Hi guys look I live…for now….things may get even more dicey here soon college is back in session and I have lots of homework to look forward to from the looks of my syllabi. Not only that but my aunt Sharon is in the hospital and it doesn't look good. She has ALS and MS on top of that and recently she developed a case on pneumonia sending her to the hospital. Mom said the last time she went to see her she looked worse so I might be M.I.A. For a bit possibly very soon….might not…this may be a good outlet. E-hugs are welcomed whole heartedly (I could really use some) and if anyone has any "safe" methods of getting "good sleep" I would appreciate them. I have been sleeping the proper amount but I think do to stress it hasn't been any actual good proper sleep…and it is beginning to take it's toll aside from today
(9/14/10) I have been exhausted to the point of near collapse.

Disclaimer: If I owned it there would be a lot of yaoi…..but I don't….sad face.

Snowy hair and molten silver eyes had been plaguing Kanda all weekend. Just who was the Moyashi and what had his life been like before. It was getting on his nerve, but Kanda was reluctant to ask. As much as he would like everyone to believe otherwise, Kanda was actually very grateful to those that believed him. That his new caretaker could believe him so quickly and readily astounded him, it made Kanda want to get out of here even more. Blinking he remembered the kid's promise to help him and the person ha had mumble3de about. Had the brat actually called this person? Did he really believe him for that matter? Was he just humoring him to get a good grade in his class? Fists clenching in barely contained rage Kanda glared at the wall across from the bed.

*tup tup tup 'pause' click* The sound of footsteps outside the door caused him to look over. It wasn't Lenalee he had already learned the sound of her footsteps long ago. The door opened revealing the pale slender figure of one Allen Walker and Kanda's glare intensified. Blinking the other fully entered the room tipping his head to one side in confusion.

"Kanda? What's wrong…did I do something to upset you?...Ah! I forgot to knock! GOMEN NASI!"and with that the smaller bowed in apology.

Kanda blinked as the other stayed in the deep bow waiting for him to either accept his apology or yell at him.

Turning his head away so the other couldn't see the whirlwind of emotions in his eyes Kanda tried to amend the situation in his own way. "Che…just get in here…damn Moyashi…" Smiling Allen did just that getting out his sketchbook and handing Kanda some supplies. "What are these for Moyashi?" trying not to seem too interested.

"They're art supplies Bakanda. I have tons so….I thought perhaps you would like some for when I'm not here." Kanda, if he was someone else would have laughed at Allen. He looked so nervous as though he expected Kanda to yell at him for bringing him something to do. Then he remembered what he'd learned about Allen so far and it made sense. Ironically enough Kanda had taken several psychology classes in high school and college before he'd been accused of murder and committed here; so he could sort of see where Allen's thoughts were going now that he had more information on the kid. Taking the supplies from Allen in a surprisingly, for him anyway, manner, Kanda looked through them before taking out a Japanese ink painting set and examining it.

"Where did you find this sprout? Usually you can only get the Chinese ones."

"Well actually that one was given to me when I was about nine, so just after Master took me in, by one of the ladies at an onsen we went to. She had seen me drawing in the dirt and decided that since she had no talent in ink painting that I would like it. 'I hope it will help you keep your mind off whatever it is that has darkened those starlit eyes.' those were the words she left me with that night. I never got to thank her though. That night some men who'd gotten drunk, raped and killed her…" Allen was silent for a long time and Kanda thought that would be all the talking for some time but then very quietly and most likely to himself, "Why is it that misfortune shines so brightly down on those around me?" Kanda chose not to answer; having no idea what to say or why he felt the need to say something in the first place to someone he had only just met and who he'd probably never see again after their assignment was over. The silence stretched on for nearly an hour before Kanda had, had enough. Standing abruptly he merely took Allen's pencil away before grabbing his arm and towing him out the door.

"W-where are we going Kanda?"

"The garden….Lenalee explained about it didn't she?"

"Ah yes ." after he had been informed on what was going on Allen was oddly compliant with going wherever Kanda took him. It was really surprising, but there was still a lot that Kanda didn't know about Allen Walker. More disturbing to him at the moment was that he found himself wanting to know everything. They arrived at the door only to be stopped by the security guards.

"Hey he can't go out there without supervision!"

