So next chapter is out. Sorry to keep you waiting, but I just had a little problems with writing it. But I hope you will forgive me ^_^ So now enjoy (I hope you will) the next chapter. Oh, and please, review !

Chapter Four: There's Nothing I Can Do To Change It

The next day, however, it rained, so anything that the children planned yesterday couldn't be done. So the four children were sitting in the sitting room, extremely bored. Suzan dragged out from somewhere an old and dusted dictionary (God knows where she found it.) and that's how the four siblings ended up playing a guessing game. But there wasn't even ten minutes, before the children grew even more bored. Lucy came over to window and was observing something from there, Peter was sitting on the couch, nearly sleeping and Edmund could be found under the old chair.

However, Susan continued her guessing game. "Gastrovascular, Peter." Her brother didn't answer her, he only sighed.

"Come on, Peter, gastrovascular," their twelve-year-old sister repeated.

"Is it Latin?" He mumbled. Edmund got up from under the chair. "Is it for 'the worst game ever invented'?" Edmund said. He saw with the corner of his eye, as Peter smirked lightly at his answer. And so, Edmund was very surprised. 'It didn't happen in so long that Peter would smile or smirk at anything I was saying.' But it was only Peter who did this. Suzan gave him an angry look, and Lucy didn't even react.

"Come on, Su." Peter said to her. "Even you need to admit, that guessing words is boring." Susan groaned. "But what else can we do?" Lucy's face lightened up and she came over to her three siblings. "We can play Hide and Seek," Lucy suggested hopefully.

"But we're already having so much fun." Peter muttered, missing the annoyed glare Susan shot at him. "Come on, Peter, please?" Lucy tugged at his arm near her on the couch. When Peter glanced at her, she made a sweet eyes. "Pretty please?"

Peter sighed and looked at her. "One…two…" He started grinning. "Three…four…" A very big smile approached Lucy's face. Edmund was angry and annoyed. His two sisters started leaving, of course, Lucy was first out of the room. Then was annoyed Suzan and last was angry Edmund.

"Five…six…seven…eight…nine…ten…" Peter's voice could be heard through the hallways as his younger siblings were searching for an ideal place to hide. Susan found the first one, pushing open a large, empty trunk and coming inside and pulling the lid shut.

"Fifty-six, fifty-seven…"

Peter's voice was heard all over the halls now. Edmund and Lucy were still searching for a place to hide. Then, suddenly, they both saw really long curtains on the last floor. They hurried over to them. Edmund pushed Lucy back and came behind the curtains. "I was here first!" He said, maybe a bit rudely. Lucy gave him an angry and disgusted glare and ran off. Edmund stepped back and pulled the curtains shut.

"Eighty-seven, eighty-eight, eighty-nine, ninety, ninety-one, ninety-two…"

He could hear opening of a nearby door. He closed his eyes and laid his head on the wall.

"Ninety-seven, ninety-eight, ninety-nine, one-hundred!"

"I'M BACK! I'M BACK! IT'S ALL RIGHT! I'M BACK!" Lucy's loud screams made him open his eyes. 'Ooh, what is she going on about? Couldn't she just shut up?' Edmund's head shot out from behind the curtains as he gave Lucy an angry look.

"Shut up! He's coming!" He tried not to make too big noise, but Peter found them, even before Edmund could do anything. So Ed had no other way, then just come out from behind the curtains, angry at Lucy, who caused all of it.

"You know, I'm not sure if you have quite good idea of this game?" Peter was looking at both of them with unsureness. Lucy looked at both of her brothers, surprised.

"Weren't you wondering where I was?" She asked.

"That's the point! It is why he was seeking you!" Edmund said annoyed. A few seconds later Suzan showed up with a small smile on her face. "Does this mean I have won?" She asked. Peter looked at her. "I don't think Lucy wants to play anymore." He said.

"But... I've been gone for hours." Lucy said quietly. Her three siblings only looked at her, thinking that she wasn't normal.

Once in a Lifetime it's just right,

We make no mistakes,

Not even a landslide or riptide

Could take it all away.

"See? The only wood in here is the back of the wardrobe" Susan said. The three older siblings were very carefully examining the wardrobe. They all turned away from the wardrobe. Theh were looking at Lucy in disbelief.

"One game at time, Lu. We don't all have your imagination." Peter said to her.

