-1Chapter thirty two: making it throw the storm
I had been in labor for two hours all my dr could say that was good was that I wasn't dilating quickly, I blew a puff of air out as I looked at Dave I smiled he had been so great with this he had called john for me and made sure Christopher was taken care of.
I winced as another contraction came, they couldn't give me anything for the pain because of the baby, and Dave came and grabbed my hand rubbing his thumb on my forehead
I smiled as it was over and looked at him
"How could this happen to us to our daughter?"
Dave leaned down and kissed her on the forehead "I don't know its going to be ok I promise"
I smiled and laid my head back down on the pillow I sighed where John was?
We were watching TV when my door slowly opened and in walked my brother and John right behind John went to the other side of my bed and kissed my forehead
"So sorry it took so long are you ok? How's the baby?"
I sighed "Um I'm three cinmaters dilated so far her heartbeat and everything is good she doesn't seem to be in distress or anything like that"
John nodded "Okay how are you?"
I looked at him and felt everyone in the room wasn't there I was trying hard not to work myself up or cry I knew all it would do is cause more damage I took a deep breath "im sacred John and I keep thinking this is my fault I mean we all know the question why is my baby going to be born premature? But what's the answer did I do something wrong health wise? Morally what?"
John sighed and leaned over hugging me "No baby you didn't anything wrong you are one of the healthiest people I know and you have nothing morally wrong baby you fucked up and you made it right that's all that matters"
Randy got up and stood by my feet "Sweetie his right you didn't do anything wrong don't think like that ok"
I nodded my head as I felt another contraction hit both John and Dave let me hold there hands this one hurt the most.
It had been eight hours later and I was not about to start to push my daughter into this world I asked Dave if he minded if john and randy stayed in the room with us and he said no.
Randy was on my right and john was at my feet and Dave was at my left side
"Okay Samantha you know how this goes you push until I tell you to stop"
I nodded my head as I squeezed Dave and Randy's hands as I pushed amazingly just like I did with Christopher I got my daughter out in three and a half pushes but I didn't get to hold her or anything they rushed her over to the baby icu she was 4ibs even she from what I could see had dark dark hair already and sighed as john came and kissed my head
"You did good baby"
He stood up and shook Daves hand "Congrats man"
It had been a few hours and they were going to let me and Dave only in to see angel
We walked in and I leaned against Dave for support she was in an incubator hooked up to a bunch of wired and is and cords
"What are all these for?"
"To help her breath and monter her heart"
I nodded as I looked at her I looked at Dave "she's look so much like you"
He smiled and looked down at her "I was thinking she looked a lot like both of us"
He hugged me as both cried for a little bit I asked the nurse if my brother and fiancé could come in and she let them in randy looked at angel and a tear came down his face
"She's so little"
"Yea I know" I said looking at my daughter "but she's so precious"
John wrapped his arm around me as the doctor came in checking on her, I wanted to cry hearing her little cry it sounded like a squeak to me the doctor looked at me and smiled
"Sam would you like to hold you daughter?"
I nodded my head as I carefully took her I didn't want to pull on any of the wires or cords
I looked down at her and smiled "Hello you I know you" she had so far Daves dark hair my blue eyes and my little button nose I smiled as I handed her to Dave so he could meet his daughter.
He held her and compared to him she looked like a little mouse she started to cry until he talked to her "hey now shh none of that im your daddy angel your already giving us quiet a scare yes you are, but you know what I think, I think your stronger then what your letting on" he handed her back to me and took out of the nursery randy and john followed him while I stayed with my daughter I sat down in the rocking chair with and smiled I held her close to me as I cried
Dave stormed out of the room and threw the gown hitting the wall, randy came up to him.
"Hey man its ok"
Dave looked at him with tears in his eyes "I feel so guilty because I can't take anymore and look at her she's so strong"
John looked at him "You don't know her huh? She's putting on a front Dave and she needs all of us your doing great man and randy and I are here for you"
Dave nodded as randy put his arm around him and they walked away.
A couple of hours later the doctor came in
"Mr. Batista Sam we need to talk to you about angel and her breathing"
We both just nodded "well there is a fifty percent chance that she can breathe on her own and fine if we take her off of the oxygen but we need your guy's permission"
I looked at Dave "this is your decision sweetie"
"I'd rather her have a second of living without all those cords hooked up to her"
Dave nodded his head as they gave us the paper work to fill out, how the hell did this happen to my daughter?