Disclaimer: I only own Angeline, not Grey's Anatomy.
A/N: This story is easygoing, I know. But, I'm making an end to So this is life now, maybe I could write a little more in this one after that. Anywayz, read, enjoy & review!
Chapter 5: The picture I've given you
(POV's uhm.. let's go with Addison again.)
Two days after my conversation with Mark, I have a double shift but I don't mind.
In this way, I can avoid Derek and Mark at the same time.
After I checked my patients for the second time today, I walk to the main hall, desperately wanting some coffee.
After I put a coin in the machine, I turn around. I hear the bell from the elevator and the doors open.
The next thing my eyes catch is Meredith, who is standing at the nurse station, filling in some forms.
I take my filled coffee cup from the machine and walk over to her.
"Meredith.." I say.
She looks up and smiles at me.
"I was wondering, if you were busy on a consult?"
"No, I'm not. Interesting case?"
I nod.
"Yeah, I think it is. Rare surgery. Interested?"
She gives some paper to a nurse and looks at me.
"Definitely."
Vaguely on the background I hear the elevator open again and I smile at her.
"Then that settled."
"Meredith!"
A young voice cheers from the other side of the hall.
We both turn around, and I see a young six year old girl running towards us.
She's very pretty, soft red curls and a porcelain kind of skin.
In my mind floats of a picture Mark showed me, a few years ago. She looks a lot like Angeline, my daughter..
I look at Meredith, and try to remain calm.
She looks at me with a confused, investigated look for a second.
Oh God, she knows, I think by myself and swallow a bit nervous.
Meredith interrupts her gaze at me, and kneels down to receive a big hug from the girl.
"Hey.. you!" Meredith says after a little moment of doubt.
She quickly looks at me and I look away.
"What are you doing here? Where's your daddy?" I hear Meredith ask her, but my attention goes to the elevator, where I see Mark stepping out.
Oh God, I can't handle this, I think.
Mark looks around, a little in panic, but I see a sigh of relief when he sees Meredith with the little girl.
Oh God, oh God, I keep repeating myself, looking at Mark.
The next thing Mark sees is me. I see a moment of panic again, but then he looks content and walks over to me, or us.
I see him exchange some looks with Meredith, and then they both look at me.
Now, I'm really starting to panic.
"There he is," I hear the little girl say and Meredith gets up with Angeline in her arms.
"I see, sweetie," Meredith says.
Mark is now in front of us and he smiles.
"Wow, this is awkward," Meredith says quietly and she looks a little nervous.
Angeline looks confused and stretches her arms to her father.
Mark takes her over from Meredith, and smiles with that same grin at me.
"Don't run away from you Daddy, you know that," he whispers towards Angeline and she giggles.
"I'm not handling this," I whisper and I put the coffee on the counter of the nurse station and I quickly walk away.
"Addison!" Mark calls after me.
"You're not walking away from this!"
I quickly turn around, and I see him following me, and Meredith just stand there, and looking at us, just like the rest of the nurses and doctors who are there.
I keep on walking and turn into a random gangway.
I turn left into a on call room, and sit down on a bed, getting my hands trough my hair.
A few seconds later the door opens, and Mark's standing there, with still Angeline in his arms.
"Addison.."
He shuts the door and sits besides me.
"You're not your mother.."
Tears well up in my eyes, and I shake my head.
"I'm sure beginning to look like her.."
"You're beginning clean, Addie.. Take advantage of that.. You have another chance, here."
He rubs my back gently and I shiver.
"I can't do this Mark!" I whisper and I look at him.
"I have a whole new life here, now. Derek loves me again, Mark.."
"But you whole new life and relationship is based on a lie, Addison! Get rid of that lie, and start over. Everybody makes mistakes. You have, the opportunity to heal that mistake."
I wipe off some tears and look at him.
"I screwed up, Mark. There's just too much the time can't erase. How am I going to explain this.. To myself, to Derek.. to her.." I whisper and look at Angeline.
"I'm here for you Addison. I'll hold your hand, I'll help you. I'll always be here for you.."
I slowly nod.
Angeline looks at me with a friendly smile.
"Who is she, Daddy?"
She looks upon Mark with puppy dog's eyes.
Mark lifts her of his arms and puts her between us on the bed.
"You remember the picture I've given you, of your Mommy?"
She nods and looks at me with an investigating gaze.
"It's her," she whispers with a voice full of dismay.
Okay. I seriously don't know what I'm going to do now, so the next chapter can take a while. My other fanfiction will be a little more active, hint hint. Please review!