There might be some mistakes because I didn't have the time to read it over so I'm sorry for that. But there is an explanation at the end. So enjoy.
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There was a faint sound tickling at his ears. He couldn't determine if it was from his nightmares or reality itself, but he awoken with a distressed expression. Breathing heavily, Sesshomaru ran his fingers through his damped hair. How can a dream startle him so much? He didn't understand the concept of these terrifying images in his head. He already had a lot going on in his life and now stupid dreams terrorizes him as well. Couldn't he find tranquility in his sleep? If not than where is a place of safety, of pure security? Where can he hide?
Sesshomaru's golden hues found itself plastered on the window. Rain repeatedly hit the glass and to his surprise, it seemed the sky was weeping with him.
"Will I ever find comfort?" It seemed Hiten had escaped Naraku's shackles. All he had to do was stay as far away from Sesshomaru as possible, which explained his current location. He now resided in a hotel room about 4 blocks away from him and with the help of Naraku paying the expenses, Hiten and Shippo found a life of luxury. If only it was that easy for Sesshomaru. Not only did he have to kill more people, he now had to try and protect himself from unknown adversaries.
It was all a life that suddenly appeared by one simple mistake- a life of blood and endless sadness. That girl's face as she literally shot herself, was still lingering in his mind, plaguing his ever thought. She looked so much like Kagome and even thinking about his lover in that predicament; it only brought him to tears.
Now his face resembled that of the windowpane. Staring at the drops of rain streaking the glass, he didn't realize his tears did the same.
Warmth was what he felt and hopelessly, he leaned towards the hand that comforted his shattering heart. Kagome gently leaned her head upon his shoulder, attempting to comfort him without a word being said. His thoughts were out of reach, his life untouchable. Even realizing this, Kagome did not question him as her hands and her fingertips said everything, trembling upon his flawless skin.
She's worried about me and yet I can't explain myself. If I could I would tell you all the darkest secrets I seem to lock inside of me but I can't. I just want you to live and if that means death than so be it. I'll give my life in a heartbeat. Only for the one I love most. My Kagome.
Their eyes met and still there was not an exchange of words. Kagome only stroke his cheek, her eyes searching fondly into his own. Heart racing, she kept her eyes upon his angelic face, those topaz hues mesmerizing her by the second. Why someone so perfect, so gorgeous have tears marring his perfect face.
Though, obviously admiring his soft side that rarely appears before her, she smiled as she wiped away those crystal-like tears that seemed to blend with his perfection. It was as if they had switched roles and now, Kagome had to be there to protect him with open arms. Tightly embracing each other, they listened as the rain pattered lightly, seeming to synchronizing with their beating hearts.
I know you're hurting but why can't you see that I can help you through any rigid path presented to you. I'll be there for you Sesshomaru. Forever.
Surprisingly, Kagome was the first to pull away from his perfectly sculpted chest and as she did, she placed her lips upon his own. Yes, she was accustomed to his chaste kisses and his gentle touch. They have shared their first everything together, their first kiss, feeling the aching beat of love, embraces and even finally feeling that everything was alright with the world. They felt safe in one another's arms but there was still this void blocking each other out.
Kagome wrapped herself with a towel, giving her man a very conspicuous smile. "So do you know what today is?"
"Not at all. I know it's Saturday." He sarcastically said with a laugh. His smile perfectly plastered on his face.
Though even with his laughter filtering the room, Kagome didn't find it amusing. "Sesshomaru Fluffy Higurashi!!"
He growled at the obscene word. "What the hell is that?"
"Sesshomaru Fluffy." She taunted. Playing with his little game.
"Stop saying that."
"Or do you prefer 'Neko-maru'?" Oh that godly smile was soon gone in a flash and he glowered.
Sesshomaru got up from under the covers and to her embarrassment; he strode calmly towards her, butt-naked. She shielded her eyes with a blush.
"Why are you covering your eyes?" He paused, a devilish smirk creeping upon his lips. "You saw all of me last night and I saw everything of you."
