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Here is the chapter you've long awaited. Don't kill me

Then I woke up.

It was all dream.

I frantically sat up, looking around the room, pinching myself till I cried.

I miss him so much. The man I love, is engaged to another, believing I am dead. How can this be real? Maybe I'm still dreaming. I lay back down and close my eyes, regulating my breaths. In. . out. . in. . out. . I clench my eyelids shut. This just cannot be happening to me. What did I ever do except try to help my country? I can't do this anymore. I need to let go, I need to be free.

Marlee

I need Marlee.

I bolted out of my bed. Stopping ever so slightly to make sure I was decent in the mirror. Ghostly pale face, no make up, wrinkled maid uniform . They would have to do for now. I twisted and turned down the halls till I came to the door I was familiar with since I arrived here. Softly, I grasped the door knob and rotated it, pushing the door open. The new light emerging into the room immediately alarmed Marlee and her husband. Sitting up a soft voice asked, "Who is there?"

"Me"

"America? Darling what is wrong?"

Then I broke down, running into her bed, I collapsed on the floor. My head in her lap. I sobbed unending, to the sound of gentle hushing. Fingers caressed my hair, coaxing me to calm.

"America, what is it? Is It him?"

I paused, looking up at her with blood-red eyes. I nodded.

She pulled me up, and sat me upon her bed. Sometime during my crying she had dismissed her husband, leaving us alone. Wrapping her arm around me she whispered, "What happened? Tell me everything."

I choked out every sentence swallowing my tears, "I. . .I. . I had this dream, we were finally together. Everything was going to be alright. It felt so real Marlee. I miss him, I need him. I can't do this anymore...I just-"

She cuts me off, "What have you done with America Singer? Where is that fight that brought the king to his knees in fear? Now you listen to me," She took my face in her hands, "The America I know would never give up, never. You have to find her again, and I think I know what you need. In the morning I will get your shifts covered, and were going to fix this. In the meantime, don't you ever, ever give in. Do you hear me? This fight has only just begun. They need you America. We all need you. Stay with me dear."

I looked into her eyes, and saw so much sincerity, care and determination. I knew she was right. I was sitting around moping like a lovesick schoolgirl. Enough is enough. It was time to move forward.

Marlee let me sleep in her bed that night, and she woke me up right before the sun rises.

Pulling me out of bed she fixed my outfit and hair. Then shoved me out the door. Taking my hand, she led me down the corridors. After many minutes I groaned, "Marleeeee..." I made my limbs go limp.

She huffed, sounding exasperated, "Come come, It's not much further."

Turning a few more corners, I found myself at the one place I truly needed to be.

The gardens.

Carter accompanied me, while Marlee gave me a quick kiss, and left for work.

I strolled out into my private world, that I once shared with Maxon. I passed our bench, grazing my fingers over it, remembering the times we shared here. I walked through the groves, taking in the scent I had longed for.

Finding the place where Maxon and I once laid, gazing at the stars, I relived it. Laying down, I closed my eyes, breathing deep, allowing memories to flood my senses.

I was so lost in my own universe, when someone, I assumed carter cleared their throat, it startled me.

I opened an eye, groaned not wanting to get up, he spoke before I was able, "Oh no, please do not get up my dear. Would you mind if I joined you?"

My heart sped up. It was him

I Know you hate me :)