AN: Sorry about the mini delay. I had mid-terms last week and I've had to clean my house this weekend so I know this update is a little late. Thanks to the two people who reviewed.
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Chapter 19: The Edge
Lorelai woke-up Monday morning without Luke next to her. She panicked for a moment before calming herself down. 'He's probably downstairs' she told herself as she got out of bed.
Lorelai walked downstairs and was surprised to find Luke using her laptop.
"What are you doing?" Lorelai asked walking over to him.
"I was just looking for a therapist for you," Luke said deciding to be straight forward with her.
"Are you sure I should see a therapist, I mean it only happened last week," Lorelai said trying to get out of it.
"Lorelai you need to see someone, I can't even begin to understand how you feel, but you have to see someone, please," Luke pleaded with her, tears forming in his eyes.
Lorelai really, really didn't want to talk to someone but looking at Luke made her feel like she really needed to. "Fine I'll go just get me the earliest appointment," She said.
"Alright, I found the number of someone in Hartford," Luke said giving her the number.
Lorelai looked at the number. Just looking at the number made her feel very afraid. "Luke could you call for me?" she asked in a small voice.
Luke nodded, just as he was about to pick-up the phone it rang. "Hello," he said picking up the phone.
"Is there a Lorelai Gilmore there?" the voice on the other line asked.
"Who's this?" Luke asked.
"This is the Hartford police department, we're calling about her case," the voice on the other line said.
"She's here," Luke said handing the phone over to Lorelai.
"This is Lorelai Gilmore," Lorelai said.
"Miss Gilmore, this is Captain West, I just wanted to give you an update on your case," he said.
"Alright," Lorelai said holding her breath.
"Unfortunately, all the DNA we found was yours, as of right now we're following some leads but there is nothing new," he said in a sad voice.
"Thank you," Lorelai said.
"I'll keep you updated, good-bye," the Captain said hanging up the phone.
"Is there anything new?" Luke asked.
"Nothing, they're going to keep looking," Lorelai said.
Luke was at a loss of words, "I'm just going to make the appointment now," he said.
Lorelai just nodded and waited silently as Luke made the appointment for her.
Lorelai silently cursed when she heard that the doctor at an appointment available at three today. Luke looked over at her to be sure that it was alright. She reluctantly nodded yes. The appointment had been set and now this awful feeling of dreaded anticipation filled her stomach.
Eventually it was time to leave; Luke had left Caesar in charge of the diner again. This caused gossip to spread about the town. Lorelai hadn't been seen in a number of days, Luke was also missing. Everyone knew that something was up but no one knew what it was.
Luke felt he had to go with Lorelai because he thought if he didn't she wouldn't go.
Lorelai was nervous, she was afraid, she really didn't want to relive it but a small part of her knew that this would help her.
They eventually reached the office in Hartford. Once in the office Lorelai had to wait about ten minutes before she was called in.
"Do you want me to come in?" Luke asked.
Lorelai thought for a second, "Not this time, I need to do this alone," she said. Luke just nodded.
Lorelai entered the office slowly and was met by a woman waiting for her. "I'm Dr. Silverman," she said shaking Lorelai's hand.
"Where should I sit?" Lorelai asked.
"Sit anywhere," Dr. Silverman said. Lorelai decided to sit down on the couch.
"So what brings here today?" Dr. Silverman asked looking directly at Lorelai.
Lorelai looked down at the ground and mumbled something incoherently.
"What was that?" Dr. Silverman asked.
"About a week ago I was raped," Lorelai said softly.
"Alright, just tell me what you can," Dr. Silverman said.
"Do I have to tell you about 'it', today?" Lorelai asked shaking just a little bit.
"No, just tell me whatever you feel comfortable with," Dr. Silverman said.
Lorelai calmed down a little bit and began talking about herself.
Before she knew it the hour was up. "Sorry I couldn't tell you about it today," Lorelai said feeling like she just wasted some time.
"No need, you may not believe it but we made a little headway today, I want to see you again next week," Dr. Silverman said. Lorelai nodded and left.
"How was it?" Luke asked as they left.
"It was fine, I'm coming back next week," Lorelai said as they reached the jeep.
The ride back to Stars Hollow was silent except for the sound of the radio.
"I'm going to drop you off at the house and then I'm going to the diner, I'm sure Caesar needs the help," Luke said.
Lorelai nodded, "Are you alright to be alone?" Luke asked.
"I'll be fine, go and work," Lorelai said with a fake smile on her face.
Luke looked at her skeptically, "You sure?" he asked again.
"Just go," Lorelai said.
"Fine, but I'll only work the dinner rush and then I'll be back," Luke said as they arrived at the house.
"I'll be back soon, I promise," Luke said as he pulled away. He felt guilty for leaving her alone but he had to work, it wasn't fair to Caesar.
Lorelai walked into the house and felt alone. She knew that it would only be a couple of hours but it still made her afraid.
Just thinking about the rape made her feel dirty. She walked into the kitchen and looked for something to eat. When found nothing she got discouraged.
Lorelai checked the cabinet and found some bread, peanut butter, and jelly. Lorelai got out a knife and started making a sandwich.
As Lorelai was making the sandwich she looked at the knife. It looked so nice. Something inside of Lorelai started to snap she looked at the knife and brought it to her arm. She held it there for a moment deciding if it was worth it to cut herself.
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