Emma slowly entered the dinner party, wearing a pretty tight and white mini skirt and black bustier that flowed alittle after the waist, showing off her curves. Her hair was in curly styled waves and she held her gold clutch as she saw Toby. OH THANk GOD!

Emma grabbed onto his arm and whispered to him, "Did you bring a date?"

"Do I ever?" he seemed to sigh emotionally and Emma passed him a small smile but happily hooked her arm through his and they sat down together at the long table of close family and friends of Manny and Jay.

"To Manny and Jay!" said Manny's father, raising a glass.

Everyone cheered and Emma barely raised hers, needing to gulp her wine down rather quickly.

Manny giggled, her arms hugging around Jay's one left arm as she sat to his left, and tightened her grip when everyone cheered for them. The food was perfect, the dinner, she was mentoring everything today, checking over everything, making sure it was perfect, but she forgot one thing- to check on how the Groom still felt.

"And to Snake and Spike for helping out so much!" Manny insisted and smiled dearly to Emma, "And Emma too! My maid of honor."

People cheered glasses again and some clapped, Emma asked the waitress for another glass of wine.

"Easy Amy winehouse." taunts Liberty beside her as everyone got into their own conversations.

"And Sean and Tory!" Manny just HAD to say, "for they will be as happy as me and Jay soon." she gushed, giving her best dimpled smile over to the new engaged couple.

Jay didn't even raise his glass to that one and dully watched Sean softly, and respectably, kiss Tory. He finally looked to Emma who caught him and they held a gaze til she looked away with a bitter look crossing her face.

Jay sighed...she was still mad he sees.

Darcy stood up, and started to do a speech about how she met Manny, and how glad she was she was marrying Jay Hogart blahblahblah.. even Jay couldnt help but cringe, remembering what an asshole he use to be to Darcy. All the words she was saying about him and him and Manny..just weren't true.

He found himself sadly sneaking a glance down the table back at Emma. He only hoped she was thinking the same thing as they locked eyes again, and the rest of the room went silent to them.

I love you.

((*))

Emma found herself going to the bar during the dinner party, a lot of guys went over, but she was the only girl other than Alex. How 'unlady' like of her. She sat alone, twirling her straw in her whiskey sour and pouting a bit. She couldn't shake off that look Jay gave her during the speeches.

why did he have to look at her like that?!

A figure stepped in and sat beside her.

"I just never find other peoples love amusing." the voice said.

Emma looked over to a clean cut guy with bit of a tan too him. He was Darcy's date, and pretty hot. Older. He had light hair and was tall, and buff..but she just wasn't interested.

"What's your name?" he smirked a little, nodding behind them at the crazy table, "Saw you sitting there with us. Maid of honor right?"

"Right." Emma replied, deciding it wasn't bad to at least converse, "Emma Nelson." she introduced.

He grinned and shook her head, "Liam. Darcy's date..nothing serious." he assured.

"It's okay if it was. She stole my boyfriend before.." muttered Emma for her eyes to widen. Did she just say that?

He laughed, "wow, you just said that." he declared.

Emma groaned and explained, shrugging her shoulder, "Rough night."

He nodded, completely understanding and the smile not leaving his face as he eyed her down, "You're something, Emma Nelson"

Emma sipped her drink and swallowed hard, shaking her head no, "I'm really not." she laid the drink on the counter and sighed, explaining, "I'm flawed, madly. I'm..picky, out spoken, envious, obsessive.. and I don't hold my anger in very well. It hasn't gotten me far."

Liam shook his head laughing, she was cracking him up and he said out loud, "You are some kinda girl."

Emma blushed, but wished someone else would tell her that. He went serious, knowing a sad girl when he saw one, "What about you? Where's your date? He piss you off?" he looked back, trying to find which one it could be.

"No date." Emma muttered.

He looked back, completely shocked and she smiled guilty.

"No way.." he drifts, not believing that. She was way too gorgeous, body of an Angel, sparkling Hazel eyes, soft pink lips- you get it.

"way." Emma lamely replied and caught Jay's eyes. How could she miss them? They were so hypnotizing- wait, how long had he been standing there for and staring at them?

He stood by the Hotels ball room door, where tomorrow, the wedding party would take place in.

Emma eyed him wierdly when he finally stopped glaring her way and nodded into the ballroom. He wanted her to follow him. Emma's mouth fell and she blinked, giving an odd look. He wanted her to follow him?

Emma huffed, "It was nice meeting you, Liam." she said, getting up and stopped when he grabbed her hand.

"This guy, making you sad?" he says.

Emma swallowed. She was that obvious huh?

"You better make him make it up to you." he confirms, "You deserve that."