She refused to listen to him as her hand remained upon her eyes. "I do not care Neko-maru." She made sure to drag the word that he hated so much.
Although, he ignored her taunt, his mind tangled on the said hot and steamy night. There was a lot of sweat and for Kagome's part, a lot of pleasurable moans and groans. The house was theirs so the two took that to their advantage. The snow was now melting and instead of a sheet of soft snow, rain had now disappointedly melted it away.
"Sesshomaru?" Kagome found it really quiet and thinking that Sesshomaru went out of the room, she peeked through her fingers.
"Yaaahhhhhh!"
Coming back to reality by a shriek, Sesshomaru incredulously said: "What's wrong? Are you hurt?"
"No!" She shouted at the top of her lungs. " Just put some pants on before I get really mad and call you Neko-maru again."
Sesshomaru winced at the despicable name that came out of his woman's mouth. It was all that to Kagome's 8th birthday that the name stuck to him like glue. It was the same day just like today- a little moist but a whole lot of fun for Kagome.
He wore a wardrobe that he regretted till this very day. A white hoodie along with white sweat pants and a black chocker around his neck draped his body. He wore it so he could stand out so Kagome could notice him but one action that came from the girl he loved most ruined his reputation as being a well-rounded and calm boy.
There she was, opining the present that he had spent all his money on. He held his breath as she held the brown teddy bear in her hands, waiting for some kind of reaction to come out of her. A quirk of a smile appeared on her face and simultaneously a please expression replaced his anxiety. Though that wasn't it, Kagome started to chase after him, opening her arms and wanting to kiss him for a great present received. But just like all adolescent boys, he was in the phase where girls had cooties and kissing one would end up with catastrophic results, so he ran for his life.
Every one of their relatives thought it was cute and even their mother-who had finally stayed for her birthday- laughed at the display. Though, not amused at all, Sesshomaru accidentally ran, face first into Kagome's birthday cake but she didn't give up. He wiped some of the frosting off and ducked under a rug.
She obviously could tell he was there, but as soon as she saw white paws sticking out from under the black rug and Sesshomaru's head that appeared to have his hoodie on, trying to walk out and up the stairs. Kagome halted her actions, watching Sesshomaru's cat like movements scurrying up the steps.
It was al thanks to Bankotsu that they caught the predicament on tape. But if Sesshomaru had a choice to destroy that god-forsaken tape he would have. Although, being the bastard that he was, Bankotsu hid the tape, never to be found again.
Partaken to the memory, Sesshomaru smiled, sneaking up on his lover and hugging her from behind. "Happy Birthday sweetheart."
She rolled her eyes. "Finally you the hint."
"I always knew." He explained.
"Yea right, it had to take me to tease you for you to get the picture." Kagome had put on a denim skirt, white top and a denim jacket by the time Sesshomaru had gotten to his senses. After a birthday kiss, Sesshomaru lifted her fragile arm into the sun, causing her gorgeous bracelet to shimmer. Though she pulled her arm away and swiftly turned to him.
"Okay, get ready. You're taking me out today."
"But it's raining. I don't want you to get sick." He said sarcastically with a smile.
She shook her head with her own grin and sighed. "Neko-maru, always got jokes." She giggled at his sudden change of expression. "Get changed okay sweetheart. I'll be down stairs."
"You're lucky we had a great time last night or I might've been mad for a second. Calling me that name over and over again, it gets quite annoying and redundant. Don't you think?"
She protested. "No I don't think that at all Neko-maru, the only thing I'll agree to that seeing you without any clothes on is annoying and telling you to put some on is redundant. Get dress."
Giving up, Sesshomaru put on a glimmering smile. "Yes my one and only. What ever you say. It's your birthday so your wish is my command."
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The child was no older than 9 though he had the maturity that of a 16 year old. His eyes were amongst killers, weapons in hand as they were ready to fire if necessary. Even but a child, Naraku didn't underestimate him.
