." Her eyes were fired with seriousness and she stood her ground, pushing him aside and heading for the door.

"Don't go away Kagome." He pulled her into his arms, his lips attaching with her own moments later. He couldn't possible let her go, she was to much of a delight to have. His arms were securely around her waist and his fingers tangled in her hair preventing her to escape.

She couldn't breath but there was no point in fighting. He was to strong and she wasn't able to push him away. Guilt had took hold of her once he bit her bottom lip, coxing her to open her mouth.

"Just give in little cousin." Taking hold of her chin, he dug his fingers into her jaw. Pleasure was all he was seeking and once he had that chance, he dove toward her and connected their lips once again.

He licked every inch of her mouth and the thought wanted her to puke. I just want to die. Where is Sesshomaru? Why isn't he saving me? Sesshomaru. Her mind clouded, there was no possible way this kiss could get to her but it did. Feeling her knees weakening was the last thing she wanted to happen.

Hiten was savoring the feeling as he thrust his tongue into her mouth once again trying to comprehend what he could possible do to get her to react with his every movement, every feeling of his hands running down her arm ever so slowly. He pulled his tongue back slightly, coaxing Kagome to enter his mouth instead.

Kagome could feel his actions growing gentle by the minute and she closed her eyes. she got the hint and compiled.

She didn't know what had gotten into her. Maybe this whole thing unwind her mood and there was no one but Hiten to relax her or maybe she just gave in. But she licked the roof of his mouth, clinging to him tightly before running along side the inside of his cheek and tangling it with Hiten's moments later.

She had the feeling that the arms around her belonged to Sesshomaru's and Sesshomaru's alone. His warm lips that always clouded her mind with pleasure and his tongue which always caused her hands to tighten around him.

The day went horrible and Sesshomaru's concern was always toward Hiten. Always trying to fight with him and argue. He had no time to be with her anymore, either he was just to mad to even talk or he was sleeping to ignore another fight with his cousin.

Deprived of air, Kagome turned her face to the side, ignoring another attempt of his tongue to enter her mouth.

"Let me go." Out of breath, she couldn't possible push him away.

"Why?" He pulled her face toward him again and kissed her, trying to spark that moment once again but she refused him.

"Just let go." She had enough and Hiten knew that and respected that for some apparent reason. Letting her go and deviously smiling, he laid on her bed, looking at the ceiling.

"Like I said before, The game between you and me has just begun Kagome. Just expect me to ruin things for you in a matter of days."

Kagome glared at him before going out of the door and slamming it once she had gotten outside. She had so much in her mind that she wasn't able to control herself anymore. It was either try and live with this guilt of having to harbor this feeling of love toward her brother, slightly having a chance of it being exposed out in the open by her cousin or break things off with Sesshomaru.

Leaning up against the door and falling moments later, she shoved her hand into her hair and cried. Finally making the hardest decision of her life.

"I'm sorry Sesshomaru."

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Pretty long chapter. Sorry that I've been lacking on the updates but I'm glade you liked it as to read it. I love you all lol Drop a review.. what do you think. Shall Kagome keep up with this whole masquerade and listen to Hiten or tell Sesshomaru goodbye? Hard huh? I haven't even decided yet but there will be drama lol.

-anari01