Emma smiled sadly but nodded, and turned, walking to the one and only inside the ballroom. As she stepped in, the reception room was all ready for the wedding tomorrow. A dance floor clean and sparkling, the stage with instruments and a stereo on it. Tables all around with white nice cloths and gorgeous middle pieces on it.

Jay stood in the middle of the dance floor, hands in his nice black pants pockets, wearing a dark marroon sleeve shirt that rolled up to his elbows. He looked so lean. He stood under the beautiful chandelier that made his eyes twinkle..

Emma crossed her arms, not coming closer as he looked at her with a hard expression.

"Waiting for my apology." she mumbled whisper like but he heard and chuckled, looking down and back up at her.

"I'm sorry." he admits.

She raised an eyebrow... wow, he usually never gave in so fast.

He pulled one hand out of his pocket and held a clicker, pointing it at the stage to the stereo, and pressed play.

Emma tilted her head confused and he walked over to her, "Listen stubborn-ass." he teased. Emma snickered. He grinned and went on ,"Manny wants me, alone, to pick a song." he said with an eye roll and grabbed her hand, forcing her to the middle of the dance floor with him as the music picked up.

"then using me to help is cheating." Emma taunted, stopping in front of him as he turned to her. The music sounded so .. 50's like..so slow.. but beautiful.

Ray Peterson. Emma smiled softly, her mom use to love this song. The Wonder Years.

It began to play..

When no-one else can understand me
When everything I do is wrong
You give me hope and consolation
You give me strength to carry on

"Just consider yourself.." Jay drifted off, trying to find an excuse and smirked, grabbing her hand, "A helping hand... an inspiration." he made her wrap an arm around her neck, and pulled her body in by tightening his arm around her slim waist.

Emma gasped, being pressed against him and looked up, a bit startled but saw him too clench his jaw. The feel of her against his body made him tense up, stiffen, and then they both melted.

Breath, Emma. He already slowly started to sway, staring down at her. What was he doing!? Trying to give her a damn heart attack!?

And you're always there to lend a hand
In everything I do
That's the wonder
The wonder of you

Wait, inspiration- Emma shook her head, that wouldn't make sense.. her warm twinkly brown eyes looked up at him, to see him still staring down at her but softly, and she slowly swayed back and forth with him, standing in spot..

"Jay..." she drifted quietly, a bit scare, and he just stayed with his eyes locked on hers and shook his head slowly, asking her silently to not ruin this right now.

She started listening to the lyrics, trying not to get choked up.. but this song more related to them then him and Manny.

She looked up when he began to hum a little, staring down at her, he didn't completely sing, but whispered the words to her with his deep voice. Her heart pounded.

"And when you smile the world is brighter.." Jay said lowly with the song.

Emma shut her eyes almost painfully. Now? He was doing this now? Did he still care about her too? Did he like messing with her heart? Breaking it? Toying with it?

You touch my hand and Im a king
Your kiss to me is worth a fortune

She looked up at him, eyes full of madness, hurt, but love.. how can he STILL make her love him after all this? And this specifically.. she wouldn't be able to watch him marry her best friend tomorrow. Her eyes watered and his eyes stayed on hers, his eyebrows furrowing and then widening as he now too put together that she still felt the same way too.

"Emma." he swallowed. He tried to explain. He was mostly mad at himself, but at Emma too for hiding this from him too that she didn't move on either, and love poured through out his eyes as she sniffed and tried to hold it together, looking down and shaking her head.

This was so wrong.

She tried to push him away, slipping her hands down to his chest but he grabbed her arms and tried to keep her against him. "I love you." he admitted, and she choked on a sob. "I love you." he repeated desperately, needing to get it out and she turned her head away, tears coming from her eyes and he almost shook her madly. "Why won't you say it back!?"

He knew. She knew he knew. He knew ! They fucking loved another and she wasn't going to say anything while in just 12 hours, he was going to marry another girl!?

Her eyes were puffy, and even then he STILL thought she was beautiful, even more than the bride tonight. He raised her chin and his heart pounded, knowing this was going to be something he can't back from, but couldn't resist and wouldn't regret as he leaned down, and he captured her lips in a kiss, and kissed her slowly until she sighed and gave in, throwing her arms around him again and kissed back deeply.

Ill guess I'll never know the reason why
You love me like you do
That's the wonder
The wonder of you

He held her so tight, and she didn't even care, needing to feel his body more and his mouth on hers. He forced her mouth open with his, and she accepted it, flicking her tongue against his and they kissed harder until then sharing a few more closed mouth kisses before pulling away breathlessly.

She panted, but didn't want to stop and neither did he. He went to kiss her again for her to look down and shake her head, still upset.

"Why are you doing this." her voice cracked, closing her eyes and letting the tears fall.

He cringed, hating he was putting her in this position, but he knows why. It's forever been Emma, his Greenpeace.