He leaned his head casually upon his fingertips as the child stepped forward. "What do you want?" Naraku said in an icy tone.
"My little sister?" His voice was soft and timid but had so much determination blended in. For years he never laid his eyes upon this ignorant child. He sent him as for away as possible but now, in amidst of all that has happened; he now shows his face to the likes of Naraku. What a fool this child was.
"Dead." He answered dryly.
His auburn eyes widened. "What do you mean dead?"
"No longer living, diminished and brutally murdered. Do you need more definitions because I can keep on going?"
"But father, how did she-"
"Never call me by that name child!" Annoyed, Naraku motioned for one of his guards to escort him away. Once the child was forced to move, he started to struggle in the man's grasp.
"I want to kill him!!" He yelled as he bucked and thrashed in the man's hold. And it was to his surprise, that by a snap of a finger, he had been immediately put down to face his father once again. "I'll kill him. I promise I'll kill him for you and Rin."
"You're but a child…" He explained. "What makes you think I can trust you?"
He walked up to the desk and despite his size and timid stature; he was able to lock eyes with Naraku. He did not flinch, his anger refused to do so.
"I learned how to use a knife skillfully and I am able to shoot a gun if you lend me one."
With a shadow of a smile, Naraku snapped his fingers and simultaneously a 9mm handgun was presented to the boy. He first gazed upon the weapon before he held it in his hands.
"I'm expecting you to kill him without hesitation. I wan you to lure him to a secluded area, and then proceed with his demise. Do you understand, my son?"
It was as if a glint of happiness shined in his eyes. He smiled as if he received a Nobel Prize. Naraku saw it, as an opportunity to feed on the child's insubstantial weakness. So he put on a rigid smile, giving the boy the reassurance he needed.
"This is the person who killed your sister."
He took the picture from his father's hand. The moment he saw that conniving face he crumpled it up and for what it was worth, stuff it in his pocket.
"His name is Sesshomaru. I assume you can find out where he lives."
Looking up at his father, he nodded. "I'll kill everyone he loves first so he can know the pain I feel.
Indulging on the child's impeccable rage, he motioned him to leave. "Just remember, if you get caught I'll have to be forced to kill you. Although you're my son, I can't take the probability of getting caught if you are captured. So I'll ask you once again, do you still want to proceed?"
He didn't hesitate for a second as he opened the door to leave. "I'll kill him and everyone around him." He repeated. "I'll give him no mercy and if I do die then I know at least I avenged my sister."
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"Mary had a little cat, little cat, little cat-"
"It's lamb you dumb idiot." Inuyasha spat out. Unfortunately, he had a repeat of last night. Yet again he had his drunken brother's arm slung over his shoulder but except for the constant drabble of how Kagome was so great, he whimsically slurred out childhood songs. Not only was the wording wrong but also the thick smell of alcohol trailed with every breath he took.
Laughing quite idiotically, Bankotsu swung his arm out of his brother's grasp, stumbling moments later into a chair at the kitchen table. Following behind him was an equally drunk Hiro, but despite the 12 bottles of liquor in his system, all he had to show was a light blush and subtle staggered movements. Unlike Bankotsu, Hiro was so in control that at first glance you wouldn't expect a drop of liquor had slipped between his lips.
"Drunk again." Kagome sighed, giving Inuyasha a glare.
"It's not my fault." Inuyasha coherently pointed out. "It's not like I forced the stuff down their throats."
"Well you were there with them and that means you'll be tucking out big bro into bed and as for Hiro-" She waved a hand in front of his face. The action didn't cause him to blink but gentle, he snatched her hand before the quick movements could make him dizzy.
"I'm okay." He said, releasing her hand and rubbing his temple. "I just need some bread and a bed."
"Take my bed; 2nd door on the right."
As soon as the order was given, Hiro found no use in staying. He grabbed a package of bread in the cupboard and went straight upstairs.
