I guys, sorry for the lack of updates. Life been chaotic lately. Anyway :-) Here a new chapter, another one will be up in the next few days. :)
Again, a BIG THANK YOU to Ireland76 for the correction since english is my second language ! Hope you're enjoy!
They say a baby changes your life. Their baby isn't born yet and his life will never be the same. This morning, he woke up early, trying to get a hold of Oliver at the station before Andy got there. It's the first night in the last two weeks than they didn't sleep together. She had a girls night with Traci at her condo. Andy wants to take things slow, and he knows why but deep down inside he also knows that they lost enough time taking it slow and each night when he's about to leave his house, or take Andy back to her condo, she's asking him to stay. She's craving him, and her hormones are up in the air but he knows that she feels the same way that he does. She can't get enough of him either. He has this urge to know how she's doing, if she's okay. They tried being with someone else and it didn't worked out, this time Sam want to make it work.
So, he didn't have the opportunity to talk to Oliver yet and tell him the good news. This this morning will be it. He enters Oliver's office and hands him a coffee.
"Hey Shaw, do you have a minute?"
"Oh, it must be serious you're bringing me coffee AND a muffin" said Oliver with a smile. Sam had never been the kind of guy to get him coffee.
"Shut up and eat!" answered Sam with a smile, his friend knows him too well.
Oliver takes a seat and lets Sam talk. "If it's about McNally I don't want to know."
"It's about McNally." His smile never leaves his face, while he sips his coffee.
"Then, what are you doing here? Go talk to her."
It's been Oliver's go to sentence for about 2 months, go talk to her Sam, little did he knows that they had actually talked, and did some other things as well. Because of Sam's silence the smile falls from Oliver's face he's not sure what's going on.
" What did you do again? " said Oliver, afraid of what mistake Sam made.
A laugh escapes Sam's throat.
" I'm gonna be a father Ollie. I Sam Swarek am going to be a father." And as Sam says that, his eyes get misty again. He can't believe how soft he has become like a teddy bear. He's gonna have a baby with Andy, a life he wasn't aware he wanted before he met her.
"What? Marlo's pregnant?'' said Oliver and Sam sprayed the coffee he had in his mouth all over himself.
"What? No! McNally is?" And a lopsided smile start on Oliver's face. A McSwarek shipper, he was afraid that Sam screw up big this time but no… the perfect scenario he has imagined for his friends is happening, but Oliver isn't able to pin point how McNally can be pregnant…Last time he knew…she was avoiding Sam.
"Wait wait wait… how can McNally be pregnant? Last thing I knew she didn't want to talk to you"
"Do I have to explain how we makes babies Ollie?'' said Sam, not impressed by Oliver behaviour.
"No. Ew! Thanks Sammy you've just ruin my breakfast." But something clicked in Oliver's mind, he recalls a particular day when everything was hectic at the station and they had almost lost McNally…and if he recalled correctly Sam made sure to bring her to his house for protection…. "No… the night of the explosion? You're kidding me right?" He couldn't believe Sam.
"What? She's the one who kissed me that night!" says Sam in defence of himself. "And now… now we're trying to make it work."
"I can't believe you sometimes. How many times could you have make it work Sam and you didn't?" His friend had a good point. He could have make it work when he was undercover, he could have make it work when Jerry died, he could have make it work while she was UC, and when she returned, but he was too stubborn to do anything about it.
" Ollie…for the first time in my life, I'm happy, truly happy, and somehow I'm starting to believe that I have the right to be happy, to have something more in life…with her."
Oliver remembers the talk they had at his cabin and is proud to see his friend finally happy and going for what he wants.
"So I finally talked some sense in you huh?"
"Shut up!" says Sam as he pushed Ollie into the shoulder. Oliver stood up and embraced Sam.
" Hey, I'm happy for you, both of you brother. But please don't be an idiot this time" When he let Sam go, he asked "But I think you were here to ask me for something. Am I right?"
In that moment, Sam began to worry. He knows that he should have talked to Andy about it before but he wants to do it his way.
"Yeah…um about that, can you like…put her on desk?"