"Because I love you."

The words meant so much, and though it made her cry harder, she smiled up at him and he slowly grinned back, caressing her hair.

"what the hell is this?" snapped Manny's voice, now standing at the door and had watched the scene, and heard the last words. Her eyes blazed of fury and hurt, gazing between fiance and best friend.

Had Jay really just said he loved Emma!?

((*))

Emma tore from Jay, but his arm still around her waist, "Manny-"

"Don't."Manny raised a hand up, closing her eyes and the tears spilled down her cheeks and onto her pretty dress and glared at Jay, tilting her head, "Did you ever love me? Because, you've never said it like that ." she emphasized the word 'that', like it was disgusting he had just said it to Emma like that, but not her.

Emma looked between them, but longingly at Jay, wondering what he was going to say as the music stopped and they stood in silence. Her heart was beating so hard she could hear it, and wanted to sit down, but stayed where she stood. Frozen.

Jay looked back at Manny , sighing and looking down for a second til back at her.

Manny swallowed the pain down, but it didn't stop the hurt or the ripping of her own heart, and waited for it.

He shook his head no.

Emma, though in love with him, still loved Manny too, and shut her eyes painfully, not wanting to see Manny look the way she did right now, distraught.

Manny didn't now how to take in the fact her own fiance was never really in love with her. She had always seen the stolen glances between the two, but she tried to ignore it. She didn't think it meant much. She thought Emmas big love was Sean Cameron..not Jay. She knew they had some sick wierd bond that nobody else understood but was this really what that bond was? Love ?

How had she been so dumb..

"Well." Manny choked, bitterly snickering and sniffed her cry, "I'm so happy for you two." with that, she turned and stormed off.

"Manny!" Emma went to run after her, her heart and mind yelling at her, not knowing what to do but Jay grabbed her hand, stopping her, "Jay! She's-"

"In need of being alone." Jay said seriously to her, looking down sternly, "We were moments ago her most important people in the world, and now we're her least..and she's gonna hate us." he eyed Emma hard, "Are you ready for that?" he swallowed hard, "Cause tell me now that you want this or ..I might have to leave too..for good."

He wouldn't be able to have to live in the same place as her after this. Be reminded every day that she didn't want him back..that he gave up almost everything for her.

Emma's mouth dropped, sadly looking at the door Manny fled out of but then softened, looking up at Jay. He was her one, her only one. As much as she loved Manny like her own sister.. there was no competition with her soulmate who was Jay. He knew her better than anyone. Manny didn't even know that it was Jay who was her big love.

A best friend should know that. A good one at least. Not like Emma had the place to talk right now..

"I want this." Emma honestly confessed, nodding up at him and he slowly nodded back, pulling her hands into his and squeezing them, knowing this was hard for her too.

When they came out, the hotel lobby was in an uproar, they knew the wedding was called off, but didn't know why.

"Jay!" Spinner called, coming over with Jane and looked around, "What the hell happened?! Why'd the wedding get cancelled?"

Emma nearly hid behind Jay, feeling a bit like person who did this. Jay protectively stood in front of her as Jane and Spinner went to them.

"Is she pregnant?" Jane said, cringing and winced with hissing noise. That was the WORST when that happened.

Emma and Jay shared a look and he nodded at her slightly, letting her leave and not wanting to have her deal with this too. It wasn't 100% her fault and she would get her share of hate when everyone finds out what really happened..

((**))

Emma left the hotel for a bit, needed some air and walked for a bit, a wine bottle in her hand from the LCBO.

God, she felt like a real piece of work right now.

When it was near dark, she adventured back to the Hotel. She felt just awful. As she walked to her hotel room, she remembered old memories with Manny...

They've known another since SK, they entered Degrassi together, they met Toby and gathered their gang up of loveable J.t, her, Liberty, and Toby. Manny was there for Emma's first crush, she there for hers. The times they made fun of Toby and JT together, the time they found out Liberty had a crush on J.T, the time when Manny hid Emmas butt when she got her first period, to..wow..Manny getting pregnant, aborting it, and going through that with her. She remembered when kept trying to be there for her after the shooting, minus the fights..and the one about Jay when Emma was fooling around with him.

God. Emma leaned on her hotel door, opening it to her dark room. How was she suppose to go on without Manny?

She turned her light on, and the one and only sat on her bed, a kleenex in her hand, eyes red, nose flared wed, make up a little runned down.

Manny looked a mess..yet, wasn't standing up or going to attack Emma.

Emma shut the door and swallowed hard, "Manny if you're looking for a fight.." she painfully closed her eyes, "I can't do it. I still love you it's just I...I love Jay too." Emma began to cry again, "I always have."