"Ummn…I do intend to go and stay with Kanda-san the whole time. Lenalee said he could go out as long as I went with him!" It was obvious the guards were trying really hard not to give in to the absolute adorableness the Moyashi was giving off. If he wasn't being affected by it as well he would have scoffed at them.

"But…what if he tries something…I mean you're-"

"I can take care of myself." The sudden frigidness from the petit figure was jarring and even Kanda had to blink a couple times to make sure he had heard correctly. By then though Allen had grabbed his hand and was pulling him past the guards and outside. "Don't bother worrying I doubt Kanda-san would want to ruin his chance to go outside and get fresh air." After they were out of sight of the guards Allen slowed down so that Kanda was once again leading, but he didn't let go of his hand. Kanda found it oddly calming and decided not to bring attention to it. Back in control of where they were going Kanda led the Moyashi towards the secluded back portion of the garden. Once there Kanda sat down beneath the sole tree present, a sakura tree in bloom, and began to meditate. Allen watched Kanda for several minutes not sure what to do with himself. He wasn't really all that good at dealing with people like Kanda who were reserved and stoic. It was easy to interact with outgoing people, they were open and easy to predict making it simple to decide what to do or say around them. Allen stayed standing gazing at the small koi pond filled with Lotus flowers. Peeking at the Moyashi after a few minutes Kanda found it amusing to see such a childish response and so simply sat and observed Allen for a bit. Eventually though he reached over and tugged the Moyashi into a sitting position quirking an eyebrow at him before continuing to meditate. Allen stared at Kanda for a few seconds before sighing and realizing that Kanda probably just wanted some quiet time to himself in a peaceful place and this was the closest he could get in the Institute. He lay down in the grass looking up at the leaves and petals of the sakura tree.

Kanda had been meditating beneath the sakura tree for some time now and as he opened his eyes he realized that the sun was going down and that they should have gone back inside a long time ago. Looking down to where Moyashi had laid down when he had begun to meditate. The sunlight set snowy hair aglow, accenting the other's pale skin wonderfully and causing pale lashes to shimmer on finely boned cheeks as they shielded molten silver from the world. He had fallen asleep and no doubt this meant he had once again missed the bus and would have to be taken home by the Lee siblings. Instead of waking the slender figure immediately as he should have, Kanda found himself merely watching the boy as he slept peacefully next to him. No one had been that calm and trusting around him since he had been accused of murder. They may not have wanted to believe that he had committed the crime but the mere accusation had them nervous. Finally, and with regret Kanda reached out to wake the other gently shaking his shoulder until crystalline eyes fluttered open blinking in confusion at his surroundings.

"mmmn…Kanda?...what time is it?"

Mentally sighing at the nearly certain prospect of being blamed for not waking the other and the subsequent freak out Kanda replied calmly, "Late…you fell asleep and probably missed the bus." Instead the other only blinked and looked up at the sky as if to confirm the late hour.

"Oh I see….well I suppose its good he said he'd come get me anyway and to occupy myself here for a bit." Allen let it at that as he stood up and offered Kanda his hand smiling. "Shall we then I am surprised no one has come to find us yet."Kanda followed the other somewhat surprised at how calm Allen was, to the doors and back to his room. Once there Allen turned around, "Don't worry I'll make sure you don't get into trouble." Kanda nodded grateful. "Oh and Kanda...thank you for taking me to the pond, it was very nice and I am glad that you would share your sanctuary." Kanda blinked before nodding. Allen smiled before he moved to leave, "Goodnight Kanda."

Once the snowy intern had left Kanda asked the empty room, "Shouldn't it be the other way around?"

So….yeah long time no update…sorries I went to Youma con in Detroit, Michigan Last Friday and stayed till Sunday and I got caught up in cosplay-ness and packing and homework and totally forgot /ran out of time to update beforehand. Now then as for the con it was awesome and I had a good time and was given some good ideas for future fics. It was my first time getting to cosplay and only my second con ever (Youma con 2009 the first) I went as Allen Walker!...and got told I was fricken adorable by most everyone who talked to me (major confidence booster) . Shishou was also dragging me around on a leash (aka kbbandgirl aka General Cross) and it was interesting. Later Lavi was dragging Cross around by the leash…pfft….anyway fun was had and it was a good break from the world.