The only answer Sam gets is Oliver. Oliver knows that Sam should know better than trying to make any kind of decision for Andy.
" Come on Ollie" Sam pleads with Oliver.
" Nope, we would never hear the end of it. We're talking about McNally here."
"Exactly, McNally the trouble magnet" said Sam. McNally had proved in the past that she's indeed a trouble magnet. He doesn't have enough fingers to count the amount of times she has gotten in trouble.
"Still her decision brother, the only thing I can do is decide on is who to partner her with." Oliver states.
" Put her with the D's?" Sam pulls off his best pleading face.
"She will know." And Sam knows that Oliver is right but he can't stop himself trying another tactic.
"Ollie, if it was Celery you would do the same." said Sam.
"Good thing she's a witch and not a police officer. Sucks to be you Sam" said Oliver while laughing at Sam's misery. The next couple of months should be interesting he thought.
" We've been friends since forever, come on, do me this favour." At this point Sam had to try everything, it's not that he doesn't trust McNally but she has an history of attracting dangerous situations and he doesn't want to risk losing her or their baby, he didn't like it before and he definitely doesn't like it now.
"Only if you name him Oliver." Sam doesn't budge and his eyes are about to pop out of his face. Naming his kid Oliver for that favour? He had to be kidding but the funny thing is…that he is actually considering it.
But he can't really think about it to long when a familiar voice cuts the conversation short. "Not happening". Andy steps in and closed the door.
"You're screwed brother" murmured Oliver to Sam before saying hello to Andy.
"Hey McNally! How are you doing?" asked Oliver as he hugs her.
"Not bad if we're not talking about morning sickness." she says as she rubs her stomach, even if nobody can see anything for now. She comes close to Sam as he kisses her head and puts his arm around her shoulders.
"That bad this morning?" he asks concerned.
"Doesn't help when I don't get enough sleep" she taunts him. This makes Sam smile. Satisfied that he wasn't the only one who didn't get much sleep yesterday.
" Okay love birds I do not need to know that" interrupted Oliver.
" Actually Ollie, she slept at her condo and I slept at my house. Get your head out of the gutter." said Sam.
"So, you two want to tell me why our kid should be name after Oliver?". She doesn't really seem mad, more amused, so she crossed her arms and waits for an answer. You never know with these two.
"Sammy, this one is on you." said Oliver as he sat on the edge of his desk. He can't wait to see where this conversation will go.
" Well… I told Oliver the big news." Sam says hesitantly. Even if she knew he wanted to tell Oliver, he wasn't sure if she was okay with him telling Oliver alone.
"Doesn't explain why we should named him or her Oliver." Her smile doesn't fall from her face.
"Well, he wanted us to name our rookie after him because he had supported us since the beginning.. " Sam tries to explain.
They ended up a few days ago naming their baby rookie for now. In the beginning Andy was going with peanut, but Sam didn't like it, so they argued and they ended up with rookie which was perfect for this situation. Sam doesn't really know if he or she will be a police officer, but this baby will have a police entourage. So, it's well suited.
"Ha! Not happening Sammy! I, McNally asked that you name your child after me if he wanted me to do him a favour." Says Oliver as Sam muttered "thanks for your support buddy."
"Which is?" she actually had an idea of the favour. Not that she's surprised by it.
"He asked me to put you on desk." confessed Oliver.
"SAM!" she said as she elbowed him in his ribs.
"What? I just want you to be safe., you can't be mad at me for that." And yeah, he's right, she can't be mad for that, and she knew that it would happen, asking Oliver to put her on desk. She just didn't think it would be that early.
" No, but you can't stop me from doing my job. I still have two weeks before the end of the first trimester, and we will see the doctor again. Can we just… follow the protocol and adapt?"
"Yeah…but.." Sam tries again.
"It's not like I'm always in trouble." As she said that, she heard Sam laugh and Oliver choking on his coffee.
They take a moment to regain their composure and Sam tries to reason with McNally. He knows that she's pretty aware of it but also know that she refuses to acknowledge it from time to time.
" Sweetheart, you're a trouble magnet."
"No I not" said Andy as she looked at him.
