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Chapter 23: Emily and Logan

Lorelai held her head down in shame and fear. She was worried about what her mother was going to say. In her therapy sessions she had accepted the fact that she was raped before. She just hadn't wanted to tell her parents that tonight. She didn't want to say it just in case her parents didn't believe her. Then it would just be one less disappointing to them.

Luckily it seemed that her dad wasn't mad at her. Lorelai could at least take comfort in that. She realized that the reason she didn't tell her parents originally was that they wouldn't believe her. She couldn't even think how she could go on if her mom thought she was lying.

"Why didn't you tell us right away?" Emily asked softly. She slowly moved closer to Lorelai to comfort her.

Lorelai continued to stare at the ground. "I didn't think you'd believe me, or you'd just think this would be another stain on the Gilmore name," she answered honestly. She knew this might make her mom angry but it was better than lying to her.

Emily couldn't believe what she had just heard. Never in her wildest dreams did she think that Lorelai would think that because of this she would be ashamed. "We weren't ashamed when it happened to Rory," Emily said.

"You like Rory better," Lorelai responded.

Emily couldn't believe what Lorelai had just said. She knew that she and Lorelai didn't have the best relationship but she never thought that things had gotten this bad between them. "That's not true," Emily said.

"Yes it is, you've never liked me, I'm just an embarrassment," Lorelai said.

Emily felt her heart break right there. She had always known that their relationship was strained but she didn't realize things were that bad.

"You're the best thing that ever happened to me," Emily said tears in her eyes.

"Really?" Lorelai asked skeptically.

"Yes I was so happy when I found out I was pregnant, and even with everything else that has happened I've always loved you," Emily said hoping this would convince her.

Lorelai stayed silent so Emily continued.

"Contrary to your opinion the main reason I made you come to Friday Night Dinners is because I want to see you, and if I didn't do that I was afraid I would never see you again" Emily explain calmly.

Lorelai thought about what her mother was saying. It did make sense, she hadn't been the best mother but it must have hurt her mother when she left.

"Just imagine if you and Rory ever got into a fight and you didn't see her for months, what would that do to you?" Emily asked.

Lorelai couldn't even imagine that sort of situation but if it ever happened she knew that she would be crushed.

"I'm sorry I should have told you right away, I was just so confused," Lorelai said.

"Did you really believe that you would disappoint us?" Emily asked.

"I think part of me really did but I wasn't thinking straight," Lorelai said.

"It's alright, I don't blame you," Emily said.

"Mom there's something else you need to know," Lorelai started. 'I might as well tell her now, while she's on my side' she thought.

"What is it?" Emily asked panic rising within her.

"Christopher isn't Rory's father, I was raped before, both of us agreed on the lie because I was really afraid that you wouldn't believe me," Lorelai said very quickly.

Emily felt her entire world falling down all around her. Even years before she felt that something was wrong with the entire situation.

"You should have told us," Emily said numbly.

"It was just easier to lie, I even forgot about it until…the other night," Lorelai said.

'At least she wasn't lying to me everyday' Emily thought.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was hurt and confused," Lorelai explained hoping that would satisfy her.

"You should have told me but I forgive you," Emily said.

Lorelai couldn't believe what she just heard. "What do you mean?" she asked. She had to be sure that she had heard her mother right.

"I mean that I forgive you for not telling me," Emily said.

Lorelai wasn't really sure what she should do, she had never been in this position before.

"It's alright, I should have told you but I was a scared and confused kid," Lorelai said as she started to cry a little bit. She hugged herself with her arm but then felt the warmth of her mother hugging her.

Meanwhile over a Yale Logan was looking at the stuff his father gave him. He started to debate what he should do.

'I must have Rory' Logan thought.

'But what you'd be doing is illegal,' a voice said.

'Dad did do it,'

'Do you really want to become him?'

Logan stopped thinking about it, it was all too confusing. 'I do want her but what if she says something,' he thought pacing around the room.

Logan started thinking about Rory. She was so perfect her hair, eyes, face, and body made him go crazy. He had dated and slept with a lot of girls but none of them made him feel like how Rory made him feel.

His dreams were filled with her. He couldn't think of anything else. He felt that her he would die. He picked up the stuff his dad gave him and finally made a decision.

'I'll do it soon, I have to do it tomorrow' Logan thought. He knew that this would require some patience but he knew that it would eventually pay off.

'I'll put some in her coffee, I'll get her alone, and then my fantasy will come true,' Logan thought as a wicked smile showed up on his face.

"Everything will be perfect" Logan said.

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