"By the way…" Hiro glanced over his shoulder with a smile. "Happy birthday."
"Thanks."
As if a boulder just landed right on top of him, Inuyasha grimaced. Hiro was already upstairs and Bankotsu was instantly knocked out cold, sprawled on top of the kitchen table. Kagome's eyes came into view as she turned to him. Being the person that she was, Kagome didn't say anything nor did she let out any expression of disappointment. It was obviously he had forgotten.
"I'm sorry." He began with his hand hung down. "I-I for-"
"It's okay. But if you're going to ask me what I want then I have one thing I would want to ask of you."
"What is it? I'll do anything." He said quite urgently.
"I want you to forgive Sesshomaru."
He glared. "Never. I'll never forgive him. He's dead in my eyes and if you want to ruin yourself then I won't get in the way but I'll never step to that degree of forgiveness."
"He didn't do anything wrong." She tried to explain but that glower still remained in his golden eyes.
"I hate him and I wish for what it was worth, that he was dead." His words were bitter but to Kagome's disappointment, his icy words have not had a trace of falseness. He was absolutely true to every thing he said and he would not move himself from that.
Even though he was her brother, she approached him cautiously and put a hand on his shoulders. " This is all I want from you brother. Please forgive him. He's you're brother…our brother and you can't live you're whole life resenting him."
"Just because you unconditionally love him, doesn't mean I have to do the same. Mom hates him, dad hates him and I do as well, it's just a matter of time that you will feel the same. This love that you have is but a flaw that you have chosen and as I said before. It's just a matter of time that he'll hurt you like he did to everyone else." Inuyasha shrugged her hand away from him and took a step back. "I love you Kagome, you're my sister and I want the best for you."
"Sesshomaru is-"
"Sesshomaru is not the best for you!" He yelled. "He's going to hurt you and I know this for a fact."
Kagome was about to retort to his accusation but a hand halted her words. She turned toward Sesshomaru who never left his eyes away from his younger brother. Though, even with a composed expression, Kagome knew he had been listening in on their argument.
Inuyasha growled. "You'll be the death of her!!"
Sesshomaru's hand clenched into a tight fist. With out a doubt, he knew that his younger brother's words were true and yet wrong at the same time. It was unsubstantial that his anger would never recede but Sesshomaru didn't take that to heart. He wrapped his arms around Kagome's waist and pulled her out of the door. Inuyasha made no effort to stop him but watched as they exited the house.
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"He'll never accept us." Kagome said disappointedly.
Sesshomaru held her closely under the umbrella, shielding her from the rain. His train of thought had been easy diminished as the smell of strawberries hit his nose. He pressed his lips on to her hair, taking in the aroma.
"You used a different shampoo."
She smiled. "You actually noticed?"
"Of course I did. You smell wonderful…I love you so much Kagome."
The sudden affection he displayed had eased her mind but the tangled thoughts still lingered near. With the warmth from his body, she leaned against him, his hands holding her tightly.
"I know what you want."
"What?" She said, not really paying attention.
"For your birthday. I know what you want."
Kagome shook her head. "You already gave me a bracelet and I have you by my side. It's more I could ask for."
"But that's not all." He smiled as he glanced into her auburn eyes. "You also want the truth don't you? You want to know everything about me right? Why I was crying and why I'm always disappearing? It's the perfect gift."
"Sesshomaru…"
"I have a surprise but you have to promise me something."
Kagome averted her eyes from his smile. Even though with such a grin, she knew behind it, he was hurting inside. "It depends."
"Please promise me." He stopped her in her tracks and brushed his lips upon her own. "Promise me."
"Sesshomaru I can't…I just-"
"If you love me, you'll give me your word."
It was the pain in his topaz eyes that caused her to hesitate but it was his lips that edged her to say those words. So with one deep and passionate kiss, she sighed. "I promise."
Sesshomaru smiled. "You'll promise that you'll take my last gift to heart."
