Chapter thirty four: the bbq

I came down the stairs from putting Christopher to bed, so far everything has gone alright, I was waiting for Nancy to make a comment like I knew she would, I smiled going and sitting down on john's lap he wrapped his arms around me and I laid my head down on his shoulders.

"Samantha really wasn't that bad, just her temper" my mom said looking at me, I smiled.

"Well when she was with us and her and randy got together oh man I felt bad for the town! my dad chuckled sweetie remember that time you ran Sara over after her and randy broke up"

Nancy just stayed quiet the whole time; I was eyeing her waiting for her to say something mean or horrible.

Randy laughed "yea but dad you would be proud of her over the years, she has done awesome"

My dad smiled and stood up holding his drink up in the air "Sámi jo I know you and I haven't always seen eye to eye with each other, and I defiantly wasn't happy with this whole situation you got your self into this time, but I think that's what makes you you! You mess up and you don't do it a lot but when you do you do it pretty big, but in the long run you make things work and for that I am proud of you!" we all toasted and I had to blink back the tears I patted john on his leg and I got up walking into the kitchen, I told john I just needed a drink of water.

I leaned over the counter letting myself cry I felt someone rub my back, I jumped up seeing Dave, he held his arms out I leaned into him feeling him wrap his huge arms around me, I took in a deep breath still crying.

"Shh what's wrong?"

"Why can't he just love me for me?"

Dave didn't say anything just couitned to rub his hand up and down my back, I few minutes later I felt myself being passed over to someone else I looked up seeing john I put my head on his chest crying.

Dave quietly walked out of the room and went up the stairs, he walked into angel's room looking at her, she was very beautiful, and she had his black hair and my blue eyes.

Daves POV

I looked at my daughter and to tell the truth I felt my heart breaking, her daddy wasn't going to be here everyday like Christopher's, I want to be I wish I could be, but I have my daughters in Florida and Sam she is just so great john is more then lucky to have her, I sighed getting up and walking into the guest room that was right next to angels I laid down on the bed, I didn't want to be down stairs anymore.

Samantha's POV

I let go of john and sighed yawning "baby im going to go to bed okay?"

He nodded and kissed me whispering "try not to go to sleep baby"

I just rolled my eyes and walked up stairs I went into angels room right when she started to fuss I picked her up and sat down in the rocking chair sighing starting to feed her.

"What is your mama going to do baby girl?"

I shook my head laying my head back closing my eyes, I just wished my dad could accept I didn't do things his way I had my way of doing things and yea granted a lot of the time it got me in trouble but then I look at my now children my son and my daughter and I realize everything I have done is what have gotten me here and I wouldn't trade it for the world!