The Morgue

I see you crying in the morgue. It hurts. I see my body laying on the autopsy table. It's just my body, my soul will always be around you.

In your eyes I can see how much you want me to wake up. You want this to just be a joke.

I wish I could make your wish come true, make the pain stop. But I can't.

Yesterday we were so happy. No one could have seen this coming.

I know I made a promise to you in the beginning of our relationship, I don't know if you remember it, but I promised you that I would never leave you. I promised you that no matter what, I'd always be around.

Today, I broke that promise, and I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

I've never broken a promise in my entire life, until today. Today, I broke a promise to the one person I loved the most. You.

I want to ease your pain, want to hold you and kiss you.

I want you to know that I will always love you. But I can't tell you that. I can't hold you.

If I tried, you wouldn't feel it, you can't feel or see a ghost.

A ghost, that's what I am.

This wasn't how I wanted to die, how I had imagined my death. Nobody ever imagines dying by being shot.

Nothing could hurt me more as to see your tears. Nothing.

I promised I'd never hurt you, I promised I'd never die.

I lied.

-I-

The Funeral

I'm so used to going to funerals. Now I'm at my own.

My body is in that casket and my team has to say goodbye to another one of their collogues. I wish I could take away their pain as well.

Your eyes are empty, there's no life in them. The most beautiful eyes in the world has lost their spark, their life.

I never thought I could get hurt, but I was wrong. The pain in my heart is the worst, the pain I got from hurting you.

I want to scream and tell you that I'm here, right next to you!

I want to scream at the paramedics for not getting to me faster!

I want to scream at myself, for dying!

I want to do so much, but I can't. I'm a ghost. Every time I try to touch your cheek, my hand simply goes through your body.

My lover is hurt and I can't even comfort him. Now when you need me the most, I'm not there.

I promised I'd never hurt you, I promised I'd never die.

I lied.

-I-

Two Weeks Later

The trousers I wore the day before I died are still on the couch.

You haven't removed them yet.

I hope you never through my things away, I hope you just let everything be the way it is right now. But I know that you have to move on someday.

You're working too much, don't become me before I met you.

Before we started dating I was a workaholic, but then I stopped.

Don't work yourself to death, love.

I want you to live as long as possible, forever.

I've come to see you at work sometimes, I miss the lab.

I watch you every time you sleep, I miss your snoring.

I miss the sound of your breathing as you sleep. You know I used to lay awake for hours just to listen to you sleep.

I miss you every day that passes, and every time you cry it breaks my heart.

I don't want you to stop looking for love, I hope that one day you'll find someone who makes you happy.

I'll always be around you, to make sure you're safe.

I promised I'd never hurt you, I promised I'd never die.

I lied, Eric, I lied.

THE END

AN: Okay, so I just had to write another chapter, and in H's POV, thank to Mtwapa!

Thank you for mentioning to me to write another chapter, I hadn't thought about it before you asked.

I'd also like to thank Queen Sunstar!