"A gift! You got me another gift!!!" She hated the thought of promising to take another costly present from him. All she need was him and nothing else. Not any item could compare to him. A Volvo a Mercedes….nothing. All he wanted was him.
"You promised." He said with a smirk. "So keep your promise." He warned.
She glared but he avoided her piercing stare as she kissed her. He led her down a path that was unknown to her but she expected it was one of his surprises. All along the trip he remained silent, kissing the top of her head ever minute or so as they continued to walk. The rain didn't let up and as she waited for the so-called truth, it didn't' present itself until they got to a deserted construction site.
"What are we doing here?" She thought it was to hide away from the rain but he gawked at the empty building. Rubble was everywhere and stones piled on every corner of the building. Who knew what they were constructing here but as Kagome stumbled, Sesshomaru was there to catch her by the arm. That's where fear crawled up her skin and she unexpectedly widened her eyes.
"The truth." Sesshomaru solemnly said. He had let her go and stepped away from her.
What had hit her eyes was both eerie and frightening. Dried blood had cemented itself on the floor and it wasn't only splatters here and there but a pool of the substance.
"What happened here? Why-"
" Hojo… Remember him. Kagome I didn't want this to happen to you on your birthday but I have to do this." Shuffling in his pocket, he finally pulled out an envelope and handed it to her. "You'll be going on a plane to Okinawa. That girl you saw me holding in the streets, she'll be meeting you at the airport."
"Airport? Sesshomaru I'm not going anywhere. What is the meaning of-"
"You're passport and ticket is in that envelope, as for your clothes, I've already taken care of all of that. You'll have a better life in Okinawa."
Kagome's legs became numb. What was he saying? Why was he doing this? "You're coming with me right? I don't care if I have to go but if you're not going with me then I won't step into that plane."
"I killed him."
"What?"
"I killed Hojo. I found out what he did to you so I killed him right here. That's his blood and so-" He cut himself off, staring into Kagome's eyes. "That's why I want you to go because as to what Inuyasha said, I will be the death of you."
"No you're not." Kagome inched her way towards him. "I thought you love me." She cried. "You said you loved me so why are you leaving me?"
Sesshomaru stepped back. "I do love you and that's why I'm doing this. Now please-"
Kagome tried to walk toward him, tired to let him understand that she couldn't live without him. Although she couldn't take another step as pain set in. A throbbing burn pierced her shoulder and as she fell to her knees, she stared at a knife stricken deep where the pain occurred.
"Kagome!" Sesshomaru knelt in front of her, staring at the knife in her shoulder. Before his eyes could search for the person that did this, he carefully pulled the weapon out of her shoulder. She let out a scream as blood began to drip on the floor.
"You killed my sister." A voice echoed in the building. "Now I'm going to do the same for you."
She patted his pockets and cursed under his breath as he left his gun at home. Of all the days to leave his weapon… Now he had no choice but to wait for this bastard to come out of the dark and as he did, Sesshomaru looked on in confusion.
It was a child with a gun in his hand and hatred in his eyes. Not only was he a child but also he was a child who was alone and without any other accomplices by his side. He was no older then 9 and that wasn't it, he was a child that he had seen before, a child close to his heart.
Though, the gun in his hands now told him that he was an enemy and no matter what the cost was, he had to find a way to kill him.
"You killed Rin. Why did you kill Rin Sesshomaru? She was my sister? I hate you, I will always hate you and now I'll kill you and Kagome."
Kagome gawked in terror. "Shippo, what is the meaning of this?"
"Shut up!!! I won't forgive any of you! And now you'll die here!! You'll die together and there is nothing that you can say to get yourself out of this!!!"
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Okay that's a chapter. Sorry it took so long but my laptop broke and now I'm waiting for my dad to buy me another one. I don't know when I'm going to get it so my updates will take quite a while. Sorry for that but I hope you like it. Oh and very sorry for the cliff hanger, I really didn't mean to. Yes it is a bit confusing to but it'll all be explained in later chapters.