" Really? How about when you tackled me and try to kiss me." asks Sam. Even if she didn't really try to kiss him, she took a risk on her first day. He should have known it was a sign.
" I did not try to kiss you." But she can't go any further when Oliver and Sam both start mentioning the situations that got her in trouble in the past.
"The laundromat"
"Brennan"
"Leslie's car"
"Super Nova shooting"
" Holding a grenade in your hand"
"The evidence room explosion"
The nightmares are still vivid from that for Sam. He still curses himself when he thinks how he told her he loved her and how he could have lost her both times…forever. And Oliver is still counting the times Andy got herself in trouble. Andy sighed, she knows that they are right but she won't back down. No way in hell is she starting on desk straight away.
"Okay, I get your point, but Noelle was on the streets 'till she was six months pregnant. You know Sam I wouldn't put myself or the baby's life in jeopardy" she says.
Sam gets out of the chair and put his hand on her face. "I know" he says gently. "But trouble seems to find you where ever you are. It would put my mind at ease. I'm sorry if it's freaks you out…" He takes a pause and continues, Andy still stares at him "I just don't want anything happening to both of you" It's true. When he was younger, he feared for his sister's safety, stills fear it sometimes but knows she's in good hands now. And for the last few years, he fears every single day for Andy McNally's life, even when he was her T.O., when she was with Luke, when he was with her, or when he was with Marlo. McNally didn't just crossed his mind, she never left it. Andy is melting right here. She can't get her head around it, on how Sam is so open like this he never had been before, and like always Oliver had to interrupt the moment.
"I'm about to tell you to, to get a room" As much as he loves that his friends are happy now, he still has a station to run.
"Okay, here's the deal" said Andy as she composes herself. "I'm going to be on the street until we see the doctor, and after the appointment I will work the streets part time until I have to be on desk like the protocol says. Is that okay with you?"
"Deal. But if you're in danger just one second, Oliver is taking you out." Andy can hear the seriousness in Sam voice and how he's struggling with his protectiveness over her.
"Deal" The three of them shake hands. Andy kisses Sam and goes out, Sam feels Oliver's hand on his shoulder.
"She knows what she's doing Sammy." Even if he tries to reassure his friend, Oliver knows how Sam feels and can't do anything about it.
"I know, doesn't change the fact that it still scares the hell out of me."
Neither of them add something because they know how Andy is a trouble magnet and how you can't stop fear that something will happen to someone you love. For Oliver, Andy is like one of his daughters and he couldn't bear the thought of her being injured and he knows for sure that if anything was to happen to McNally, Sam wouldn't be able to recover from it.
Sam find her at her desk a few minutes later and smiles as he sit on the corner. She lifts he head to him.
"Change your mind yet?" he asks with humour, because he knows that it isn't the case but a guy can try.
"Nope, waiting for Collins."
"Ha…" he says as he plays with something on her desk. He can't stop worrying.
"Sam", says Andy as she puts her hand on his and squeezes it a little. "I know you're scared, hell I am too, but let me do my job okay? If I have any doubts that I'm putting myself in danger, I will ask for desk okay? I promise you."
"I know, I trust you, I just want you and our rookie to be safe." And it's the truth, he doesn't want anything to happen to her and their baby. He didn't knew he could love a baby so much and it hasn't been born yet. Their situation is complicated, not perfect like he would have wanted but they are working on it and he knows that he has to let her be. He can't put her in a bubble even if it would a perfect idea.
"Sam?" Andy calls out after he had kissed her and turned away.
"Yeah ?"
" I love you."
" I love you too." The words flew his out of mouth like he had said it so many times before. Sam doesn't have any difficulty saying it back now and it's like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders. He can't shake the worrying, but he can be happy that things are getting back on track with McNally.
Once he is in his office, he takes the time to watch her leaving the station. Two weeks ago he wouldn't have guess he would be so happy. Neither that McNally would be in his arms again and hell that he was going to be a father. Sometimes, he still thinks he is dreaming but this is real and every day he has a proof of that. He loves her to death and if he wants it to work, he have to let her breathe, even if that means he can't breath himself