"But I wasn't imagining!" Lucy was now angry at all her siblings for not believing her in something that reallg existed.

"That's enough, Lucy," Suzan was already annoyed by her little sister's imaginations. "I wouldn't lie about this!" Lucy said loudly with a shaky voice. "Well, I believe you." Edmund stepped forward. "You do?" Lucy asked, not believing him at first. "Yeah, of course. Today I saw a football field in a bathroom cupboard." He smirked slightly.

Somehow, feels like nothing has changed

Right now, my heart is beating ghe same

Out loud, someone's calling my name,

It sounds like you...

"Now, would you just stop? You just like to make everything worse, don't you?!" Peter was now angry at him. "It's just a joke!" Edmund tried to defend himself, as for he knew that, of course, no one will take his side. "When you're gonna learn and grow up?" Peter answered roughly.

Oh. That hurted. In this moment Edmund tried not to explode from the fury that overcame him, really, he did. But he couldn't hold it anymore. "Shut up! You think you're dad, but you're not!" He screamed it into Peter's face as loud as he could and he stormed out of the room. He still could hear that Suzan said: "Well, that was nicely handed." and soon he heard her footsteps, going into the opposite direction that he had gone. A few tears escaped his eyes, but he instantly wiped them away. 'I am not that weak to cry like a baby!' He was angry at himself for those tears, but more than this he was angry at Peter.

When I close my eyes, all the stars align,

And you are by my side, you are by my side...

He didn't know where to go. Of course not to their bedroom or the sitting room, because that's where his siblings would be and he didn't want to see any of them right now. He opened the first door to his left, which were the nearest door, and walked into the room behind them. It was a library. 'Good. At least no one is here.' He closed the door behind him and made his way over to a table in the middle. He sat there, in one of those old chairs, laid his elbows on the table and held his head in his hands. 'Stupid Peter! Just how could he say it?! I don't want him to tell me anything like that! He doesn't even know just how much it hurts!'

Once in a Lifetime, it's just right

We are always safe, not even the bad guys

In a dark night, could take it all away...

He didn't know how long was he sitting there, but after a very long moment of silence, he heard an opening of the door. He turned to them and he saw that someone was standing there. That someone was Peter. 'No. No. No. No. Not him again!' Edmunt started regretting that he came in here. "Ed..." He heard his brother's quiet voice. "What do you want?" He answered coldly. He didn't want any kind of conversation right now, especially not with Peter. "I wanted to apologize..." Peter seemed to not know what to say. "You know... For earlier..." He seemed like he was lost. "Shut it already. I don't need your apologies." Came a harsh reply from Edmund. "Leave me alone."

He could hear Peter's footseps, as he was making his way over to the table. "But..." Edmund took his hands away from the table and screamed. "I said leave me alone!" He ran out of the room, passing Peter by.

Somehow, feels like nothing has changed

Right now, my heart is beating the same

Out loud, someone's calling my name

And it sounds like you...

At this moment as he was passing his older brother, something inside Peter told him to stop Edmund, to stop and hug him, so close, and don't let go. And he, really, wanted to do it. But yet, he didn't. And as Edmund nearly passed him, Peter reached his hand to touch his brother's shoulder. But he missed it. And now, he could only watch Edmund's back as he was walking out of the door. Peter felt just like he could cry now. "I did it again... I let him go again... Oh, I wish I could take it all back! I want my little brother back...' Peter clenched his fists. 'I promised I would make it all better, but I am only making it worse... I'm trying to be his older brother, but he don't want to let me in... Oh, God, just tell me what to do... Maybe I should search for him again?' And so, Peter got out of the room and searched for his brother. But he didn't find him.

When I close my eyes, all the stars align

And you are by my side, you are by my side,

You are by my side, you are by my side...

It was almost time for dinner, so Peter thought that Edmund would be here and that he will talk to him after it. But Edmund didn't show up at the dinner and later, when it was already time to sleep, he also wasn't there. Peter wanted to go and search for him, but Suzan wouldn't let him walk around the house in the night. So Peter could just pray that his little brother was safe and sound. This night, he couldn't sleep at all. He could only think about his little brother. 'I can't take it anymore. Everytime I try to fix it, I'm always messing it up. Oh, I just want to be his older brother. But I can't. Because I missed him. I missed my little brother...'

Once in a Lifetime,

You were mine...