Ellis's pov -

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I take my left arm and start hitting my dresser repeatedly until the alarm turns off . It's 5:30am and I get up and run to the shower fast .

I get out of the shower and put on my underwear and bra before getting into my joggers and my SU hoodie .

I get ready as usual . Ex: brush my teeth and comb my hair put some light makeup on and I put m hair in a braided bun.

I grab me a banana for breakfast .

"Hey bay" I said as I saw Bailey on the couch
"Hey ell" he turned his head toward me and than faced the 6.v again.
"I'm gonna head to school "I lie
"Alright , mom called earlier she said to text or call when you get there "
"Alright I will by "
I leave .

I ended up at the abandoned skate park with my friend Brittany and Macy .
I texted my mom "I made it -Ellis shepherd "
She hadn't replied but she saw it so that's good .
I went on with my day drinking 4 shots of tequila , and ate 4 burgers .

I went home around 3 because school ended at 2:30 and the skate park is only 15 minutes away so might as well.

I opened the door to my house and started walking upstairs , i was halfway up when I heard my mothers voice "yes , okay see you than" i continued walking toward my room until my moms voice called my name so I sighed loudly and walked toward her in the kitchen . "Yeah?" I say
"How was your first day as a freshman?" She asks
"It was good ."
"What's you like more about it?"
Oh shit.
"The freedom" I lie
"Yeah freedoms good"
You have no idea.
"Yeah"
"Well what do you want for dinner?"
"I don't care"
"Right than I just order pizza "
"Fine with me " I smile and walk I my bedroom again.

I texted Macy "I didn't get caught .. So tomorrow?"
She texted back-
"Can't . School called my mom"
I started panicking mentally "do you think she called mine?" I thought out loud.
There was a Knock on the door
I opened it to be faced with my mom
"Hey" I say
"Hey"
"You need anything?"
"No just wondering why I got a call from the school five minutes After you left the kitchen telling me you didn't goto school .?" She shouted at me and I flinched
"Well " is all I replied
"Well is the only answer you can give me are you serious ? , you didn't goto school because ?"
"Because I hate school and rather hang out with my friends all the time than be home or school" I confess
"Well that's not an acceptable answer so I'm taking you to school tomorrow in my car. And your grounded for 2weeks " and she leaves .

See me and my mother don't have a loving relationship .I'm not close with my mother that's Zola who's closer. and I'm just the 'troublemaker' that was my nickname growing up.
I just played the role.

My mom is more distant now than when we were little . But she is still my mother and I like her it's just she gets annoying .

I'm more closer to my aunt Amelia .
I barley see her anymore since her and my mom don't get along.
Amelia had a breakdown when I was 3 months old . But that was a one time thing . She's been sober since .

Or my uncle Alex but he moved when I was 6 months. He's single because Jo Wilson turned him down .
He moved to New York. And now he has a girlfriend but me or my mom don't know who. He comes and visits once a year to see how my mom and we kids are .

Zola and bailey . Relationship with me . We're pretty close but not really so were in between.

I think the only reason I get into trouble is that maybe. I'll end up in heaven with my dad and finally meet the 'great good looking man' who created me . Everyone talks highly of him but I never had a chance to meet him or have one memory at least Bailey and Zola had a memory with them

I'd rather die than live on earth with people that don't like me .
I know my mom and aunts and uncles love me , it's just that I'd rather not feel obligated to love them back. I've never believed
In love because I think it's a hormonal feeling and feelings aren't real . At least to me.

I've never had sex or dated anybody but my mom thanks I have . I've only kissed one boy but that was in a game of truth or dare .