Manny tilted her head and stayed quiet..sort of began to creep Emma out who snuffled, and eyed her up and down.

Manny looked off, "I don't think I would of been so mad if this happened months ago." Manny confessed, and snickered looking down, "Or atleast weeks ago, hell, even three days ago! Why tonight? The last night before-" she finally stood up.

"Manny I swear I wasn't the one-"

"You kissed him back, weather he started it or not, you enjoyed it!" Manny yelled.

"ofcourse I did!" Emma yelled back and was also shocked she did and shut her eyes in agony, "Manny didn't you hear me? I've always loved him."

Manny looked bluntly at her, but some understanding was stirring through her eyes. An understanding she didn't want to admit out loud..

"The last thing I wanna do is hurt you." Emma began to cry, "But it hurt me everyday to see you with him."

"Don't turn this on me!" yelled Manny.

"I'm not! Just understand-"

"That what?" Manny bittered, throwing her hands up, "That you want EVERYTHING I have? You have since we've met!"

Emma stared incredulously at her, "WHAT?! Do you know how much you've taken from me?" she snapped, squinting her eyes madly at Manny now.

"I never took anything from you!?" Manny exclaimed, shaking her head.

"Really, Manny?" Emma counted with her fingers, "we MET by you stealing my crayon in SK. You stole my favorite barbie doll, grade 1. you got Craig Mannings, grade 7. You stole Peter Stone, grade 10! My family, Grade 10-"

"Emma, I was kicked out!" Manny yelled in disbelief, her eyes widening and blown away that Emma was giving so many examples.

"You even competed for Kelly against me Manny!" Emma yelled, "after Sean left, and hurt me, you still HAD to compete with me though you ALWAYS had the attention of boys around us, always."

Manny looked defeated, and quite hurt, and not happy with herself even at that moment. She swallowed the lump forming in her throat. Was that true? Oh god. She-she did do that.

"Fine!" Manny said, "Fine I did! I'm horrible! We fought over tons of boys so what does this matter?! Why'd you have to ruin my wedding?!"

"Cause I love him!" Emma shouted, showing the love in her eyes for Jay, "This was the one competition I couldn't let you win because- because it wasn't fair. He felt like mine, and you took him from me. Craig meant nothing, Peter was nothing, but Jay? You have no idea what he made me feel."

Manny was silent for a while.

"Emma.." Manny drifted, realization crossing over her. This is why she always felt threatened around Emma and Jay together.. they had a bond, a dying devotion, extreme attraction, love for another.

Emma sadly sat down on the bed, "I don't understand why you had to go for Jay too.."

"Emma you guys were over! It was just a fling...or so, I thought.."

Emma snapped back, "No, It was just BAD timing, doesn't mean it wasn't real or it couldn't of been tried again in the future. Alex was in the way the first time and even you Manny, you said he was bad for me! Then you-" Emma stopped, not being able to go on. Then Manny DATED him next.

Manny looked down. Oh god... she did. She had practically begged Emma to stay away from Jay. To only date him later on.

"what is wrong with me?" she whispered, numbly sitting down next to Emma.

Emma smiled sadly, "What's wrong with US." she corrected.

Manny sadly smiled back and took a deep shakey breath, "This doesn't hurt any less what you guys did to me."

"I know." Emma looked full of shame.

"I loved you both." Manny sighed, "Maybe I wasn't in love with Jay, but me and him I think were really trying for that kind of love you know?"

Emma kept silent, but she knew you couldn't 'try' for that kind of love. It was either there, or wasn't.

"Are.." Emma drifted off, finding herself choked up, looking at Manny, "Are we still best friends?"

"I'd most likely say no after something like this." Manny admitted, laughing a little and looking up in wonder, "But I can't, we're Emma and Manny, and we have too many memories and.. I guess I hurt you the same way." she eyed Emma closely, "You were going to let me marry the man you loved." she whispered, her eyes shimmered.

Emma nodded slowly, looking down, but couldn't take all the credit..she had thought Jay didn't love her back.

Manny smirked, "But you can do me one favor.."

Emma nodded, "Anything..."

(((*))))

Since the wedding was off, everyone had gone home, and Liberty had so kindly drove Emma home.. talking the whole way there.

Liberty: I don't get it..why suddenly stop the wedding.

Emma sighs: I couldn't say..

Liberty: I mean, they were happy right?

Emma: Sure Liberty

Liberty: I mean. .they were cute together? I don't think Jay nor Manny were cheating..

Emma: Just cause you look cute together doesn't mean you belong together.

Liberty: Well that's true. I guess I didn't see much history or sparks between the two anyways. But I did really think they'd go through with the wedding.

Emma laughed exhaustingly, and finally put her head down to get a little sleep. She needed it. And Jay entered her dreams weather she liked it or not